This book is about a girl who, in the past, quit competitive dance, because she was afraid of essentially a boy liking her. Where the book starts, the girl has now been in competitive cheer for the last three years (ever since she quit dance). She is her squad's "fearless flier," willing to be thrown really high up in the air and do all sorts of crazy twists and turns. In the very first pages of the book, however, she tries a really dangerous stunt and crashes into the mat. Her doctor says she is lucky to be alive. For obvious reasons, she is now afraid of being thrown up in the air or falling. This new fear from cheering leads her back to the dance she thought she had left behind forever.
So the book is essentially about conquering fears, not letting them define you and make decisions for you. There is also a romance plot. The main character's parents are really supportive, loving, and understanding, but I think they are a little lax in taking dating seriously when their daughter does start dating, but perhaps I think making out is more serious than these fictional parents do.
There was random mild swearing throughout the novel and three F words completely out of the blue, by characters who didn't usually swear or who had never spoken before. It was annoying, and, in my opinion, unnecessary.
There is no sex, but there is making out. One couple has to perform a stage kiss in the drama play, and it is quite awkward for them, so their director actually suggests they go make out to "work out the kinks" before opening night.
There is one scene of teenage drinking, which I think sends mixed messages. The alcohol gives the teenagers courage to try something they weren't brave enough to do, so some readers might view that as a positive message. It does also show them not being able to drive home (although they might have tried it if their car battery weren't dead), having horrible headaches, and feeling awful the next day. And one of them got in trouble with their parents. But still—teenage drinking is really serious, and I did not feel like the author treated it seriously enough.
There is one character whom everyone wonders whether or not he is gay. The teenage girl says she doesn't care whether he is not—she just wants to know whether he is available. And I agree that it shouldn't matter if someone is gay in determining whether you are going to be his or her friend or not, or kind to someone, but it kept popping up.
So this book wasn't amazing or awful. Just a book right in the middle.
I read a digital copy from Amazon, and I was surprised by the amount of mistakes that editors should have caught.
"'Dad.' My voice broke a little. I hadn't realized how much I needed to see him; a weight lifted from my injured shoulder.
He approached the bed and patted my leg. That small contact brought my anxiety down a couple notches. He fixed me one of his meditative Buddha gazes. Dad believes he can solve just about anything with a calming look, a deep breath and a cup of tea. This time I welcomed it."
[The main character is talking to her mother in this conversation.]
"'What a narc! I told him not to tell. It's a dumb class and should have been an easy A.'
'Haven't you learned by now that your father and I don't do secrets?' She held out a chunk of cookie dough. I swiped it up with my finger and ate it.
'So what's going on with you and the rest of the squad?'
'I don't know . . . nothing really.'
'If you say so. I'd hate to see you quit for the wrong reasons.'"
"Jilly was right about the stunts. No one else had the nerve to even try some of them. Rick and Kyle have amazing power when they toss. Most of the girls are afraid of being teamed with them. The guys' strength gave me more time to complete all the twists and flips. Most of the girls were too chicken to try. I chewed at my lip with a combination of guilt and worry about how I'd make sure Jilly didn't twist my arm and get me back to cheer."
This was one of the things that bugged me about the book. The cheerleading squad gave the main character such a rough time about quitting the squad and being afraid to fly, because the reason they needed her so much was that they were all afraid to try what she used to do. It seemed a bit hypocritical for them to be so mad at her for not doing something she was afraid of when they were too afraid to do it, too.
"Let them gossip. That's half the fun of cheer, talking about everyone else who wasn't lucky enough to be one of us.
I mean them. If this was what the saying meant about a taste of your own medicine, I didn't like it. Having people gossip about me to my face, let alone behind my back, sucked."
"'Hey Willow, what are you doing home so early?' Dad asked.
'I'm not doing cheer anymore. Remember?' He must be the only person who didn't care one way or the other.
'That's right. You feeling okay about that?' He paused with the paint long enough to give me one of his obligatory concerned dad looks."
I really like how involved the parents are in the main character's life. I just don't understand why all of their thoughtful conversations don't extend into her dating life.
"Miss Ginny nodded. 'Tyson, you will see. She is a fabulous dancer.'
'I have no doubt,' he said. 'In all these years, you have never steered me wrong. No, that's not entirely true. There were a couple of costumes you forced me to wear that had no place on a young impressionable boy.'
'Ha, you were never a boy. You were always a man struggling to break out into the world.'
Suddenly, I recognized him as the boy in many of the old photos in Miss Ginny's office. One of the costumes made him look like a life-size piñata."
"The music ended, leaving me in the closing pose. Adrenalin pumped through me. I'd forgotten what a high I got from dance and how the energy and emotion fulfilled me. My eyes watered and threatened to embarrass me. Cheer was regimented and precise, not an artistic release. My body buzzed with the passion I'd locked away."
"The old fashioned wall phone rang!" That sentence made me feel old. I wonder when house phones won't exist anymore, and children will grow up without having seen one, like my childhood without the phones with turn dials instead of push buttons.
[This is the mother talking to her daughter.] "'Back to the point. Whatever decision you make is okay. Running away from your fears will be painful, and you will probably end up hurting some people, but something new will evolve from it. The world isn't static. Energy is always moving and changing. You and your decisions are just part of that energy. As you decide what to do, be true to your authentic self.'"