Rating: 2
You see, I found this book lying around on the shelf while I was in a thrift shop… Having a close relationship with my mom, the title really caught my eye; What My Mother Doesn’t Know. It had an interesting synopsis that’s easily relatable, the book was in decent condition, and as a plus it only cost me a dollar. I was really looking forward to this read. But once I actually got to picked it up, I honestly did not like it. I really resented reading through the book’s protagonist is point of view. She and most the characters in this book was far beyond too immature and shallow for my taste.
“I wish he hadn't gone and cut his hair.
He looks about eight years old.
His ears have tripled in size.
Everyone's started calling him Dumbo.
Which wouldn't be so bad,
except they've started calling me
Mrs. Dumbo.
You can't even tell
he's got curly hair anymore.
There's nothing left
to run my fingers through.
Just this weird
blond AstroTurf
sprouting out of his skull.”
― Sonya Sones, What My Mother Doesn't Know
So the romance.. This is the so called “heart-stopping riveting story” of her first love? Seriously? Personally, all I saw was infatuation and lust. Sophie only “loved” Dylan for his looks and his status. The whole relationship didn’t have any emotional built or growth. It only consisted kissing and going on dates. When introducing Sophie to his mother, Dylan wanted to hide who she was. And not far into their new relationship, you have Sophie fantasizing about kissing other guys. Then to add onto my stress, she fought with him over his new haircut and mentioned how he should’ve given her a heads up about it. Is that a joke? It’s his hair and he should be able to do what he wants with it. Just as a thought it couldn’t get any worse, she was more upset over the fact that she was being Mrs. Dumbo than her “first love” being called Dumbo. Oh but it doesn’t stop there. Sophie then meets this guy, Chaz, over cyberspace and begins to fall for him. Swayed by Chaz, she suddenly thinks everything Dylan does is completely wrong and their relationship is filled with flaws. Just wow… Eventually ending her relationship with him, she then finds out Chaz a total pervert and ending all communication with him. Has the possibility never crossed her mind? So with Chaz gone, she then begins to think of Dylan once again. At the dance she even considered going over to him . Had it not been for his date showing up, I honestly hated that fact Sophie was even considering kissing him again. But big surprise, she was mesmerized by a new, masked guy whom she danced with. Sophie then goes into this spiraling search after his disappearance and declares it “love at first dance”
It’s funny she doesn’t call herself boy crazy because that’s all I see she is. Boy crazed, infatuated, and very easily swayed...If this is what love is, then it has lost all its precious meaning.
Now, out of everything in this book, Murphy was the only person, the only thing bearable. Honestly, I don’t think Sophie deserved a guy like him. Throughout the entire book, she talks about how she feels bad for him. But when she has the opportunities to speak to him, she chooses not to. She only chose to be his partner at art because she pitied him, not because she wanted to be his friend. She even laughs when people mock him. Never once had she actually tried to reach out to this kid. Meeting him at the art gallery, Sophie wanted to flee the scene. And having lunch with him, she sits herself in a placement no one will spot her. Upon making more plans to hang out and exchanging numbers, she then regrets it completely. BUT what infuriated me most was when Murphy didn’t call her, she automatically assumes it’s because he couldn’t work the nerve to. Her confidence in herself is beyond me. And adding onto that, the only reason she didn’t like this guy is because he wasn’t cute enough. But hey, they got together and she learns that his real name is Robin. Sophie changes a little for the good but still she has a hard time telling her friends and the world that she’s dating Robin. Why? Because he’s the tail of jokes in their school. Because she'll be judged for it. When Robin sees her crying, he knew this. But he just held her and said that he’d understand if they have to break up. I know she ran off towards him in the end but in many ways she didn’t deserve him.
“what my mother doesn't know wont hurt her”
― Sonya Sones, What My Mother Doesn't Know
Now for her parents. I get it, they’re not like her best friend’s parents. They’re not open or very affectionate, and yes they’re fairly flawed. But it doesn’t mean they don’t care. There are many different types of parents in this world and my parents are very similar to hers. They’re not the type who comes up to me and asks how’s my day or to just start talking off the bat. But here’s the thing, because they don’t, I’m the one who tries and engages in conversation. I’m the one who reaches out first and you know what, after a while, they begin to reach out more and more too. Many people seem to believe parents are always supposed to tend to their kids and know what to do but they’re human. They will make mistakes and a lot of times they won’t know what to do or how to approach their kids. I get it, teenage years are tough years but it’s not any easier for them. Raising a teenager is hard.. There was this part in the book that she mentioned calling her mom and her mom just giving her the box and walking off. Mine did the same but it doesn’t mean she doesn’t care. Sophie’s mom hovers around room when boys are over and there are various moments that she tries to approach her (even though in a very awkward manner) but Sophie shoots her down. She talks smart to her. And regarding the dress, of course her mom wouldn’t want her wearing that, it’s short and tight. To let her pay for the a dress only to go behind her back and buy another, she shouldn’t hate her mom being mad. She shouldn’t blame her mom at all considering she never tried engaging in conversation, She never tried to truly reach out. Instead she wanted to hide more things. During Christmas and New Year, she didn’t even stay home with her parents.
Sophie is possibly, if not my most hated protagonist, one of them. She was beyond immature and naive. She complains about her parents not being there when she never tries to reach out herself. What she considers first love had no depth whatsoever, she considered marrying a person she never met, and feels bad for a boy whom she mocks and never bothers to befriend herself. Her Thanksgiving list of things she was thankful for is nothing but selfish. Throughout this whole book, she never failed to irritate me.
The last, I’d say 25% of the book was decent. She finally had some sort of character growth. But the flaws in this book completely overshadow the good. It’s sad and insulting that this is the portrayal of typical teen girls. True there are fair amount that are but a lot of us aren’t like this or at least this bad. It may have been a quick read but it’s disappointing. Giving it a 2 rating is merciful and the only reason for that 1 extra point was because she finally sort of came to her senses in the end, reached out to her mom, and Robin.