4.5-5
And the 300th book marked read on goodreads!
full disclosure, my experience reading this and the subsequent rating definitely benefit from the fact his book takes place in DC, and parts of DC i know well (and definitely not """washington"""), which adds a sentimentality to the book that idk if would be the case for other readers. it is so so much fun to be able to closely track where stephanos walks, or the geography of the circle or the surrounding neighborhoods, the details of the building or the bus that passes or the metro line he takes, as someone who loves to walk and take public transit and has a strong internal working map lol.
it is, not fun, but so interesting to see a version of Logan Circle that is SO incredibly different from the Logan Circle I have come to know, living in dc from 2019 until now. Logan Circle in the 1990s and before then looked completely different, with my Logan Circle experience coming on the other side of the gentrification that we see begin to take place in the novel. so for the dc history aspect, (without it being explicitly educational on dc history), i also found it a very valuable read as a relatively recent dc resident. and an interesting reflection in this time, as wmata has just redone the bus network and renamed every bus line - "The G2 bus grinds its way to a stop in front of us." - realizing that for any new dc residents starting from june 29th 2025, this indicator of the G2 won't mean anything to them, won't ground them in where we are in the city and where we're going. and the ways that cities are always changing - positive, negative, neutral. but also - how much is still the same, what stands the test of time. like, i'm geeking out over this! "The clock at the bank on the corner flashes the time, 1:28, and the temperature, 72 degrees." (talking about dupont circle - the clock at the bank on the corner is literally still there decades later! i can picture it!!!!!) or when he talks about "Yum’s Chinese and Chicken" on 14th street - he's definitely talking about Yum's at 14th and P - which led me to google it, and god damn it really has been around since 1988!
the writing is quiet and introspective, understated yet moving and very effectively crafts an ambiance. this book is not an uplifting one, or inspirational immigrant story, or a happy one. and despite the tone that vacillates between listless and melancholic, it somehow doesn't feel depressing, and has moments of humor. (i put this comment/note in chapter 3: "Trying to figure out the tone — like resignation, eyes look past you, mind elsewhere, but observant. Just existing")
stephanos is just surviving, existing, continuing - having encountered traumatic political oppression and violence, rarely dares to hope or allow himself to connect, holding everything and everyone - customers, neighbors, other ethiopian immigrants, his own life - at a distance. and while this isn't happy or a fulfilling life, we learn his history and motivations and personality to understand it and accept it, as he does for himself. an interesting juxtaposition between how grounded in the neighborhood and place on the granular (street) level the story is, and how lost stephanos is in his life. gentrification as change forced upon a neighborhood and subsequently onto stephanos, rather than stephanos making things happen that drive the capital E Events of the story. friendship between joseph and kenneth, and how so much is unsaid but mutually understood about each other and their dreams - and how in their friendship and those characters, we see so much of how we craft our own stories of our lives. there is little revelation, change, hope, after the small ways he allows himself to dream don't pan out (judith and naomi, community college, deli counter).... and i am satisfied with it in this story.
quotes - spoilers for the last few
"Every week he says the same thing when he walks in. He knows there’s no humor in it, but he’s come to believe that American men are so successful because they say the same thing over and over again. “Don’t take it from me,” he said in his defense once. “Listen to them. Every day. The same thing. Every day my boss comes in, and he says to me, ‘You still fighting the good fight Kenneth?’ And I put my fist in the air and say, ‘Still fighting.’ And he says, ‘That’s what I like to hear.’ He makes ninety thousand a year. Ninety thousand. So, I say, ‘You close the store early today?’ And you say, ‘Fuck you.’”" (Ch. 1) this is so funny because of how astute it is -- my manager literally has his like catchphrases too, you ask how he's doing and he says "living the dream!"
"When I opened my store ten years ago, Logan Circle was still predominately poor, black, cheap, and sunk in a depression that had struck the city twenty years earlier and never left. Most of the streetlights that surrounded the circle were burned out, leaving the neighborhood perpetually pitched into a strange half-darkness more frightening than pure black. Before the newly formed General Logan Circle Statue Association restored the statue last month it was chipped, defaced, and smeared with human, dog, and bird shit." (Ch. 3) highlighted this because of how different it is from today's Logan Circle.
"Left alone behind the counter, I was hit with the sudden terrible and frightening realization that everything I had cared for and loved was either lost or living on without me seven thousand miles away, and that what I had here was not a life, but a poorly constructed substitution made up of one uncle, two friends, a grim store, and a cheap apartment." (Ch. 3) where i left the note about figuring out the tone of the book
"Here in Logan Circle, though, I didn’t have to be anything greater than what I already was. I was poor, black, and wore the anonymity that came with that as a shield against all of the early ambitions of the immigrant, which had long since abandoned me, assuming they had ever really been mine to begin with. As it was, I did not come to America to find a better life. I came here running and screaming with the ghosts of an old one firmly attached to my back. My goal since then has always been a simple one: to persist unnoticed through the days, to do no more harm." (Ch. 3)
"The Capitol’s white dome seems to hover in front of us, and if I turn just a little to the right, I can see the red eye sitting at the peak of the Washington Monument. There is no mystery left in any of those buildings for us, and at times I wonder how there ever could have been." (Ch. 3)
"The cuff links, a holdover from my father’s days in the Ethiopian government, had the old Ethiopian flag with the Lion of Judah and his crooked crown on it. They were the only things of my father I had left. He used to keep them in a small gray jewelry box with the lid open on top of the dresser in his bedroom, although I can’t remember ever having seen him wear them. What I can remember is him holding them out to me and saying with a slight, sarcastic lilt to his voice, “Someday all this will be yours.” I don’t think he ever actually intended for them to become heirlooms. They were just cheap cuff links from an old, decaying regime, but you hold on to what you can and hope the meaning comes later." (Ch. 4)
"They march on one block farther until they reach the corner of 16th and P. You can see the White House from here. The street unfurls from its gate like a massive concrete carpet rolling straight for several blocks before dipping into a tunnel and rising up once again. I used to think that there was some great metaphor in this." (Ch. 5) so fucking fun! because i can literally picture this!!
"I didn’t leave Ethiopia to attend classes in the northern suburbs of Virginia, but to hear the story told then, that was what I had done... In the absence of a family, a home, friends, and a country, being a student was as complete an identity as I had ever hoped for. There was a power to the word, something akin to being the citizen of a wealthy, foreign country." (Ch. 7) so interesting, because there are so many ways we do this. we retroactively craft a narrative about who we are and how we got here, and get ourselves to believe it. as if it was the case all along. and as we tell our story to more and more people, that story of the past becomes more and more the reality.
"Later, the buses were used to carry hundreds of boys to one of the new prisons built on the outskirts of the city. I remember thinking that I couldn’t understand how a city that had demanded so much intimacy could turn on itself. It was the thought of a childish, privileged young man, but that didn’t make the disappointment hurt any less." (Ch. 13) talking about addis ababa during the Red Terror
"How long did it take for me to understand that I was never going to return to Ethiopia again? It seems as if there should have been a particular moment when the knowledge settled in. For at least the first two years that I was here, I was so busy passing my mother, brother, father, and friends in the aisles of grocery stores, in parks and restaurants, that at times it hardly felt as if I had really left. I searched for familiarity wherever I went... My hallucinations of home became standard. I welcomed them into my day completely. I talked to my mother from across the bus; I walked home with my father across the spare, treeless campus of my northern Virginia community college. We talked for hours... I was saying earlier that I couldn’t remember at which point I understood that I had left home for good. I can’t seem to remember, either, when we stopped having these conversations. The two are connected, aren’t they? I never understood that until right now: that everything went with you." (Ch. 13)
"Outside of my store was a mixed crowd of old and young men making the most of the temporary reprieve from winter. Fragments of their conversation drifted in and out. I couldn’t imagine any of them marching down the middle of the street armed with bricks. We all essentially wanted the same thing, which was to feel that we had a stake in shaping and defining what little part of the world we could claim as our own. Boys even younger than the ones standing outside had fought and killed one another all over Addis for that exact reason, and they were at it again now throughout more of Africa than even Joseph, Kenneth, and I cared to acknowledge. At least here, in America, they had this corner to live their lives as they pleased, and if a few of them took to throwing bricks through windows, then we could not judge them." (Ch. 15)
I really really liked that the story of the man who threw the bricks and lit the fire was included, to understand how he got to this point of helplessness, anger, control, and desperation.
"According to the article, Franklin Henry Thomas lost his one-bedroom apartment in the Hampshire Tower when his lease expired in December and he was asked by his landlord to start paying nearly a third more than he had previously. In February he moved into a temporary shelter while his wife and children moved into an apartment in Maryland with his wife’s sister. ... Inside my store, with no one around, I said his name often to myself. Franklin Henry Thomas. Franklin Henry Thomas. Sometimes just Frank, sometimes Frank Henry. ... He was arrested after the police caught him trying to break into Judith’s old house a week after the fire. He was carrying all of his belongings with him in a black duffel bag. Apparently, he had planned on moving into the burned-out building for the remainder of the winter. In his delusion, he had even begun to imagine that perhaps, with a little time, he could repair the house he had burned down and move his family back in with him. His duffel bag was full of the tools he had used as a handyman. He told the police in his confession that he had made sure no one was home when he lit the book of matches that started it all." (Ch. 16)
"There are still pieces from the roof’s molding lying on the ground around me, and though the house is now abandoned and desolate in its appearance, there is enough evidence to remember that it wasn’t always this way." (Ch. 16)