this was my first amish novel and probably my last. it was fascinating to absorb their way of life and culture, but i'm feeling so overwhelmed by my feelings of disappointment after just having finished the novel that i can't even ... i want to write a decent review but i don't know if i can.
alright. imma try anyway. let's start from the very beginning. sometime last year i was just innocently browsing the internet while on my phone in class, as one does. i'd just gotten back from the stratford festival and had extensively googled the heck out of "amish," after having passed through and near many mennonite settlements in southern ontario. i also spend a ton of time reading, looking up, talking about, and basically just googling romance novels (which is no surprise to anyone looking at my goodreads shelves, ha). so when google ads popped up with a promotion for "amish romance novels!" the hyper-paranoid in me instantly jumped to the conclusion that google was spying on me and had thus made up a genre that they knew would pique my interest and this was a trick!!!
fast forward to about a week ago, when i was browsing the popular/recommended shelves at my local library and ran into a whole bunch of actual amish romance novels. i mean... what?? it's a thing??? yes!!!! so that is how i ended up borrowing this book and just generally being very excited about reading it and hopefully exploring a genre of novels that seemed fascinating and intriguing and amazing.
but now that i've actually read it, i think it's safe to say that i (me, personally, just one person) am probably just not cut out to read anything in this genre. maybe i should give a few other books a chance before i write the entire category off, but i should probably explain what about it disappointed my super high, super excited expectations first.
it was important that this book was set in an amish society, but at the same time, it's still a heterosexual romance novel. it's going to follow a set storyline -- girl meets boy, boy seems like a dick, boy seems nice after all, girl falls for boy, wait nope boy is still a dick, girl finds herself tied to the boy for x and y reasons, girl falls in love with boy again, girl and boy confess their love to each other and live happily ever after.
the beginning of this book set the stage for each of these points beautifully. i was definitely a fan of the main character -- she was atypical, and she was (mostly) okay with that. she was okay with being different, because she had business & books as passions to keep her sane. sure, she wasn't happy, and the author actually did a pretty good job of depicting her repressed resentfulness and jealousy, but she had a strong sense of self and a general sense of contentment with her own personal values, which didn't necessarily need to measure up to anyone else's.
guess what happens by the end of the book? she learns to be a good wife! she's good at cooking and cleaning now! she loves her husband and she has a husband who loves her and they're going to make babies! she's easier to deal with now, guys! she's not a shrew anymore! the bullies give her their stamp of approval and she's happy for that and everything is gravy!
the rest of the character types were depicted surely and leadingly in the beginning, too, but those all pretty much fizzled out by the end as well.
the sister was a spoiled brat, and the reader spends the rest of the book waiting for her comeuppance (spoiler alert: THIS NEVER HAPPENS. SPOILED BRAT STAYS AN UNREPENTANT SPOILED BRAT. main character lacks the lady ovaries to stand up to the spoiled brat until the very end, and even that was disappointingly anticlimactic and unsatisfying considering how much shit she went through for her).
the father was a hard-nosed man, driven by amish principles and a hyper-awareness of his reputation. he was kind of a dick and clearly favoured one sister over the other, but by the end not only does he not have to answer to that, his character does a complete about-face and this entire story was basically for nothing. i mean, if it had been that easy to get him to actually care about his daughter's happiness in the first place, none of this would ever have happened.
let's not even get started on the male love interest. i have about 100000 words ready at any given moment on my complete hatred of the Uncommunicative Male Hero archetype, especially when it leads to a shitload of mental anguish for the poor girl who finds herself in love with him despite (or probably because of) it... but i shan't waste any of those words on this guy. let's just say i was thoroughly unimpressed by their reconciliation at the end of the novel. it's just so romantic to read that he was playing mind games and exercising "reverse psychology" on her throughout the latter half of the novel.
this book isn't HORRIBLE. in fact, it's written quite well, and i was compelled enough to want to keep reading until the end. it's just that halfway through the book, my outlook had morphed from "i'm into it, let's find out how this ends hehe" to "really? really? that's what's happening? really? oh wait, REALLY? THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENING NOW?" sort of like reading the equivalent of a trainwreck -- it started out with so much promise, but then ??? what happened???
so this rating is completely coloured by the fact that i can't help but feel super disappointed about all the things i wish this novel was. that's probably something others aren't necessarily going to agree with me on, but as a first-time reader of amish romance novels and probably just being unfamiliar with the culture driving the world in the books, i can't say that i'd be in a hurry to recommend this novel to anyone else who isn't already a fan of this genre.
let's chalk it up to philosophical differences. i was fine with the independence, self-sufficiency, and domestic ineptitude exhibited by the heroine in the beginning, and didn't take kindly to having them swapped out by the end of the novel for more traditional values. i certainly don't have a problem with any of those traditional values -- i just wasn't expecting them and as a result, i feel mildly conned. there were also a few instances where i felt preached to (the scene where the heroine gets all judgey mcjudgerson about the englisch lady who wore "skimpy" clothing and tried to use her feminine wiles to entrap/confuse the poor amish men into giving her better customer service, or something? uh huh).
in conclusion, this book was probably really good if you're already a fan of amish romance novels. i wasn't, and the book that i finished reading was not at all the book i had expected when i first started on it. sometimes surprises and twists are good, especially in romance novels, where the same tropes get trotted out over and over again, but that definitely was not the case in this book. a weak and hastily thrown together ending only further served to contrast the carefully set up introductory half of the novel.