This was a tough read, probably because I couldn’t help but read it through the eyes of a 10 year old. I still remember that devastating blow following the 1969 baseball season, the first season I got serious about following major league baseball and its players, especially my hometown team’s players. I was born and raised in Philadelphia, and my favorite Phillie was Dick Allen. After the 1969 season Dick Allen was traded to St. Louis for, among others, Curt Flood. To add insult to injury, Curt Flood refused to accept the trade. Although things eventually worked out for me because as compensation the Phillies received Willie Montanez and another player, and Willie quickly became my new favorite Phillie, I apparently still harbored some animus which bubbled up upon reading the first few paragraphs of Flood’s apology.
I’m not using “apology” here in the sense of an admission of error accompanied by an expression of regret. Mr. Flood, relative to his anti-Reserve Clause actions, should feel neither error nor regret. Rather, I use apology in the sense of something that is said or written to defend a stance or actions which have been criticized by others. The Reserve Clause had to end, I understand. However, I think Flood’s apology would stand up better had he not denigrated so many throughout his apology, including managers, broadcasters, writers, fans, women, and even players who didn’t agree with him. You shouldn’t have to drag down others to make your case stand tall.
Another reason this book was difficult for me to read was because it was written in the 1970s by a relatively young man who fully embraced the contemporary culture and language of his day (something perennially “cool” people do, as if I would know). Like most long-gone trends, those actions and verbiage didn’t age well, often leaving me feeling as if I was at a family reunion where crazy uncle Curt was spouting anachronistic, offensive, cringe-worthy, smirk-inducing proclamations we all reasoned had to be alcohol induced.
It took courage and determination for Flood to do what he did. His subsequent troubles show how difficult his stance was, how human he was. Change was needed, and maybe someday I'll get over the fact that that change came at the expense of my hometown team.