Nothing made sense. There was no rhyme or reason to the universe. People just existed - targets with bull's-eyes on their backs, waiting for the next hit life hurled at them. Was it only yesterday that he and Michael had danced with pretty girls and wrestled bulls? Now his focus was on survival - physical and mental. 143
Okay, I don't really know where to begin on this book.
As usual, Thomas brings the drama. I think this is a strength of hers. She doesn't pull any punches, her romance novels are not cutesy and she doesn't shy away from difficult issues.
Lucinda grew up in the shadow of her brother, Michael. He was a bull-rider. Their dad is rich.
Michael died at age 25 because he drove drunk. Lucy blames herself. Michael had called her for a ride from the bar, and she refused to go down and pick him up. She holds herself responsible for Michael's death. But she doesn't tell anyone about this secret.
In Michael's memory, Lucy has created The Pony Express, a free taxi service that provides transportation to drunken cowboys (or anyone?) in her town. She hopes to prevent drunk driving and therefore prevent deaths. It's a good idea, a good charity, and she worked hard to create and maintain it.
When her federal grant is slashed in half, her father decides to bar her access to her trust fund. This leaves Lucy unable to fund The Pony Express. So she decides to ride bulls in the rodeo to raise money for her charity.
Our hero is a man with the unlikely name of "Tony Bravo." He is a Mexican-American and he is a Border Patrol Agent. I know what you're thinking, and yeah, it's complicated, but Thomas never addresses it. And she also refers to people as "illegals." I'd prefer even "illegal immigrants" over a simple "illegals," but I'm sure Thomas isn't concerned with this shit. His mother is María Bravo, and his father was Antonio Bravo. His mother is from Nogales.
Tony and Lucy were seeing each other on the DL two years ago for five months. They never told anyone because a.) Tony's mother wouldn't approve - she wants Tony to marry a Latina, and b.) Lucy's father wouldn't approve, he hates Tony and has the power and money to ruin Tony's life.
Then Michael was killed.
Since both Lucy and Tony blame themselves for Michael's death, they both think they are terrible people. They both think they are undeserving of love. They both think the other would hate them if they knew "the truth" about how each was "responsible" for Tony's death.
Lucy asks Tony for help learning how to ride bulls (since Tony is a bull rider). He disapproves of her being in rodeo, but grudgingly agrees in exchange for her letting him on her father's ranch to search for evidence of human trafficking.
ANALYSIS
THE HERO: TONY BRAVO
I wasn't really a fan of this man. For a lot of reasons.
REASON 1: Macho crap.
"Hey, I'm all for women's rights. I work with female border patrol agents and they handle the job as well as if not better than the male agents. But bull riding is best left to men."
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"Don't you want to do something worthwhile with your business degree?"
Don't you want to go fuck yourself?
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"Most cowboys are decent, God-fearing men who treat women with respect, whether they're drunk or not."
"That may be true, but a girl like you - " Tony leaned closer and his masculine scent went straight to Lucy's head " - would test any cowboy's morals and values."
So... what are you saying? She's prime rape material? I wish men would stop saying shit like this, it's SUPER CREEPY. Just don't.
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Tony's take-charge attitude didn't offend Lucy. He wouldn't be a good border patrol agent if he wasn't self-assured and confident.
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"I took a self-defense class in college." She left out that she'd dated her instructor, Keith, for nine months.
"I'm glad you know how to defend yourself, but you should have a partner if you're going to drive the van."
"Quit harassing me. You're worse than my parents."
Two things bother me about this one. One, she's leery of telling Tony about another man she dated. Why? He can't handle that shit? Bad sign. Two, his for-your-own-good bossy shit.
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"You have no business on the back of a bull."
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He's on board with her dad cutting her off from her trust fund.
Tony thought he might have done the same thing if it had been his daughter.
Wow, you are fucking disgusting. One, she's 24. A grown woman. Two, she started that charity to honor her dead brother and she's saving lives. It's a good thing. Three, even if you are like, "Women can't drive drunk men around, they will be raped," she is not the driver. She has a driver, Hector. She only does it on the rare times Hector can't go. Four, what kind of controlling for-her-own-good shit is this? Her dad is an asshole, and you want to be like him?!?!!? GTFO.
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"Okay, then you must know someone on the circuit who'd be willing to show me the ropes."
Was she kidding? Once the guy got a good look at Lucy's pretty face and sexy body he'd try to do a lot more than just how her the ropes.
She's pretty, all men will want to fuck her. None will be interested in actually helping her. She should know this. He has to protect her. *vomiting*
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"I call the shots." He leaned over the table and lowered his voice. "You'll practice until your sweet little fanny is too sore to sit on."
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He'd give her a few days to search for a new bull-riding mentor, but he was confident she'd crawl back to him.
I just don't find the prospect of her having to deal with this, "Okay, little lady, I'm going to make the decisions around here, but it's for your own good!" shit for the rest of her life appealing. She doesn't need two fathers.
There's also stuff like:
Tony had been an amazing lover, and he'd taught her things about her body that she hadn't known she could do.
I just find this kind of phrasing gross. I'm turned-off by most insinuations authors make about sex being about teaching, learning, tutoring, etc. etc. and not about love, closeness, caring, etc. which is what I view sex as and what turns me on about sex. Whenever authors refer to sex between people as "lessons, teaching, learning," etc. etc. or make it sound like sex is some kind of skill that you will have an exam on later, I am blanching. It's not appealing to me at all. I like sex to be about stuff like people caring for each other, or loving each other, or giving each other happiness etc. etc.
It may be true - perhaps Tony did show her things about her body she didn't know before - but I find it a gross way to describe sex.
Then, we have Tony's continued, to-her-face insistence that Lucy is a "spoiled rich girl." Let's take a look.
"I underestimated you."
"How so?"
"You're a rich, spoiled girl." 47
Every time he's like this, I'm miffed. For one thing, fucking rude. Secondly, untrue. The heroine may be stupid at times, but she doesn't strike me as spoiled. Thirdly, - and I always think this - you are insulting YOURSELF, hombre. YOU are the one who is in love with her. YOU are the one who was sleeping with her for five months. YOU are the one who is gaga over her. So... what the fuck does this say about you?!!??!
Lucy had matured into a self-confident young woman capable of holding her own with him, and Tony found that sexy as all get-out. 65
Sigh. What did you think of her two years ago when you were fucking her on the regular, hmmmm? Doesn't speak well of you.
"If Shannon can do it, so can I."
"Shannon's experienced and she'd not a spoiled little rich girl." 129
Is this REALLY what you think about the woman you love? Sad. Not only sad for her, but sad for you if you REALLY believe you are going to spend the rest of your life with a woman you see as spoiled and immature. If you DON'T really believe this, then you are simply an asshole who enjoys hurting his woman with words, which is also disgusting. So cut it out.
THE HEROINE: LUCINDA DURANGO
Blonde haired and blue eyed, of course, since they are pairing her with a Latino man. I see this very often in romances. Gotta play up the contrasts.
I liked Lucy better than Tony. She didn't seem spoiled to me. I liked that she set up a free taxi service for drunks in honor of her dead brother and to prevent deaths. I liked how she really cared about this and worked hard to keep it going. It really mattered to her and she fought hard for it.
She's adequate in self-defense, she's determined, and she's hard-working. And look how she responds to Tony dissing people who use her service.
"I never imagined you caring about what happens to lowlifes."
"Just because a cowboy drinks a little too much doesn't mean he's scum. Most of the guys who catch a lift home from the Pony Express are hardworking ranch hands or down-on-their-luck rodeo cowboys." 47
My biggest problem with Lucy is that sometimes she is unimaginably stupid. Once, Tony catches her lying on the ground with binoculars, spying on the mine, trying to watch for the human traffickers. I don't know what the fuck she's thinking.
Later, she actually tries to insist Tony let her come along on the stakeout. I was like, "What?!" He's a Border Patrol Agent, you can't just be like "I'm coming along on your cartel bust." It was really baffling to me how dumb Lucy could be at times. Only when it came to Tony's job did this really crop up.
She also just obeys Tony's mother when Tony's mother tells her to stay the hell away from her son.
"You're right, Last night was a mistake. It won't happen again."... She loved Tony enough to respect Maria's wishes and not become involved with him. 158
Like, no. For one thing, María doesn't even know their history. She doesn't even know they were secretly dating for five months two years ago. Two, her son is a grown-ass man. 27. He can fuck whomever he wants. He's an adult. Three, and perhaps most importantly, it's none of María's business whom Tony decides to fuck.
On Lucy's part, her decision is very immature and wrong. She a.) doesn't tell Tony about his mother interfering in their relationship, which in my opinion is a big no-no between lovers. Talk about that shit. And b.) she decides to 'honor María's request' by simply ghosting Tony. Doesn't return his calls, stops talking to him... It's horrible, jerk, immature behavior not fitting of a 24-year-old.
THE PARENTS
Pretty much all the parents in here were getting on my nerves. But by the end, the mothers have good conversations with their offspring.
Lucy's mom isn't evil, but she is very concerned about appearances. She hovers over Lucy and tries to control her - not to the extent of Lucy's father, but still.
A twenty-four-year-old shouldn't have to report in to her mother, but Michael's death had changed the family dynamic in more ways than size. Sonja Durango wanted to know every move her daughter made. Full of guilt, Lucy had been happy to keep her mother informed of her whereabouts, believing it would only be a matter of time before she got over her fear of something happening to Lucy. But months turned into a year , and now two, and still her mother hadn't eased up on monitoring Lucy's activities. 31
But at 77%, Lucy and Sonja have a good, honest talk. They talk about spreading Michael's ashes. They talk about Lucy's future. They talk about how hard it is to move on from Michael's death.
Thomas gives Tony a touching scene with his mother, as well. They finally sit down and talk things out at 91%. He tells her about dating Lucy on the DL for five months. He calls her on her insistence that he marry a Latina. He challenges her to face her views on interracial marriages. They discuss why she's been against him being with a white woman. I like how Thomas just tackles this. They talk about his friendship with Michael and how he blames himself for Michael's death. She confesses about warning Lucy away from him.
I don't know what Thomas is saying about fathers, here. You can't reason with them? They can't change or grow? Seems like only the mothers in this story offer their children catharsis and forgiveness. Well, Lucy's dad is really who I'm talking about, Tony's father is dead.
EMOTIONAL TRAUMA
As per usual, Thomas tackles interracial dating. She also talks about emotions, she's always been one to paint life as difficult and flawed, and shows her MCs struggling with problems. She often sets up her MCs with sad backstories. However, her great strength is that she isn't maudlin or tear-jerking. Instead, she tries to deal with realistic problems in realistic ways. Life isn't perfect, and she tries to populate her books with flawed MCs who have to live in a flawed world.
In the end, Lucy accepted that no matter how awful she felt, how much she regretted her actions, how hard she worked to make amends for her past, there was no way to fix this. Nothing would bring Michael back. 189
Both the hero and the heroine are suffering in this book. It's valid suffering. They both did wrong and they know it. They have to live with it. They blame themselves for Michael's death, and the blame isn't even misplaced, it's valid. That's very tough, it's crippling. Nice choice on Thomas. And she doesn't absolve anyone, either.
HOW'S THE SEX, CARMEN?
It's completely off-page. There are some described kisses which aren't technically bad, although I'm not interested in kissing this guy so my interest is minimal.
But the sex is off-page, I have no idea how these two are in bed with each other.
Was she sure she wanted to make love to Tony when he'd already told her there was no second chance for them?
Was she sure she wanted to lie in the arms of a man who believed he'd been the cause of her brother's death?
Was she sure she wanted to be with the man she'd fallen in love with two years ago and had never stopped loving? 153
At least they use a condom.
Oh, there IS a disgusting, disgusting scene where she falls into manure, and gets her hands all full of manure, and then makes out with Tony. It was sick. Thomas is playing this as 'cute' and 'romantic' and 'funny,' but honestly it's sickening. Don't know how she can expect me to react to that with anything other than disgust.
Oh, and Tony's ex is in here. Evita. She and Tony dated for seven months (after he left Lucy) and I guess we are supposed to believe that he proposed to her. Evita and Lucy meet, it's awkward, but neither hates the other and neither is an asshole. I'm not sure if you like that or not. For me, it's a plus. On the other hand, we have to remember that Lucy won't even tell Tony that she dated Keith for nine months. So we have a little bit of an equity problem IMO.
TL;DR Even though I don't always like Thomas's books, I have to give her credit. One, she's not boring. She holds my interest. Two, she often tackles interracial dating. This can be difficult. I like how she approaches it head-on. She has varying degrees of success, but she's doing it. Three, unlike a lot of romance authors, Thomas tries to paint a realistic world. Brain damage, trailer-park living, divorce, being a single parent, living in poverty, being an alcoholic... Thomas tackles numerous tough-but-real issues in her books. Even though I don't always like them, I do admire and respect her bravery and frankness.
I didn't like Tony. I could forgive Lucy her stupidity, even though that didn't fit in with her character - but his machismo and snide remarks about the heroine disgusted me. I couldn't understand why he kept telling her she was spoiled. She clearly wasn't, and he didn't actually believe this IMO, so why was he hurting her over and over again?
He was my biggest problem with the book.
Interesting, held my attention for the entire book, but Thomas didn't give me a hero I respected or wanted to end up with the heroine.
ROMANCE CATEGORIES:
Contemporary Romance
Cowboy/Western Romance
Multicultural/Interracial Romance - He's Latino and she's white
Second Chance Romance
Non-Virgin Heroine
Police Romance - He's a Border Patrol Agent
He's a Border Patrol Agent and Bullrider, She has a business degree, but Runs a Charity