So many reviewers I like rated this book highly that I had to read it to check for myself. Unfortunately I hate to say this but (1) I already read this a long time ago with a stripped cover, and (2) I really didn't like it, even upon a second and much later reading.
The entire story covers the time from when a young secretary finds out she's pregnant with her lover and boss's baby to birth, and the angst that she undergoes. Her turmoil goes like so: it's been a 5 month affair and she's only 20 and deeply in "love" with her intense boss who has a really deep fear of marriage and commitment, and so she wants to leave the premises, so to speak, before he finds out she's preggers. Unfortunately, that is also when the book goes to pieces for me, and I sat thumbing through the rest of the book with my mouth screwed up just under my nose.
Except that this book could have been entitled "The Passive-Aggressive Woman's Guide to Trapping Your Commitment-Phobe Man Into Marriage." Good grief, how this book annoyed me. Granted, there was an overload of angst. And by angst, I mean, Michelle Reid angst. She can drag out the angst through chapters, wherein the protagonist strolls from room to room, angsting over all the things she has to angst over. And, don't get me wrong, Michelle Reid is a good writer. She does angst and inner emotions and turmoils quite well. Therefore, you don't get the sense of unmoving plot until it's almost halfway in.
Rule #1: Silently retreat from his life without an explanation -- completely guaranteed to arouse his tracking mode.
Other than the angst mushroom cloud hanging over the entire book, what bothers me is the heroine, who is portrayed initially as a demure, sweet girl. She is SUBMISSIVE with ALL CAPS. That means she apologizes for so many things in the book that at one point, I really wanted to shout at her. She apologizes for making slightly "insulting" comments to the hero that might have offended him. I put "insulting" in quotes, because it really should be "accurate" rather than "insulting," but she thought it was insulting and so she apologized for that. She tells herself it is "pride" that makes her bow out gracefully from his life once she finds out she's pregnant and also that it is out of "love" for him because she doesn't want to stifle his life. I find both of these highly suspect because then it wouldn't have been necessary to tell him at all. But when she does, he explodes in a scary almighty temper, and no, it's not because he is jealous that it belongs to someone else, but because he thinks she might have done it to trap him, and he raises an almighty hand to strike her pregnant face down. He doesn't do it, of course, but quite honestly, that is an image that anyone with brains considering marriage should keep at the forefront of their list. (She later apologizes for springing her news on him.)
Rule #2: Drink a lot to loosen your inhibitions. Pregnant? Not a concern.
She can be forgiven for her lapses of judgment, because I do suspect she might be an alcoholic. Like I said, she is pregnant throughout the entire book, and she drinks alcohol on 3 separate occasions, two of which he pours for her, so you know, it's good to know that she has an enabler.
Rule #3: Faint whenever man shows signs of getting angry and apologizing hasn't worked.
I suspect the alcoholism because she also is super prone to fainting fits. I realize that she's pregnant and ordered to take iron pills, but she also faints at really opportune times, in a sort of an deux ex machina kind of way that's guaranteed to make the hero sit up and apologize, which he does. (Score!)
Rule#4: Make pointed comments, but apologize sweetly afterwards.
This is the part that makes me feel she's passive-aggressive. He is Ass Numero Uno, so she is entitled to some mean name-calling on her part. Except she doesn't carry through with it. Even though these comments are nowhere near as offensive as the book makes them out to be (with inward squirming of discomfort and narrowed eyes in tense response), they are treated as an insult for which she must and does apologize for. Perhaps I'm showing the times, but anonymous internet flames are 100% worse than what she said, with much less provocation. He knocked her up, never acknowledged her status in public, never took her to his home, made their plans for them without asking her, invite himself over without asking, and, ahem, ALMOST STRUCK HER DOWN FOR SAYING SHE WAS PREGNANT, when it takes two. But clearly, she's the one who needs to apologize. And she does. Multiple times. For saying things like, "This is just conscience money you're offering."
This was published in 1989, so before heroes started to develop really touchy-feely, over the top back stories, but I really think a little backstory would not have gone amiss for this guy's over the top aversion to commitment. I mean, a little anger is one thing, but to be so angry as to want to strike the other person down when it takes two--now that is just homicidal behavior. I know I'm dwelling on this a lot for a time when HP heroes were knocking heroines across the face left and right, but usually they were for misconstrued unfaithfulness.
The other thing that was annoying and disgusting was the heroine's stepfather, who, in a very fatherly manner, told her that she was super-duper sexy and that the first time he saw her, he wondered who he was supposed to be pursuing. GROSS! I have never heard anything grosser and pedophilic than that, because, as I've said, she was 20 for half of the book, so she would have been a good deal younger when that happened. Okay, I'm lying, I've heard grosser things, but this is HP, so I'm entitled to some outrage here.
Anyway, I'm sure that disgusting tidbit was put in there to emphasize just how gorgeous our heroine was, because this was also mentioned ad nauseum, by her later boss, by her doctor, by random people in her life, by the hero, by the narrator through Clea's own eyes, and also, as I've mentioned, by her STEPFATHER. It seemed a tad unnecessary, because it really made it seem like there was no other reason for the hero to want to be with her. However, by the end of the book, all misunderstandings are cleared to no one's relief and the two are free of their passive-aggressiveness to live together. Oh happy day.
PS to self: I had to rate this in case I forgot and read this again.