'Twelve Days' is the story of Rachel and Sam McCrae, whose marriage has come to breaking point after a less than ideal beginning leads to a series of overwhelming heartbreaks. They've only been married twelve years, but in that time have suffered the loss of a child, infertility, and hidden secrets that have gradually wedged them apart. When three abandoned children are placed in their care just days before Christmas, Rachel begins to hope their relationship can be saved, but when she discovers Sam is planning to leave her days after Christmas, doubts grow for them both, to nearly insurmountable proportions. Will they find a way forward with their unexpected Christmas miracle (the children), or will they allow past hurts to consume them?
I'm finding myself grappling with the rating for this novel. The writing itself is excellent. The characters were well developed and their plights certainly captured my heart. The plot was solid with a statisfying story arc. So for the first half of the book I was thinking '5 star' for sure.
Around the halfway mark the uncertainty of the main characters due to insecurities relating to their marriage began to grow a little sameish. I recognise this is an unfair statement, as there is a cyclic pattern when working through deep-set emotional insecurities, and the second guessing of each step towards reconciliation was actually a fairly realistic portrayal. But as a reader I started growing a little impatient with the characters when, after what seemed to be a breakthrough, they'd swiftly come back to the same emotional stalemate.
Add to this building tension due to a period of physical abstinence (which from the intimated timeframes didn't actually seem that long - weeks to a couple of months?), the last quarter of the book contained several scenes where Rachel and Sam reunited physically, or recalled past sexual experiences. References to physical intimacy were generally not gratuitous, and yes, they are married, but though the main sex scene had meaningful emotional parallels, the drawn out details did feel a bit like a 'step-by-step' guide in parts of the scene, leaving little to the readers' imagination. It wasn't skanky, but it was a bit TMI for me personally. Given this was all in front of the family Christmas tree, I was just waiting for the moment they were interrupted by one of their young houseguests, which would have been a more likely progression with three traumatised children in the house.
That aside, the story drew out many meaningful themes relating to domestic violence, loss, family and relationships, and led to an ultimately hopeful conclusion. So where to pitch it??? Three stars seems a little unfair, fives star ignores my quibbles, so I'm going to sit a few points below 4.