3.5 out of 5 - Moving Story of Gay Love in 30's England/Spain
I was moved by this story of what it was like to have, lose and regain a lover, at a time when you had to battle to even love another man. All with the backdrop in the 30's of growing Communism, Fascism, and ultimately the Spanish Civil War.
David Leavitt wrote with a clear voice, very readable and descriptive, particularly in terms of understanding the MC in a first-person flashback 40 years prior. It is a tragic tale in a way, yet uplifting. There are those in the m/m romance world that want the HEA. And I understand those in the gay community that, rightly so, say that too many stories and films have sad endings for gays. But that was then; let's bring that forward a few decades where it is more balanced; and then back even further to recognize, in reality, that's what happened. More often than not, desires were repressed, relationships destroyed, lives lost physically and mentally. As a gay man myself, it felt real to me. This represents that truth.
It's ironic to say "truth," because I purposely read the first version, with the supposed plagiarism from Spender's memoir. It was later edited with only 18 instances taken out. While I have not read the memoir, I have read and did see a little "inspiration" from Christopher Isherwood's Christopher and His Kind as well as E.M. Forster's Maurice. With that, I'm more inclined, having read this through, to think they were not copied exactly but similar and inspiring the larger story. I'm torn on whether to think of them as incidents that were all too common at the time from what I've (and I'm sure the author) read. But then there's the whole ideas of trying to save your lovers through immigration and even going to Spain to save your lover, that hits a bit too close to home. Maybe a little too much borrowing.
And then, in truth, it was not until near the end that I realized it was in the last third that it started really getting under my skin, in a good way. It did take a while, but I guess the build up was needed, laying the foundation for the MC coming to terms with his mistakes and trying to recover. Even then I'm not a big fan of the MC. Still, who hasn't in their early twenties had something they didn't fully understand and regret? And not just the MC's self-realization, mea culpa and actions, but the way the author gets to the heart of things, even voicing the feelings of what it's like to be gay, particularly at that time, and not just about the love of your life, but about one's sexual desires and society's disdain.
To its credit, it did take me back in time, and brought me to tears in the end.
[Gay Men’s Book Group-Chicago monthly selection]