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Torn
"Well-written tension and forbidden longing. The angst in this was incredible!"
— Penelope Douglas, New York Times bestselling author of Birthday Girl
When I was five years old I told Toren Grace we were going to get married someday. He’d been my best friend, my protector, and my rock since the day I was born. He was my world. In fact, his name was my very first word.
He wasn’t just my favorite person, though.
He was also my dad’s best friend, and my pseudo uncle.
But during my senior year of high school, our relationship slowly changed. Innocent friendship turned to stolen glances. Silly conversations morphed into serious heart-to-hearts. And then one day, an unexpected smoldering kiss changed everything.
While that kiss was everything I’d ever dreamed of, it knocked Tor clear off his axis. He’s one of the good guys—loving and devoted with a strong moral compass . . . which makes it impossible for him to accept our feelings for each other. Because not only are we both the one person the other should never, ever want, I’m eighteen, and Tor is fifteen years older than me.
Despite that, the heart wants what the heart wants, and ours have decided we’re meant to be together no matter what.
But neither one of us can stand to betray or hurt my father, who trusts Tor with everything precious to him. We can’t be in a secret relationship forever, so what will happen when my father finds out his best friend is in love with his daughter?
Will there be a way for us to find our happily ever after? Or we will all be torn apart?
— Penelope Douglas, New York Times bestselling author of Birthday Girl
When I was five years old I told Toren Grace we were going to get married someday. He’d been my best friend, my protector, and my rock since the day I was born. He was my world. In fact, his name was my very first word.
He wasn’t just my favorite person, though.
He was also my dad’s best friend, and my pseudo uncle.
But during my senior year of high school, our relationship slowly changed. Innocent friendship turned to stolen glances. Silly conversations morphed into serious heart-to-hearts. And then one day, an unexpected smoldering kiss changed everything.
While that kiss was everything I’d ever dreamed of, it knocked Tor clear off his axis. He’s one of the good guys—loving and devoted with a strong moral compass . . . which makes it impossible for him to accept our feelings for each other. Because not only are we both the one person the other should never, ever want, I’m eighteen, and Tor is fifteen years older than me.
Despite that, the heart wants what the heart wants, and ours have decided we’re meant to be together no matter what.
But neither one of us can stand to betray or hurt my father, who trusts Tor with everything precious to him. We can’t be in a secret relationship forever, so what will happen when my father finds out his best friend is in love with his daughter?
Will there be a way for us to find our happily ever after? Or we will all be torn apart?
480 pages, Paperback
First published August 28, 2016
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Carian Cole
16 books8,734 followersI have a passion for the bad boys, those covered in tattoos, sexy smirks, ripped jeans, fast cars, motorcycles and of course, the sweet girls that try to tame them and win their hearts.
Born and raised a Jersey girl, I now reside in beautiful New Hampshire with my husband and our multitude of furry pets and spend most of my time writing, reading, and vacuuming.
Born and raised a Jersey girl, I now reside in beautiful New Hampshire with my husband and our multitude of furry pets and spend most of my time writing, reading, and vacuuming.
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December 5, 2023DNF @ 27%
October 25, 2024
❝𝒊’𝒎 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒔 𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏’𝒕 𝒃𝒆 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒆𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉.❞
no thoughts rn, just this. the mmc said this btw😫
no thoughts rn, just this. the mmc said this btw😫
April 14, 2017
"I don't want him to be any sort of uncle to me or be my dad's best friend. I want him to be MINE."
➦*DEEP BREATH* Since this is a taboo romance I want to I start this review by answering all of the questions I had myself prior to reading it.
Age gap? YES, 15 years. ✔
Blood relatives? NO. ✘
Underage sex? NO.✘
YEARLY, KEEP READING ^.^
➦I have to applaud Carian Cole for creating a unique, unconventional and delicate situation and shaping it into such a beautiful friends to lovers romance. Once you strip all the technicalities away you are left with two characters whose friendship developed into love.
➦Kenzi, the heroine, is born into a family of famous teen musicians. They have to be away from her quite often and so they have their best friend Toren help babysit and essentially raise her. They are all 15 at the time, by the way. Does this look like a normal situation? No. So why expect a normal result?
➦So you can probably see where this is going, right? Kenzi grows up and, once she turns 18, the relationship between her and Toren starts changing.
➦The torment was handled very well here. These two understand perfectly well how they will be crucified in their immediate social circles and yet the pull between them is so strong that the collision is inevitable. How will Kenzi's father react to his best friend being with his little girl?
❤I loved both of the characters to bits. Kenzi is a sweet and brave girl who follows her heart to get what she wants. Toren is a gentle soul who is all man with some savageness to him. I loved how he saw Kenzi and how fiercely he loved her.
"I'm staring down at cleavage for days surrounded by thin, teasing black lace that I want to chew through to get to her. "
❤In the scheme of things, these two grew up together. The transformation from caretaker to friend to lover was very well done. He is her first love and she is his, too.
➦On a side note, I would like to add that the hero in this book spends his free time rescuing stray animals. Carian Cole's books feature pets and she donates to PET RESCUE from her proceeds. So not only would you be getting an awesome story to enjoy but also a satisfaction of helping an animal in need. :)
➦Highly recommended to those who love taboo/forbidden love stories, friends to lovers tropes and super romantic yet highly erotic reads with tons of anticipation and sexual tension. I might have been itching, no joke.
This was a buddy read with my friend AmyLouAldaMay. There was no bitching and moaning needed in this one but there's always next time. :) <3
October 14, 2017
This is gonna be a long one (like maybe the longest I've ever written)... so, get comfy ;)
This book was unfreakingbelievably AMAZING ... and that's putting it mildly.
It had everything I could want in a book: engaging characters, one of which is an AWESOME book boyfriend ;), terrific writing, and a well developed plot line. I highlighted so many parts of this book because of all the perfect moments there were. I know this book seems controversial, and if everything is taken out of context, it might seem "creepy." But it's not. It's far freaking from it. I honestly couldn't imagine Tor and Kenzi falling in love with anyone else, they were perfect together <3 And I'm not saying this in the sense that they had chemistry or somehow they just "worked" together. No, this author genuinely crafted a wonderful novel and made it clear that they really were soulmates.
-Kenzi-
Being the daughter of two rockstars made her experience growing up different than most. One of the results is that she is much more mature than most of the people her age. You can tell the difference in how she thinks and even how she interacts with her best friend, Chloe. Growing up is about a lot more than age. Growing up is about the experiences you have, and Kenzi's had a lot. She isn't in that weird place that most teenagers are in where they are struggling to find themselves. Kenzi knows what she wants.
She doesn't see Tor as someone to love right away, but once she does realize it, she doesn't hold back. Kenzi chases him and never wavers in her feelings. And what proved her maturity even more was her discussions with Tor. She laid out her feelings, and they talked about the problems and what they wanted. It never felt juvenile or like he was pressuring her. In fact, he's pretty torn up about it.
But, at the end of the day, she knows it's Tor she wants and she sees him for what he's always been.
-Tor-
Good God, he was perfect. I feel bad for the next few books I'll read because the bar is pretty damn high right now. He was absolutely incredible and I have many quotes to prove it (and this is the narrowed down list). I mean how can you not swoon at these lines...
He was so dedicated to Kenzi. And in regards to the other women in his life, I never really got the feeling he loved them. Tor is simply tired of being overlooked. He had to give up his dreams in order to take care of his family when his father died, watching his friends go on and get famous without him. Then he gets his crush, which is Kenzi's mom, "stolen" from him by Asher, his best friend. I could see some people being bothered by this. But honestly, I didn't feel that he wanted Ember as much as he just didn't want to be second best. I mean, they were 15 years old. And I'm not saying 15 year olds don't know what love is, but I think more often than not, the "love" teenagers feel is often a crush/infatuation. And I think from that point on, Tor just wanted someone he could trust and love, and know that he was this person's number one. When he talks about these things later on, he says,
I felt the same way with Sydni and Lisa (his relationships before Kenzi). Personally, I don't believe Tor loved either of them. Again, he just wanted a connection. Even though Sydni's relationship with him spanned (intermittently) 12 years, I think it was a comfort thing.
But with Kenzi, he knows he's her number one. She's been showing him since she was a little kid, and it's not weird or unsettling. It's all just really beautiful.
*Also, I'm really glad he had relationships during that time. I totally understand the concept of not wanting the hero or heroine to sleep around after meeting the "one," but if the "one" happens to be six years old... yeah... that'd be weird for me. I think if he hadn't had relationships it would have been really strange. And like I said, he didn't love them, so I really didn't mind.
He was all about Kenzi. We get a lot of great flashbacks of Kenzi when she was younger, and we get to see how non-creepy Tor was. It was one hundred percent normal. And while he takes some convincing (because he is a really good guy and doesn't want to betray his friend like that), once their relationship does change, he doesn't shy away. He's with her. Full stop.
Now about the ending. While I do agree with others, I didn't love how long the separation was (or some of the particulars around the reconciliation) and I wished their HEA was longer, I was able to overlook it. I think it was more realistic to give them that time apart because Asher would not have come around much quicker. And I'm satisfied knowing that Tor and Kenzi will be back in Asher's book and we'll get to see more of their HEA <3 <3
Oh, and can we talk about Asher?! I freaking loved him and his devotion to Ember!
This book was unfreakingbelievably AMAZING ... and that's putting it mildly.
It had everything I could want in a book: engaging characters, one of which is an AWESOME book boyfriend ;), terrific writing, and a well developed plot line. I highlighted so many parts of this book because of all the perfect moments there were. I know this book seems controversial, and if everything is taken out of context, it might seem "creepy." But it's not. It's far freaking from it. I honestly couldn't imagine Tor and Kenzi falling in love with anyone else, they were perfect together <3 And I'm not saying this in the sense that they had chemistry or somehow they just "worked" together. No, this author genuinely crafted a wonderful novel and made it clear that they really were soulmates.
-Kenzi-
Being the daughter of two rockstars made her experience growing up different than most. One of the results is that she is much more mature than most of the people her age. You can tell the difference in how she thinks and even how she interacts with her best friend, Chloe. Growing up is about a lot more than age. Growing up is about the experiences you have, and Kenzi's had a lot. She isn't in that weird place that most teenagers are in where they are struggling to find themselves. Kenzi knows what she wants.
"Is it too fifties to want to get married and have kids?"I love when women can confidently state that this is something they want. Because no, there's nothing wrong with wanting to stay home and take care of your family. Not at a all, it's a job too and with Kenzi's tender nature and already having experienced a "wild phase" by vicariously living through her parents, it makes a lot of sense.
She doesn't see Tor as someone to love right away, but once she does realize it, she doesn't hold back. Kenzi chases him and never wavers in her feelings. And what proved her maturity even more was her discussions with Tor. She laid out her feelings, and they talked about the problems and what they wanted. It never felt juvenile or like he was pressuring her. In fact, he's pretty torn up about it.
But, at the end of the day, she knows it's Tor she wants and she sees him for what he's always been.
"When I look at you, I don't see my father's friend, or my uncle, or my godfather, or an older man. All I see is the person I've always loved and has always made me happy."
-Tor-
Good God, he was perfect. I feel bad for the next few books I'll read because the bar is pretty damn high right now. He was absolutely incredible and I have many quotes to prove it (and this is the narrowed down list). I mean how can you not swoon at these lines...
"I'm just waiting for the one that makes me feel like forever wouldn't be long enough."
"I just want that magical feeling I wrote about years ago when I used to write the lyrics for the band’s rock ballads. I want crazy fucking love. I want someone that'll never let me go. I want to wake up to my best friend every day."
"The moment I kissed Kenzi, she became the One. Maybe she always was."
"Young love... first love is so innocent. So pure and trusting. So all encompassing. I shouldn't be on the receiving end of that love from her at my age, but in all honesty, she's my first love, too.
"I think I'm falling in love with her, and I'm powerless to stop it. I can feel it, like a train with no brakes, coming faster and faster, straight for me. Soon, it's going to crash, and it's not going to be pretty."And then there's this... I freaking LOVE this... he's discussing his celibacy for the past six+ months, and his sister tells him it's "impressive" that he's abstained. His response:
"No, it's love. I only want her. That's it."Like YES! Why is this a hard concept?! It's not like your dick will fall off if you don't use it every four seconds... I'm tired of reading books where the guy physically can't keep it in his pants.
He was so dedicated to Kenzi. And in regards to the other women in his life, I never really got the feeling he loved them. Tor is simply tired of being overlooked. He had to give up his dreams in order to take care of his family when his father died, watching his friends go on and get famous without him. Then he gets his crush, which is Kenzi's mom, "stolen" from him by Asher, his best friend. I could see some people being bothered by this. But honestly, I didn't feel that he wanted Ember as much as he just didn't want to be second best. I mean, they were 15 years old. And I'm not saying 15 year olds don't know what love is, but I think more often than not, the "love" teenagers feel is often a crush/infatuation. And I think from that point on, Tor just wanted someone he could trust and love, and know that he was this person's number one. When he talks about these things later on, he says,
"I'm not going to be anyone's second choice."And when Asher takes Ember's attention that first day at 15 years old, Tor thinks,
"I can feel myself slipping into the background."He's not necessarily just thinking about Ember, he's thinking about himself being overlooked, not being enough.
I felt the same way with Sydni and Lisa (his relationships before Kenzi). Personally, I don't believe Tor loved either of them. Again, he just wanted a connection. Even though Sydni's relationship with him spanned (intermittently) 12 years, I think it was a comfort thing.
But with Kenzi, he knows he's her number one. She's been showing him since she was a little kid, and it's not weird or unsettling. It's all just really beautiful.
*Also, I'm really glad he had relationships during that time. I totally understand the concept of not wanting the hero or heroine to sleep around after meeting the "one," but if the "one" happens to be six years old... yeah... that'd be weird for me. I think if he hadn't had relationships it would have been really strange. And like I said, he didn't love them, so I really didn't mind.
He was all about Kenzi. We get a lot of great flashbacks of Kenzi when she was younger, and we get to see how non-creepy Tor was. It was one hundred percent normal. And while he takes some convincing (because he is a really good guy and doesn't want to betray his friend like that), once their relationship does change, he doesn't shy away. He's with her. Full stop.
"Is it possible that falling in love doesn't always start when we think it might, and sometimes, it starts way before we're ready, and grows slowly over time, allowing two people to truly fall in love with every aspect of each other?"I loved this theme. I think it's awesome what this author did. It is not a conventional love story, but I felt it so deeply. She took such care with the characters and it seemed like every single word was carefully thought through. It was absolutely breathtaking.
Now about the ending. While I do agree with others, I didn't love how long the separation was (or some of the particulars around the reconciliation) and I wished their HEA was longer, I was able to overlook it. I think it was more realistic to give them that time apart because Asher would not have come around much quicker. And I'm satisfied knowing that Tor and Kenzi will be back in Asher's book and we'll get to see more of their HEA <3 <3
Oh, and can we talk about Asher?! I freaking loved him and his devotion to Ember!
"He thinks he can love her back to life, Tor. That's what he believes."I can't wait for his story!! :)
September 16, 2021
Nearly 20k of you rating this anything but 1 star? JAIL. How this book came so highly rec’d to me, I have no idea. The constant flashbacks of Kenzi and Tor from birth to present day were disgusting. Why the hell would this author show us a flashback of Kenzi’s first words at 18 months old being Tor’s name, and then immediately flash forward 17 years to him taking her virginity? WHO LIED TO YOU ALL AND SAID THIS WAS ROMANTIC???
I can accept age gap trope. I love it, even. I don’t mind dad’s/uncle’s best friend, or even former guardian tropes. But the difference in those is there’s some element of separation between the childhood phases and adulthood. Or the LI only briefly knew the MC when they were a child, so there was no significant influence. But here, Tor is a constant presence in Kenzi’s life. She’s idolized him since the day she was born and he’s always acted as a fatherly figure. This... is just gross.
*
More examples of lines that made me barf:
- “I lean back into my chair and push my empty dish away. I can’t think about Kenzi having sex. My brain is way too mangled up with visions of her as a little girl and the glimpse of her half-naked ass I saw a few minutes ago. She’s growing up too fast.”
- ”’You’d make a great dad. Look how good you were with me all the time when I was little.’
No. I can’t think about that. Thinking about that makes me feel sick and twisted. I can’t think about shoving my cock into her mouth one minute and then remember rocking her to sleep when she was a baby the next.”
*
Actual footage of me reading these lines:
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Anyways, now that I’ve wasted my night reading this just so I could review it... good night to everyone except those who rec this book.
I can accept age gap trope. I love it, even. I don’t mind dad’s/uncle’s best friend, or even former guardian tropes. But the difference in those is there’s some element of separation between the childhood phases and adulthood. Or the LI only briefly knew the MC when they were a child, so there was no significant influence. But here, Tor is a constant presence in Kenzi’s life. She’s idolized him since the day she was born and he’s always acted as a fatherly figure. This... is just gross.
*
More examples of lines that made me barf:
- “I lean back into my chair and push my empty dish away. I can’t think about Kenzi having sex. My brain is way too mangled up with visions of her as a little girl and the glimpse of her half-naked ass I saw a few minutes ago. She’s growing up too fast.”
- ”’You’d make a great dad. Look how good you were with me all the time when I was little.’
No. I can’t think about that. Thinking about that makes me feel sick and twisted. I can’t think about shoving my cock into her mouth one minute and then remember rocking her to sleep when she was a baby the next.”
*
Actual footage of me reading these lines:
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Anyways, now that I’ve wasted my night reading this just so I could review it... good night to everyone except those who rec this book.
dnf
April 23, 2025DNF @ 36%
June 23, 2020
basically renesmee/jacob non-paranormal.
(have kind of rethought some of my thoughts post-read/review so have deleted my review. leaving rating)
(have kind of rethought some of my thoughts post-read/review so have deleted my review. leaving rating)
March 19, 2024
I truly wanted to enjoy this one and yeah, there were some good parts, hence my two-star rating.
But when it came down to it, it was all anti-climactic and the sexual chemistry was lacking.
This is my first book by this author, I think and I'm kind of doubting her other books now.
This story dragged too much and I felt like I was waiting for something big that never actually came.
Get it...?
"Came?"
Anti-climactic...?
No? Okay... lol
But when it came down to it, it was all anti-climactic and the sexual chemistry was lacking.
This is my first book by this author, I think and I'm kind of doubting her other books now.
This story dragged too much and I felt like I was waiting for something big that never actually came.
Get it...?
"Came?"
Anti-climactic...?
No? Okay... lol
August 3, 2020
3.5 Stars
Once again I picked up a book based on its controversial theme more than anything else.
I was a little afraid the events would creep me out in some way but luckily that didn’t happen. The subject matter is skillfully handled so that I didn’t have a problem with the age difference nor with the fact that the hero was a family friend.
Despite being a taboo book, this book is more beautiful and warm than shocking, dark or gritty. It isn’t overloaded with too much drama and I really liked that for a change. But what I liked the most was that falling in love happened slowly and convincingly.
Overall, this was a good read and I really enjoyed it. Some parts were intense and gripping and those were the parts I loved the most, especially the first third and the last third of the book. The characterization and the writing are well-done. The characters are mature, likable and easily relatable.
On the downside, the middle of the book was too slow and a bit boring. The ending was a bit unsatisfying; it felt too rushed disrupting the flow of the story. Also, some of the secondary events in this book felt strange to me and were redundant or not detailed enough.
QUICK REVIEW:
Enjoyment:: 3.5/5
Writing style: 4/5
Storyline: 3/5
Hero: 4/5
Heroine: 4/5
Secondary characters: 4/5
Hotness/chemistry: 3/5
Romance: 4/5
Angst: 3/5
Darkness level: 2/5
Humor: 3/5
Depth of the book: 4/5
POV: dual
Triggers:
Why is it acceptable to get involved with a total stranger, who could do any number of things to hurt you or betray you, but not get involved with someone who has cared about you since the day you were born?
Is it all a matter of social perspective?
Once again I picked up a book based on its controversial theme more than anything else.
I was a little afraid the events would creep me out in some way but luckily that didn’t happen. The subject matter is skillfully handled so that I didn’t have a problem with the age difference nor with the fact that the hero was a family friend.
Despite being a taboo book, this book is more beautiful and warm than shocking, dark or gritty. It isn’t overloaded with too much drama and I really liked that for a change. But what I liked the most was that falling in love happened slowly and convincingly.
Overall, this was a good read and I really enjoyed it. Some parts were intense and gripping and those were the parts I loved the most, especially the first third and the last third of the book. The characterization and the writing are well-done. The characters are mature, likable and easily relatable.
On the downside, the middle of the book was too slow and a bit boring. The ending was a bit unsatisfying; it felt too rushed disrupting the flow of the story. Also, some of the secondary events in this book felt strange to me and were redundant or not detailed enough.
QUICK REVIEW:
Enjoyment:: 3.5/5
Writing style: 4/5
Storyline: 3/5
Hero: 4/5
Heroine: 4/5
Secondary characters: 4/5
Hotness/chemistry: 3/5
Romance: 4/5
Angst: 3/5
Darkness level: 2/5
Humor: 3/5
Depth of the book: 4/5
POV: dual
Triggers:
January 15, 2024
Author's Note: ** Please note: there is NO underage sex in this book. There is NO incest or blood relation in this book. This is NOT an MC Club story. This is NOT erotica. This is a slow burn romance. This book is intended for readers 18 years and older **
"I want you to be my first. I want you to be my last. I want you to be all the in-betweens. I want you. Just you. Only you”
WOW!!! *handsdown* This was one of the sweetiest but also the sexiest book that I have ever read. I really, really loved Tor&Kenzi's story. :) I know, I know it looks disturbing from outside because of the subject of this story but the author really did a great job to show me that is a beautiful connection between Tor&Kenzi. Toren is 15 years older than Kenzi and they've been know each other from the day she was born. They have an amazing chemistry and that age difference really didn't bother me at all. Because I felt their love too. And I'm glad that they didn't make out with every 10 minutes like a bunnies so that's another reason for me to love this story. This book is the ultimate slow burn... So it'll worth the wait. :)
What can I say more? I loved every minute of this story. Kenzi knows what she wants, who she loves and so was Toren too. And in this case the heart always gets what it wants... <3
Ps. If you're okay with this age difference, I highly recommend this book to you. Trust me, that big &tattooed guy will make you surprise with his kindness and he will make you swoon... :)
"I want you to be my first. I want you to be my last. I want you to be all the in-betweens. I want you. Just you. Only you”
WOW!!! *handsdown* This was one of the sweetiest but also the sexiest book that I have ever read. I really, really loved Tor&Kenzi's story. :) I know, I know it looks disturbing from outside because of the subject of this story but the author really did a great job to show me that is a beautiful connection between Tor&Kenzi. Toren is 15 years older than Kenzi and they've been know each other from the day she was born. They have an amazing chemistry and that age difference really didn't bother me at all. Because I felt their love too. And I'm glad that they didn't make out with every 10 minutes like a bunnies so that's another reason for me to love this story. This book is the ultimate slow burn... So it'll worth the wait. :)
What can I say more? I loved every minute of this story. Kenzi knows what she wants, who she loves and so was Toren too. And in this case the heart always gets what it wants... <3
Ps. If you're okay with this age difference, I highly recommend this book to you. Trust me, that big &tattooed guy will make you surprise with his kindness and he will make you swoon... :)
May 4, 2019
It's a story about Blurred Lines and crossed morals. A dilemma between what SEEMS right and what FEELS right. A constant battle between head and heart ensues on EVERY PAGE !!
Characters Kenzi Allyster Valentine - Ember & Asher's daughter and her soulkeepr and soulmate - Toren Grace.
Oh, he's also been her babysitter and friend since the day she was BORN!!
you see how all the wires are tangled and connections all shot!!!
I think all relationships start with an invisible line, and even though we can't see it, we all know it's there because we can feel it. We respect that line because it keeps the bounds of the relationship intact. The line guides us within our relationships and dictates who is our friend, who is our family, who is our lover, who is someone we can or can't trust. The line between Tor and I is somewhat unique, because it criss-crosses between family and friend, and just now it blurred into something I can't quite describe. I'm not sure where our line is anymore, or if I even want a line at all.
They are all confused and distracted.
Asher with his wife Ember's condition
Asher clueless tryna be a single parent
Kenzi with feelings for Tor
Torn tryna keep his family afloat
For with his heart turning towards Kenzi
Sydni & Lisa to fend off..
And then the couple itself!!!
There comes a point where the fight is too much and giving in is much easier
I think I'm falling in love with her, and I'm powerless to stop it. I can feel it, like a train with no brakes, coming faster and faster, straight for me. Soon, it's going to crash, and it's not going to be pretty.
With acceptance comes Dread. Of social stigma, disappointing close ones and destroying friendships
But heart's got to do what the Heart's got to DO!
It's a simply complex story for which there is no right or wrong track. It's all a matter of perception
Readers have to decide for themselves what they should be rooting for. Pure, unadulterated, enabling, supportive love or prescribed social norms.
I was so engrossed in the story, couldn't put my head up. I was oblivious to the world basking in the beautifully written story's rosy sunshine.
I loved Sweet, unassuming Kenzi. She's mature beyond her years and single mindedly focused. She's a natural carer and protector by heart
Toren is a lonely tortured soul, overburdened and over sensitive. He's much like the animals he rescues, malnourished for love, tired, scared and sceptical.
What a match made in heaven. A couple who leans on each other, protects each other and just lavishes unconditional love over each other
It's beautifully written Forbidden(?) Story which is so my comfort zone
Ugh. It's all so fucking wrong. Taboo at its finest.
Carian twists the dagger by interspersing their developing romance in the present with him acting as a guardian in the past. Kinda doesn't let readers read it guilt free, the minx!!!!
Sinful Love in abundance and pantingly passionate sex make it a perfect Guilty Pleasure book
4.5 stars for Angel- the Pet Whisperer
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Characters Kenzi Allyster Valentine - Ember & Asher's daughter and her soulkeepr and soulmate - Toren Grace.
Oh, he's also been her babysitter and friend since the day she was BORN!!
you see how all the wires are tangled and connections all shot!!!
I think all relationships start with an invisible line, and even though we can't see it, we all know it's there because we can feel it. We respect that line because it keeps the bounds of the relationship intact. The line guides us within our relationships and dictates who is our friend, who is our family, who is our lover, who is someone we can or can't trust. The line between Tor and I is somewhat unique, because it criss-crosses between family and friend, and just now it blurred into something I can't quite describe. I'm not sure where our line is anymore, or if I even want a line at all.
They are all confused and distracted.
Asher with his wife Ember's condition
Asher clueless tryna be a single parent
Kenzi with feelings for Tor
Torn tryna keep his family afloat
For with his heart turning towards Kenzi
Sydni & Lisa to fend off..
And then the couple itself!!!
There comes a point where the fight is too much and giving in is much easier
I think I'm falling in love with her, and I'm powerless to stop it. I can feel it, like a train with no brakes, coming faster and faster, straight for me. Soon, it's going to crash, and it's not going to be pretty.
With acceptance comes Dread. Of social stigma, disappointing close ones and destroying friendships
But heart's got to do what the Heart's got to DO!
It's a simply complex story for which there is no right or wrong track. It's all a matter of perception
Readers have to decide for themselves what they should be rooting for. Pure, unadulterated, enabling, supportive love or prescribed social norms.
I was so engrossed in the story, couldn't put my head up. I was oblivious to the world basking in the beautifully written story's rosy sunshine.
I loved Sweet, unassuming Kenzi. She's mature beyond her years and single mindedly focused. She's a natural carer and protector by heart
Toren is a lonely tortured soul, overburdened and over sensitive. He's much like the animals he rescues, malnourished for love, tired, scared and sceptical.
What a match made in heaven. A couple who leans on each other, protects each other and just lavishes unconditional love over each other
It's beautifully written Forbidden(?) Story which is so my comfort zone
Ugh. It's all so fucking wrong. Taboo at its finest.
Carian twists the dagger by interspersing their developing romance in the present with him acting as a guardian in the past. Kinda doesn't let readers read it guilt free, the minx!!!!
Sinful Love in abundance and pantingly passionate sex make it a perfect Guilty Pleasure book
4.5 stars for Angel- the Pet Whisperer
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July 27, 2017
4 Stars
Overall Opinion: I liked this one much more than I thought I would! I wasn't the biggest fan of the only book I've read from this author, Storm, so when I realized that it was a spin-off (after I was already reading it) -- I was a little worried. But...I loved Tor! He was amazingly sweet, and I so wanted him to get a HEA! This didn't feel dirty at all to me. When some readers might see that whole "He’s loved me since the day I was born" line in the blurb, it might come off as gross or unappealing. Yes -- they loved each other instantly when she was born, but that love evolved as they aged. They were soul mates. 15 years is a lot to be different in age, but I never felt skeeved-out by it because of their obvious connection and how mature the h was. It even got a little mushy, and I was ok with it! It was romantic! My only complaint is that I wanted some time after they got everything figured with them as a couple and interacting with others (and their family). I felt like the ending was a little too abrupt for my liking, and even though I liked the epilogue -- I'm greedy, and I wanted more!
Brief Summary of the Storyline: This is Kinzi and Tor's story. They have shared a strong connection since the day she was born, and that connection changed throughout time. It went from family to friend to more. One night their worlds are shaken when they both see each other differently. They fight their attraction for a while, but eventually give in and build on that strong connection and fall deeply in love. There is some ex and family drama, as well as some hot sexy times...and they get a HEA ending.
POV: This alternated between Kinzi and Tor's POV. It also went from flashbacks to present tense (which I loved).
Overall Pace of Story: Good. I never skimmed and I thought it flowed well (see closure section).
Instalove: No. They've known each other since Kinzi was born.
H rating: 5 stars. Tor. He was sweet, he was sexy, he was loyal, and he saved abused animals...he was awesome!
h rating: 4 stars. Kinzi. I liked her. She was mature for her age, and I appreciated her desire to just have a family to love.
Sadness level: Low. No tissues needed.
Push/Pull: Yes
Heat level: Moderate. They have some hot chemistry and scenes.
Descriptive sex: Yes
Safe sex: Kind of. Mention of birth control, but I don't remember any mention of the H's previous practices or std status.
OW/OM drama: Yes
Sex scene with OW or OM: No
Cheating: No
Separation: Yes
Possible Triggers: Yes
Closure: This had good closure with a cute jump ahead epilogue and a HEA ending. I did feel like the ending was abrupt, and I would've liked to have some time to see them as an outed couple with other people though...I felt a little jipped there :/
How I got it: It was part of my kindle unlimited subscription.
Safety: I'd say this is this should be Safe for most readers.
Overall Opinion: I liked this one much more than I thought I would! I wasn't the biggest fan of the only book I've read from this author, Storm, so when I realized that it was a spin-off (after I was already reading it) -- I was a little worried. But...I loved Tor! He was amazingly sweet, and I so wanted him to get a HEA! This didn't feel dirty at all to me. When some readers might see that whole "He’s loved me since the day I was born" line in the blurb, it might come off as gross or unappealing. Yes -- they loved each other instantly when she was born, but that love evolved as they aged. They were soul mates. 15 years is a lot to be different in age, but I never felt skeeved-out by it because of their obvious connection and how mature the h was. It even got a little mushy, and I was ok with it! It was romantic! My only complaint is that I wanted some time after they got everything figured with them as a couple and interacting with others (and their family). I felt like the ending was a little too abrupt for my liking, and even though I liked the epilogue -- I'm greedy, and I wanted more!
Brief Summary of the Storyline: This is Kinzi and Tor's story. They have shared a strong connection since the day she was born, and that connection changed throughout time. It went from family to friend to more. One night their worlds are shaken when they both see each other differently. They fight their attraction for a while, but eventually give in and build on that strong connection and fall deeply in love. There is some ex and family drama, as well as some hot sexy times...and they get a HEA ending.
POV: This alternated between Kinzi and Tor's POV. It also went from flashbacks to present tense (which I loved).
Overall Pace of Story: Good. I never skimmed and I thought it flowed well (see closure section).
Instalove: No. They've known each other since Kinzi was born.
H rating: 5 stars. Tor. He was sweet, he was sexy, he was loyal, and he saved abused animals...he was awesome!
h rating: 4 stars. Kinzi. I liked her. She was mature for her age, and I appreciated her desire to just have a family to love.
Sadness level: Low. No tissues needed.
Push/Pull: Yes
Heat level: Moderate. They have some hot chemistry and scenes.
Descriptive sex: Yes
Safe sex: Kind of. Mention of birth control, but I don't remember any mention of the H's previous practices or std status.
OW/OM drama: Yes
Sex scene with OW or OM: No
Cheating: No
Separation: Yes
Possible Triggers: Yes
Closure: This had good closure with a cute jump ahead epilogue and a HEA ending. I did feel like the ending was abrupt, and I would've liked to have some time to see them as an outed couple with other people though...I felt a little jipped there :/
How I got it: It was part of my kindle unlimited subscription.
Safety: I'd say this is this should be Safe for most readers.
March 6, 2022
JOIN MY: A WHORE FOR UNCLE TOR CLUB
My first Carian Cole book did not disappoint. She falls in love with her dad's best friend who helped raise her and babysat her for most of her life. You know me and a massive taboo age gap.
You'd think this was a naughty book, and it is, somewhat, but this will actually get you deep in your feels.
Uncle Tor is a metalhead, bike lover, who runs an animal shelter and beats up bad guys who abuse dogs and cats. I know.
That also makes me drenched.
The book is told from both his POV and hers, going back from past to present. It is very emotional, heart-warming, romantic and there's the taboo aspect that makes this pretty hot. Also Uncle Tor made me laugh out loud multiple time, his bluntness, his language, everything about him is perfect. He calls her angel...
Don't come into this thinking it's going to be a naughty, dirty book, it's going to grab you by the balls and punch you right in your heart.
Absolutely lovely, emotional and romantic.
I am, in fact, a whore for uncle Tor.
September 20, 2016
I think it's safe to say this book had me torn!
As I am certain that this was the intension of the author for me to feel this way.
PLEASE PROCEED WITH CAUTION SPOILERS
Unpopular opinion here!
I can honestly say this is the first time I took so many notes while reading a book.
A book that I should be enjoying!
It was almost like I was trying to demystify the story and why I found it so problematic.
Firstly, I must say that the writing itself is flawless and very concise.
Each chapter started with a small piece of their past. At first I found this very sweet and nostalgic, but then I quickly found it very distracting.
It served only to remind me how Taboo their relationship is.
For me it was like:
First time he checks her out and talk about sex/ slap back to his name being her first word
First kiss awesome/ then slap back remember when I got your pet bunny
First time they have sex/ slap again remember when I was into your mom
I could really go on and on but I think you understand what I am saying here.
Now the thing loved about this book are actually the things I thought I would hate.
1- the hero Tor was always present when Kenzi the heroine needed him even when her bunny died (man did I cry) even on the prom date from hell.
2- they had a weird bond that was bordering on father/daughter but without the physical that lasted a long time until she was an adult.
3- the fact that he was her first lover as he was tender and loving and made it special for her.
4- they eventually find a way to make it work without it being awkward with her family and his.
5- cute epilogue! I am a total sucker for those. I can forgive a lot if the epilogue is good!
Now the things I disliked were much more numerous:
1- The fact that her parents essentially gave their daughter Kenzi to Tor for him to raise her. It was crazy! How finally at the end the father gets mad and goes after the hero, when it was basically the hero who did the heavy parenting. He would be on tour with his band and who was caring for her but the hero.
2- How the hero leaves his two ex hanging. One of which is a complete slut Sydni, that he just allows back into his life whenever she feels like it. Sydni being his 12 year off and on F*ck friend and Lisa a newly separated love interest.
He tells Sydni
"Then we'll talk about maybe starting over when you get back home. I want you to have a full STD panel done". Sounds like he is getting ready to hook up with her again and as this is after they start expressing their feelings for each other....BIG NO HERE!
3- HE JUST LET HER GO! Holy sh*t after he takes a beating for her. He just lets her leave. Like whatevs we can pick this up some other time. REALLY? Hello love of your life here FIGHT FOR HER! He just rolls over and let's things happen. NOT ALPHA for me.
4- They both allow too much time to go by without any real contact. Sorry but that does not scream endless love to me here at all.
5- They have a father/daughter bond for so many years but he just magically wakes up and one day he wants her for his own. Sexually! Correct me if am wrong here but she's been developing "assets" for a while and just when she is going to be 18 does he have this epiphany. I call that weird.
6- The fact that he has had feeling of a romantic nature and wanted to date her mother.
OMG,creepy gross! I should have started out with that one cause I was just ick for me. I know he did not act on them but he still had these feelings for her.
7- Also, without a chance encounter on the street would they even be together? Maybe but she was in town a whole month and she makes no contact with him? They just have this way of letting time go away without doing anything about their epic love.
8- Where is the passionate, I can't live without each other moments? I miss those kinds of books that have the hero and/or heroine crying their eyes out and losing tons of weight because they can't eat, they can't even function without the other. These two just went about their daily life...Oh well I will get her back someday, I am sure he will be waiting for me.
TRUE LOVE HERE! DON'T WAIT MAKE IT HAPPEN!
9- The actual story was too long and full of things not necessary to the plot like the whole save the animals things! I get it, he saves animals, he is a great guy. But do I need to see him go into endless places placing his life in danger to rescue abused dogs. Also, Pointless conversations he has with other women and other people. Just chapter of things that are not necessary to the understanding of the story.
10- Closure I hate when things are not all neat and tied up at the end. We are left to wonder about her mother. I know there will be another book, but honestly this was an important if not vital part of the story to be left unresolved!
For me it was just a 2 star read but I pushed it up a star because it was so well written.
This book was missing the passionate conviction that would have me saying "YES now that's a great romance."
An OK read but I will not reread this book as it's not really for me personally.
Safety: no cheating. He has two other woman who he keeps hanging and she was dating another guy but after they are together they are faithful. He pushes her away and she goes away. Safe sex she is on the pill and he has been celibate for a long time. No condoms used.
Now for those of you who have Loved this book and thought it was epic, that's great. But these are my thoughts and I am entitled to them after I reading every single word in this book!
As this was a very difficult read for me and I read it anyways, don't abuse my space here with negative comments and hate. I gave it a chance even though I knew it was not for me after the comments made by another reviewer.
Thanks and as always happy reading! :D
As I am certain that this was the intension of the author for me to feel this way.
PLEASE PROCEED WITH CAUTION SPOILERS
Unpopular opinion here!
I can honestly say this is the first time I took so many notes while reading a book.
A book that I should be enjoying!
It was almost like I was trying to demystify the story and why I found it so problematic.
Firstly, I must say that the writing itself is flawless and very concise.
Each chapter started with a small piece of their past. At first I found this very sweet and nostalgic, but then I quickly found it very distracting.
It served only to remind me how Taboo their relationship is.
For me it was like:
First time he checks her out and talk about sex/ slap back to his name being her first word
First kiss awesome/ then slap back remember when I got your pet bunny
First time they have sex/ slap again remember when I was into your mom
I could really go on and on but I think you understand what I am saying here.
Now the thing loved about this book are actually the things I thought I would hate.
1- the hero Tor was always present when Kenzi the heroine needed him even when her bunny died (man did I cry) even on the prom date from hell.
2- they had a weird bond that was bordering on father/daughter but without the physical that lasted a long time until she was an adult.
3- the fact that he was her first lover as he was tender and loving and made it special for her.
4- they eventually find a way to make it work without it being awkward with her family and his.
5- cute epilogue! I am a total sucker for those. I can forgive a lot if the epilogue is good!
Now the things I disliked were much more numerous:
1- The fact that her parents essentially gave their daughter Kenzi to Tor for him to raise her. It was crazy! How finally at the end the father gets mad and goes after the hero, when it was basically the hero who did the heavy parenting. He would be on tour with his band and who was caring for her but the hero.
2- How the hero leaves his two ex hanging. One of which is a complete slut Sydni, that he just allows back into his life whenever she feels like it. Sydni being his 12 year off and on F*ck friend and Lisa a newly separated love interest.
He tells Sydni
"Then we'll talk about maybe starting over when you get back home. I want you to have a full STD panel done". Sounds like he is getting ready to hook up with her again and as this is after they start expressing their feelings for each other....BIG NO HERE!
3- HE JUST LET HER GO! Holy sh*t after he takes a beating for her. He just lets her leave. Like whatevs we can pick this up some other time. REALLY? Hello love of your life here FIGHT FOR HER! He just rolls over and let's things happen. NOT ALPHA for me.
4- They both allow too much time to go by without any real contact. Sorry but that does not scream endless love to me here at all.
5- They have a father/daughter bond for so many years but he just magically wakes up and one day he wants her for his own. Sexually! Correct me if am wrong here but she's been developing "assets" for a while and just when she is going to be 18 does he have this epiphany. I call that weird.
6- The fact that he has had feeling of a romantic nature and wanted to date her mother.
OMG,creepy gross! I should have started out with that one cause I was just ick for me. I know he did not act on them but he still had these feelings for her.
7- Also, without a chance encounter on the street would they even be together? Maybe but she was in town a whole month and she makes no contact with him? They just have this way of letting time go away without doing anything about their epic love.
8- Where is the passionate, I can't live without each other moments? I miss those kinds of books that have the hero and/or heroine crying their eyes out and losing tons of weight because they can't eat, they can't even function without the other. These two just went about their daily life...Oh well I will get her back someday, I am sure he will be waiting for me.
TRUE LOVE HERE! DON'T WAIT MAKE IT HAPPEN!
9- The actual story was too long and full of things not necessary to the plot like the whole save the animals things! I get it, he saves animals, he is a great guy. But do I need to see him go into endless places placing his life in danger to rescue abused dogs. Also, Pointless conversations he has with other women and other people. Just chapter of things that are not necessary to the understanding of the story.
10- Closure I hate when things are not all neat and tied up at the end. We are left to wonder about her mother. I know there will be another book, but honestly this was an important if not vital part of the story to be left unresolved!
For me it was just a 2 star read but I pushed it up a star because it was so well written.
This book was missing the passionate conviction that would have me saying "YES now that's a great romance."
An OK read but I will not reread this book as it's not really for me personally.
Safety: no cheating. He has two other woman who he keeps hanging and she was dating another guy but after they are together they are faithful. He pushes her away and she goes away. Safe sex she is on the pill and he has been celibate for a long time. No condoms used.
Now for those of you who have Loved this book and thought it was epic, that's great. But these are my thoughts and I am entitled to them after I reading every single word in this book!
As this was a very difficult read for me and I read it anyways, don't abuse my space here with negative comments and hate. I gave it a chance even though I knew it was not for me after the comments made by another reviewer.
Thanks and as always happy reading! :D
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
December 17, 2021
I had to think long and hard on this review because I really wasn't sure how I even felt about the book, so I definitely didn't know what to say about it. But after having it on my mind throughout the day this is what I've come up with...
I'm indifferent.
It wasn't a bad book, but when I think back on it I can't really say my reading experience was a good one. And I feel like I need to say that the age difference and "uncle" factor had no affect on me not enjoying the book. I know that most people who didn't like this book had that one major problem with it, but for me that taboo part of the book is actually what drew me in.
My issues came from various other things that happened throughout the story. One being the length of it and how long it took for Tor and Kenzi to get together. I'm a book-a-day kind of person so the fact that this book took me two days to finish says a lot. It's not that I was busy, it was the fact that the beginning 30 or 40% moved so slow that I kept putting the book down. I was losing interest the more I read because it felt like the same things were happening over and over again.
I did, however, like the sexual tension that Tor and Kenzi had going on for awhile. It kept me intrigued for a portion of the book when the were finally starting to admit to themselves that they had feelings for one another. I had hope that from there I would get more into the story, but sadly it didn't happen.
Now here's the thing that kind of took the enjoyment of seeing these characters together away, though. The chapter headers. On many chapters there was a small portion that had a flashback to Kenzi as a little girl and Tor taking care of her. Seems innocent enough, until you add in the fact that sometimes those flashbacks came right in between some steamy moments. It just wasn't something I wanted to see or hear about right before/after seeing them together in a sexual way.
I also didn't like how the secret surrounding Kenzi's mom was handled. I get that the author was trying to keep the facts hidden until the "big reveal" but the times when she was brought up just confused me. I honestly had to keep checking to see if I accidentally skipped ahead and missed something. It felt like there the story was taunting me like an annoying child going "I know something you don't know" over and over again. Then when I guessed the secret and was pretty positive I knew what it was around 41% somehow the mentions of her became even more annoying.
One last rant, I promise...
But what is it with these non-endings lately? I've read so many books this past week where the ending was over way too fast and gave me no closure whatsoever. Torn was just the same and yet again I'm left thinking, what the fuck was that? One minute nothing is okay and the next you're turning the page to see everything resolved and over. I wanted more to come from the ending, and I definitely hated how Kenzi's mom was mentioned that one last time without giving us any facts about how that came to be.
Okay my big rant is over and if you made it this far into my review I apologize for my bitching and whining. Despite my issues, I will still recommend this book for all my fellow taboo lovers because I see that a lot of other people did enjoy it. I hope it will be more enjoyable for other readers to come.
I'm indifferent.
It wasn't a bad book, but when I think back on it I can't really say my reading experience was a good one. And I feel like I need to say that the age difference and "uncle" factor had no affect on me not enjoying the book. I know that most people who didn't like this book had that one major problem with it, but for me that taboo part of the book is actually what drew me in.
My issues came from various other things that happened throughout the story. One being the length of it and how long it took for Tor and Kenzi to get together. I'm a book-a-day kind of person so the fact that this book took me two days to finish says a lot. It's not that I was busy, it was the fact that the beginning 30 or 40% moved so slow that I kept putting the book down. I was losing interest the more I read because it felt like the same things were happening over and over again.
I did, however, like the sexual tension that Tor and Kenzi had going on for awhile. It kept me intrigued for a portion of the book when the were finally starting to admit to themselves that they had feelings for one another. I had hope that from there I would get more into the story, but sadly it didn't happen.
Now here's the thing that kind of took the enjoyment of seeing these characters together away, though. The chapter headers. On many chapters there was a small portion that had a flashback to Kenzi as a little girl and Tor taking care of her. Seems innocent enough, until you add in the fact that sometimes those flashbacks came right in between some steamy moments. It just wasn't something I wanted to see or hear about right before/after seeing them together in a sexual way.
I also didn't like how the secret surrounding Kenzi's mom was handled. I get that the author was trying to keep the facts hidden until the "big reveal" but the times when she was brought up just confused me. I honestly had to keep checking to see if I accidentally skipped ahead and missed something. It felt like there the story was taunting me like an annoying child going "I know something you don't know" over and over again. Then when I guessed the secret and was pretty positive I knew what it was around 41% somehow the mentions of her became even more annoying.
One last rant, I promise...
But what is it with these non-endings lately? I've read so many books this past week where the ending was over way too fast and gave me no closure whatsoever. Torn was just the same and yet again I'm left thinking, what the fuck was that? One minute nothing is okay and the next you're turning the page to see everything resolved and over. I wanted more to come from the ending, and I definitely hated how Kenzi's mom was mentioned that one last time without giving us any facts about how that came to be.
Okay my big rant is over and if you made it this far into my review I apologize for my bitching and whining. Despite my issues, I will still recommend this book for all my fellow taboo lovers because I see that a lot of other people did enjoy it. I hope it will be more enjoyable for other readers to come.
June 26, 2017
Storm won me right away, Vandal had me on my knees, Lukas gave me hopes and feelings and Talon took my heart and breath away. So as you can easily tell I have high hopes every time I open a book written by Carian Cole because 1)she is one of my favorite authors in this whole wide world and 2) I always end up in love with her stories no matter what.
So how about Torn, you ask? I 'll let you know immediately. Tor and Kenzi are winners like the ones before them. Since the very first book I read by Carian Cole, I knew her writing was just right for me, what I didn't know back then was that she possesses a unique talent in storytelling, empathy.
It's not easy to write a story like Torn, so powerful, hinting on taboo, filled with suppressed feelings, pain, loneliness, love and hope. It's also not easy as a reader to read and enjoyed said story mostly because at some points you will feel weird about the history between the two main characters.
Tor is a hero that will stick with you for a long time due to his beautiful and sorrowful soul. He is big(everywhere *wink-wink*), tattooed, an ex-musician turned mechanic who discarded his dream without a second thought in order to take care of his family, and let's not forget an animal savior with a heart of gold.
Kenzi is beyond her years, that's true but still, an eighteen-year-old girl who has dreams and is entirely too much in love with Tor, her favorite person in the world who is always by her side and won't let her down no matter what. She is creative, sweet and has a huge heart full of love to offer and she won't take no for an answer, feisty and romantic like her parents.
All in all this beautiful romance is so interesting and unique. I've never read such a story before and I'm impressed with the way everything was handled. I was mesmerized by their pure love and every little drama-filled moment and all the characters, not just the main couple. It was an absolutely incredible storyline adorned with so many passionate scenes and some crazy feelings. I fell in love right away!!!!!
THOUGHTS ABOUT THE BOOK
- Big drama right away. With the whole family.
- I don't like Sydni.
- Kenzi hoards Tor's things!! Super adorable.
- She is so down to earth.
- Wow, the thing with her mom is creepy.
- Ty sounds very interesting.
- I love how much he cares about animals. It's so beautiful.
- Tor is very unsure of himself and that's so cute. He is such a caring and giving person. And excruciatingly romantic.
- The Jug story!! AWWW!!!
- Her first word was Tor!!
- I loved how he dreamt of meeting her in an alternative reality.
- Lukas knows everything.
- The tattoo!!!AWWWWW!!!
- The epilogue was epic. I can't wait for Asher's story.
So how about Torn, you ask? I 'll let you know immediately. Tor and Kenzi are winners like the ones before them. Since the very first book I read by Carian Cole, I knew her writing was just right for me, what I didn't know back then was that she possesses a unique talent in storytelling, empathy.
It's not easy to write a story like Torn, so powerful, hinting on taboo, filled with suppressed feelings, pain, loneliness, love and hope. It's also not easy as a reader to read and enjoyed said story mostly because at some points you will feel weird about the history between the two main characters.
Tor is a hero that will stick with you for a long time due to his beautiful and sorrowful soul. He is big(everywhere *wink-wink*), tattooed, an ex-musician turned mechanic who discarded his dream without a second thought in order to take care of his family, and let's not forget an animal savior with a heart of gold.
Kenzi is beyond her years, that's true but still, an eighteen-year-old girl who has dreams and is entirely too much in love with Tor, her favorite person in the world who is always by her side and won't let her down no matter what. She is creative, sweet and has a huge heart full of love to offer and she won't take no for an answer, feisty and romantic like her parents.
All in all this beautiful romance is so interesting and unique. I've never read such a story before and I'm impressed with the way everything was handled. I was mesmerized by their pure love and every little drama-filled moment and all the characters, not just the main couple. It was an absolutely incredible storyline adorned with so many passionate scenes and some crazy feelings. I fell in love right away!!!!!
THOUGHTS ABOUT THE BOOK
- Big drama right away. With the whole family.
- I don't like Sydni.
- Kenzi hoards Tor's things!! Super adorable.
- She is so down to earth.
- Wow, the thing with her mom is creepy.
- Ty sounds very interesting.
- I love how much he cares about animals. It's so beautiful.
- Tor is very unsure of himself and that's so cute. He is such a caring and giving person. And excruciatingly romantic.
- The Jug story!! AWWW!!!
- Her first word was Tor!!
- I loved how he dreamt of meeting her in an alternative reality.
- Lukas knows everything.
- The tattoo!!!AWWWWW!!!
- The epilogue was epic. I can't wait for Asher's story.
July 24, 2021
4.5 Where I Always Wanted To Be ⭐
Carian Cole is quickly becoming one of my favourite authors. From blue collar heroes with hearts of gold and their love interests that slay them, her stories completely suck me in.
I want crazy fucking love. I want someone that'll never let me go. I want to wake up to my best friend every day.
Due to family obligations, Toren Grace gave up his dream of being a musician to take over the family business. Although surrounded by family and lifelong friends, he's lonely.
We meet Kenzie Valentine as a 17-year-old girl. Having grown up in a family of famous musicians, she remains grounded and kind-hearted. With an unbreakable bond she shares with her Uncle Tor, life is normal.
Tor and Kenzie may not be related by blood, but he's the one constant in her life. With a 15 year age difference, Tor is the honorary uncle, friend and confidante. With their shared love of animals, they're simply besties. Except when the unthinkable happens. Attraction.
I think I'm falling in love with her, and I'm powerless to stop it. I can feel it, like a train with no brakes, coming faster and faster, straight for me. Soon, it's going to crash, and it's not going to be pretty.
Torn is a long ass book, so the friends to lovers isn't instant. The backstory lays an amazing foundation for love and trust that organically becomes more. After much denial, Tor and Kenzie eventually acknowledge how they feel. Taking the next step is monumental, because convincing their loved ones that they're in love is bloody scary. The backlash is huge.
Both characters and their dynamics were standout. Although much older and experienced, Tor was unconsciously waiting for his other half. With a couple of failed relationships under his belt, he had resigned himself to being alone. Finding everything he ever dreamed of in Kenzie left him torn. As for Kenzie, she may have been young and vulnerable, but she instinctively knew that Tor was her everything.
I want you to be my first. I want you to be my last. I want you to be all the in-betweens. I want you. Just you. Only you.
Gah, this story wrecked me. So much anticipation, longing and anxiousness. All their risks were thought out and worth it. How could their love be wrong?
Carian Cole is quickly becoming one of my favourite authors. From blue collar heroes with hearts of gold and their love interests that slay them, her stories completely suck me in.
I want crazy fucking love. I want someone that'll never let me go. I want to wake up to my best friend every day.
Due to family obligations, Toren Grace gave up his dream of being a musician to take over the family business. Although surrounded by family and lifelong friends, he's lonely.
We meet Kenzie Valentine as a 17-year-old girl. Having grown up in a family of famous musicians, she remains grounded and kind-hearted. With an unbreakable bond she shares with her Uncle Tor, life is normal.
Tor and Kenzie may not be related by blood, but he's the one constant in her life. With a 15 year age difference, Tor is the honorary uncle, friend and confidante. With their shared love of animals, they're simply besties. Except when the unthinkable happens. Attraction.
I think I'm falling in love with her, and I'm powerless to stop it. I can feel it, like a train with no brakes, coming faster and faster, straight for me. Soon, it's going to crash, and it's not going to be pretty.
Torn is a long ass book, so the friends to lovers isn't instant. The backstory lays an amazing foundation for love and trust that organically becomes more. After much denial, Tor and Kenzie eventually acknowledge how they feel. Taking the next step is monumental, because convincing their loved ones that they're in love is bloody scary. The backlash is huge.
Both characters and their dynamics were standout. Although much older and experienced, Tor was unconsciously waiting for his other half. With a couple of failed relationships under his belt, he had resigned himself to being alone. Finding everything he ever dreamed of in Kenzie left him torn. As for Kenzie, she may have been young and vulnerable, but she instinctively knew that Tor was her everything.
I want you to be my first. I want you to be my last. I want you to be all the in-betweens. I want you. Just you. Only you.
Gah, this story wrecked me. So much anticipation, longing and anxiousness. All their risks were thought out and worth it. How could their love be wrong?
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August 24, 2016Not reading because of this...
"I held her the day she was born, and I never let go."
"I held her the day she was born, and I never let go."
August 31, 2016
I loved this book on so many levels. First and foremost, it's really well written. The story is captivating and very intense. I admire Ms CC for deciding to touch the controversial topic of a big age difference in a relationship. The author had found the perfect combination of sexual tension, heat and angst to keep you turning the pages. The cover draws you in from the start, and once you read those first few pages, it's hard to stop.
Kenzi and Tor share a special connection. Tor is her father’s best friend and has been her protector since she was born by her adolescent parents.
“My niece-by-association. My best friend’s daughter. My little partner in crime for the past seventeen years.” ~ Tor
Now that Tor is 32 and Kenzi is turning 18, the dynamic in their relationship is starting to change. He notices how much she has grown into a sexy woman, and he gets physically attracted to her. Proximity leads to intimacy, and intimacy leads to a relationship. He is not blood related to her, but they are very close. Kenzi shares the same feelings towards him, but both of them don’t want to upset their families. Are the feelings that Tor and Kenzi have for each other perverted? Is it normal?
“It feels wrong because something about it also feels so right, so needed, so demanded, so naturally instinctive that it shakes me right down to my toes. And that can only mean something really, really good, or really, really bad.” ~Kenzi
A gripping, suspenseful, passionate, emotional, and romantic journey ensues. Family, loyalty, and fate are tested in the pursuit of love.
“When I look at you, I don’t see my father’s friend, or my uncle, or my godfather, or an older man. All I see is the person I’ve always loved and has always made me happy. That’s it. I just see you.” ~ Kenzi
I feel sick. I feel tortured. I feel unhinged with want for her. I feel a deep ache in my heart that only she can soothe. I feel like I’m stabbing a dagger straight through my best friend’ back. ~ Tor
Lots of steamy scenes and emotional encounters to satisfy the most demanding of romance readers. The chemistry and blossoming relationship between Tor and Kenzi is wonderful. If you like a page turner wondering what's going to happen next with some steamy love mixed in...this is your kind of story!!
I'm not going to say anymore because it will ruin it so just one click today and take a chance on this author because she will blow your mind!
ARC kindly provided in exchange for an honest review. Thank you.
Kenzi and Tor share a special connection. Tor is her father’s best friend and has been her protector since she was born by her adolescent parents.
“My niece-by-association. My best friend’s daughter. My little partner in crime for the past seventeen years.” ~ Tor
Now that Tor is 32 and Kenzi is turning 18, the dynamic in their relationship is starting to change. He notices how much she has grown into a sexy woman, and he gets physically attracted to her. Proximity leads to intimacy, and intimacy leads to a relationship. He is not blood related to her, but they are very close. Kenzi shares the same feelings towards him, but both of them don’t want to upset their families. Are the feelings that Tor and Kenzi have for each other perverted? Is it normal?
“It feels wrong because something about it also feels so right, so needed, so demanded, so naturally instinctive that it shakes me right down to my toes. And that can only mean something really, really good, or really, really bad.” ~Kenzi
A gripping, suspenseful, passionate, emotional, and romantic journey ensues. Family, loyalty, and fate are tested in the pursuit of love.
“When I look at you, I don’t see my father’s friend, or my uncle, or my godfather, or an older man. All I see is the person I’ve always loved and has always made me happy. That’s it. I just see you.” ~ Kenzi
I feel sick. I feel tortured. I feel unhinged with want for her. I feel a deep ache in my heart that only she can soothe. I feel like I’m stabbing a dagger straight through my best friend’ back. ~ Tor
Lots of steamy scenes and emotional encounters to satisfy the most demanding of romance readers. The chemistry and blossoming relationship between Tor and Kenzi is wonderful. If you like a page turner wondering what's going to happen next with some steamy love mixed in...this is your kind of story!!
I'm not going to say anymore because it will ruin it so just one click today and take a chance on this author because she will blow your mind!
ARC kindly provided in exchange for an honest review. Thank you.
February 18, 2019
Because nothing says sexy romance like hooking up with the guy that has changed your diaper.
Not awkward at all, right? Not even a little creepy. Perfect story when you're in the mood for a WTacualF sort of read. It seems to be a specialty of this author
Strengths: I must have missed them
Weaknesses: I don't even know where to start.
1 star read, 5 star hot mess
Not awkward at all, right? Not even a little creepy. Perfect story when you're in the mood for a WTacualF sort of read. It seems to be a specialty of this author
Strengths: I must have missed them
Weaknesses: I don't even know where to start.
1 star read, 5 star hot mess
August 21, 2025
nigdy w życiu nie byłam tak wkurwiona na książkę.
To gowno nigdy nie powinno zostać wydane
I za 2/3 tygodnie opowiem Wam na YT dlaczego.
To gowno nigdy nie powinno zostać wydane
I za 2/3 tygodnie opowiem Wam na YT dlaczego.
September 1, 2016
༺**Complimentary Copy**༺ Provided by the author
"Carian Cole" exchange for an honest review..Thank you!!
TITLE: Torn
SERIES: (Devils Wolves, #1)
AUTHOR: Carian Cole
GENRE: CONTEMPORARY ROMANCE
CHAPTERS: Prologue | 37 | Epilogue
RELEASE DATE: August 29th 2016
MY RATING: 5 STARS
★★SINFULLY ADDICTIVE, UTTERLY SEDUCTIVE★★
A taboo forbidden love story between a godfather and his niece. I've not read anything by this author before, but I have stalked the hell out of this book, and am keen to see what kind of journey she takes me on.
TORN: This kicks starts off in the 'Prologue' holding an old letter in her hands that's stood the test of time. Spoken in 'Dual Perspectives' This alternated between Kinzi and Tor's POV. It also went from Past Tense to Present Time.
My love, Walk in the rain with me.
Kiss me in the misty fog.
Let me hold you all night under the hush of the wind.
I'm waiting for you.
Throwing pennies...
making wishes.
I'm wishing only for you.
Always for you.
Come back to me.
I'll fight for you.
I'll fight for us.
Wish for me, too...
and I'll make it come true.
Words that are written on frayed parchment paper from the other half of her soul. The one man who held and loved her through every milestone in her life. The only man that truly knows her.
It’s time for me to go back home to my love and to my heart.
Tor was entrusted as Kenzi's godfather, the day she was born, born to parents under the age of sixteen, three best friends. He knew from that day onwards that he was a goner where Kenzi was concerned.
A little tiny hand wrapped tightly around my finger
huge eyes like gems staring up into mine and the first
glimpse of what I could already tell was going to be a
heart stopping smile.
At that moment, a connection was born. That was it. She owned me.
My niece.
My goddaughter
The love of my life
Kenzi was born into the life of rockstars so was subjected to all the "sex, drugs, and rock n roll" all her life which has led her growing up alot faster than her friends.
Pinch me now because I'm not even that far into this and I've gotten zapped by those feels already. And that feeling never disappeared, they just kept coming and coming.
God I love their dynamic friendship, love for each other, her little game of taking items of his to add to her ever growing collection, sweatshirts, tee shirts etc etc, even to when she was younger, at such a young age she clung to him, could see through him, understand him more than anyone else.
"I know I shouldn't be thinking of him in that way.
I was raised thinking of him as my uncle and he is my Godfather.
Those memories can't be wiped away from our history.
He's my dad's best friend. He's almost twice my age.
But with each day that passes, those facts seem less valid to me, and the feelings I'm having for him are becoming much stronger than fake titles and age differences. It's undeniable; our feelings for each other have changed."
"Okay...tell me what you wished for?"
"I wished you would never doubt me again. I've spent almost eighteen years being there for you, Angel. Because I want to. No one ever made me or expected me to. Your'e just where I always wanted to be."
"I wish you weren't who you are... - Kenzi "
Tor has been there for Kenzi ever since the very beginning, since the day she was born, he saw her take her first steps, he taught her how to ride a bike, he was always there through every milestone in her life, his name was the first name ever to be uttered from her lips.
“This kid has always had a microscope right into my soul and it's driving me mad.
Am I scared?
Yes. I'm petrified of what she's made me feel.”
NOW: She is 18. He is 32
Attraction bubbling in the background that neither can deny or hide from it's there brewing to the surface.
Is it so wrong to love this story as much as I am, it may be forbidden, it may be taboo, but in whose eyes?? The story flips back to past and present flawlessly. Two lost souls that are only whole when they are side by side. You can't help but fall hopelessly in love with these two.
“She promised me forever.
She made me believe I could have it.
I'll never let her go...but I have to set her free.
Please come back to me, I beg silently.
Please always love me the most.”
I'm not going to lie, I had a wee bit of trepidation going into this, the whole thing with the godfather taboo feeling of falling in love with his niece, I can honestly say this for me was so beautifully written, unique, I had so many feels coursing through my body, I truly loved this, it wasn't just a romance book, it was so much more than that.
We all hope and strive for a love like this, a man like this, he was just what book boyfriends are made of. Highly recommend..
"Carian Cole" exchange for an honest review..Thank you!!
TITLE: Torn
SERIES: (Devils Wolves, #1)
AUTHOR: Carian Cole
GENRE: CONTEMPORARY ROMANCE
CHAPTERS: Prologue | 37 | Epilogue
RELEASE DATE: August 29th 2016
MY RATING: 5 STARS
★★SINFULLY ADDICTIVE, UTTERLY SEDUCTIVE★★
A taboo forbidden love story between a godfather and his niece. I've not read anything by this author before, but I have stalked the hell out of this book, and am keen to see what kind of journey she takes me on.
TORN: This kicks starts off in the 'Prologue' holding an old letter in her hands that's stood the test of time. Spoken in 'Dual Perspectives' This alternated between Kinzi and Tor's POV. It also went from Past Tense to Present Time.
My love, Walk in the rain with me.
Kiss me in the misty fog.
Let me hold you all night under the hush of the wind.
I'm waiting for you.
Throwing pennies...
making wishes.
I'm wishing only for you.
Always for you.
Come back to me.
I'll fight for you.
I'll fight for us.
Wish for me, too...
and I'll make it come true.
Words that are written on frayed parchment paper from the other half of her soul. The one man who held and loved her through every milestone in her life. The only man that truly knows her.
It’s time for me to go back home to my love and to my heart.
Tor was entrusted as Kenzi's godfather, the day she was born, born to parents under the age of sixteen, three best friends. He knew from that day onwards that he was a goner where Kenzi was concerned.
A little tiny hand wrapped tightly around my fingerhuge eyes like gems staring up into mine and the first
glimpse of what I could already tell was going to be a
heart stopping smile.
At that moment, a connection was born. That was it. She owned me.
My niece.
My goddaughter
The love of my life
Kenzi was born into the life of rockstars so was subjected to all the "sex, drugs, and rock n roll" all her life which has led her growing up alot faster than her friends.
Pinch me now because I'm not even that far into this and I've gotten zapped by those feels already. And that feeling never disappeared, they just kept coming and coming.
God I love their dynamic friendship, love for each other, her little game of taking items of his to add to her ever growing collection, sweatshirts, tee shirts etc etc, even to when she was younger, at such a young age she clung to him, could see through him, understand him more than anyone else.
"I know I shouldn't be thinking of him in that way.I was raised thinking of him as my uncle and he is my Godfather.
Those memories can't be wiped away from our history.
He's my dad's best friend. He's almost twice my age.
But with each day that passes, those facts seem less valid to me, and the feelings I'm having for him are becoming much stronger than fake titles and age differences. It's undeniable; our feelings for each other have changed."
"Okay...tell me what you wished for?"
"I wished you would never doubt me again. I've spent almost eighteen years being there for you, Angel. Because I want to. No one ever made me or expected me to. Your'e just where I always wanted to be."
"I wish you weren't who you are... - Kenzi "
Tor has been there for Kenzi ever since the very beginning, since the day she was born, he saw her take her first steps, he taught her how to ride a bike, he was always there through every milestone in her life, his name was the first name ever to be uttered from her lips.
“This kid has always had a microscope right into my soul and it's driving me mad.
Am I scared?
Yes. I'm petrified of what she's made me feel.”
NOW: She is 18. He is 32
Attraction bubbling in the background that neither can deny or hide from it's there brewing to the surface.
Is it so wrong to love this story as much as I am, it may be forbidden, it may be taboo, but in whose eyes?? The story flips back to past and present flawlessly. Two lost souls that are only whole when they are side by side. You can't help but fall hopelessly in love with these two.
“She promised me forever.
She made me believe I could have it.
I'll never let her go...but I have to set her free.
Please come back to me, I beg silently.
Please always love me the most.”
I'm not going to lie, I had a wee bit of trepidation going into this, the whole thing with the godfather taboo feeling of falling in love with his niece, I can honestly say this for me was so beautifully written, unique, I had so many feels coursing through my body, I truly loved this, it wasn't just a romance book, it was so much more than that.
We all hope and strive for a love like this, a man like this, he was just what book boyfriends are made of. Highly recommend..
July 12, 2023
Reread August 2017. I still love their story. Some issues with the writing and thus the 4 and not 5 star rating.
This is one of those stlries that can't be rushed, you need to savor every moment, to slowly take in Kenzi and Tor's journey, the turn from friends to lovers. While it took me til about 25% to really get into the story, when I did it almost felt sensual, slow, delicate, raw and real. Not once did it seem seedy or wrong.
"My mom has said a hundred times, sometimes God puts the right people in the right place for a reason. I'm not a religious person, but right now, I'm thinking she's right."
Tor was a bit too downtrodden and depressing for me at the start, it annoyed me that Ember seemed to be such a big regret. It took a while to get past that for me. While nothing ever happened between them, he did seem bitter that his best friend got her and he didn't. But I got over that, because when he was with Kenzi, he was so different. I loved him, the love he had for her, the all-consuming passion when he accepted what they had become.
"I think I'm falling in love with her, and I'm powerless to stop it. I can feel it, like a train with no brakes, coming faster and faster, straight for me. Soon, it's going to crash, and it's not going to be pretty."
Kenzi knew what she wanted and never wavered. She wasn't weak or immature. Even the separation, while I didn't like it, it fit into their story.
"I know I shouldn't be thinking of him in that way. I was raised thinking of him as my uncle and he is my Godfather. Those memories can't be wiped away from our history. He's my dad's best friend. He's almost twice my age. But with each day that passes, those facts seem less valid to me, and the feelings I'm having for him are becoming much stronger than fake titles and age differences. It's undeniable; our feelings for each other have changed."
Like others have said, I wanted to read about them together again, and I wanted more epilogue. I'll also add that I didn't like
This is one of those stlries that can't be rushed, you need to savor every moment, to slowly take in Kenzi and Tor's journey, the turn from friends to lovers. While it took me til about 25% to really get into the story, when I did it almost felt sensual, slow, delicate, raw and real. Not once did it seem seedy or wrong.
"My mom has said a hundred times, sometimes God puts the right people in the right place for a reason. I'm not a religious person, but right now, I'm thinking she's right."
Tor was a bit too downtrodden and depressing for me at the start, it annoyed me that Ember seemed to be such a big regret. It took a while to get past that for me. While nothing ever happened between them, he did seem bitter that his best friend got her and he didn't. But I got over that, because when he was with Kenzi, he was so different. I loved him, the love he had for her, the all-consuming passion when he accepted what they had become.
"I think I'm falling in love with her, and I'm powerless to stop it. I can feel it, like a train with no brakes, coming faster and faster, straight for me. Soon, it's going to crash, and it's not going to be pretty."
Kenzi knew what she wanted and never wavered. She wasn't weak or immature. Even the separation, while I didn't like it, it fit into their story.
"I know I shouldn't be thinking of him in that way. I was raised thinking of him as my uncle and he is my Godfather. Those memories can't be wiped away from our history. He's my dad's best friend. He's almost twice my age. But with each day that passes, those facts seem less valid to me, and the feelings I'm having for him are becoming much stronger than fake titles and age differences. It's undeniable; our feelings for each other have changed."
Like others have said, I wanted to read about them together again, and I wanted more epilogue. I'll also add that I didn't like
September 12, 2021
Re-read audio style. Noelle Bridges was fantastic, perhaps one of the best female narrators I’ve ever listened to. Mason Lloyd is great too, I’m just too stuck on him being a big blue alien to fully love him as Tor. But it didn’t take away from how much I adore their story.
Oh Tor you’ll always be my number one. And even if Asher wasn’t her dad, I’d bet you’d always be Kenzie’s.
You know what the best part about this is? Before romance is even a thought you get twisted into this beautiful friendship they share. The fact that they know each other inside and out just makes the love they’ll share worth so much more.
“My two best friends gave me my third best friend.” See? Just perfect!
God, I just love them so much! I don’t know why I waited so long to re-read this. I’m pretty sure I could read it like once a month.
It’s funny how one moment in time can totally change everything. Makes you see everything differently. Makes every touch feel like so much more. One minute he’s your best friend, your godfather and the next possibly everything.
I desperately want what Tor and Kenzie have. Imagine knowing someone inside and out, the good, the bad, the ugly. And they know you just as well because they were there for almost every minute of your life. Some might think it’s wrong but for Tor’s love to evolve over the years just feels like the most wonderful thing that could ever be.
Oh Tor you’ll always be my number one. And even if Asher wasn’t her dad, I’d bet you’d always be Kenzie’s.
You know what the best part about this is? Before romance is even a thought you get twisted into this beautiful friendship they share. The fact that they know each other inside and out just makes the love they’ll share worth so much more.
“My two best friends gave me my third best friend.” See? Just perfect!
God, I just love them so much! I don’t know why I waited so long to re-read this. I’m pretty sure I could read it like once a month.
It’s funny how one moment in time can totally change everything. Makes you see everything differently. Makes every touch feel like so much more. One minute he’s your best friend, your godfather and the next possibly everything.
I desperately want what Tor and Kenzie have. Imagine knowing someone inside and out, the good, the bad, the ugly. And they know you just as well because they were there for almost every minute of your life. Some might think it’s wrong but for Tor’s love to evolve over the years just feels like the most wonderful thing that could ever be.
July 14, 2021
4.25 stars
I love Carian Cole and this one has been on my tbr for the longest- I'm so glad I made time for it! Torn has a lot of mixed reviews among my friends and I can see why it didn't work for some people, but it definitely worked for me!
Kenzi and Toren's story is a forbidden romance between eighteen year old Kenzi and her father's best friend who is fifteen years her senior. These two have loved each other their entire lives, though nothing turned romantic until Kenzi was much, much older. I love both Tor and Kenzi and I'm intrigued by her parent's romance. I enjoyed this one lots. Carian Cole knows how to write a captivating and addicting story.
I love Carian Cole and this one has been on my tbr for the longest- I'm so glad I made time for it! Torn has a lot of mixed reviews among my friends and I can see why it didn't work for some people, but it definitely worked for me!
“When I look at you... all I see is the person I've always loved and has always made me happy. That's it. I just see you.”
Kenzi and Toren's story is a forbidden romance between eighteen year old Kenzi and her father's best friend who is fifteen years her senior. These two have loved each other their entire lives, though nothing turned romantic until Kenzi was much, much older. I love both Tor and Kenzi and I'm intrigued by her parent's romance. I enjoyed this one lots. Carian Cole knows how to write a captivating and addicting story.
Audio book source: Hoopla
Story Rating: 4.25 stars
Narrators: Mason Lloyd and Noelle Bridges
Narration Rating: 4 stars
Genre: Romance
Length: 12h 5m
September 20, 2021
dnf @ 25%
cheesy as heck (it might get better along the way, so no rating. but i’ve no desire whatsoever to continue on tho)
rating : 2 stars
cheesy as heck (it might get better along the way, so no rating. but i’ve no desire whatsoever to continue on tho)
rating : 2 stars
November 29, 2023
*sighs*
i wanted to read this because I LOVEDDD don't kiss the bride and wanted more age gap from the author, but this one didn't deliver. it was too cringey and cheesy and i like a good taboo story but this one was too weird
contains spoilery quotes
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“I wonder what made little Kenzi Valentine decide I was husband material when she was just five years old”
huh i wonder... maybe, just maybe, because she was five fucking years old?
“Kenzi isn't the flighty type and she's always been mature for her age.”
*proceeds to be the most childish 17/18 year old i've ever seen*
“I'm not a baby, Tor. I'm going to be eighteen in less than two months. That's an adult.”
uh huh... sounds real mature and not at all like a 12 year old trying to convince their parents they don't have to sit at the kids table now bc they're an ""adult""
“She knows exactly what she wants. She always has. She's not some giddy, stupid-ass teen.”
her, a few chapters before that:
“So you're my boyfriend now?" I ask excitedly, bouncing on my toes.
definitely not a stupid ass, giddy teen.
him:
“Everything about this girl defies her age and her time on this planet.”
but also her:
“Tears start to roll down my cheeks and I wipe at them, annoyed that I can't control my emotions. I don't want him to perceive me as a little girl having a tantrum.”
and then her a few chapters later:
“I fall apart the moment he leaves, crying into my comforter like a child having a tantrum but I just can’t stop.”
him, a 32 year old man, stressing tf out bc he's in love with an 18 year old:
*goes to his 19/20 year old little sister for advice*
his little sister's advice:
“She's kinda way beyond her years in a lot of ways. I don't think she'd do well with a guy her age at all. Just my two cents.”
and he's just like yeah ur right !
“She doesn't look or act eighteen,”
her when she's upset at him bc he's fucked women before her:
“I pull my legs up and hug my knees. The last thing I want is him deciding that I'm just too young for him after all, or feeling guilty or uncomfortable about having sex with me.”
awwwwww are you upset little girl?? huh???
also kenzi, being a whole ass model:
“I know how hard this was for her because she doesn't see herself as sexy or attractive. She's a jeans, t-shirts and boots kinda girl.”
are you saying if i prefer to be in my jeans and t-shirt i don't consider myself attractive?
“ I don't want to be the rich rock stars kid that does nothing. I want to help.”
“I know she hates having to stay with her grandparents because they smother her with too much attention and try to give her tons of gifts. Kenzi's never liked to be spoiled or lavished with expensive gifts by her wealthy family.”
awwwwwwww poor fucking kenzi!!!!
“I'm very aware that he chose this texture of paper, this color of ink, with careful consideration. Because he knows how much it means to me. Because he knows me. Like no else ever has or ever could”
it's paper and ink, not your deep dark secret. it could've been solved with a 5 minute conversation with anyone, come tf on
“Being a romance author, she's much more accepting of Tor and I being together and actually seems fascinated with our story. I wouldn't be surprised if she ends up writing a book on us.”
yeah and it's technically this book, and girl it aint good
i wanted to read this because I LOVEDDD don't kiss the bride and wanted more age gap from the author, but this one didn't deliver. it was too cringey and cheesy and i like a good taboo story but this one was too weird
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“I wonder what made little Kenzi Valentine decide I was husband material when she was just five years old”
huh i wonder... maybe, just maybe, because she was five fucking years old?
“Kenzi isn't the flighty type and she's always been mature for her age.”
*proceeds to be the most childish 17/18 year old i've ever seen*
“I'm not a baby, Tor. I'm going to be eighteen in less than two months. That's an adult.”
uh huh... sounds real mature and not at all like a 12 year old trying to convince their parents they don't have to sit at the kids table now bc they're an ""adult""
“She knows exactly what she wants. She always has. She's not some giddy, stupid-ass teen.”
her, a few chapters before that:
“So you're my boyfriend now?" I ask excitedly, bouncing on my toes.
definitely not a stupid ass, giddy teen.
him:
“Everything about this girl defies her age and her time on this planet.”
but also her:
“Tears start to roll down my cheeks and I wipe at them, annoyed that I can't control my emotions. I don't want him to perceive me as a little girl having a tantrum.”
and then her a few chapters later:
“I fall apart the moment he leaves, crying into my comforter like a child having a tantrum but I just can’t stop.”
him, a 32 year old man, stressing tf out bc he's in love with an 18 year old:
*goes to his 19/20 year old little sister for advice*
his little sister's advice:
“She's kinda way beyond her years in a lot of ways. I don't think she'd do well with a guy her age at all. Just my two cents.”
and he's just like yeah ur right !
“She doesn't look or act eighteen,”
her when she's upset at him bc he's fucked women before her:
“I pull my legs up and hug my knees. The last thing I want is him deciding that I'm just too young for him after all, or feeling guilty or uncomfortable about having sex with me.”
awwwwww are you upset little girl?? huh???
also kenzi, being a whole ass model:
“I know how hard this was for her because she doesn't see herself as sexy or attractive. She's a jeans, t-shirts and boots kinda girl.”
are you saying if i prefer to be in my jeans and t-shirt i don't consider myself attractive?
“ I don't want to be the rich rock stars kid that does nothing. I want to help.”
“I know she hates having to stay with her grandparents because they smother her with too much attention and try to give her tons of gifts. Kenzi's never liked to be spoiled or lavished with expensive gifts by her wealthy family.”
awwwwwwww poor fucking kenzi!!!!
“I'm very aware that he chose this texture of paper, this color of ink, with careful consideration. Because he knows how much it means to me. Because he knows me. Like no else ever has or ever could”
it's paper and ink, not your deep dark secret. it could've been solved with a 5 minute conversation with anyone, come tf on
“Being a romance author, she's much more accepting of Tor and I being together and actually seems fascinated with our story. I wouldn't be surprised if she ends up writing a book on us.”
yeah and it's technically this book, and girl it aint good
September 1, 2016
★★★★4 Stars★★★★
You know the saying "You can't help who you love?" That quote has never been more real for this story. Sometimes in life we have this ideal outlook on what we want for our futures and whether we like it or not, we cave to what we think is socially acceptable.
Who we fall in love with shouldn't come with any type of disgrace or pain and for Kenzi and Toran, their love story was one in the making. They just didn't know it yet.
"I think all relationships start with an invisible line, and even though we can't see it, we all know it's there because we can feel it.
Kenzi has always been wise beyond her years. Growing up with rock star parents, shes seen the world through adult eyes. Being a Seventeen year old Senior, you would think that going to parties and hanging out with friends would be her top priority but it's not. She loves spending time with her dad and his band along with his best friend Tor.
Knowing him since she was a baby, Tor has been a permanent fixture in her life. But one moment caused them to look at each other differently and that forbidden attraction has them crossing a line.
Toran is fed up with the same ol drama when it comes to his on again off again relationship. His love for rescuing animals and making his mechanic shop a successful bussiness, has been his top priority. Having someone who doesn't feel the same way about what he's interested in, is making him re evaluate his love life. His love for his family and a best friend that he would do anything for is all that he needs right now. But there's one girl that's been in the background and now he's starting to see her in a whole new light.
One forbidden moment.
Two unlikey lovers.
Three broken hearts in the making.
I don't want to give too much away but I will say that I freakin LOVED Tor. He was such a sweetheart and I loved how his conflictions were portrayed. Having feelings for Kenzi was something that he fought so hard and let me tell you, it wasn't easy reading about it sometimes. And I absolutey loved the flashbacks.I think the author did an excellent job making us feel more connected to them by doing that and we saw how Tor felt about Kenzi during that time frame.
If you love a beautiful forbidden romance, then you NEED to read this one. It was a pure love story that makes you think.
*Arc kindly provided in exchange for an honest review.
You know the saying "You can't help who you love?" That quote has never been more real for this story. Sometimes in life we have this ideal outlook on what we want for our futures and whether we like it or not, we cave to what we think is socially acceptable.
Who we fall in love with shouldn't come with any type of disgrace or pain and for Kenzi and Toran, their love story was one in the making. They just didn't know it yet.
"I think all relationships start with an invisible line, and even though we can't see it, we all know it's there because we can feel it.
Kenzi has always been wise beyond her years. Growing up with rock star parents, shes seen the world through adult eyes. Being a Seventeen year old Senior, you would think that going to parties and hanging out with friends would be her top priority but it's not. She loves spending time with her dad and his band along with his best friend Tor.
Knowing him since she was a baby, Tor has been a permanent fixture in her life. But one moment caused them to look at each other differently and that forbidden attraction has them crossing a line.
Toran is fed up with the same ol drama when it comes to his on again off again relationship. His love for rescuing animals and making his mechanic shop a successful bussiness, has been his top priority. Having someone who doesn't feel the same way about what he's interested in, is making him re evaluate his love life. His love for his family and a best friend that he would do anything for is all that he needs right now. But there's one girl that's been in the background and now he's starting to see her in a whole new light.
One forbidden moment.
Two unlikey lovers.
Three broken hearts in the making.
I don't want to give too much away but I will say that I freakin LOVED Tor. He was such a sweetheart and I loved how his conflictions were portrayed. Having feelings for Kenzi was something that he fought so hard and let me tell you, it wasn't easy reading about it sometimes. And I absolutey loved the flashbacks.I think the author did an excellent job making us feel more connected to them by doing that and we saw how Tor felt about Kenzi during that time frame.
If you love a beautiful forbidden romance, then you NEED to read this one. It was a pure love story that makes you think.
*Arc kindly provided in exchange for an honest review.
not-my-cuppa
November 29, 20181. He's fifteen years older than her.
2. He's also her father's best friend.
Nope, not my cuppa!
2. He's also her father's best friend.
Nope, not my cuppa!
August 26, 2017
There's only one thing I hate more than when authors respond to reviews, and that's when they bitch and whine to Amazon about bad reviews and have them removed.
I'd post my original review, but I don't have a copy seeing as Amazon deleted it.
But it went along the lines of Carian Cole becoming a 'no buy' author thanks to her antics of replying to reviews to defend herself against the bad ones. Not only that, but I'm sure she has minions commenting for her as well. Seriously, go to Amazon and read all the one and two star reviews of this book and a few of her other books too.
Dear authors:
If you're going to write a taboo book, you need to expect people won't like it for the taboo aspect if you screw it up like this book did.
Taboo can be sexy, if done right. I don't think it was done right in this instance. And when I said so in a review, the review was accepted by Amazon ... until "someone" complained about it, and it was taken down.
Was it perhaps because I said I was surprised Carian Cole hadn't appeared on an 'authors behaving badly' site yet? Well, buckle up for a ride, sweetheart. If you keep going the way you're going, you're going to screw yourself out of a career. That is not a threat. I am not a blogger or author or any of that, so I have no power here. I'm not coming after you. But I want to be heard, and it pisses me off that I have been silenced.
I wonder how many times she's complained to Amazon, because she has a whopping 4.8 average on nearly 1000 reviews. No wonder her average is so good when she gets her shitty reviews deleted thanks to loopholes.
Now that I've expressed my anger towards the butthurt author who can't accept criticism I want to actually review this book:
As it says in the blurb and in the many comments Carian has made on bad reviews of this book, it's true that there is no incest, no underage sex, and this is a relationship between two consenting adults with only a 15 year age gap.
HOWEVER
Tor helped raise Kenzie. FROM BIRTH. He no doubt changed diapers, put her to sleep, and babysat her often.
In my original review, I'd mentioned that I've babysat my best friend's kids before. Imagining becoming romantically involved with one of them at 17 (and yes, it was 17 when Tor started having inappropriate thoughts about his goddaughter) makes me want to vomit.
The flashbacks were meant to show how close they were, but all they did was remind me of how much he helped raise her.
One of the first lines in the book is:
"Stop yelling at me. You're not my father."
"I'm close enough."
Ick, ick, ick, ick, ick.
Now, one of her many minions has commented on a few reviews that complain about this. "You read the blurb, so you knew what it was about going in."
And yes, I DID read the blurb, but I was hoping to read a taboo story where I would think 'ooooh, they so shouldn't do that, but I want them to.' Instead, I was sitting there going 'OMG gross.'
Okay, I'm done with my rant. I hope Carian Cole learns to not respond to any more reviews. Reviews are for READERS and we don't like it when we're silenced.
I'd post my original review, but I don't have a copy seeing as Amazon deleted it.
But it went along the lines of Carian Cole becoming a 'no buy' author thanks to her antics of replying to reviews to defend herself against the bad ones. Not only that, but I'm sure she has minions commenting for her as well. Seriously, go to Amazon and read all the one and two star reviews of this book and a few of her other books too.
Dear authors:
If you're going to write a taboo book, you need to expect people won't like it for the taboo aspect if you screw it up like this book did.
Taboo can be sexy, if done right. I don't think it was done right in this instance. And when I said so in a review, the review was accepted by Amazon ... until "someone" complained about it, and it was taken down.
Was it perhaps because I said I was surprised Carian Cole hadn't appeared on an 'authors behaving badly' site yet? Well, buckle up for a ride, sweetheart. If you keep going the way you're going, you're going to screw yourself out of a career. That is not a threat. I am not a blogger or author or any of that, so I have no power here. I'm not coming after you. But I want to be heard, and it pisses me off that I have been silenced.
I wonder how many times she's complained to Amazon, because she has a whopping 4.8 average on nearly 1000 reviews. No wonder her average is so good when she gets her shitty reviews deleted thanks to loopholes.
Now that I've expressed my anger towards the butthurt author who can't accept criticism I want to actually review this book:
As it says in the blurb and in the many comments Carian has made on bad reviews of this book, it's true that there is no incest, no underage sex, and this is a relationship between two consenting adults with only a 15 year age gap.
HOWEVER
Tor helped raise Kenzie. FROM BIRTH. He no doubt changed diapers, put her to sleep, and babysat her often.
In my original review, I'd mentioned that I've babysat my best friend's kids before. Imagining becoming romantically involved with one of them at 17 (and yes, it was 17 when Tor started having inappropriate thoughts about his goddaughter) makes me want to vomit.
The flashbacks were meant to show how close they were, but all they did was remind me of how much he helped raise her.
One of the first lines in the book is:
"Stop yelling at me. You're not my father."
"I'm close enough."
Ick, ick, ick, ick, ick.
Now, one of her many minions has commented on a few reviews that complain about this. "You read the blurb, so you knew what it was about going in."
And yes, I DID read the blurb, but I was hoping to read a taboo story where I would think 'ooooh, they so shouldn't do that, but I want them to.' Instead, I was sitting there going 'OMG gross.'
Okay, I'm done with my rant. I hope Carian Cole learns to not respond to any more reviews. Reviews are for READERS and we don't like it when we're silenced.
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