I would almost rate this 5 stars. I won this – not kidding – in a Goodreads giveaway (apparently officially called Goodreads First Reads). I have been reading a lot of non-fiction books lately about college admissions. College applications are several years in the future for my kids, which makes these books less stressful. From the cover, the description and reviews written by other readers, I expected some variety of chick lit or self-satisfied insider tell-all. I was hoping it would be more entertaining than irritating.
This book far exceeded my expectations. The main character Anne is a 27-year-old English literature type who helps kids with college application essays. The story follows Anne through one admissions cycle assisting five students, mostly from privileged families, from the kids’ lifeless first drafts to their later improved versions. Having read Harry Bauld’s book “On Writing the College Application Essay,” I can spot a dud essay about pets or expensive tours, but the evolution of the essays helped illustrate the difference between a stiff personal statement and something more expressive.
The author Lacy Crawford has worked with kids on their college essays. This book rings so true, it seems autobiographical, not fictional. Anne is an “application whisperer,” picking out the pieces that work and encouraging kids without telling them what to do. The parents’ ambitions and visions of themselves are projected on their kids. You can feel the families’ fear, anxiety, ambivalence, and anger. The message to parents, I think, is to let kids express themselves, not what parents think they should write, and don’t correct them so often that they are too afraid to do anything.
I related to Anne. The story explores her lack of direction. She is not fulfilling her potential, but doesn’t know what she is supposed to be doing. She is on hiatus from graduate school. Her life is stuck in neutral and she doesn’t know how to get it moving. She is closer in age and experience to the kids than their parents. I loved her uncertainty about whether she was even helping the kids. The author captures the rudderless quality of the post-college years, when you find a job that pays the bills, but you don’t know how to move forward. She accurately depicts a certain type of relationship during these years, when marriage becomes part of the equation. I want my kids to read this book in high school, to have an idea of how confusing is when you are dumped in the work world after college and to know that it’s normal.
There were two things in the book that I didn’t understand. The first one is small. Anne is upset when a parent refers to his son as a carp, growing only as big as the pond he is in. I don’t really understand why this is so demeaning - comparing a kid to a carp. It seems similar to saying a kid thrives when he is a big fish in a small pond. A carp doesn’t seem like an inherently awful creature. I could see comparing a child to a pig as insulting. If the father had said, “He is like a thoroughbred horse that runs only fast enough to win his heat,” would that be fine because the comparison was to a race horse? Was it bad for the dad to be saying his son didn't push himself beyond what was needed to be the best in his circle? I didn’t really understand that.
The other point I didn’t understand is a big one for me. One mother listened to her son for clues to his interests and tried to help him explore those interests. This has been my philosophy too, within the resources we have. In fact, the college counselors in our school district advise parents of younger kids to give the children opportunities to explore their talents, encourage them to get involved in various activities so they can find their own niche.
The mother in the book thought he would benefit from seeing other parts of the world, so when he mentioned South America, she arranged a hiking trip in Chile and working crew for a yacht. He takes wonderful photos, so she set up lessons with a renowned photographer. The photographer was a bust as a mentor and not an inspiration, but it seems to me that could have gone either way. The boy bought a secondhand guitar and played around with it, so his mom signed him up for guitar lessons and took him to see James Taylor. He listed these activities as significant, but he had given up on each of them. “Mrs. Pfaff had managed to kill every interest he revealed. Her Midas-by-proxy was among the most devastating examples of crap parenting Anne had ever seen.” And for this, “Anne hated her.”
Why? Why was this parent’s approach bad? Because she set up lessons, or because she went overboard, or because it was all to create activities for his college application? It is very hard to discover your interests - the author says as much in the Q&A after the story. It seems like a good idea for kids to explore different interests while in school, rather than wait eight years until they are finally out of college and have to worry about paying bills at the same time. It seems like a good thing to help your kids explore their interests, so they can test them out and see what sticks.
Is that not right? Does a kid’s exploration have to be entirely self-driven to be meaningful? If kids don’t ask for lessons or camp or help, you don’t interfere? Is this book saying kids need to identify and pursue interests on their own to develop a passion? As a kid, I didn’t know what was available. I barely knew what my interests were, and I didn’t have any motivation to explore them further. As an adult, I look back and wish my parents had helped me identify and develop my interests. Even if I had dropped those interests to focus on something else, I would have known more about myself and how to pursue my interests. Because of this, I try very hard to listen to my kids, identify their interests and strengths, and help them explore those further. I hate to think I am killing their interests instead.
That was one page of the book though. A blurb on the front calls this a “modern-day comedy of manners,” which I find misleading. It isn’t a comedy, although it read quickly and the characters are likeable. I would like my kids to read this in high school to see how a personal statement can evolve, to see that parents are often self-centered and wrong, and to know life after college can be a difficult time.