The harsh winter and great outdoors of upstate New York provide Benjamin with the only solace from an otherwise agonizing existence. His mother's abusive alcoholic boyfriend, the bully on the bus, and a Math teacher who pays a little too much attention to schoolboys are slowly chipping away at his dignity and feelings of self-worth.
Benjamin clings to any sense of normalcy, until a series of escalating events drives him to the very edge of suicide. He begs God for help—a divine intervention—but his prayers go unanswered until he has an epiphany: God helps those who help themselves.
ATTENTION: Review may contain adult subject matter and adult language. Be advised.
Benjamin: God Helps Those Who Help Themselves by Aaron Powell
What would it take to reach your breaking point? If someone hurt you, hurt the ones you love, could you do things you never thought you could do? Benjamin is a broken boy. He’s about to become a broken man. Teetering at the edge of darkness, Benjamin is just trying to muddle through life the best he can, but growing up can be hazardous.
Get ready to scream in anger, cry out in fear, fall in love for the first time, lust in a taboo way, and hope for the twisted as you get wrapped up in this gripping story that will keep your adrenaline pumping from the first page to the last word! This story gives an insight into the mind of a true child left behind.
This is not a book that sugar coats the reality of issues, like; masturbation, alcoholism, domestic violence, molestation, and attempted suicide. Benjamin’s struggles in life are vividly detailed every step of the way. In the end you will find yourself embracing the character of Benjamin as either a victim or a hero. Be warned, your choice may ultimately say a lot more about you than it does about him!
Although I would recommend this book to everyone, 18+, I don’t think it is something that everyone is capable of appreciating. The subject matter is a little intense for much of the politically correct and/or overly sensitive crowds.
Who could blame Benjamin for breaking? He has a mother who is nearly obsessed with her abusive alcoholic boyfriend, the bully on the bus torments him on a daily basis, and instead of having a role-model Benjamin has teachers who pay a little too much attention to schoolboys.
I tried not to read the book right away, because my eye was hurt and it needed to heal, but it kept calling to me and I just couldn’t help myself, “the room is empty except for the two of us” and I knew I had to surrender. I couldn't put it down!
Excerpt:
“A spit wad strikes my cheek with a wet slap. The sniper is out there. Oh, what I wouldn’t give to know the hell it was, silently torturing me from wherever he’s concealed. The bus starts to move. If I can just make it home, I’ll be okay.”
Everyone knows that bullying is a huge issue in schools now-a-days, but when wasn’t it? Despite Benjamin’s chilling story I tend to come from the school of thought that in most cases kids can settle their own differences. When teachers or parents step-in it can make the problem worse, and when other kids step-in it can cause the bully to become the victim, thus creating a circle of abuse.
No solution is perfect, but not raising pansies is a good start. Think what you want of Benjamin, but he could build a shelter, hunt for food, entertain himself without a video game, and recognize danger when he needed to. Benjamin was no pansy! It was obvious he had the ability to shut down his “bus tormentor” from the beginning, he just didn’t have the self-confidence to believe he could figure out a way.
That said, I hate to admit it, but my oldest (biological) son, 22-yrs-old (Christopher), reminds me of Benjamin. The farther and farther I delved into the story the more I saw the reflection of my boy. He had more than one “bus tormentor” over the years, he was an outcast, and he had very little self-confidence growing up. He also hung out in the forest, dated older women, and carried a hunting knife. He turned out pretty good. Makes you wonder about what could have been different for Benjamin if he weren’t “caught up in a web of circumstances”. After reading this book, I questioned a few things about my child.
Excerpt:
“I guess when you love somebody, it doesn’t matter if they are married to someone else… or an alcoholic… or mean to you… or hit you… or hit your kids… or doesn’t have a job.”
Watching as his mother fell deeper, and deeper, under the spell of her abusive-alcoholic boyfriend, and feeling helpless to save his little brother from a fate he saw as worse than death, frustration and anger had to swell inside Benjamin. No one was there to save him, to help him, to love him.
No one was around to explain to Benjamin that, on average, abused women take back their abusers 80% of the time. Even if they had told him, it wouldn’t have made a difference.
His dad was useless. How Benjamin turned out so strong when his dad was such a pussy whipped pansy I can’t understand. Benjamin was his child, his flesh and blood! I get that his dad was remarried now, and had new responsibilities, but no real father abandons his son! The step-mother, as little of an appearance as she makes in the book, is a jackal! What real woman wouldn’t accept a man’s children with open arms, if and when, she chose to marry him? How dare Benjamin’s step-mother edge him out of the family, who does she think she is?
Excerpt:
“It’s eerie how quiet the world is when the humans are sleeping. Lately, I’ve been thinking more and more about how much of a burden people really are to the earth. Sometimes I wish I was the only person left, that everyone else in the world would just disappear so that nature could swallow up everything we have made, like the roads and buildings.”
One of my favorite points in the book comes very early when Benjamin is captured inside his own thoughts for a few moments. It is in these rare glimpses where we learn more of who this character really is. It isn’t just his escape from his dysfunctional life, but a place to play out an unlikely romance, and a way to for him to dream of what it means to be a normal boy, a man, a human being. You can truly see benefit of the author’s education in psychology/criminal justice at play in Benjamin’s character development.
Aaron Powell served as a Marine during Operation Iraqi Freedom and Operation Enduring Freedom. He graduated from the University of North Carolina at Wilmington in 2003 with a bachelor of arts in criminal justice, minoring in psychology. He also completed a second bachelor of arts in business administration at Ashford University, where he graduated with distinction in 2011.
The afore mentioned excerpt, in particular, made me think of pictures I’d seen of the Chernobyl Disaster remains. A generation after most humans abandoned the area, forests and wetlands have consumed once-tended fields, villages, and towns. Only the occasional carcasses of crumbling buildings mutely testify to the former occupants. I can see Benjamin having a vision similar to that in his mind. Spectacular imagery.
Excerpt:
“It’s still early, so I decide to take my twenty-gauge out and do some hunting. This time of year is great for small game, and it would be pretty cool to bring something home for lunch.”
I was so impressed with Benjamin’s independence and capabilities. For a child, of any age, to think that way shows that they are maturing. It really was “pretty cool” that he was putting his loved one’s needs before his own. The way Benjamin learned to be a man was absent role-models, abusive authority figures, and television so when he made positive, or selfless, decisions in the book it always seemed like a bigger deal then it really was.
My youngest (biological) son, Xander, just got his hunting license. He can’t wait until we live away from the city; and he can have a gun of his own; and he can be free to hunt on a moment’s notice. I dream of that day too. I trust Xander to have weapons, but I don’t trust Xander’s friends! You never know when someone is going to get s-t-O-O-p-i-d, stupid!
Excerpt:
“The thought of seclusion actually comforts me. I’m completely alone and, in solitude, I’m completely free to be myself.”
When you live in the brutal world that Benjamin experiences every day it might not be the best of ideas to concentrate on those woes constantly, but reflecting on our shattered hopes and dreams can motivate us to change our direction. Benjamin found his liberating force. Other reviews referred to it as revenge, but I don’t see it that way. You’ll have to read the book to fully understand what I mean.
“…what the hell happened” I ran out of pages!
I HIGHLY RECOMMEND this book!
Review, of Benjamin: God Helps Those Who Help Themselves by Aaron Powell, provided by DJ Harris (aka DJ6ual):
First of all, let me tell you that I'm a lawyer who specialized in women and child abuse. Very well written, with not many overdramatized scenes - Small, concise and brutal - the book is a punch on your stomach. Even though the end seems a bit fantastic, the way the story is told made me wonder if Aaron was retelling a true case. Unfortunately, children are abused each and every day by people who should protect them. A very good reading.
I won this through Goodreads First Reads Giveaway.
It's a rare moment when I just can't put into words the way I feel about a book...
Benjamin is about the painful journey through the life of a teenager who has been betrayed by almost every person in his life. A stepfather who physically and mentally abuses him. Bullied on the bus and at his school relentlessly. Benjamin has become the target of abuse from every aspect of his life. Soon protecting his brother becomes his only goal worth living for. Keeping his brother from a fate like his.
After his mother throws his alcoholic stepfather out of the house only to take him back in a few days later, Benjamin finally snaps and seeks out a way to end all his misery once and for all.
I really enjoyed this book especially the surprising turn of events. I recommend this book for anyone who likes when the underdog gets the final say!
I received this book for free from Goodreads First Reads. What a powerful and emotional story. It was an excellent read, disturbing in parts but telling a story about abuse which is happening all too often and how one person was able to deal with it.
The story about "Benjamin" describes detail, chilling and shocking events that take place in a young boy's childhood that is unknown to others. The mental and physical abuse that Benjamin secretly endures makes him take matters into his own hands so that he can live through another day and keep his sanity. The trauma Benjamin endured daily made him do insane things to his abusers to protect himself and his family members. Once I began reading this story I could not put this book down. This is a must read book for every walk of life. It makes one realize why the world is the way it is today. Most times the young victim cannot take revenge and as they grow to be an adult they either take control of their fear or take their fear out on others that reflects back to the unknown abuse that creates insanity. This story will make you think and shake your head for hours. How can people abuse our children? Think of your children, siblings, grandkids and all the other children in the world. Perhaps we could all prevent this abuse from happening if we pay attention to the children!
I found this book to be deeply disturbing and yet I couldn't stop reading it!! I won this book, and when I read the back and saw a theme continuously popping up saying God helps those who help themselves, I thought this was a Christian Inspiration type book. So I was very surprised in the end. My heart broke for this young boy Benjamin who clearly has had a rough life. I would never justify the actions he took, however I feel like we can all relate to being pushed to the limit by people and giving them consequences to their actions. It was twisted and yet very real. I am sure that a lot of kids go through these things and feel the same way that he did. In a way I almost wished that this book didn't end the way it did because it really makes you wonder what happened to Benjamin after all of these events went down. I would LOVE for the author to write a sequel, to see if he ended up normal and fine later on in life...or if he still had these aggressions towards people who may wrong him as he goes through life!!!
This is a story about a teenager who suffers abuse at home and at school, and on the daily commute to and from. That's all I can say about the story without revealing anything.
As always when I read Aaron Powell, I enjoyed the book. Any narrative from Powell is an enjoyable narrative. Sometimes I see how a book is going to end and it's less fun for me when I can predict it. I really enjoy it when a book has an ending that I totally didn't see coming at all. This book didn't surprise me at the end. It did better than that. The unexpected twist happens in the middle! Then it progresses from there. I didn't see that coming.
A fun and surprising read that will probably disturb most people at least once, if not several times.
I won this book from good reads first reads. I only recommend this book to people who are 18+ It has a lot of adult content, I can honestly say I didn't see what happened coming. It has a lot of heavy things that happen. This story shows inside the mind of a boy who is mistreated by his mothers drunken boyfriend, and one who is bullied on the bus and molested by his math teacher. I don't recommend it for teenagers or people under the age of 18 because of the amount of detail with the molesting, and what he does to his abuser/bully.
This book kept my attention from beginning to end. It gives an insight in to the mind of a child of abuse. I recommend this book to everyone to help you understand how deeply it affects victims of abuse.
Update: This book is haunting me...I finished this book two days ago and normally that's it. I just move on to the next story. This one however, has been following me around every where. I wonder if its because I work so closely with young men around that same age as Benjamin that come from the similar or worse circumstances, but I can't stop thinking about this book and the horrors that Benjamin suffered.
WOW! This book packs a massive punch for only being 101 pages. It was not at all what I thought that it would be. I had taken away that it would be different from the blurb on the back. This book had me wrapped in though. I found that right from the start I couldn't stop reading it. It is very explicit at times, but I think that helps to better understand that dark emotions and experiences that Benjamin is going through. This book is different many other things that I have read. Most books that deal with this content tend to focus on the recovery of the person. This dark tail of a boy who takes care of his own problems is a completely different spin from what I am use to.
This is a heartbreaking story that explains why some teenagers end up snapping and going on shooting sprees. In this particular tale, Benjamin is savior than your average teenager, and is able to cleverly exact his revenge upon his enemies.
The writing in this story is excellent, and I recommend reading Benjamin if you're looking for a thought provoking book. It will either make you feel grateful that you didn't have a difficult upbringing, or it'll help you realize that you weren't alone if you felt neglected as a teenager.
A young boy is bullied on the school bus, abused by a fake, alcoholic step-father that his mother cannot do without, rejected by his real father and step-mother and is required to perform sex acts on his math teacher in exchange for a good grade. When he finally snaps from the abuse, his anger turns to horror and he executes unspeakable acts of violence on those who have hurt him. A really tough little book to read, but a necessary tool to get the word out about child abuse. My thanks to the author and Goodreads for a complimentary copy.
Once again the author has done an amazing job of pulling one into the writings. Benjamin is a QUICK READ, that gives you a look into the life of a school age child, that is dealing with What so many kids today I feel are dealing with, • Parents who are divorced a live-in boyfriend or girlfriend for their mother or father alcoholism involved. Maybe parents have been remarried and the stepparent really not interested in Having a child around from the previous marriage. • Children who are being bullied at school, on the bus, and their neighborhoods with no one around to really help them or to stop what's going on but they feel alone to deal with situations, or not deal. • Being abused sexually from people they are supposed to trust adults that are in positions of authority. • And feeling that the parent or parents have enough on their shoulders that they don't want to bring more problems to them and they feel that they have to take care of situations. Or they've been convinced they are a problem, To have all these things continue to happen to them. So, Do they just sit back and allow things to continue the way they are? Do they end it by destructive means feeling hopeless? Or is it true, that God really helps those who help themselves? But I believe he also said revenge is mine.
Disclaimer: this book was in the same shipment along with Pure Morning, that I won from Goodreads FirstReads in exchange of an honest review. It was totally unexpected, so thank you.
I'm.. well, shocked. It definitely turned out to be something different from what I expected it to be.
Benjamin is bullied on the bus to school - where he also has to deal with a pervert teacher - and he can't find some rest even at home because his mom's boyfriend is an alcolholic.
My expectations were totally destroyed. I don't know exactly what I thought this book would be - maybe some struggle to come out of these situations, maybe some self-harm or an attempted suicide. Or maybe I'm talking like this because I was bullied too when I was in high school and the only thing I could think about was hurting myself even more. Like I said, I don't know.
Basically this story took my expectations and, page after page, destroyed them all.
I don't want to spoiler anything, so I'll simply say I was left speechless the more I went along with the story.
English is not my first language, so feel free to correct me if I made any mistake along the way.
We meet Benjamin living in upstate New York where it is winter and cold. He lives with his mom and her alcoholic boyfriend and baby brother. He must deal with being bully on the school bus and a male math teacher who sexual abuses his male students.
Trying to cling on to some sense of normalcy, he finds himself turning to God as he seeks answers to his situation. As he begs God for help, he comes to the conclusion that God helps those who help themselves.
We watch Benjamin find his own answer to his situation in the most unlikely matter. A story which shows you what happens when you are burden too much and finally had enough that makes an interesting read.
I received this book as a Goodreads first-reads giveaway. I must say that this book certainly struck me. Aaron Powell did an excellent job expressing the feelings and actions of someone who had been abused on various levels. He writes in such a way as to put the reader into an observer's position for the main character's struggles. It is eye-opening to the actions of those who may be dealing with these issues.
This wasn't really a novel, more of a long short story at just 70 pages. The author certainly got my attention but frankly not in a good way. The book left a lot of questions hanging out there and the answers were anything but comfortable. If you have a hard time dealing with the reality of child abuse don't pick it up! I'm still deciding whether or not this will become a permanent part of my library. This was a free book I won through Goodreads.
l received this book for free from Goodreads Firstreads
l read the book in a single sitting. lt pulled no punches, it didn't overdramatise - it told it like it is. lt makes you ask how many children are in that situation.
Although the ending is gruesome, l was still willing him on.
This book proves that one should do research before grabbing a book. Because by reading on the back of it, it doesn't seem that awful, does it? I mean, sure, it mentions some things that are bad, but I guarantee you you can't predict the rest.
I'm sorry, but it was god-awful. And the detailed description of molestation and jacking off? I could have done without those, I feel like I need to go take a shower and I'm still cringing
All the murder, arsony and violence? Not believeable. This shit doesn't go unnoticed, there is no way anyone could get away with this much.
The spanish teacher-aspect? Just unbelieveably hipocritical. When a male teacher puts his hands on his pupils shoulders he's a pedophile, but she can do wathever she wants to Benjamin, and that's awesome? Yay to statutory rape, am I right? No. Just no.
Everything in this book went too fast, and none of it was believeable or made sense. Thank God it wasn't longer though. All the suffering and cringing wasn't worth it.
I expected to get something good out of this. "God helps those who help themselves" is a nice little quote right there, but the way in which Benjamin used this saying to justify his behavior made me gag. This entire thing made me gag.
Ugh... I have to give this book away, I can't have it on my shelf and see it everyday. So if you want it, ring me up... I guess.
A story of abuse and revenge. Benjamin lives through abuse at home, in the school bus and at school. He lives tormented by all his abusers. This story reveals abuse in many forms. Aaron reveals each living detail Benjamin lives through so the reader can sense his hurt, stress and madness. Benjamin finally decides he cannot live this way any longer. He needs to take care of each tormenter. Killing each person that hurt him will make his life and others safe. We need to make sure kids are protected and not being bullied or abused.
I received this free through goodreads for review. Let me say first that the author is a good writer. The book was well written and the characters were believable. Having said that, the story was just to oppressive for me. I know that these things exists, more than we want to admit, but the story was just not enjoyable for me. Bullying, a physically abusive step-parent, and a sexually abusive teacher made me want to wash off in the shower after reading for an hour. I just didn't feel like the reward at the end was worth cringing through the rest. Technically the author does a good job, and I appreciate that he wants to shed light on kids who are high risk for suicide, but the story was just not for me.
There's an intriguing story here of a young adolescent with serious issues. I have no argument story wise with the revenge he embarks upon, but the aftermath is unrealistic. Sorry, there's just no happy ever after for someone who's stepped over certain lines, and I think it demeans the central character to tie things up in such a sweet knot. The author should have kept things dark, even through the character's "triumph" and relief.
A little weird, but it actually kept me reading: meaning, I was never bored with it. I like a book that never gets boring and this one kept the story line going. I would read more books from this author.