***This review might be a bit spoilery so read at your own risk***
“Vive ut vivas.”
“What does it mean?”
“Live so that you may live.”
Now that I have had some sleep, and my head is a bit less defrazzled, I can now write and gush about this book. You are pre-warned: I might ramble on this review… a lot…about a specific tattooed Harley rider…I will try to be fair to the other characters as well. So, refill the wine glass and fluff up on the pillow, it’s going to be an all-nighter.
“This is real. Don’t ever doubt my feelings for you. For years I’ve watched you, wanted you—waited for you.”
“Thank you.”
“For what?”
“For loving me.”
“I’ll never not love you.”
I was hooked from the very beginning of the book. I knew reading the prologue I was going to connect with the characters. The female lead character, Jessica (what a GREAT name that is), is a real feisty chick. I REALLY connected with her. We had SO many things in common it was a bit scary. For instance, we both can’t live without coffee. I mean you think crack is addicting, try going a day without coffee. Ask anyone, Starbucks is my home away from home. The baristas know me by name and coffee type already. Anyways, where was I? Oh right, Jessica Harper, my spirit animal. She thinks Target is an essential in life. As do I. I go in for toothpaste and come out with a $100 receipt for random things. Go figure. We also bare tattoos on our wrist that remind us of an event/person in our life that made an impact. And yes! That specific place on your body is very sensitive! (I also got misty in the eyes) And one last thing we seem to have in common: we run away from loved ones when a huge and devastating event happens in our lives. We’ll come back to this a bit later.
“I will love you every day for the rest of my life, never forget that.”
“I love that you tell me this every day.”
“It’s because I mean it.”
Since Jessica was four years old, she has grown up with a loving and caring family full of siblings and loving parents and home cooked Spanish meals. Funny thing is though, this isn’t her ‘blood’ family. This family, the Garcia’s, are the next door neighbors that raised her since her own father pretty much ignores her ever since her mother died fourteen years ago. The Garcia’s make up of mom, dad, two older brothers, Luke and Gabe, and a younger sister, Ava, the same age as Jessica. Through the years they have included her in all family activities and made her one of the family. However, as the years went by, there was a slight shift in the kind of love one of the brothers had towards her.
“I can’t remember a time when I haven’t loved you. You have been a part of my life for over fourteen years. When you were younger, it was a different kind of love, but now, it’s the kind of love that makes me not want to live if I can’t be with you.”
Gabe Garcia is the brother that went from loving Jessica as a little sister to one day noticing that he didn’t love her like a sister but more like a…girl, a woman. His feelings for her blossomed over the years from childhood crush to one of deep, romantic feelings. He has been Jessica’s brother, protector, friend, and now lover. Once those feelings are out, there is no going back. They go head on into their relationship, making plans in their love and in their future. However, these plans come to a screeching halt when a devastating event happens to Jessica that shakes not only her but the whole family as well. This event is what leads Jessica away from Gabe and on to another path she never thought she would be taking.
Driving away from everything I knew was the scariest, yet most liberating experience of my life. I was broken in every way possible and needed to find out who I was amongst the shattered pieces.
And this is where her next journey takes her, away from her father, the Garcia’s and from Gabe. Leaving her family behind, Jessica takes on an internship that takes her clear across the nation. The East coast is where she finds herself and starts to heal. Here is where she also finds Landon Christianson.
“Landon?”
“Yeah, baby girl?”
“Thank you.”
“For what?”
“For not running away from me, for listening to me and caring about me.”
Landon, Landon, Landon. Where do I even START with you? I mean, from the moment Jessica opened the door, I thought I was going to pounce on Landon MYSELF. (Good thing we got his POV of too) I would like to say he is the boy that Jessica meets while healing herself, but Landon is no BOY. He is ALL MAN; a tattooed, Harley driving, alpha male cop. He is the epitome of a bad boy. And this bad boy wants Jessica (THIS Jessica *points to self* wants him too!) I want to gush and ramble and tell you guys that Landon is all perfection. In my eyes, he did no wrong. Even from the beginning when you thought he was going to be a prick, the thought of “this guy is going to fall and fall HARD” is in the back of your head. And boy does he fall. He falls deep in the well of love and heart break. Landon Christianson is a beautiful and good man but deep down, he too, has some demons and secrets. He cares and falls hard for Jessica, never thinking he could ever fall in love with any woman. But alas, even when he tries to connect with her, her heart is elsewhere with someone else. So he does the noble and right thing. He makes a decision that breaks his heart but will mend hers. He knows that deep down, she was never his. (Sidenote: before all the “right choices” were made on Landon’s part, there is a scene that happens between Jessica and Landon that I read a few times in a row. It was EXTREMELY hot. Although, it’s what also made me wonder what those deep rooted demons are in him)
“Never be afraid to feel. It’s the only way to really live. If you don’t feel, there is no way you can love, heal, or forgive. You’ll never move forward or get past this.”
I want to gush more about this book but I am pretty sure you are tired of my ramblings. I could be here all day talking about it and the love I have for Landon Christianson. And speaking of the tattooed bad boy, I cyber stalked the author about her upcoming book. I was informed that the next book is going to be Landon’s book, but you guys already knew that because we got a sneaky peak at the end of UNBREAKABLE. Right after the Epilogue, we got a glimpse of Landon’s story, which Ms. Shea tells me will be darker and grittier. I. Can. Not. Wait. I am really looking forward to his book as well as any other book the author writes after this series. I highly recommend you read it.
Favorite quotes:
“How do you like your coffee, Jessica?”
“Black with room for some creamer.”
“Black huh? Just how I like my car, my men and my coffee.”
The most important lessons I took away: it’s okay to hurt and to be broken, but it’s also imperative to forgive and heal. You have to feel to be able to love. But most importantly, every girl needs a tattooed bad boy to teach her to really live. That boy needs to kiss her like she’s never been kissed, to put her on the back of his motorcycle so she can feel the wind on her face and in her hair, take her for the first tattoo—and to let her go when he knows he’s not the man she really needs. Landon will always be that man, an important part of my life; my friend forever.
Learning to forgive is the hardest barrier in any relationship, including the one you have with yourself.