Where to start?
This book touched me deeply, for personal reasons. Harper Bliss was able to write such a compelling story of despair and love.
I suffer from mild depression and have never read a better description of what it feels like. The darkness, the hopelessness, the helplessness of not knowing HOW to be happy. How to enjoy more than fleeting moments of contentment. Ella's story broke my heart in millions of pieces, it was so beautifully written. Bliss writes with emotions, and in every word she uses there is feeling. It's so rare.. so wonderful, to feel so much while reading a story written by someone you know nothing about but who seems to know you. I want to shout to Harper Bliss "YES. You understand. You're wonderful. How? How do you know?".
As you can guess this is not a feel-good story. But it's a very realistic one, because life is never as easy as some books make it out to be. It's a constant struggle to find happiness. And I like that Harper Bliss's solution to that is love. Because I also think that true love can save broken people, can make them feel alive and stay alive.
Ella has suffered from depression almost her whole life, and comes back to where she grew up with the hope of finding the roots of it all and getting better. There, she meets Kay again, a girl she knew growing up. Kay is down to earth, adventurous, charming, understanding, vulnerable and strong at the same time. She is not unhappy in her life, but she yearns to find what her father always hoped she'd find: happiness in the form of love. But the real love, the forever kind of love, the inevitable kind of love. Not the one that ever goes away. The love that keeps you alive.
And she finds it. YES. Ella and Kay fall in love so helplessly and so undoubtedly. Because Kay is the only person who can save Ella and the only person Ella wants to bear her soul to. And it's absolutely amazing to read about how Ella finds light in the darkness again, how she can finally be herself with someone who understands and accepts everything about her.
I have another question to Harper Bliss: How can you use such few words but evoke so many feelings? You are able to tell stories in a way very few writers can.
Really, this is what I would call a short book, but by the end of it I felt like I had lived a whole life.
Because the story is written from Ella's POV, the reader is able to feel everything Ella does. I started the story with a heavy heart, a sort of pain in my chest (I silently and discreetly cried a lot), and with every chapter the heavy pain lifted, while Ella fell in love and opened up, I fell in love with the irresistible Kay and felt giddy and happy.
And the sex... is hot, with the tenderness of love and the passion of desire. The best kind. The orgasms that bring tears to your eyes because they are not just physical, and when Ella comes, she falls in love with Kay a little bit more. Until she feels completely safe, and understands that this is where she wants to be always.
Despite the heavy aspect of it, At The Water's Edge is indisputably a story of hope. And now, one of my favorite romance novels.