I've read about 10 of Nicci French's books by now and have enjoyed them all, however Secret Smile seems like someone else entirely wrote this. I need to call out here DO NOT READ THIS BOOK YOU WILL WANT TO BANG YOUR HEAD AGAINST THE WALL.
I've read books before where the main character is a woman dealing with a psychopathic partner, but usually when they don't tell anyone what's happening it's because they're backed into a corner or threatened in such a way that they are scared to speak out. This is just plain insulting to women, as the main character has nothing to lose by saying "hey that's not actually what happened" but instead she doesn't say anything, but then continues to complain that no one believes her?? She never actually tells people what this guy is doing so I have zero sympathy for her. She's also written as incredibly confident so this book just makes zero sense and will leave you getting so frustrated.
*spoilers ahead*
Let's have a look at what this creep Brendan has done to her:
- Brendan and Miranda dated for 9 days and on day 9 she finds that he's broken into her flat and is sitting there reading her diaries. She breaks up with him. Does she say anything to anyone else about how creepy this was? Nah.
- A couple of months later, her sister Kerry meets Miranda and says she has exciting news, she's dating Brendan! Kerry says she knows they dated but Brendan told her he broke up with Miranda and Miranda was devastated. Does Miranda say anything to her sister like how that's a lie and actually he's a creep because he broke into her flat and started reading her personal diaries? Nah
- Brendan and Kerry announce their engagement to the family 2 months later, and he immediately walks over afterwards to say the whole time he announced it he was staring at Miranda's mouth, thinking about how he's come in it. Does Miranda say anything? Nah, let's just let that pass and not tell anyone when not only is that sexual assault, but also emotional cheating on your sister that you should hmm I dunno PROBABLY TELL YOUR FAMILY ABOUT??
She complains to everyone about him but then LEAVES OUT THE ACTUAL BAD EXAMPLES!
- Then it's just a combination of situations like Miranda waking up to find Brendan watching her sleep. Does she tell anyone or her sister? "hey sis your fiancee was in my room watching me sleep thought you should maybe know that" Nope, she says nada. This is a real strong sister to sister relationship here. Another is when she's having a bath and he walks in to piss, and the sister catches them, and he blames Miranda that she came in to have a bath while he was already in there. Um so you're saying he was peeing and Miranda came in, started undressing, ran a bath, and got in all in the space of 30 seconds and you just stood there?
- Then it starts to get more dark, where their younger brother commits suicide, and low and behold, we find out that Brendan played a part in it as he had the rope in his suitcase. The whole family find Miranda snooping in his suitcase and then Miranda's own family turn against her that she has it out for him and she's obsessed with him. I literally have no sympathy for Miranda because she also hasn't said any of the things Brendan has been doing or has neither been fair to her sister by giving her the warning she deserves when she had LITERALLY NOTHING TO LOSE. He hadn't backed her into a corner, she just decided not to say anything FOR NO REASON but then continues to complain to everyone about how 'there's something not right about him hmm why won't anyone believe me?''
- So then she finds out Brendan played a part in her brother's death, but still decides to put a brave face on for the wedding?!? What sort of cold denial behaviour is this? If you know yourself he killed your brother why are you going along and supporting him marrying your sister and not doing something about it?? But oh hang on news flash on the day of the wedding he leaves Kerry the sister and runs off with, wait for it....Miranda's BEST FRIEND
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Oh but wait, a couple of month's later you find out Miranda's best friend....has DIED by drowning in a bath. Wowwwww. But it's obviouslyyy Brendan, but oh noooo, no one believes you.
This is pretty much the theme of the whole book. Not a smart psychological thriller where you're not sure how the main character can get help or get around it, it's literally a man pushing boundaries and a girl not wanting to disrupt the peace even though she's written as headstrong, by just saying something. If not for her then for her sister. It's a massive insult and a book basically saying women are weak.