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308 pages, Kindle Edition
First published February 6, 2013
Josephine Nehr was sexually assaulted by someone she trusted. Since then she has been incapable and unwilling to become involved with any man. Looking to move past her issues, she decides the best way to do so is by reliving a similar experience. Jo wants the pain. Wants to give up control, in a controlled way.
But there is a major road block in her plans. A road block named Ted Basel. One of three of the club's co-owners and a Dom, he refuses to pair her with a Dom. Mostly because he's drawn to her himself, but also because he knows that she has issues and isn't going about working through them the right way. When he finally gives in and assigns a Dom to her, it doesn't go as expected.
Because Jo wants Ted. He's the Dom for her and no other will do. She won't submit to anyone else. No other can get past her defenses. So, against his better judgment, Ted relents and agrees to give her what she wants. On his terms. And thus begins a battle of wills between a reluctant Dom and a feisty sub.
And by feisty sub, I mean there is A LOT of bratting. Whew. I am all for the bratting – sometimes the punishment is the reward – but damn. Jo is a sub of another color. She takes spirited to a whole new level. Not that I blame her, because Ted isn't exactly in the right mindset most of the time he's with her.
Ted has some serious issues of his own to work through. The man does not trust women. At all. Because of that, he sometimes came across as a bad Dom. He wants the truth but never gives it. And he treats Jo, knowingly, how she doesn't want to be treated. Forcing her to go past her hard limits. Which turn out not to be so hard, but still. If she's lists them as such, he should respect that. He doesn't go easy on her at all. And I wasn't a fan of him forcing her into a Master/slave relationship solely to keep her at a distance. It was all very… complicated.
But I did enjoy it immensely. Kink comes in many flavors and this dynamic was a new one for me. Miz Murphy can write some seriously sexy scenes that are hot and kinky and imaginative. Her characters stand out. The BDSM lifestyle felt real.
Favorite Quote:
“Do it. I want you to come for me now. Now.”
It was the last push into her that did it. That hard caress sent her over the edge and she fell. Hard. Fast. Gasping for breath as she involuntarily quivered and shook.
Her whole body reacted. Every muscle within her tensed while the lower ones clamped around his fingers and squeezed.
“Jesus fuck, that’s what I’m after. Once my cock gets in to you, you’re going to milk me with this kind of strength. Do you want to milk the come out of me?”
The suspended squeeze snapped as her body let go. Trembling and quaking until she heard his groan. At the sound, her insides melted and she spun out of control. Falling off the edge of the world until a flood of hot desire poured. She was sure it rushed down his fingers and pooled into his palm.
He kissed her hip, her navel and the top of her mound. “I’m proud of you, princess. Very, very proud.”
-- A Romantic Book Affairs Review.
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‘This latest stunt was a clear indication that he’d been right all along about her. She was trouble with a capital T. Only for you, because you want her. Bad. Fuck.’

‘The concept had seemed logical and easy enough until she’d fallen in lust with one of the Doms. Ted Basel. Him. The bastard. Suddenly nothing was easy because she was forced to spend time around him. And as for logic? Well, that went out the window the moment she confided her attraction to him to her BF. Before Jo knew it her friend had decided Ted was the Dom who should Top her. Only he refused. Double bastard.’
“Stop analyzing,” he whispered in her ear. “Tonight you do what I want. You get what I want to give you. Your needs are mine to control, do you understand?”
‘The heat and hardness brought home just how well he was in a position to control, whether she wanted it or not. But she wanted it. Secretly, she wanted it bad. Pain, pleasure, heaven or hell, his kind of confidence commanded respect so she nodded.’

“I can assure you.” The tip of his tongue licked the crease and then he leaned back. “There’s nothing clean about me. Especially where you’re concerned because I intend to be the dirtiest bastard around with you.”

‘By the time Ted parked his ass on the couch at home, he’d already made up his mind. He couldn’t let her go, but he should. He wouldn’t let her go, but he wanted to. This was like some cosmic joke rearing up to mock him. Because this time he’d pointblank warned his woman not to lie to him and she had. What the fuck?’ blockquote>
A happy surprise about this book? It made me laugh. Not gut belly laugh, but it was sarcastic, witty, funny – made me smile. Another reason I think I liked this book so much was because I had no clue what was going to happen. No predictions, no thoughts, I was just reading and going with the flow. The rug was pulled out from underneath me at least twice and there was one point where I was ceremoniously bitch slapped in the face. And I liked it. Another added factor in spurring me to want to read the first two books, the ‘secondary’ characters. While they are not in the book a lot, they left an impact enough for me to remember them and like them. Colin (a girl named Colin, how cool is that?) and Ethan – they’re from the first book, just sound like too much fun. Especially Colin. And then Lacey and David…there’s a scene with a chainsaw and a chastity belt – I need more on this scene, I’m hoping their book is the next in the series because they earned it from what I read. Oh and as usual the epilogue was fantastic. Made me grin like a goofy 13 year old girl over Justin Beiber.“When someone gives you a gift, they shouldn’t have control over how or when you use it. They shouldn’t be able to take it back because it’s yours irrevocably. The difference between a D/s relationship and the one we will be entering in together is simple. The moment you sign those pages you will have consented to surrender to me your will, control and decisions. That’s the only choice for you to make because the rest of the choices are then all mine. You can’t take back your gift, because in this case?” He patted the pages. “It would be no better than stealing as that gift is now mine and in my possession. It is my property to use and enjoy at my discretion. You have no claim to it.”
A clear sign that I love a book is when I highlight the crap out of it. I had problems picking my quotes for this and I’m struggling to control my ‘Jo tendencies’ to say screw it again and post all the quotes I want to…but I won’t. I was open for the ‘norm’ when I picked this book and was more than pleasantly surprised with what I got. I can honestly say I am totally on board with Miss. Murphy and her writing style – count me in for any more of this series cause if the first book I read knocks my socks off this much, it can only get better form here.

(1) Erroneously thought that I had read an earlier work by Ms. Murphy so didn’t expect such a TLC story. I generally prefer my BDSM reads to be more on the harder side but this, in and of itself, is not a deal breaker.
(2) I tend to shy away from storylines which involve use of BDSM for emotional/psychological therapy.
(3) I draw a distinction between D/s and M/s relationships so the unexpected switch mid-story with little foundation didn’t work so well for me.
(4) I have a hard line when it comes to the safeword and hard limits, and misuse and/or violations of either usually are deal breakers for me.
“I expect you to take what I’m going to do to you without complaint. If it proves to be too much for you say your safe word and I’ll let you leave…for good. Understood?”