Sometimes I don't even know what to say! We've all read books that resonate with us and affect us long after we've turned the last page. This was one of those books for me. I LOVED IT! I've just come to accept that Kristan Higgins writes for me...well, not for me specifically, but for people like me. Her stuff is always emotional and sweet and funny. But sometimes it's also excruciatingly heartbreaking and sad. But there's always an underlying hope in her books, so yes, for people like me, WE LOVE THAT!
Lucy is a young widow who lost her husband to a fatal car accident almost 6 years ago. She's decided it's time to start dating again. She wants a family, kids and a husband that won't stir anything in her dormant heart. Just someone she likes, gets along with, but NO LOVE. Problem is, she's been having a friends-with-benefits with her handsome neighbor, Ethan. So he needs the axe, because she's ready...but not for him to be in the running.
Lucy was also trained as a pastry chef but works as a bread maker in her family's bakery. I was salivating half the time over all the yummyness Lucy was baking! The bakery is mainly run by the 3 Black widows--her mother and two aunts--all losing their husbands prematurely, so you could say it runs in the family**grimace**. So Lucy starts her quest for a husband but Ethan won't give up, he wants a chance, a chance Lucy is not willing to give.
I really felt for Lucy and can't imagine how it feels to lose the love of your life so early on. She wasn't quite over Jimmy, seeing him in places, hearing him sometimes. She always compared everyone to him and although I could empathize, it started getting on my nerves. Especially since Ethan was so willing. So eager to prove he could be the one for her. But she kept pushing him away and after a while it bothered me. The worst part of it all was she knew, KNEW, her connection to Ethan was real, and that scared the crap out of her. I often wished Ethan would say something, but he always gave her patience and the time to figure it out. He was such a great guy. So nice and sweet, but strong and comforting. I really fell for him. She deserved his anger not his understanding at times.
And the Black widows, while a fun bunch, they seemed to discourage Lucy from trying to re-marry. They weren't supportive and although they may have felt scared to find love after their own loss, I don't think giving that same advice to a young widow was rational. Some people don't want to move on, don't have the capacity. But not everyone. I'm so glad Lucy strove for more in her life than just being a widow. That was her main fear, being MORE than a widow. Perhaps finding another love and proving her first love wasn't meant to be her only. Her mom was also not supportive, it really upset me that she didn't try and understand her daughters dilemma.
Needless to say this book did a number on me! I was crying and slobbering one minute, laughing and clutching my heart another, sigh. Some scenes really did me in. One scene while Lucy was watching her wedding video with a date, she notices something she never had before---I swear, I was an emotional mess. Another scene towards the end where she confronts Ethan at his new restaurant--again, an emotional landslide of feelings!
The romance was beautiful, the realizations that life doesn't end with tragedy, the promise of hope and a love like no other, the ability to strive for MORE...can't say enough! Loved this book! And like typical KH, fade to black sex, but don't mistake that for no steam. There is, and it's hot. But the writing and story are so moving, so good, so...GAH!!! Just amazing! That you don't notice the fades. Don't get fooled by the cover or book jacket either, this isn't fluff.
If you haven't read KH, you really should, she's amazing!