Disgruntled, by Asali Solomon, is a coming of age story set in the late 20th century, but also an odyssey through a series of strange and confusing contexts that help Kenya, the central character, set a course for her life. These strange situations seem both to be the problem she is attempting to avoid – earnest meetings of a Afrocentric group, a polygamous commune, a prep school, a goalless Party Central – and the force helping her identify a solution to that problem.
Disgruntled explores how to go through life when the larger culture is oppressive, when you don't fit in, when you don't want to fit into what's there. It explores how to handle the shame of being alive ... the shame of being black and having a mere ten minutes to untangle your hair in the locker room after swimming (p. 66). The shame of living in a culture that excludes and puts down 10% of the population.
Whites do not come off well in this book. With few exceptions, they are privileged, misguided, and superficial. They overlook Kenya's intelligence and sensitive observations, equating worth with skin color. Blacks do not come off much better, however. Most fawn over and attempt to ally with whites. They pretend to things they are not.
There are two flawed heroes in Kenya's life: her parents. Her father was a weak, but charismatic Black Nationalist. However, Kenya's mother, who also went astray in the center of the book, had known that with Johnbrown in her life, Kenya could be proud of who she was. She wouldn’t grow up thinking that white people were gods or superheroes (p. 282).
Bottom line: Kenya's parents loved her in their ways and ultimately gave her what she needed. Her father spent her childhood writing The Key, which initially proposed a vague philosophy, although later morphed into the story of the burning of Frank Lloyd Wright's Taliesin. By the end, she recognized the key to the next part of her life, the good part, was figuring out exactly what he did mean in The Key (p. 286).
Kenya gives Disgruntled a warmth despite the significant difficulties its characters face (e.g., prison, drugs, betrayals, lies, pretense). Her voice prevents the book from devolving into nonproductive anger. She observes her parents, their friends, her peers, with compassion. While she does not always make good decisions, she responds with surprising restraint and wisdom. Her presence made this a novel that I finished and then immediately returned to. I didn't want to put it down.