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Dark Secret Love
Dark Secret Love is a modern-day Story of O, a 9 1/2 Weeks-style journey fueled by lust, longing and the search for true love. Inspired by her BDSM lifestyle and based on her private diaries, Tyler draws on her twenty-five years' experience penning sultry stories to create a scorchingly hot work of autobiographical fiction, a meta-novel with reality at the core.
Take a deep breath and get your safe word handy. Alison Tyler will push your boundaries to their limits—and have you begging for more.
Take a deep breath and get your safe word handy. Alison Tyler will push your boundaries to their limits—and have you begging for more.
230 pages, Paperback
First published July 4, 2013
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Alison Tyler
264 books402 followersAlison Tyler is an American author, editor and publisher of erotica, living in Northern California. She has authored over 20 explicit novels, hundreds of short stories and has edited more than 30 erotic anthologies.
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October 8, 2013
I wish I'd had Alison Tyler's book, Dark Secret Love, when I was young. This is the sort of fiction that can save a person—wise about the world, unashamed, unafraid of truth, full of voice and strength.
Something like this might have saved me from years of self-imposed sexual denial, the marriage based on pretending not to like the things I like, the visits to the therapist who tried to teach me how to fantasize about something "nice."
Tyler had me from word one of this book—the book starts hard and moves fast. She really captured me, however, when she wrote about the big mistake her main character Samantha makes—"depriving me of any sexual pleasure for three lonely years." That mistake turns out to be getting involved with a man who forces her to be someone she's not, and a lot of Dark Secret Love is about Samantha escaping from that terrible, soul-crushing sort of emotional bondage and finding freedom in the wild, sexy sort of bondage that she craves.
I've read plenty of books about doms and subs, pleasure and pain, but it's so rare and special to find one so raw and powerful. Samantha, the main character, seeks her own pleasure. She's no passive toy. She explores, makes mistakes, gets lucky, and slowly claims her own needs and desires.
I love the way Cleis Press designed the covers for this series, because even the covers of the books say this to me. They're girly and hard-core at the same time. Just looking at the cover of this book (and of the sequel, The Delicious Torment), I can see that what's being written about is a woman's pleasure.
There is a love story, a very important romance, but it takes its time arriving. I liked that. Every time a new man appeared, I wasn't sure how significant he would be or how long he would stay around, and that reflects life. Tyler knows the reader is expecting the happily ever after, and she makes a tease out of the reveal. It's a fun game.
Samantha's journey is also very hot. It's filled with delicious scenes of spanking, bondage, public display, anal sex, and the testing of limits, and all of them ring with authenticity.
When Tyler writes about her main character being caned, she talks about getting six strokes (more eventually, because the count inevitably starts over, but the amount she and her top are talking about her taking is six). I appreciated this because, for anyone who has any idea of how much caning can hurt, six is the sort of number that ought to be getting talked about. As soon as I read "six," I knew this book was written by someone who knows the deal.
I read it in a delicious buzz of arousal. It's the sort of book that screws up plans—plans of starting work on time, of going to bed, or of going anywhere. But I found that what I appreciated most, even more than the heat of it, was having Tyler's strong voice as a companion. It healed me to read about Samantha admitting what she needed. I have so often wondered why I couldn't just have "normal sex," so I was moved when Samantha also wonders why. I felt her relief every time she found a man who understood those needs in any way. I felt her appreciation for those men and her enjoyment of them.
Samantha's insights often seared me or stunned me. Tyler's prose is clean and clear, presenting her character's revelations as nakedly as the character so often presents herself.
I will admit that I sometimes am bored these days by reading about what I think of as basic BDSM—some handcuffs here, a whipping there. Tyler's writing reminded me that when a person lives it, needs it, and does it with connection, there's nothing boring or basic about any of it. It was refreshing to be turned on as hell over things I sometimes now find run of the mill. It made me wonder how it could ever be boring to me. It made me remember what it was like to want it so badly and be afraid to even whisper about what I wanted.
Late in the book, Samantha says, "Good-girl sex, the type I always imagine other people to be having in their dark bedrooms every night, with minty breath and cooing dove talk, that sort of sex isn't meant for me."
I've had similar thoughts, but I don't think I ever put it so boldly to myself. The most important books I've read are the ones that manage to say what I need to say but can't quite articulate. The author says her piece and somehow in the process also gives me a lost piece of myself.
(This review originally appeared on Robot Lovers Prey on the Lonely. I participated in the official blog tour but bought my own copy of the book).
Something like this might have saved me from years of self-imposed sexual denial, the marriage based on pretending not to like the things I like, the visits to the therapist who tried to teach me how to fantasize about something "nice."
Tyler had me from word one of this book—the book starts hard and moves fast. She really captured me, however, when she wrote about the big mistake her main character Samantha makes—"depriving me of any sexual pleasure for three lonely years." That mistake turns out to be getting involved with a man who forces her to be someone she's not, and a lot of Dark Secret Love is about Samantha escaping from that terrible, soul-crushing sort of emotional bondage and finding freedom in the wild, sexy sort of bondage that she craves.
I've read plenty of books about doms and subs, pleasure and pain, but it's so rare and special to find one so raw and powerful. Samantha, the main character, seeks her own pleasure. She's no passive toy. She explores, makes mistakes, gets lucky, and slowly claims her own needs and desires.
I love the way Cleis Press designed the covers for this series, because even the covers of the books say this to me. They're girly and hard-core at the same time. Just looking at the cover of this book (and of the sequel, The Delicious Torment), I can see that what's being written about is a woman's pleasure.
There is a love story, a very important romance, but it takes its time arriving. I liked that. Every time a new man appeared, I wasn't sure how significant he would be or how long he would stay around, and that reflects life. Tyler knows the reader is expecting the happily ever after, and she makes a tease out of the reveal. It's a fun game.
Samantha's journey is also very hot. It's filled with delicious scenes of spanking, bondage, public display, anal sex, and the testing of limits, and all of them ring with authenticity.
When Tyler writes about her main character being caned, she talks about getting six strokes (more eventually, because the count inevitably starts over, but the amount she and her top are talking about her taking is six). I appreciated this because, for anyone who has any idea of how much caning can hurt, six is the sort of number that ought to be getting talked about. As soon as I read "six," I knew this book was written by someone who knows the deal.
I read it in a delicious buzz of arousal. It's the sort of book that screws up plans—plans of starting work on time, of going to bed, or of going anywhere. But I found that what I appreciated most, even more than the heat of it, was having Tyler's strong voice as a companion. It healed me to read about Samantha admitting what she needed. I have so often wondered why I couldn't just have "normal sex," so I was moved when Samantha also wonders why. I felt her relief every time she found a man who understood those needs in any way. I felt her appreciation for those men and her enjoyment of them.
Samantha's insights often seared me or stunned me. Tyler's prose is clean and clear, presenting her character's revelations as nakedly as the character so often presents herself.
I will admit that I sometimes am bored these days by reading about what I think of as basic BDSM—some handcuffs here, a whipping there. Tyler's writing reminded me that when a person lives it, needs it, and does it with connection, there's nothing boring or basic about any of it. It was refreshing to be turned on as hell over things I sometimes now find run of the mill. It made me wonder how it could ever be boring to me. It made me remember what it was like to want it so badly and be afraid to even whisper about what I wanted.
Late in the book, Samantha says, "Good-girl sex, the type I always imagine other people to be having in their dark bedrooms every night, with minty breath and cooing dove talk, that sort of sex isn't meant for me."
I've had similar thoughts, but I don't think I ever put it so boldly to myself. The most important books I've read are the ones that manage to say what I need to say but can't quite articulate. The author says her piece and somehow in the process also gives me a lost piece of myself.
(This review originally appeared on Robot Lovers Prey on the Lonely. I participated in the official blog tour but bought my own copy of the book).
November 4, 2013
I only have one problem with Alison Tyler and her book, Dark Secret Love. She's far too modest. Even though the accolades pour in from the likes of Violet Blue, Rachel Kramer Bussel, The Guardian and many more, Alison herself seems to be a modest girl who just enjoys documenting her saucy anecdotes, polished with some writer's prerogative flair. Perhaps this is what makes Dark Secret Love such a refreshing read. Unpredictable, honest and raw. Perhaps this is why I was in tears on a couple of occasions before I hit the last page.
Curious? You should be.
Evidently popular from the many positive reviews in the erotica reviewing and blogging scene, Dark Secret Love is the tale of submission from Alison Tyler herself. Although the prologue admits that certain characters, names and scenes have been changed slightly, Alison assures us, as readers, that her past is there between the lines, between the pages.
Taking this book to bed with me has been an enjoyable experience as I discovered more about Alison Tyler and her submission tale. Her take on BDSM much reflects my own, that romance can and regularly is found in the darkest corners of the BDSM and Fetish world. The understanding between those in the scene, the etiquette and reassuring codes of conduct. The healthy respect for people's particular kink tastes, wherever they are on the spectrum. As well as, of course, a healthy sprinkling of some of the hottest, raunchiest spanking and BDSM scenes you will ever have the privilege of reading.
The journey through our protagonist's love and kink life enables us to discover rich characters along the way. Sex partners, vanilla partners, play partners, Dominants and Masters. Club scenes are atmospheric and rich, making us taut with the nerves our main character herself feels. Bedroom scenes are emotional and moving, spiced with edgy kink, relevant mentality and sensations.
Those in the BDSM scene will not be disappointed with Dark Secret Love, it's an honest and moving tale with a satisfying conclusion to the book, if not the story. Our appetite (and other places) remain wet for more. Those who are considering dabbling in BDSM and Kink, whether with play partners or a romantic partner, will learn the highs and lows that they may encounter. Just as there are highs and lows to vanilla sex and romance encounters too.
This is a highly recommended read. I have already mentioned in my Blogasm 500 challenge and other erotic posts at my Cara Sutra blog the effect reading this book had on me, mostly thoroughly enjoyable masturbation and even inciting anal sex. That's a powerful book.
Get this book now!
- Cara Sutra
Curious? You should be.
Evidently popular from the many positive reviews in the erotica reviewing and blogging scene, Dark Secret Love is the tale of submission from Alison Tyler herself. Although the prologue admits that certain characters, names and scenes have been changed slightly, Alison assures us, as readers, that her past is there between the lines, between the pages.
Taking this book to bed with me has been an enjoyable experience as I discovered more about Alison Tyler and her submission tale. Her take on BDSM much reflects my own, that romance can and regularly is found in the darkest corners of the BDSM and Fetish world. The understanding between those in the scene, the etiquette and reassuring codes of conduct. The healthy respect for people's particular kink tastes, wherever they are on the spectrum. As well as, of course, a healthy sprinkling of some of the hottest, raunchiest spanking and BDSM scenes you will ever have the privilege of reading.
The journey through our protagonist's love and kink life enables us to discover rich characters along the way. Sex partners, vanilla partners, play partners, Dominants and Masters. Club scenes are atmospheric and rich, making us taut with the nerves our main character herself feels. Bedroom scenes are emotional and moving, spiced with edgy kink, relevant mentality and sensations.
Those in the BDSM scene will not be disappointed with Dark Secret Love, it's an honest and moving tale with a satisfying conclusion to the book, if not the story. Our appetite (and other places) remain wet for more. Those who are considering dabbling in BDSM and Kink, whether with play partners or a romantic partner, will learn the highs and lows that they may encounter. Just as there are highs and lows to vanilla sex and romance encounters too.
This is a highly recommended read. I have already mentioned in my Blogasm 500 challenge and other erotic posts at my Cara Sutra blog the effect reading this book had on me, mostly thoroughly enjoyable masturbation and even inciting anal sex. That's a powerful book.
Get this book now!
- Cara Sutra
November 19, 2017
1.5* rounded down for a consistent lack of consent and negotiation while propagating to be BDSM and for being - ultimately - very boring...
September 10, 2013
I often read a book and realize it's got a clear tug of a connection to the last book I read, mostly because my brain is making the connections. But Alison's books really is similar to Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe because in both stories, the protagonist is a loosely fictionalized story of the author's personal journey, one that's confused, and obsessive, and miserable, and alternately joyous, and hinged on someone older and wiser letting the younger protagonist know they understand who they are and what they need. Who they love. What love is.
Alison's book is neither romance nor, in my view, erotica, even though I shelved it there because that's where her stuff lives. Those who say it's super-hot? I don't totally understand. Yes, she relates her relationships from her first lover to her last, the one she's been with for decades and with whom we know she's found the answers for what she seeks. There's detail. There's graphic sex. But she's a mess, unable to tell anyone with anything but her body what she desires, how sex and pain are woven together in a jumble in her autonomic nervous system.
Like Aristotle,this book is ultimately about being accepted for who you are, as weird and unpalatable as that seems even to you. As such, I thought the book was great. She doesn't muddle the issue with lots of context. We don's know about her family, we see little of her jobs or daily life. What we're told is she's on a journey, with her sexual satisfaction linked so closely to her life satisfaction that we have to go through the sex to see where she ends up as a writer.
And it's fascinating, but also sad. There's a lot of pain and suffering, not just the willing beatings she needs to be satisfied but the rejection she feels, the shame at her secret desires previously channeled only into her fantasy fiction.
Deeply personal doesn't begin to describe what this trilogy is for her. But when people say "this is what Fifty Shades should have been," I think they're missing the point. This is an incredible memoir, not a pop fantasy. She has a wicked sense of humor so it's fun and bearable, but it's emotional and frequently harsh. Not for the weak of heart, which will never include Alison Tyler.
This poem is often interpreted as a sensual woman offering herself to a possessive man who ruins the pleasure she takes in her bed, so it's interesting Tyler used the key phrase as her title. She's taking back the night, so to speak, and saying you can offer yourself to a possessive man and increase the crimson joy, where pain can be pleasure and possession can be salvation. I like it. Tyler's a smart, honest writer and her struggle--being autonomous and self-respecting enough to seek what she needs sexually until she's satisfied and satisfies the partner she loves--is an interesting twist on feminism and a brain (and body) teaser for modern women.
Alison's book is neither romance nor, in my view, erotica, even though I shelved it there because that's where her stuff lives. Those who say it's super-hot? I don't totally understand. Yes, she relates her relationships from her first lover to her last, the one she's been with for decades and with whom we know she's found the answers for what she seeks. There's detail. There's graphic sex. But she's a mess, unable to tell anyone with anything but her body what she desires, how sex and pain are woven together in a jumble in her autonomic nervous system.
Like Aristotle,this book is ultimately about being accepted for who you are, as weird and unpalatable as that seems even to you. As such, I thought the book was great. She doesn't muddle the issue with lots of context. We don's know about her family, we see little of her jobs or daily life. What we're told is she's on a journey, with her sexual satisfaction linked so closely to her life satisfaction that we have to go through the sex to see where she ends up as a writer.
And it's fascinating, but also sad. There's a lot of pain and suffering, not just the willing beatings she needs to be satisfied but the rejection she feels, the shame at her secret desires previously channeled only into her fantasy fiction.
Deeply personal doesn't begin to describe what this trilogy is for her. But when people say "this is what Fifty Shades should have been," I think they're missing the point. This is an incredible memoir, not a pop fantasy. She has a wicked sense of humor so it's fun and bearable, but it's emotional and frequently harsh. Not for the weak of heart, which will never include Alison Tyler.
O Rose, though art sick!
The invisible worm
That flies in the night
In the howling storm,
He has found they bed
Of crimson joy,
And his dark secret love
Does thy life destroy
--William Blake (1757-1827)
This poem is often interpreted as a sensual woman offering herself to a possessive man who ruins the pleasure she takes in her bed, so it's interesting Tyler used the key phrase as her title. She's taking back the night, so to speak, and saying you can offer yourself to a possessive man and increase the crimson joy, where pain can be pleasure and possession can be salvation. I like it. Tyler's a smart, honest writer and her struggle--being autonomous and self-respecting enough to seek what she needs sexually until she's satisfied and satisfies the partner she loves--is an interesting twist on feminism and a brain (and body) teaser for modern women.
March 18, 2015
Alison Tyler is one of my favorite erotic writers. I've read a fair number of her anthologies, but never an independent story/novel until I got a hold of this trilogy. Her excellent writing shines even more when she is given more pages to work with. She has a gift for pulling her readers (at least, for pulling) me into her stories, and this one is no exception. I was drawn into Dark Secret Love from the prologue. Tyler's writing ensured that I was with Samantha for every scene, every emotion, and every pain that she felt, and I loved it.
Part of this attachment is probably because this book is a blend of nonfiction and fiction, as Tyler explains in the introduction. I think this gives the book a more personal feel, a raw honesty that I don't often find in BDSM-related books. Maybe that's why I like Samantha so much. I related to this main character so much. The desire for pain, the silent "know" that some people just have about those into the scene. These are all things I've experienced, so I felt for Samantha all the stronger. She was my favorite character. I wasn't always the biggest fan of some of her Dom's decisions, so I wasn't as connected to him.
This is a book about exploration into a dark, sexual place. It was fascinating to see Samantha and her emotions and relationships shape over the course of the novel, and I think that it's something that a lot of people in the BDSM scene will relate to. While I can't speak for everyone, I can certainly say that this sub did.
The sex scenes are well written to say the least. They're detailed, dirty, and I'm sure other D words that I've forgotten. There's plenty of them, and they're sure to arouse you. Even some of the darker scenes- and this book is definitely dark- will tug at people and take them by surprise. That said there is more to sex in this book. It's a blend of romance and erotica and nonfiction and fantasy all with a haunting dark tone lying underneath. It sounds like it has a lot of things put into one, but somehow it works. It works really well.
A quick note on the cover: I think it's perfect. It's feminine and almost innocent looking, but blended with the cuffs it perfectly symbolizes the journey it holds between the covers.
This is one of the few full length novels featuring BDSM themes that I've ever read, and I'm glad that I gave it a try. This is the first book in a trilogy, and I will definitely be continuing on with the series. This is an adult book with adult themes: explicit sex, BDSM, profanity, and things of that nature. If you're a reader over 18+ who have an interest in erotica, bondage, BDSM, or sex in general, I definitely recommend that you check this book out.
I was provided a copy by Cleis Press in exchange for my honest review. This review can also be found on my blog, Bitches n Prose.
Part of this attachment is probably because this book is a blend of nonfiction and fiction, as Tyler explains in the introduction. I think this gives the book a more personal feel, a raw honesty that I don't often find in BDSM-related books. Maybe that's why I like Samantha so much. I related to this main character so much. The desire for pain, the silent "know" that some people just have about those into the scene. These are all things I've experienced, so I felt for Samantha all the stronger. She was my favorite character. I wasn't always the biggest fan of some of her Dom's decisions, so I wasn't as connected to him.
This is a book about exploration into a dark, sexual place. It was fascinating to see Samantha and her emotions and relationships shape over the course of the novel, and I think that it's something that a lot of people in the BDSM scene will relate to. While I can't speak for everyone, I can certainly say that this sub did.
The sex scenes are well written to say the least. They're detailed, dirty, and I'm sure other D words that I've forgotten. There's plenty of them, and they're sure to arouse you. Even some of the darker scenes- and this book is definitely dark- will tug at people and take them by surprise. That said there is more to sex in this book. It's a blend of romance and erotica and nonfiction and fantasy all with a haunting dark tone lying underneath. It sounds like it has a lot of things put into one, but somehow it works. It works really well.
A quick note on the cover: I think it's perfect. It's feminine and almost innocent looking, but blended with the cuffs it perfectly symbolizes the journey it holds between the covers.
This is one of the few full length novels featuring BDSM themes that I've ever read, and I'm glad that I gave it a try. This is the first book in a trilogy, and I will definitely be continuing on with the series. This is an adult book with adult themes: explicit sex, BDSM, profanity, and things of that nature. If you're a reader over 18+ who have an interest in erotica, bondage, BDSM, or sex in general, I definitely recommend that you check this book out.
I was provided a copy by Cleis Press in exchange for my honest review. This review can also be found on my blog, Bitches n Prose.
May 26, 2014
Alison Tyler's writing speaks to me on so many levels, I'm not sure where to start. How about the gorgeous prose, the dark-chocolate-dipped sentences that make it physically impossible to put down the book? I've sustained a few tripping-induced injuries because of this, but I don't hold it against her.
Dark Secret Love is taut, sex-drenched (of course), and the most accurate depiction of BDSM dynamics that I've ever read. Samantha's thoughts and desires mirrored my own in such a scarily accurate way that I could swear Alison has been peeking into my dreams.
The worst thing about this book is that it ended. If you've never read Alison Tyler before, do yourself a favor and get a copy right now. Yes, now!
Dark Secret Love is taut, sex-drenched (of course), and the most accurate depiction of BDSM dynamics that I've ever read. Samantha's thoughts and desires mirrored my own in such a scarily accurate way that I could swear Alison has been peeking into my dreams.
The worst thing about this book is that it ended. If you've never read Alison Tyler before, do yourself a favor and get a copy right now. Yes, now!
October 3, 2013
Dark Secret Love is a book I wanted to read ever since Alison posted the cover on her blog for the first time and described the project. It’s not only the most beautiful cover I’ve ever seen in the genre, the premise made me a little giddy, too. I read most of the classic bdsm novels when I was still a teenager – I stole Justine from my grandparent’s library, found the Story of O in tatters in a box of old paperbacks. I don’t know where I got the others, what secrecy was involved but I always wanted to find out about this, needed to read. That doesn’t mean I loved them all, the truth is I didn’t find what I was looking for in any of them – but each of them had a strong voice that pulled me through anyway.
It’s that voice that I often miss in contemporary erotica, why I actually read in the genre pretty rarely, especially when it comes to longer works. Dark Secret Love has that voice – a different one really, a brand new one. When I tried to sort it into my goodreads shelves I didn’t even know where to put it at first – erotica? romance? contemporary lit? It has elements of all of those and that’s what makes it so good – it breaks some rules, it emerges out of the sea of slightly stale sexy stories as something different.
Dark Secret Love, like the tag line suggests, is a story about submission, but it’s also – and I think more so, a story about submissives, about the long and difficult emotional journey of that particular sexual orientation. It’s a story about a young woman searching and trying, about her failing and trying again. And it doesn’t matter that what I personally was ultimately looking for was very different from the heroine’s – it’s the struggle that resonated.
Alison Tyler doesn’t gloss over the difficult parts, she doesn’t start the story where the heroine meets the man of her dreams – hell, even when she finds him, it’s a complicated thing. Because being sub is sometimes really complicated, and there is communication involved and a lot of contemplation and experimentation until it feels all right to be who you are. I loved how Dark Secret Love captured this.
For me, it wasn’t erotica or romance – it didn’t feel like genre, much like Alison expressed in the interview above – it just a story of a woman. And due to the nature of her story, it contained a lot of beautifully written sex and submission, but it has a lot more to offer. In fact, I thought this would have still been a great and compelling story without any adult material in it at all. That was just a bonus, made it more real, even more tangible.
There was a beautiful authenticity to her voice, that made reading almost an act of voyeurism rather than the idea of taking the place of the heroine, like it is so often the case in erotica. This is not a shell of a character I could project myself on, it’s a very much alive and loud person of her own who tells me her story. And I loved every minute of it.
Especially as an author myself, I don’t want to finish this review without praising Cleis Press for the cover design and formatting. It’s so gorgeous, understated and sweet – it gives me exactly the right feeling to read this novel and the chapter headings, the font, everything was just perfectly designed and made the reading experience that much nicer.
It’s that voice that I often miss in contemporary erotica, why I actually read in the genre pretty rarely, especially when it comes to longer works. Dark Secret Love has that voice – a different one really, a brand new one. When I tried to sort it into my goodreads shelves I didn’t even know where to put it at first – erotica? romance? contemporary lit? It has elements of all of those and that’s what makes it so good – it breaks some rules, it emerges out of the sea of slightly stale sexy stories as something different.
Dark Secret Love, like the tag line suggests, is a story about submission, but it’s also – and I think more so, a story about submissives, about the long and difficult emotional journey of that particular sexual orientation. It’s a story about a young woman searching and trying, about her failing and trying again. And it doesn’t matter that what I personally was ultimately looking for was very different from the heroine’s – it’s the struggle that resonated.
Alison Tyler doesn’t gloss over the difficult parts, she doesn’t start the story where the heroine meets the man of her dreams – hell, even when she finds him, it’s a complicated thing. Because being sub is sometimes really complicated, and there is communication involved and a lot of contemplation and experimentation until it feels all right to be who you are. I loved how Dark Secret Love captured this.
For me, it wasn’t erotica or romance – it didn’t feel like genre, much like Alison expressed in the interview above – it just a story of a woman. And due to the nature of her story, it contained a lot of beautifully written sex and submission, but it has a lot more to offer. In fact, I thought this would have still been a great and compelling story without any adult material in it at all. That was just a bonus, made it more real, even more tangible.
There was a beautiful authenticity to her voice, that made reading almost an act of voyeurism rather than the idea of taking the place of the heroine, like it is so often the case in erotica. This is not a shell of a character I could project myself on, it’s a very much alive and loud person of her own who tells me her story. And I loved every minute of it.
Especially as an author myself, I don’t want to finish this review without praising Cleis Press for the cover design and formatting. It’s so gorgeous, understated and sweet – it gives me exactly the right feeling to read this novel and the chapter headings, the font, everything was just perfectly designed and made the reading experience that much nicer.
February 24, 2014
Cocktails and Books Review
****4 1/2 stars****
Original Review Published here: http://www.cocktailsandbooks.com/gues...
Dark Secret Love: A Story of Submission is not a story but a journey. I was expecting a story and was blown completely away. It’s not a happy journey but what is striking is how realistic it is. This is a journey where we see Samantha figure out what she wants in her life and how to make everything work. We get to Samantha grow and learn from every relationship she was in good and bad. We are also reminded how complicated relationships are even in the best of times.
The author does a wonderful job of making you feel the characters emotions. Samantha does not know what is “wrong” with her but feels complete relief when she finds someone that understand what she cannot even voice. What I loved the most is the author does not just show the good part but also shows the bad parts as well. Also she does not gloss over them. I loved how communication was an important part of this book as well experimentation.
The sex scenes in this book are hot. This book is filled with all different kinds of scenes. There is bondage, caning, anal sex, public display, and so much more. I loved the verity but was also struck how truthful it was. It’s very easy to see that this book was written by someone that not just knows the lifestyle but also understand the lifestyle.
This is a book that blurs the lines between what we normally think of romance, and erotica because this book does not really fit either. This book is not just well written but the ring of authenticity is striking. The main and secondary characters are realistic, intense, and intriguing. Overall, this is a great book.
****4 1/2 stars****
Original Review Published here: http://www.cocktailsandbooks.com/gues...
Dark Secret Love: A Story of Submission is not a story but a journey. I was expecting a story and was blown completely away. It’s not a happy journey but what is striking is how realistic it is. This is a journey where we see Samantha figure out what she wants in her life and how to make everything work. We get to Samantha grow and learn from every relationship she was in good and bad. We are also reminded how complicated relationships are even in the best of times.
The author does a wonderful job of making you feel the characters emotions. Samantha does not know what is “wrong” with her but feels complete relief when she finds someone that understand what she cannot even voice. What I loved the most is the author does not just show the good part but also shows the bad parts as well. Also she does not gloss over them. I loved how communication was an important part of this book as well experimentation.
The sex scenes in this book are hot. This book is filled with all different kinds of scenes. There is bondage, caning, anal sex, public display, and so much more. I loved the verity but was also struck how truthful it was. It’s very easy to see that this book was written by someone that not just knows the lifestyle but also understand the lifestyle.
This is a book that blurs the lines between what we normally think of romance, and erotica because this book does not really fit either. This book is not just well written but the ring of authenticity is striking. The main and secondary characters are realistic, intense, and intriguing. Overall, this is a great book.
February 21, 2014
4.5 Cocktails
Dark Secret Love: A Story of Submission is not a story but a journey. I was expecting a story and was blown completely away. It’s not a happy journey but what is striking is how realistic it is. This is a journey where we see Samantha figure out what she wants in her life and how to make everything work. We get to Samantha grow and learn from every relationship she was in good and bad. We are also reminded how complicated relationships are even in the best of times.
The author does a wonderful job of making you feel the characters emotions. Samantha does not know what is “wrong” with her but feels complete relief when she finds someone that understand what she cannot even voice. What I loved the most is the author does not just show the good part but also shows the bad parts as well. Also she does not gloss over them. I loved how communication was an important part of this book as well experimentation.
The sex scenes in this book are hot. This book is filled with all different kinds of scenes. There is bondage, caning, anal sex, public display, and so much more. I loved the verity but was also struck how truthful it was. It’s very easy to see that this book was written by someone that not just knows the lifestyle but also understand the lifestyle.
This is a book that blurs the lines between what we normally think of romance, and erotica because this book does not really fit either. This book is not just well written but the ring of authenticity is striking. The main and secondary characters are realistic, intense, and intriguing. Overall, this is a great book.
Reviewed by Victoria for Cocktails and Books
Dark Secret Love: A Story of Submission is not a story but a journey. I was expecting a story and was blown completely away. It’s not a happy journey but what is striking is how realistic it is. This is a journey where we see Samantha figure out what she wants in her life and how to make everything work. We get to Samantha grow and learn from every relationship she was in good and bad. We are also reminded how complicated relationships are even in the best of times.
The author does a wonderful job of making you feel the characters emotions. Samantha does not know what is “wrong” with her but feels complete relief when she finds someone that understand what she cannot even voice. What I loved the most is the author does not just show the good part but also shows the bad parts as well. Also she does not gloss over them. I loved how communication was an important part of this book as well experimentation.
The sex scenes in this book are hot. This book is filled with all different kinds of scenes. There is bondage, caning, anal sex, public display, and so much more. I loved the verity but was also struck how truthful it was. It’s very easy to see that this book was written by someone that not just knows the lifestyle but also understand the lifestyle.
This is a book that blurs the lines between what we normally think of romance, and erotica because this book does not really fit either. This book is not just well written but the ring of authenticity is striking. The main and secondary characters are realistic, intense, and intriguing. Overall, this is a great book.
Reviewed by Victoria for Cocktails and Books
December 10, 2013
Told in a confessional style that makes you lean in close and keep flipping pages to see what secrets Alison/Sam will reveal next, this is a story of a woman out to find herself. Samantha is a deep submissive masochist who yearns for a man who can meet her sexual desires, even as she is ashamed of them. Because she is afraid to admit to something as horrible as WANTING pain and humiliation, she thinks in terms of failure and needing to be punished.
Various men fulfill these needs to varying degrees, but it's not until the last one that she is forced to confront the truth of her desires and allowed to fully luxuriate in the experience of an intense Master/slave relationship.
I didn't particularly care for the ultimate dom, because even though he forced her into a healthier mindset in some ways, he was also controlling and extremely jealous in less-than-acceptable ways for me.
Ultimately, this was an intense and incredibly hot read with a peek into what it's really like to come into your sexuality as a sexual submissive.
Various men fulfill these needs to varying degrees, but it's not until the last one that she is forced to confront the truth of her desires and allowed to fully luxuriate in the experience of an intense Master/slave relationship.
I didn't particularly care for the ultimate dom, because even though he forced her into a healthier mindset in some ways, he was also controlling and extremely jealous in less-than-acceptable ways for me.
Ultimately, this was an intense and incredibly hot read with a peek into what it's really like to come into your sexuality as a sexual submissive.
May 22, 2014
This book is a little bit of magic. It's everything BDSM fiction should be. I remember reading installments years ago as they were being written, and being fixated. It's such a joy to have them all in novel form to be devoured as a whole. I'm very much looking forward to the coming books and the continuation of the tale!
December 29, 2013
“Some men just know.”
Thus begins Alison Tyler's scorchingly honest memoir, appropriately titled “A Story of Submission”. Her prologue continues: “I've been lucky enough to find those men several times in my life.”
Dark Secret Love chronicles Ms. Tyler's journey through relationships with several dominants, as she struggles to accept her own needs for punishment and for pain. She was only eighteen when she met her first Dom – no virgin, but well aware already that “normal” sex didn't really satisfy her. “I didn't need to tell him anything,” she writes. “He saw me and gave me his number scrawled on a paper napkin. Call me, was all it said.”
To be so transparent to a Master – to be recognized for what you are and what you crave – in fact, not only recognized but approved and valued – is a heady experience for a submissive. (I can testify from personal experience.) No ordinary person would have guessed the author harbored the dark and deviant fantasies that consumed her. In her teens and twenties, Ms. Tyler (or maybe I can call her Alison, after the intimate confessions in this book) was smart, witty, self-confident, petite and pretty, responsible and hard working, a good girl in every way. Nobody would have guessed that she wanted to be beaten, used, humiliated, punished – that all her fantasies involved pain, that (in the words forced from her by one of her Doms) “It has to hurt.”
Nobody, that is, except those few men who in fact could give her what she needed. First there was Brock, the motorcycle-riding petty crook ten years her senior:
------
“I have a photo of him following a night of no sleep. He's wearing black jeans and no shirt under an open blazer and he's smoking a cigarette, but barely, the butt dangling from his lower lip. He has that insolent fuck you look that has always made me wet in a minute.”
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Then, after she moved in with her rich, narcissistic, hopelessly vanilla fiancé Byron, there was Connor, young, brash and California blond. Ultimately, her raw, stolen moments with Connor are the reason Byron throws her out on the street, not even allowing her access to her clothing.
Once she's free (or perhaps “set adrift” would be more appropriate), Connor arrives at her door with flowers. And a crop.
Alison's account of her three years with Byron will be enough to convince you that the skeleton of this tale is true. No one would fabricate such a stupid decision as to move in with a guy like him. Still, you can understand her motivations to some extent as a desperate attempt to be normal and socially acceptable. Externally Byron was everything a woman should want. Furthermore, as one of her Doms points out later, she did submit to him, for three years, wearing the clothing he chose, decorating his house the way he liked, suppressing her real self in a (hopeless) attempt to please him.
However, to paraphrase Shakespeare, kink will tell.
Connor leaves for Georgia, to pursue his own dreams. Alison stays behind in LA. (“We didn't have love. We had lust.”) Sleeping on a couch in the group apartment of a friend of a friend, the author gets involved with her two male roommates, Garrett and Nate. Both turn out to be well-practiced dominants, though Alison goes far deeper with Nate. This is one episode that felt fictional to me. Perhaps the ratio of dominants to the general population is significantly higher in Los Angeles than the rest of the world, but honestly, what are the chances both guys you're living with are hot, kinky, and skilled in the dominant arts? As well as kind and supportive?
Of course, maybe the author was more fortunate than most of us.
Finally, Alison encounters Jack, a steel-willed, frightfully powerful, intermittently cruel older man who not only sees what she needs, but forces her to admit it.
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“Say it. I want to hear you say it.”
A deep, shaking breath. “This isn't punishment.”
“What isn't?”
Eyes shut tight now. “The fact that you're going to use your belt on me.”
“I'm going to whip you.”
Oh, Jesus, please.
“You're going to whip me,” I repeat obediently. “But it's not a punishment. It's a reward.”
“Why?”
“Because I need it.” I choked on the statement, so difficult to admit, so hard to confess.
Jack brought his mouth close to my cheek then, kissed me fiercely, and when he spoke, his words were so soft I could barely hear them. “Don't worry so much, Sam. I need it, too.”
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Jack strips away whatever shreds of normality the author has left. He insists that she be absolutely faithful and obey him without question. He punishes her when she's resistant or disobedient – and when she's not. He's more extreme and more manipulative than I would ever want in a Dom, but somehow he's exactly the Master the author has always dreamed of. Dark Secret Love has a happily ever after (apparently, at least), of a peculiarly difficult sort that only BDSM aficionados will appreciate.
I believe this book. I've read many of Alison's short stories, and I recognized the scenarios from some of my favorites. We erotica authors all mine our pasts for fictional material. Now I understand why those brief tales felt so intense. They're slices of life, in the truest sense.
In addition to relating Alison's voyage of sexual discovery, Dark Secret Love also documents the history of her distinguished career as an author. She has written “forever” but only under Nate's benevolent dictatorship does she manage to actually finish a novel and submit her work. Writing has always been easy for her. She's merely capturing the events and revelations as they occur:
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And when we were done, if I wasn't too drained (or if he had decided to undo the straps holding me to his bed), I'd head back to my notebook and write it all down. You want to know how I can still remember different nuances, subtle lighting, scents, changes in the weather, the way the cool metal of his cuffs felt on my skin, the way I felt when I heard other girls' voices on the answering machine? That's simple. I recorded it all. Every important moment.
------
Later, Jack gives her rare permission to travel to New York on her own, to meet with publishers and editors, a thrilling experience that marks her transition from amateur to professional. Indeed, all her dominants support her literary aspirations. I'm very grateful.
If you're tired of the dozens of stories that whitewash BDSM – tales where the sub has more orgasms than stripes, where the first Master who recognizes her as a “natural submissive” turns out be her soul mate, where her fear disappears with the first mild slap on her bare ass – check out this book. Ms. Tyler makes it clear that being a submissive isn't necessarily easy. It's a process of growth. It may take years to unequivocally accept your own dark fantasies and be willing to live them without embarrassment or regret.
Thus begins Alison Tyler's scorchingly honest memoir, appropriately titled “A Story of Submission”. Her prologue continues: “I've been lucky enough to find those men several times in my life.”
Dark Secret Love chronicles Ms. Tyler's journey through relationships with several dominants, as she struggles to accept her own needs for punishment and for pain. She was only eighteen when she met her first Dom – no virgin, but well aware already that “normal” sex didn't really satisfy her. “I didn't need to tell him anything,” she writes. “He saw me and gave me his number scrawled on a paper napkin. Call me, was all it said.”
To be so transparent to a Master – to be recognized for what you are and what you crave – in fact, not only recognized but approved and valued – is a heady experience for a submissive. (I can testify from personal experience.) No ordinary person would have guessed the author harbored the dark and deviant fantasies that consumed her. In her teens and twenties, Ms. Tyler (or maybe I can call her Alison, after the intimate confessions in this book) was smart, witty, self-confident, petite and pretty, responsible and hard working, a good girl in every way. Nobody would have guessed that she wanted to be beaten, used, humiliated, punished – that all her fantasies involved pain, that (in the words forced from her by one of her Doms) “It has to hurt.”
Nobody, that is, except those few men who in fact could give her what she needed. First there was Brock, the motorcycle-riding petty crook ten years her senior:
------
“I have a photo of him following a night of no sleep. He's wearing black jeans and no shirt under an open blazer and he's smoking a cigarette, but barely, the butt dangling from his lower lip. He has that insolent fuck you look that has always made me wet in a minute.”
-------
Then, after she moved in with her rich, narcissistic, hopelessly vanilla fiancé Byron, there was Connor, young, brash and California blond. Ultimately, her raw, stolen moments with Connor are the reason Byron throws her out on the street, not even allowing her access to her clothing.
Once she's free (or perhaps “set adrift” would be more appropriate), Connor arrives at her door with flowers. And a crop.
Alison's account of her three years with Byron will be enough to convince you that the skeleton of this tale is true. No one would fabricate such a stupid decision as to move in with a guy like him. Still, you can understand her motivations to some extent as a desperate attempt to be normal and socially acceptable. Externally Byron was everything a woman should want. Furthermore, as one of her Doms points out later, she did submit to him, for three years, wearing the clothing he chose, decorating his house the way he liked, suppressing her real self in a (hopeless) attempt to please him.
However, to paraphrase Shakespeare, kink will tell.
Connor leaves for Georgia, to pursue his own dreams. Alison stays behind in LA. (“We didn't have love. We had lust.”) Sleeping on a couch in the group apartment of a friend of a friend, the author gets involved with her two male roommates, Garrett and Nate. Both turn out to be well-practiced dominants, though Alison goes far deeper with Nate. This is one episode that felt fictional to me. Perhaps the ratio of dominants to the general population is significantly higher in Los Angeles than the rest of the world, but honestly, what are the chances both guys you're living with are hot, kinky, and skilled in the dominant arts? As well as kind and supportive?
Of course, maybe the author was more fortunate than most of us.
Finally, Alison encounters Jack, a steel-willed, frightfully powerful, intermittently cruel older man who not only sees what she needs, but forces her to admit it.
-------
“Say it. I want to hear you say it.”
A deep, shaking breath. “This isn't punishment.”
“What isn't?”
Eyes shut tight now. “The fact that you're going to use your belt on me.”
“I'm going to whip you.”
Oh, Jesus, please.
“You're going to whip me,” I repeat obediently. “But it's not a punishment. It's a reward.”
“Why?”
“Because I need it.” I choked on the statement, so difficult to admit, so hard to confess.
Jack brought his mouth close to my cheek then, kissed me fiercely, and when he spoke, his words were so soft I could barely hear them. “Don't worry so much, Sam. I need it, too.”
------
Jack strips away whatever shreds of normality the author has left. He insists that she be absolutely faithful and obey him without question. He punishes her when she's resistant or disobedient – and when she's not. He's more extreme and more manipulative than I would ever want in a Dom, but somehow he's exactly the Master the author has always dreamed of. Dark Secret Love has a happily ever after (apparently, at least), of a peculiarly difficult sort that only BDSM aficionados will appreciate.
I believe this book. I've read many of Alison's short stories, and I recognized the scenarios from some of my favorites. We erotica authors all mine our pasts for fictional material. Now I understand why those brief tales felt so intense. They're slices of life, in the truest sense.
In addition to relating Alison's voyage of sexual discovery, Dark Secret Love also documents the history of her distinguished career as an author. She has written “forever” but only under Nate's benevolent dictatorship does she manage to actually finish a novel and submit her work. Writing has always been easy for her. She's merely capturing the events and revelations as they occur:
------
And when we were done, if I wasn't too drained (or if he had decided to undo the straps holding me to his bed), I'd head back to my notebook and write it all down. You want to know how I can still remember different nuances, subtle lighting, scents, changes in the weather, the way the cool metal of his cuffs felt on my skin, the way I felt when I heard other girls' voices on the answering machine? That's simple. I recorded it all. Every important moment.
------
Later, Jack gives her rare permission to travel to New York on her own, to meet with publishers and editors, a thrilling experience that marks her transition from amateur to professional. Indeed, all her dominants support her literary aspirations. I'm very grateful.
If you're tired of the dozens of stories that whitewash BDSM – tales where the sub has more orgasms than stripes, where the first Master who recognizes her as a “natural submissive” turns out be her soul mate, where her fear disappears with the first mild slap on her bare ass – check out this book. Ms. Tyler makes it clear that being a submissive isn't necessarily easy. It's a process of growth. It may take years to unequivocally accept your own dark fantasies and be willing to live them without embarrassment or regret.
February 8, 2020
I had a really really mixed feelings about this book after I finished it. I read it and I was just thinking "What the hell am I feeling right now??". I don''t regret reading this book because this is a refreshing idea and a new perspective on BDSM. Alison Tyler is a beautiful writer, her writing will keep you up all night. I can't compare this book to any other, not just because I haven't read a lot of bdsm books, but because I don't think there is another book similar and as powerful as this. I read that this story is not 100% fiction, there is an authors life right between those pages. Which made the book so much better, because it felt real. So sexual and raw. Punishing for pleasure and pleasure some with pain. The main character Samantha really captured me. I admit I couldn't really understand the need that Samantha had, the need for pain. But after finishing it, I understood. I can honestly say that I did enjoy reading it. There were some things that were bothering me about this book, that is why I can't say that Dark Secret Love is amazing, but what I can say is that you should give it a chance. I feel like a lot of people will find this refreshing, especially if you like bdsm in your romance(;
February 20, 2014
Alison Tyler is brilliant.
I'd like to leave my review at that, since it pretty much says it all—but this book needs more. Ms. Tyler's tales are traditionally dark, delicious, and deep, and her characters are always so rich they jump out and captivate you into coming along for the ride. This is exactly the case with Samantha as she discovers what really drives her, starting with her early days in BDSM and onward into her relationship with the incredibly sexy Jack. Somehow, Ms. Tyler sucks you right in, so that you can feel everything as raw and tantalizingly sweet as Sam does, both in her head and on her skin. This book is just plain delicious. Absolutely delicious.
Speaking of...I'll be starting The Delicious Torment tonight. Cannot wait!
I'd like to leave my review at that, since it pretty much says it all—but this book needs more. Ms. Tyler's tales are traditionally dark, delicious, and deep, and her characters are always so rich they jump out and captivate you into coming along for the ride. This is exactly the case with Samantha as she discovers what really drives her, starting with her early days in BDSM and onward into her relationship with the incredibly sexy Jack. Somehow, Ms. Tyler sucks you right in, so that you can feel everything as raw and tantalizingly sweet as Sam does, both in her head and on her skin. This book is just plain delicious. Absolutely delicious.
Speaking of...I'll be starting The Delicious Torment tonight. Cannot wait!
October 27, 2013
This is the book 50 Shades of Grey wishes it could be. Tyler's quasi-autobiographical account of the Doms she has submitted to is deeply sensual and sexy without being unbelievable. Tyler takes care to explain from a realistic point of view why a woman would be drawn to this kind of sexual practice. She does so without digressing or ranting, too, showing rather than telling the mindset of her main character (loosely based on herself). There isn't much of a plot, but there doesn't need to be. A fascinating and steamy exploration of the true BDSM scene.
October 2, 2013
This is a fantastic book, whether you like bondage in your smut or not. Alison Tyler's prose is hypnotic. Literally read this in one afternoon, just could not get enough. Its one of those books that stays with you for a long time. A definite must read (especially if you are fifty shades of annoyed :)
July 13, 2014
This was a well-written and engaging story. It reminded me somewhat of John Preston's "Mr. Benson" though not nearly as hardcore, I think. I wouldn't recommend this to someone who is looking for hearts and flowers romance. But if you're looking for a story of one woman's journey as a submissive, then this fits the bill well.
November 13, 2013
Everything I could ask for in literary erotica. Absolutely underrated genre. More of this, please.
March 3, 2015
In the prologue to her book, Dark Secret Love, Alison Tyler uses the word "meta-fiction." She also says she's about to "open my closet and reveal my desires." In other words, Dark Secret Love is either fiction or memoir or not. Doesn't matter. What's important is Alison Tyler offers readers a love story infused with heart, soul, intellect, and spankings.
Dark Secret Love involves BDSM, a term most people have encountered by now. It's also a coming-of-age tale narrated by twenty-something Samantha who lives in LA. Samantha is my kind of heroine, a non-virgin tequila drinking writer with a brain. Likewise, Dark Secret Love is my kind of love story, right up there with the film version of Secretary, because both tales step outside the box and surprise me. They have edge. They transcend stereotypes. Samantha isn't a moron. She's a submissive. Jack, her primary love interest, is a dom, not a bully. He did something toward the end of the story that felt, well . . . incredibly fucking romantic. (Insert me in mid-swoon. Or cuffs. Yeah, cuffs.)
Here's what I love most about Dark Secret Love by Alison Tyler. The characters feel complex and their experiences feel authentic. Emotional authenticity charged by eroticism. Just the right splash of romance the color of freshly whipped butt cheeks. Whether the authenticity comes from the author's personal experience or her ability to imagine her way into said experience doesn't matter. I'm grateful. I also intend to read the sequel as soon as possible.
XO.
Dark Secret Love involves BDSM, a term most people have encountered by now. It's also a coming-of-age tale narrated by twenty-something Samantha who lives in LA. Samantha is my kind of heroine, a non-virgin tequila drinking writer with a brain. Likewise, Dark Secret Love is my kind of love story, right up there with the film version of Secretary, because both tales step outside the box and surprise me. They have edge. They transcend stereotypes. Samantha isn't a moron. She's a submissive. Jack, her primary love interest, is a dom, not a bully. He did something toward the end of the story that felt, well . . . incredibly fucking romantic. (Insert me in mid-swoon. Or cuffs. Yeah, cuffs.)
Here's what I love most about Dark Secret Love by Alison Tyler. The characters feel complex and their experiences feel authentic. Emotional authenticity charged by eroticism. Just the right splash of romance the color of freshly whipped butt cheeks. Whether the authenticity comes from the author's personal experience or her ability to imagine her way into said experience doesn't matter. I'm grateful. I also intend to read the sequel as soon as possible.
XO.
August 6, 2016
This is a brief and spoiler-free review of Dark Secret Love by Alison Tyler. I was sent a US copy by the USA publisher Cleis Press in exchange for my honest review, which you can find the full version of on my blog. I bought another copy (the UK version by Black Lace Books) from Lovehoney during November as it was their 'Book of the Month'.
Dark Secret Love is a novel I struggled to put down when I began reading it. I loved everything about it; the brutal honesty of the main character, her interactions with the men around her and the way that she tried to stay true to herself despite what everyone thought.
The sex scenes are both kinky and arousing both due to the acts in them and the way that Alison Tyler describes the thoughts and feelings of Samantha while she does them. Some scenes mirrored things I have done in my life and it was almost scary how closely it resembled my experience.
The only thing I didn't like about this book was the fact that it had to end. I wanted to keep reading it forever. Luckily for me (and perhaps you as well) the sequel, The Delicious Torment, is coming out early 2014!
As for why I bought a second copy... My UK copy is going straight into the hands of my Daddy when I see him next. I want him to see how amazing it was without letting my other copy out of my sight. That's how good this novel is.
Dark Secret Love is a novel I struggled to put down when I began reading it. I loved everything about it; the brutal honesty of the main character, her interactions with the men around her and the way that she tried to stay true to herself despite what everyone thought.
The sex scenes are both kinky and arousing both due to the acts in them and the way that Alison Tyler describes the thoughts and feelings of Samantha while she does them. Some scenes mirrored things I have done in my life and it was almost scary how closely it resembled my experience.
The only thing I didn't like about this book was the fact that it had to end. I wanted to keep reading it forever. Luckily for me (and perhaps you as well) the sequel, The Delicious Torment, is coming out early 2014!
As for why I bought a second copy... My UK copy is going straight into the hands of my Daddy when I see him next. I want him to see how amazing it was without letting my other copy out of my sight. That's how good this novel is.
January 12, 2014
You know, I admit to reading and enjoying (thoroughly) the 50 Shades of Grey trilogy. I know it was not exactly quality literature. I know it was BDSM-lite. I know I found myself thinking, more than once, that the editor should have been whipped. Seriously. But still, I can't jump on the "it's total crap" bandwagon that so many have. I enjoyed it. It was fun. However, I now get why people like Violet Blue beg us to put down 50 Shades, and pick up something like Dark Secret Love. Or pretty much anything by the great Alison Tyler. I get it now. It's the difference between a peanut M&M and a Hazelnut Praline Godiva Truffle. Especially if you've never been fortunate enough to have tried the Godiva before. It's a whole other level of appreciation. This book was impossible to put down. Such a great story (memoir?). I read a lot of books. I give very few the full five stars, which I generally reserve for books that either kick me upside the head (The Handmaid's Tale, Catcher in the Rye, Hotel New Hampshire) or books by authors I can't live without (Karin Slaughter, John Sandford). This one was a little bit of both. Now if someone could just explain to me why the sequel, The Delicious Torment, is only available in paperback, not ebook? What's up with that?!?
July 21, 2014
I couldn't put this one down. If you have any interest in BDSM at all, I highly recommend this story. I've read a lot of the mainstream "Troubled dominant billionaire/ Naive young girl" While those stories have their place... I am glad Dark Secret Love is not one of those books.
Alison Tyler does an amazing job of telling the story from the side of the submissive. I love that Ms. Tyler doesn't take the easy predictable road with her characters. One of my favorite parts of the story something happens, And you expect the character to make the obvious choice... But, through the narrative of Samantha, She says something to the effect of " I know what you expect me to do, That's not what I did, This is not that story. This is my story." From that point on I fell in love. Such a great journey following Sam as she discovers herself and what she needs.
Finally, The sex in this story is so good. It isn't your standard fuzzy handcuffs and feather ticklers. It's whips, belts and crops. Raw, Passionate and intense just the way I like it. I can't do justice with my words how strongly I enjoyed this book. If you are at all on the fence about picking it up, Jump off and run to get it! Can't wait to start the next part of the series right now.
Alison Tyler does an amazing job of telling the story from the side of the submissive. I love that Ms. Tyler doesn't take the easy predictable road with her characters. One of my favorite parts of the story something happens, And you expect the character to make the obvious choice... But, through the narrative of Samantha, She says something to the effect of " I know what you expect me to do, That's not what I did, This is not that story. This is my story." From that point on I fell in love. Such a great journey following Sam as she discovers herself and what she needs.
Finally, The sex in this story is so good. It isn't your standard fuzzy handcuffs and feather ticklers. It's whips, belts and crops. Raw, Passionate and intense just the way I like it. I can't do justice with my words how strongly I enjoyed this book. If you are at all on the fence about picking it up, Jump off and run to get it! Can't wait to start the next part of the series right now.
August 9, 2014
Dark Secret Love is a fictionalized semi-autobiographical story of a woman’s entrance into and acceptance of her own submissive nature.
While I enjoy erotica, I don’t often connect with characters the way I did with Samantha. Perhaps it’s because Sam’s experiences are based on some of Alison Tyler’s experiences, and thus ring more true? Or perhaps because I understand all too well the experience of being offered what you want and running away in fear.
While there is plenty of hot sex, Dark Secret Love is more than that. It is a deeply personal exploration of submission. If you’re not a member of the scene and want to understand how we got this way, this book may be enlightening for you. If you are a member of the scene, the book will ring more true than most.
I can’t recommend it enough-run, don’t walk to get your copy today.
Disclosure-I did not receive compensation for this review or the opportunity to interview Alison. I am, however, included in an upcoming anthology of hers.
While I enjoy erotica, I don’t often connect with characters the way I did with Samantha. Perhaps it’s because Sam’s experiences are based on some of Alison Tyler’s experiences, and thus ring more true? Or perhaps because I understand all too well the experience of being offered what you want and running away in fear.
While there is plenty of hot sex, Dark Secret Love is more than that. It is a deeply personal exploration of submission. If you’re not a member of the scene and want to understand how we got this way, this book may be enlightening for you. If you are a member of the scene, the book will ring more true than most.
I can’t recommend it enough-run, don’t walk to get your copy today.
Disclosure-I did not receive compensation for this review or the opportunity to interview Alison. I am, however, included in an upcoming anthology of hers.
April 25, 2015
First I want to comment on the cover, which is unusual for me, it didn't do the book justice. It should have been darker. Yes it shows someone in cuffs, but that light blue takes me out of the dark themes showcased in this book.
Anyway, now I know that sone people NEED pain in order to find pleasure, but I don't understand that need. That is the only reason this book is not getting 5 stars from me.
This book had me from the beginning with the intro from the author. He writing pulls you into the story and helps you to empathize with Sam. It's told in 1st person so I felt like a voyeur the entire time. Although I don't understand her need for pain I still enjoyed reading about her journey. I wish I was more in touch with my sex desires at that age. I'm still experimenting trying to find what I like and I'm almost 36.
I will definitely be reading on to see where Sam goes next.
Anyway, now I know that sone people NEED pain in order to find pleasure, but I don't understand that need. That is the only reason this book is not getting 5 stars from me.
This book had me from the beginning with the intro from the author. He writing pulls you into the story and helps you to empathize with Sam. It's told in 1st person so I felt like a voyeur the entire time. Although I don't understand her need for pain I still enjoyed reading about her journey. I wish I was more in touch with my sex desires at that age. I'm still experimenting trying to find what I like and I'm almost 36.
I will definitely be reading on to see where Sam goes next.
May 3, 2015
I don't know where to start with this book.
Rating: 1.5/5 stars
This book is basically........ *30 seconds later* I can't even. There's just sex in every chapter and the rest of the story is just an accessory (5% of the content). People compare this book to Fifty Shades of Grey - yeap, other than the S&M/BDSM, I don't see the resemblance at all. I thought it being based on a true story would give it more drama, more... I can't. There's none. The first half of the book was pointless to me.
"Slut. Is the word echoing in your head yet? It should be." This is '3sty' to another level, you guys.
Rating: 1.5/5 stars
This book is basically........ *30 seconds later* I can't even. There's just sex in every chapter and the rest of the story is just an accessory (5% of the content). People compare this book to Fifty Shades of Grey - yeap, other than the S&M/BDSM, I don't see the resemblance at all. I thought it being based on a true story would give it more drama, more... I can't. There's none. The first half of the book was pointless to me.
"Slut. Is the word echoing in your head yet? It should be." This is '3sty' to another level, you guys.
February 16, 2024
The first time I ever met a hardcore devotee of BDSM I was 23. It is not like today when people proudly display their Disneyfied version of BDSM with their furlined cuffs and magnetic tongue "piercings" and occasionally read self-help books by real doms to spice things up in the marital bed. Back then, in the late 80's, BDSM was underground and very real and whether practiced at home or in dungeons it was supposed to hurt. Anyway ... the person I met was a friend-of-a-friend who turned out to be semi-famous-for-a-minute for writing what was the first mainstream book about BDSM. Her name is Gloria Brame and the book was Different Loving. I have no idea if it is still in print, and I have not seen Gloria since she married her sub and they moved to live in kink heaven is some remote part of Georgia sometime in the later 80's. Though we were never more than acquaintances, I will always remember Gloria for introducing me to true kink through the eyes and words of a Columbia MFA student who had once been married to a dentist and lived on Long Island (which is to say someone I found relatable in a way that the latex dipped women in the downtown clubs where punks and freaks converged were not.) I became fascinated with BDSM, especially full-time power exchange, at that time, and for a bit I immersed myself in that community in a Margaret Mead way. I met some incredible people, a few of whom are still friends, but the idea of your sexuality defining your every waking moment was not appealing to me so I stopped hanging with them. (I will also always remember Gloria for taking me to a party where Allen Ginsburg sat in a corner with a very very very young British boy on a leash and told tawdry stories and railed about the decline of America, but that is not relevant to this review.) The reason I started going down this road was to draw distinctions between real BDSM, and the 50 Shades variety. That is not a slam at 50 Shades, the writing is shit but I thought it was pretty hot, but it has nothing to do with real submission. S&M is supposed to hurt, real masochists need it to hurt. So Dark Secret Love is a real bit of erotica written by a masochist and there is a lot of pain and a lot of degradation. It feels completely authentic to me. I won't say what I found erotic and what I found appalling, nor how much intersection there was in that Venn diagram. Everyone will have different responses to the material, so my reactions are not important. I will say that this book is very well written. Tyler has a unique and compelling voice, and I was rapt even when the things she did were IMO heartbreaking and indicative of the need for serious mental health intervention. And I was not Margaret Mead-ing while reading this, I was not detached. As with my bit of time with Gloria Brame I found Samantha (the main character's name, though this feels very autobiographical) really relatable. If you are interested in erotica that depicts the real life of a submissive and does so with spare and evocative prose, no hearts and flowers, I cannot recommend this enough.
January 30, 2018
Dark Secret Love (A Story of Submission, #1), told through the eyes of Samantha's who leads the reader through her journey of self-fulfillment and self worth. Sam's development begin in High school were she gets an introduction into the BDSM lifestyle, which Sam craves but doesn't quite understand for sometime. Yes, Samantha grows and learns over a period of year's with some not beneficial men/Dom's, who saw her no better than a body to use and or abuse. A story of Submission, does get tedious at time's because it will have the reader wondering when is this lady going to pull her s**** together? Well to my surprise Sam begins to once she is reconnected with Jack, a Dom who has been watching her from afar for year's, since their not so accidental meeting a couple year's back? Something different and adventurous to read, yet Samantha/Jack story continues in Wrapped Around Your Finger/The Delicious Torment stories of submission.
July 5, 2017
Okay, i'll admit it, i really wasn't expecting to enjoy this book. I thought it might be one of those typical billionaire romances where some very sweet girl gets seduced etc etc but i absolutely adored this book.
Alison's brutally honest admissions of sexual desire and frustration were brave and inspiring.
Her style is lilting and seductive, she describes her flow of emotions and each romantic relationship with effortless lucidity.
The only negative of this book is that i feel that it doesn't get nearly enough recognition.
This is my favourite kind of book, understated and beautiful, it reminded me of 'In the Cut' by Susanna Moore, another of my favourites. A definite recommend.
Alison's brutally honest admissions of sexual desire and frustration were brave and inspiring.
Her style is lilting and seductive, she describes her flow of emotions and each romantic relationship with effortless lucidity.
The only negative of this book is that i feel that it doesn't get nearly enough recognition.
This is my favourite kind of book, understated and beautiful, it reminded me of 'In the Cut' by Susanna Moore, another of my favourites. A definite recommend.
November 7, 2019
Very unsettling
A real, deep, honest look into the lifestyle and one person being true to themselves. Difficult to read at times if you're an empath and feel the words and the story too much yourself. Could have rated this a 2; should have rated this a 5; settled on 4. Fascination and self- punishment drove me to read it all. Probably be a long time until I can work up to Book Two.
A real, deep, honest look into the lifestyle and one person being true to themselves. Difficult to read at times if you're an empath and feel the words and the story too much yourself. Could have rated this a 2; should have rated this a 5; settled on 4. Fascination and self- punishment drove me to read it all. Probably be a long time until I can work up to Book Two.
September 5, 2018
Tyler’s dark (very dark), kinky (very kinky) bildungsroman isn’t for everyone, but she’s a talented writer, and the deliberate differentiation between passivity and sexual submissiveness is well done.
Book Riot’s 2015 Read Harder Challenge—Retro! (undertaken in 2018)
21. Read a book that you would consider a guilty pleasure.
Book Riot’s 2015 Read Harder Challenge—Retro! (undertaken in 2018)
21. Read a book that you would consider a guilty pleasure.
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