I read this out of order and after Lena and Will's book, which is the next one. I'm glad I did because it was short enough that it was easy to get into, and reconnected me to the series. I didn't like Lena here as she is a bit of a brat but in her own book she is all grown up and I liked her even less. Will was great but Lena was self-absorbed. So Esme and Rip (John) make me want to go on..
So this novella of about 160 pages put my faith back that perhaps not all the women are going to be unlikable. I'd been avoiding reading on. Here we have two insecure characters when it comes to thinking they would be chosen for love. They both know they are valued by their friends and those that they've made family but for love... Well, Esme was thrown out by her husband's family after he died and then as Blade's thrall, he never chose her as a mate. John has mechanical parts and that makes him unwanted by many. Now that he is (vampire) a Blue Blood, he doesn't want Esme because she thinks she "should" or feels "obliged" to become his thrall. He wants her as a lover but before the craving (becoming vamp) he didn't think he was good enough, and now without the control needed, he thinks he is even less.
To be fair, John really doesn't understand relationships. His assumptions hold the relationship back. Esme might not come out and say "I want you for sex" but I think kissing him passionately is quite enough. Yet, he runs away because of the craving and then makes assumptions, the wrong ones. He almost is simple minded about relationships. It is sad how he sees himself in women's eyes, whores didn't even want him as a brute of a burly mech man. Now whores are the only ones who would accept him and it is only because of the craving and the euphoria it brings. I really liked them both but felt it was hard for Esme to take the hurt he creates with the assumptions he makes.
Really good story and relationship. Very nice to see the others and the Christmas that they make.