in the mid to late 80s i knew padgett powell, sat in, took up space in, his class...twice. this, shortly after the publication of his 1st novel, edisto, that he signed for me, 1985, there at the goehring's bookstore on 13th street in gainesville.
you might not be able to see it on the cover/dust-jacket, but those two figures at the bottom of the ampersand, two figures in silhouette, their back to the reader, the one on the right with a cane, the other turned slightly toward the elder, slightly hunched....man.
the narrative of this one takes the form of two people having a conversation. there are no quotation marks around the dialogue, there is no he said she said and no adverbs saying how they said it. they are simply having a conversation about things, life, the passing of life and so on.
they talk about things like "feeling insurance". imagine that. hey? having insurance for your feelings?
they talk about dogs...and dogs are missed when they are gone.
more so than most people and yeah why is that?
or, they talk about the "sleep washer" and having "poppin-fresh BVDs" to pull on in the morning....a new way of thinking of "white noise".
they talk, they realize "we don't have to do anything unless we want to."
they question words...or, the one does, and the other (i have this sense of two old...time has passed, yes...two oldies watching life pass, commenting on it...say, at a store, on a bench maybe...or the barber shop...or anywhere...the beach maybe...the mall...somewhere...)
they question life..."is it better to have continuity of no content or discontinuous content"?
they are opinionated: "the remarkable knows no color, in the progressive view."
they have reached some conclusion: "jejune longing is the chewing gum of life."
they have taken seemingly innocuous things, split-shot sinkers for example, and have drawn conclusions....a "huge and hugely gratifying anal balm."
they consider 'having it together' and by this point the reader is aware that they, the one, or both, have decided they have not always had it together.
"i just think that given the near total dissolution upon us now that it, our dissolution, could not have been greater, not even when we were crawling from the cave, and that to have survived this far we must have had it together more back then than now."
all that sugar and cell phone that we now consume and so on.
"we live, figuratively speaking, if not literally, under water."
oh yeah....the one gets into percentages...numbers....
the one poses an interesting question: have you noticed, any time lately, the phenomenon by which when you meet someone whose personality you object to that your own personality is shifted to a counter personality, as it were, to which you also object, arguably more than you object to the offending personality of the other?
ease up. the day was rued when we came upon it, or when it came upon us, and beheld us marring the horizon, sitting here like unconquerable savages, men missing their dogs and talking pointlessly unless talk to the dead. let's sharpen something.
that last is nice...this vision of the sun also rising...
...disputing nothing is the first step through the difficult door of happiness.
so...on page 134 w/about 50 pages to go...
update: complete, finished, 28th? dec 2011...i just now noticed here, at the end of the year, that it says directly below "date i finished this book"...and i see that it is the 28th there....did i miss a day? am i a day off again? well...i'll try not to let it bother me too much...
so anyway, as the narrative progresses--i think i might have stopped at like a turning-point in the story last night--i wasn't trying to do that....by stopping i mean i read the remaining 50 pages after i wrote what i did there and now here i am...after a night of rest...posting. sans poppin-fresh bvds...i don't do commando and i am not busy so same-o same-o.
there's a nice line of metaphor running through the story, about kathy porter and her old man. see, the one talked her into a look....in the long ago..."but since i did not know about touching, i thought looking contained the entire crime."
[pecker tracks]...looking at my notes here, they, or the one wondered what it is called when you mar the wood, or when a carpenter mars the wood...though padgett did not use the word "mar"...not that i recall....say like when the hammer slides off the nail or it is missed altogether...you get [pecker tracks]. these things--> [ ] i understand, signify something that the person inserts in something of another. or am i confused like the dates.
they are in "assisted-living" as of the telling...and they have to figure out how to die...perhaps w/dignity...or i am lacking brackets.
hence: (from the story)....: what i am saying--am i saying this?--is that one's whole life is not having the wit to not be afraid of kathy's father [her w/the view, no touch, yet full-crime]. this is why we do not know, have a clue, really, how to live today as if it's the last day of our lives. we think we have the score because we can see that fifty years ago we did not have the score, bolting from the playhouse, but the fact is we are bolting from another playhouse today. we do not recognize it as a playhouse.
there's another nice metaphor-s about snickers wrappers, golfing sand traps.
...i can see that i did not need to put on the orange heated jumpsuit...a detail from the story...and make a run, as i was full-on w/o need....as i missed things...looking now. that's what rereads are for, catching things you missed on the first pass. fishermen know this.
like this nice way of defining us: half the world is an animal and the other half a meddling high-minded egghead and they are not coming together except in certain forms of predation and exploitation of the other. [we never really get off the playground, do we?]
there's a couple...anagrams? or what's the word for it...like government initials for things...fbi, cia, epa, so on.
lil' tnt: lose it like there's no tomorrow
or
ledoolaiitldool: live every day as if it's the last day of your life
there's lots more....like this one that i didn't list: people do not care what is done to them if they see the shit slapped out of the other half.
i could go on and on.....it closes out nicely.....oh yeah, forgot to say that as the narrative progresses, the reader gets a sense of a new day from time to time, as if time is indeed just moving right along...a sense that they just sat down...
....course, being old...they might have just nodded off and when they come to it is like a new day....old people must have a pile of those during the course of one day? they had their say.
a good read.