SO SAD!!
Reading about Amy's life is a both sad and highly frustrating.
First, this book is written by Amy's dad, and as such, I looked at it in two ways: 1. He was the closest person to Amy, and therefor, very reliable source of information about anything regarding Amy.
2. Mitch Winehouse was such a loving and devoted dad, that I don't know how true his perspective is.
Amy had a, mostly, happy childhood. She was clever, friendly, lovable, and highly talented.
Her family was close, like a lot of Jewish families are, and they always encouraged and supported her.
This might be where they also failed to help her in the early stages of her 'way down the rabbit hole'.
The sentence in her song 'Rehab'- "My daddy thinks I'm fine' is a fitting and true to the situation.
It's easy to judge some of Amy's dad actions, or lack of them, but I couldn't do it!
Mitch was there for Amy almost every single day of her life, struggling with every bad thing that happened to her, and was her strength and her shoulder. He took care of her, and did everything with best intentions.
Yes, in retrospect, it's easy to look back and say: why did you not do it differently!??!
I won't be doing it!
I know better!
In difficult situations, especially when you are dealing with your own kid, you need to choose your way of action out of the few options that are in front of you.
Amy's dad chose (mostly) the way that said- the addiction will stop when the addict will decide to put an end to the addiction.
It made you want to scream so loud at times, made you want to shake Mitch and tell him to do something about Blake, to take Amy and lock her in a room until she sees what is happening and to just put an end to it!!
But, Mitch chose his way, not without questioning himself all the time, and we will never know if it was one that helped Amy to overcome some deep lows (and she bravely did!), or one that did the very opposite.
I adore Mitch devotion and dedication to his daughter, it was amazing and heart breaking to see how he almost put his own life aside for years, and just lived to support Amy.
She was lucky to have him, and the best thing is that she knew it!
Some things in the book I did not get.
-The mystery of Blake and his low-life, blood-sucking, trash of a family.
-Amy's mom absence from her life (Mitch was kindly stating that Janis was always an amazing mom, yet she was NEVER there!)
-Some of Amy's close friends actions (or lack of).
The book is written in a way that makes you feel like you are listening to Mitch, sitting in front of you and simply telling you Amy's sad story, without any excuses for Amy or for himself.
As an Amy fan, I was reading this book with hope that maybe, somehow, the bitter, sad end, will not come after all.
It did.
I was crying like a baby through out the last 10% of the book.
You can't not cry!
I miss Amy and her talent so much.
Xox