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I Am Her...
A sometimes funny, tragically graphic, compelling tale of a woman suffering...
She has no name of her own. She is every name everyone has ever called her. She is nameless. She has a good job, a beautiful home and a wonderful husband. She is everything she was supposed to be. She has structure and stability, but she is lost.
She is trying. Her whole life is spent trying; yet her whole life has been nothing but an apology. She is so tired of trying and failing.
In just one week, she learns her entire life is a series of brutalities. She learns intense, consuming passion for the first time with a beautiful stranger. She learns love within this passion, and she learns heartbreak while without.
Slowly her breakdown overcomes her. She tries to rise above her circumstances, but when she has nothing left to fight with; she tries to ease the pain forever.
Desperately, she fights her way through the agony of life, and she returns with a gentle hope. She wants to live, and she wants to love, for the first time in her life. Now, she has a name. Now, she can be 'her'... Any HER that she wants to be.
She has no name of her own. She is every name everyone has ever called her. She is nameless. She has a good job, a beautiful home and a wonderful husband. She is everything she was supposed to be. She has structure and stability, but she is lost.
She is trying. Her whole life is spent trying; yet her whole life has been nothing but an apology. She is so tired of trying and failing.
In just one week, she learns her entire life is a series of brutalities. She learns intense, consuming passion for the first time with a beautiful stranger. She learns love within this passion, and she learns heartbreak while without.
Slowly her breakdown overcomes her. She tries to rise above her circumstances, but when she has nothing left to fight with; she tries to ease the pain forever.
Desperately, she fights her way through the agony of life, and she returns with a gentle hope. She wants to live, and she wants to love, for the first time in her life. Now, she has a name. Now, she can be 'her'... Any HER that she wants to be.
362 pages, Kindle Edition
First published October 8, 2012
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Sarah Ann Walker
8 books236 followerswww.authorsarahannwalker.com
Sarah Ann Walker is a Scottish Canadian who was raised in Canada, where she attended McMaster University as an English major.
Currently Sarah is raising her son, working on her career, and writing when she can while gulping copious amounts of coffee.
*Sarah has taken a break from writing but plans to release her 8th book in late 2020.*
Sarah can be found on Facebook, Twitter, and goodreads.
http://www.amazon.com/author/walkersa...
Book Bio
Sarah's first book, 'I am HER...', second, third, and fourth book 'LOST' have all received positive reviews both locally and online from her readers. 'Choices...' Sarah's 5th book, has been hailed as a classic 'Walker WTF? ending'.
'We are US...' the final of the I am HER trilogy was released to rave reviews. And book #7 (mis)TRUST was released June 17, 2016 surpassing all personal and professional expectations for Sarah.
http://www.amazon.com/author/walkersa...
Sarah Ann Walker is a Scottish Canadian who was raised in Canada, where she attended McMaster University as an English major.
Currently Sarah is raising her son, working on her career, and writing when she can while gulping copious amounts of coffee.
*Sarah has taken a break from writing but plans to release her 8th book in late 2020.*
Sarah can be found on Facebook, Twitter, and goodreads.
http://www.amazon.com/author/walkersa...
Book Bio
Sarah's first book, 'I am HER...', second, third, and fourth book 'LOST' have all received positive reviews both locally and online from her readers. 'Choices...' Sarah's 5th book, has been hailed as a classic 'Walker WTF? ending'.
'We are US...' the final of the I am HER trilogy was released to rave reviews. And book #7 (mis)TRUST was released June 17, 2016 surpassing all personal and professional expectations for Sarah.
http://www.amazon.com/author/walkersa...
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May 28, 2013
First of all
I have to be honest here, all of my friends who read this gave it 5 stars with the exception of one friend who gave it one star but it was a DNF for her and I just don't count those. Sorry, it is my opinion in order for your rating to count with me, you need to finish the book. Now, where was I?
Oh, about the book...for me
At around 30% I was thinking
While the entire time this was me
I persevered thinking it would surely get better, I mean, what about all those 5 stars??? Right??? I have trusted friends who loved it! This book was hand picked, by me, off the favorites shelf of my most compatible friend. It had to get better.....
I'm not saying don't read this. I have several other friends who loved it. But for me, it was just
I have to be honest here, all of my friends who read this gave it 5 stars with the exception of one friend who gave it one star but it was a DNF for her and I just don't count those. Sorry, it is my opinion in order for your rating to count with me, you need to finish the book. Now, where was I?
Oh, about the book...for me
At around 30% I was thinking
While the entire time this was me
I persevered thinking it would surely get better, I mean, what about all those 5 stars??? Right??? I have trusted friends who loved it! This book was hand picked, by me, off the favorites shelf of my most compatible friend. It had to get better.....
I'm not saying don't read this. I have several other friends who loved it. But for me, it was just
October 15, 2013
***4 heartbroken stars ***
Sarah Ann Walker
January 27, 2018
I am still trying to come to terms with what I just read. I have completely shut down and can't seem to wrap my head around what that was. What is that pain in my chest and why does it hurt to breathe?
I am Her... is unlike anything I have ever read before.
I was... completely consumed with figuring out who she was, who she used to be and praying to know who she would be
I was... completely wrapped up so tightly that my soul felt the tug as it unraveled
I am... BROKEN
I am... SHATTERED
This story is unlike anything I have every read before. I did not know what I was going to get when I downloaded this a while back and I regret putting it off for so long. There is not much about the story that can be told without giving away what is happening, what happened and what is going to happen. So this review is a bit tough to write, along with the emotional trauma - it seems downright impossible. It is actually amazing that I have the ability to make my fingers type right now.
She is a woman who is who everyone expects her to be, she wants you happy - she doesn't want you to be mad at her. She is a good girl. She doesn't want to be bad. But she is numb, she does not feel and she only knows pain. But she doesn't know why. She is breaking. Falling apart. She is tired. All. The. Time. So damn TIRED.
She wants love, passion and pleasure but she's never had these things. She knows pain, fear but she meets him. She meets Z. And then she breaks down. And she has a chance to find a way to be who she wants to be. No more being numb, no more going through the motions - but she must first remember who she was in order to be born into who she will be. This is a moving story of one woman's struggle to overcome her past and present as she has to face somethings she had buried so deep. This is her story of giving up, giving in, surviving and trying to breathe - trying to find who she is and becoming her.
The best thing you can do while reading this is to remember THIS:
She finally sees it...all of it...everything...
She wanted to be numb and invisible. She wasn't comfortable being noticed.
She met him. She wanted to love him, to be able to love him and she wanted him to love her.
And suddenly something changes...
...
Between being lost in this book, shocked, and broken there was one emotion that stayed with me from early on in this story and never left...
**Note to Author:
I have a rant burning inside of me about this story and I am torn between loving it and hating it all at the same time.
October 17, 2013
4.5 STARS because I just went to hell and back
I have no idea what everyone reads or likes to read, but I’m pretty sure most of you haven't read something like this before.
I feel like this book should come with a warning of some kind: DO NOT read this if you have heart problems or if you don’t have an oxygen tank near you. But even I am a part of the fainthearted and I survived (barely).
You know that line from almost every book, that’s driving me crazy and I bet lots others, too:
“I released the breath I hadn't realized I was holding.”
Until yesterday I thought that line was bullshit, pardon my French. But after finishing this book, I found myself doing just that.
I felt short of breath the entire reading experience.
The blurb of this book didn’t make any sense to me till I read the book. If I were to describe this book in one word, it would be LIFE, I tried to go for ITFUCKINGHURTS, but turns out that’s not a word (still learning English :P ).
What does LIFE really mean?! To me, it means struggle, survival, pain, laughter, suffering, purpose, crying and most important LOVE.
Most of the book you’ll find yourself asking ‘Who is Her?’. 'Her' can be you… a co-worker, a daughter, a friend, a lover, an enemy… How many times someone classified you as someone’s daughter? or someone’s wife? or someone’s mother? or someone’s employee? etc. Did you ever think of you as 'ME', I AM ME… no patterns. I AM rarely 'ME'. I AM HER… when I love, I AM HER when I laugh, I AM HER when I feel, I AM HER when I struggle for what I want.
A stranger can make a difference sometimes, let yourself feel trust again and open to new possibilities.
It’s hard to say anything else without giving out spoilers. I want tocurse thank Sarah Ann Walker for all that she has done. You shouldn’t have, really, you shouldn’t...
Bravo!
GOD HELP ME, I don’t regret reading this, maybe because I’m still in shock or crazy :P
I have no idea what everyone reads or likes to read, but I’m pretty sure most of you haven't read something like this before.
I feel like this book should come with a warning of some kind: DO NOT read this if you have heart problems or if you don’t have an oxygen tank near you. But even I am a part of the fainthearted and I survived (barely).
You know that line from almost every book, that’s driving me crazy and I bet lots others, too:
“I released the breath I hadn't realized I was holding.”
Until yesterday I thought that line was bullshit, pardon my French. But after finishing this book, I found myself doing just that.
I felt short of breath the entire reading experience.
The blurb of this book didn’t make any sense to me till I read the book. If I were to describe this book in one word, it would be LIFE, I tried to go for ITFUCKINGHURTS, but turns out that’s not a word (still learning English :P ).
What does LIFE really mean?! To me, it means struggle, survival, pain, laughter, suffering, purpose, crying and most important LOVE.
Most of the book you’ll find yourself asking ‘Who is Her?’. 'Her' can be you… a co-worker, a daughter, a friend, a lover, an enemy… How many times someone classified you as someone’s daughter? or someone’s wife? or someone’s mother? or someone’s employee? etc. Did you ever think of you as 'ME', I AM ME… no patterns. I AM rarely 'ME'. I AM HER… when I love, I AM HER when I laugh, I AM HER when I feel, I AM HER when I struggle for what I want.
A stranger can make a difference sometimes, let yourself feel trust again and open to new possibilities.
It’s hard to say anything else without giving out spoilers. I want to
GOD HELP ME, I don’t regret reading this, maybe because I’m still in shock or crazy :P
"The novel was horrific, engrossing, graphic, painful and beautiful at once."
March 14, 2013
I'm still struggling to process what the hell I just spent two days reading but I need to try and put it in to words so I can move on.
From my 'status updates' you can see that for pretty much the whole book I had absolutely no clue what was going on. For the first 50% I had to frequently stop and read over things because I was sure I had missed the key point to everything making sense.. But no. Then you hit that half way mark and things start to unravel and again I'm thinking WTF? There was no hint anywhere to the kind of stuff she had been through but as well as that I found myself having no reaction. It took so long to get there, after going through some really unnecessary scenes, that when her past did start to reveal I didn't care.
The characters themselves, two especially, were the oddest I think I've ever read. For a huge part of the book we don't know 'her' name so she goes by Sweetheart. I wanted to strangle Sweetheart. I eventually got that she had been through the most horrendous things but the woman was 28 yet if I had to guess I couldn't have placed her older than 16. She acted so strangely, even in the beginning, that in real life, I am sure people would have guessed something wasn't 'right'.
And then we have Z. I'm all for the bossy, dominant, rich guy. When it's believable. But this? He just sprung up from nowhere and suddenly he's so fixated with 'her' that even he goes a little loopy. Him and 'her' do start up some sort of relationship but not once could I really believe in it.
So I'm still just wondering what the point of all of this was and why I carried on. I wanted to skip to the ending and read the shocking that it was but instead I persevered. I did want to know what was going on and by about 70% I guess it did pick up. I was interested and I wanted 'her' to get her HAE that she so obviously deserved...
So WHY THE HELL do we have that ending? Gah. I wish I has read the ending when I wanted to because I for sure wouldn't have bothered. In the second to last ending I finally got what I wanted and everything was right again. I could accept the book for what it was and be happy with what I got in the end. And them BAM. The author has to to and ruin it all with that ending. The book could have been saved with the end of CH43 so I have no idea what the author was trying to go for.
All in all I didn't like it. It bored me in parts, made me not care in others and then want to throw my kindle away for reading such nonsense in the end. I can't say I recommend it and I certainly wouldn't be in a hurry to read it ever again.
From my 'status updates' you can see that for pretty much the whole book I had absolutely no clue what was going on. For the first 50% I had to frequently stop and read over things because I was sure I had missed the key point to everything making sense.. But no. Then you hit that half way mark and things start to unravel and again I'm thinking WTF? There was no hint anywhere to the kind of stuff she had been through but as well as that I found myself having no reaction. It took so long to get there, after going through some really unnecessary scenes, that when her past did start to reveal I didn't care.
The characters themselves, two especially, were the oddest I think I've ever read. For a huge part of the book we don't know 'her' name so she goes by Sweetheart. I wanted to strangle Sweetheart. I eventually got that she had been through the most horrendous things but the woman was 28 yet if I had to guess I couldn't have placed her older than 16. She acted so strangely, even in the beginning, that in real life, I am sure people would have guessed something wasn't 'right'.
And then we have Z. I'm all for the bossy, dominant, rich guy. When it's believable. But this? He just sprung up from nowhere and suddenly he's so fixated with 'her' that even he goes a little loopy. Him and 'her' do start up some sort of relationship but not once could I really believe in it.
So I'm still just wondering what the point of all of this was and why I carried on. I wanted to skip to the ending and read the shocking that it was but instead I persevered. I did want to know what was going on and by about 70% I guess it did pick up. I was interested and I wanted 'her' to get her HAE that she so obviously deserved...
So WHY THE HELL do we have that ending? Gah. I wish I has read the ending when I wanted to because I for sure wouldn't have bothered. In the second to last ending I finally got what I wanted and everything was right again. I could accept the book for what it was and be happy with what I got in the end. And them BAM. The author has to to and ruin it all with that ending. The book could have been saved with the end of CH43 so I have no idea what the author was trying to go for.
All in all I didn't like it. It bored me in parts, made me not care in others and then want to throw my kindle away for reading such nonsense in the end. I can't say I recommend it and I certainly wouldn't be in a hurry to read it ever again.
March 7, 2013
*******On Friday March 8th, 2013, Sarah will be lowering the price of 'I am HER...' to $6.99 for three days- should you wish to purchase Her ebook this would be the perfect week-end to read it at a 30 % discount.
Thank you to all interested
This Book deserves a solid 8 stars , just for the struggles that Sarah went through with writing this amazing story and sharing it with me .
I am gutted , I am an emotional wreck after reading this story. I am shocked !!!!! I wanted Suzanne to have her happy ending , the love she so deserved after the life she had been living for so long and the torment that she went through .
Book Blurb :
A sometimes funny, tragically graphic, compelling tale of a woman suffering...
She has no name of her own. She is every name everyone has ever called her. She is nameless. She has a good job, a beautiful home and a wonderful husband. She is everything she was supposed to be. She has structure and stability, but she is lost.
She is trying. Her whole life is spent trying; yet her whole life has been nothing but an apology. She is so tired of trying and failing.
In just one week, she learns her entire life is a series of brutalities. She learns intense, consuming passion for the first time with a beautiful stranger. She learns love within this passion, and she learns heartbreak while without.
Slowly her breakdown overcomes her. She tries to rise above her circumstances, but when she has nothing left to fight with; she tries to ease the pain forever.
Desperately, she fights her way through the agony of life, and she returns with a gentle hope. She wants to live, and she wants to love, for the first time in her life.
Now, she has a name. Now, she can be 'her'... Any HER that she wants to be.
"Has anything ever hurt me like this before? Has there ever been a greater pain in my life? I can feel nothing but this intense agony as I look into his eyes. I'm going to leave feeling only this agony, forever."
"You are the best thing that has EVER happened to me. Thank you.
This Book will pull you into an emotional ride like you have never experienced before . It will make you cry, it will make you hold your breathe, it will make your heart hurt like it has never felt pain before . The emotions in this book are heavy.
This novel was horrific, engrossing, graphic, painful and beautiful at once, and I found myself consumed with the struggle, madness and passion of the main character's amazing story. I found myself literally holding my breath with Suzanne through this story.
“After shutting off the phone to ignore the incessant ringing, I'm proud of myself. I hear nothing but silence. There is nothing torturing me. There is no sound to make me jump or panic. There is nothing but complete silence, well, Except In My Head, but whatever.”
Most people look for a HEA in books , This book has an HEA but in a different way . It is hard to explain. YOU will be shocked with the ending of the book , BUT you will also realize that in the end Suzanne was happy , she was Loved, and she felt love like she was truly suppose to in life .. BUT it is also gut wrenching to see that after ALL she went through things ended the way they did ... My heart Hurts for her, My Heart Aches for Z .
I can't imagine anyone in their life ever going through something like Suzanne did and even fathom wanting to live after everything comes crashing down on her . She does though and she works her ass off to get herself better and work through everything that has ever happened to her ... and in the end I truly believe she was happy , she was loved.
"I love you, Z...
But I am gone.”
Thank you Sarah for sharing Suzanne's story with me by asking me to read and review it . Suzanne and Z will forever be in my heart and I will love them forever !!!!
Thank you to all interested
This Book deserves a solid 8 stars , just for the struggles that Sarah went through with writing this amazing story and sharing it with me .
I am gutted , I am an emotional wreck after reading this story. I am shocked !!!!! I wanted Suzanne to have her happy ending , the love she so deserved after the life she had been living for so long and the torment that she went through .
Book Blurb :
A sometimes funny, tragically graphic, compelling tale of a woman suffering...
She has no name of her own. She is every name everyone has ever called her. She is nameless. She has a good job, a beautiful home and a wonderful husband. She is everything she was supposed to be. She has structure and stability, but she is lost.
She is trying. Her whole life is spent trying; yet her whole life has been nothing but an apology. She is so tired of trying and failing.
In just one week, she learns her entire life is a series of brutalities. She learns intense, consuming passion for the first time with a beautiful stranger. She learns love within this passion, and she learns heartbreak while without.
Slowly her breakdown overcomes her. She tries to rise above her circumstances, but when she has nothing left to fight with; she tries to ease the pain forever.
Desperately, she fights her way through the agony of life, and she returns with a gentle hope. She wants to live, and she wants to love, for the first time in her life.
Now, she has a name. Now, she can be 'her'... Any HER that she wants to be.
"Has anything ever hurt me like this before? Has there ever been a greater pain in my life? I can feel nothing but this intense agony as I look into his eyes. I'm going to leave feeling only this agony, forever."
"You are the best thing that has EVER happened to me. Thank you.
This Book will pull you into an emotional ride like you have never experienced before . It will make you cry, it will make you hold your breathe, it will make your heart hurt like it has never felt pain before . The emotions in this book are heavy.
This novel was horrific, engrossing, graphic, painful and beautiful at once, and I found myself consumed with the struggle, madness and passion of the main character's amazing story. I found myself literally holding my breath with Suzanne through this story.
“After shutting off the phone to ignore the incessant ringing, I'm proud of myself. I hear nothing but silence. There is nothing torturing me. There is no sound to make me jump or panic. There is nothing but complete silence, well, Except In My Head, but whatever.”
Most people look for a HEA in books , This book has an HEA but in a different way . It is hard to explain. YOU will be shocked with the ending of the book , BUT you will also realize that in the end Suzanne was happy , she was Loved, and she felt love like she was truly suppose to in life .. BUT it is also gut wrenching to see that after ALL she went through things ended the way they did ... My heart Hurts for her, My Heart Aches for Z .
I can't imagine anyone in their life ever going through something like Suzanne did and even fathom wanting to live after everything comes crashing down on her . She does though and she works her ass off to get herself better and work through everything that has ever happened to her ... and in the end I truly believe she was happy , she was loved.
"I love you, Z...
But I am gone.”
Thank you Sarah for sharing Suzanne's story with me by asking me to read and review it . Suzanne and Z will forever be in my heart and I will love them forever !!!!
September 22, 2013
"There is so much noise and water, and noise and anger, and noise and desperation. I'M desperate. I NEED silence.
After screaming in their faces, I abruptly stop, and everything else suddenly stops as well. Total silence. Thank god."
"This is the worst feeling I've ever experienced in my life. This sadness is oppressive in its strength. Everything hurts again. I can't believe the depth of the despair I feel. This feeling is so powerful, there's nothing left of me that doesn't ache with the intensity of this despair."
"Has anything ever hurt me like this before? Has there ever been a greater pain in my life? I can feel nothing but this intense agony as I look into his eyes. I'm going to leave feeling only this agony, forever."
"You are the best thing that has EVER happened to me. Thank you."
After screaming in their faces, I abruptly stop, and everything else suddenly stops as well. Total silence. Thank god."
"This is the worst feeling I've ever experienced in my life. This sadness is oppressive in its strength. Everything hurts again. I can't believe the depth of the despair I feel. This feeling is so powerful, there's nothing left of me that doesn't ache with the intensity of this despair."
"Has anything ever hurt me like this before? Has there ever been a greater pain in my life? I can feel nothing but this intense agony as I look into his eyes. I'm going to leave feeling only this agony, forever."
"You are the best thing that has EVER happened to me. Thank you."
March 29, 2013
I literally turned off my Kindle and placed it on the end table minutes ago. This review won't be pretty. It may not make sense. I can't make sense of anything right now, but I need to get this out.
I like dark and unconventional books. When I was told about I Am HER, I thought I could handle it. This book has had me emotionally confused for 2 days. I had no idea what the hell I was reading for most of the book. It was crazy and dark and twisted and painful and seriously F'd up. However, I could not put it down. I had two very unproductive days at work because of this book. My brain couldn't handle work and thinking about the complete train wreck that was the life of Sweetheart.
I remember thinking "What the hell is her name?". Why am I reading a book where I don't even know who the main character is?
How do I review this book? I have no idea!! NONE! I don't want to give any spoilers.
I Am HER is raw. It is ugly -not the writing but the story. It is infuriating. It is devastating. It's a black hole of unbelievable depravity that leaves you in shock, in disbelief, in tears. It takes you to an unimaginable place where you meet Sweetie, Sweetheart, Honey, Love (Yes, you'll wonder what her name is for a long time, but, it does make sense eventually). You read, or feel, or experience the heart breaking journey of a deeply troubled woman as she is right smack dab in the middle of a cluster___ of a manic episode. As the truths were revealed, I felt sick to my stomach. I was confused. I was mad, no, I was PISSED. I was hopeful. I was broken. I just was.......
You can't read this book and be indifferent about it. Love it. Hate it. Love and Hate it. An author once told me "Emotions are the best compliment." Sarah Ann Walker has my compliments all over the place. I love it when books make me feel something. This book made me feel EVERYTHING, so, I'm sure I will one day be able to call it one of my favorites. Right now, I really want to call my husband at work and tell him to come home and hug me.
I apologize if this made no sense. If you take anything from this review, let it be this: READ THIS BOOK.
Whew! I'm done... seriously. I'm emotionally drained. Thank you, Sarah Ann Walker for sharing this story. Thank you for writing it so REAL.
Overall Rating: 5 out of 5
Tissues needed: Yeah, I thought "Hey, I haven't cried yet." I actually joked with someone about being cold-hearted when I was at about 86%. Boy was I WRONG. Have a box of tissues ready. I haven't stopped crying since I finished the book.
Wow! Just wow.....
I like dark and unconventional books. When I was told about I Am HER, I thought I could handle it. This book has had me emotionally confused for 2 days. I had no idea what the hell I was reading for most of the book. It was crazy and dark and twisted and painful and seriously F'd up. However, I could not put it down. I had two very unproductive days at work because of this book. My brain couldn't handle work and thinking about the complete train wreck that was the life of Sweetheart.
I remember thinking "What the hell is her name?". Why am I reading a book where I don't even know who the main character is?
How do I review this book? I have no idea!! NONE! I don't want to give any spoilers.
I Am HER is raw. It is ugly -not the writing but the story. It is infuriating. It is devastating. It's a black hole of unbelievable depravity that leaves you in shock, in disbelief, in tears. It takes you to an unimaginable place where you meet Sweetie, Sweetheart, Honey, Love (Yes, you'll wonder what her name is for a long time, but, it does make sense eventually). You read, or feel, or experience the heart breaking journey of a deeply troubled woman as she is right smack dab in the middle of a cluster___ of a manic episode. As the truths were revealed, I felt sick to my stomach. I was confused. I was mad, no, I was PISSED. I was hopeful. I was broken. I just was.......
You can't read this book and be indifferent about it. Love it. Hate it. Love and Hate it. An author once told me "Emotions are the best compliment." Sarah Ann Walker has my compliments all over the place. I love it when books make me feel something. This book made me feel EVERYTHING, so, I'm sure I will one day be able to call it one of my favorites. Right now, I really want to call my husband at work and tell him to come home and hug me.
I apologize if this made no sense. If you take anything from this review, let it be this: READ THIS BOOK.
Whew! I'm done... seriously. I'm emotionally drained. Thank you, Sarah Ann Walker for sharing this story. Thank you for writing it so REAL.
Overall Rating: 5 out of 5
Tissues needed: Yeah, I thought "Hey, I haven't cried yet." I actually joked with someone about being cold-hearted when I was at about 86%. Boy was I WRONG. Have a box of tissues ready. I haven't stopped crying since I finished the book.
Wow! Just wow.....
March 3, 2013
How does one write a review without giving a slight glimpse into the storyline of I AM HER, well you just can't, it's impossible, it's a story without a name, face, life, it's is one of it's own, no one can measure up to nor understand it, without reaching or should I say, just jump your whole body into.
There are parts, where you can relate to " her" without being her, she is you, or your neighbor, co- worker, friend, teacher, you just don't know.
I was a wreck, still am, after shutting off my kindle, once I finished, this one ripped my heart to pieces, cried for the depths of "her" !!!
I am not going to say this is for everyone, because I have never read anything like this, no words can express my understanding of " her" but I truly felt her pain, highs and lows.
Last but least, if you feel all the highs,lows, then the Author has done their job! Thank You Sarah, for reaching into my soul,mind and body!!
There are parts, where you can relate to " her" without being her, she is you, or your neighbor, co- worker, friend, teacher, you just don't know.
I was a wreck, still am, after shutting off my kindle, once I finished, this one ripped my heart to pieces, cried for the depths of "her" !!!
I am not going to say this is for everyone, because I have never read anything like this, no words can express my understanding of " her" but I truly felt her pain, highs and lows.
Last but least, if you feel all the highs,lows, then the Author has done their job! Thank You Sarah, for reaching into my soul,mind and body!!
February 22, 2013
Oh my God!!!! Nooooooooooo!!!
I'm in shock!!!
My emotions are everywhere,i am so upset but happy trying not to cry but furious!!!
I need to really process this amazing touching heartbreaking soul wrenching book!!
She was finally happy, she loved and finally felt real true emotional felt LOVE!!!!
My heart hurts, bleeds out cries and mourns for HER, but it also beats happily for u because u finally found your peace, your truth, your HAPPINESS if just for a moment!
My Z................, My heart aches, mourns and cries for u!
"I LOVE YOU, Z...
BUT I AM GONE."
Highly highly recommend!!!
This is all i can say right now, full review to come!!
I'm in shock!!!
My emotions are everywhere,i am so upset but happy trying not to cry but furious!!!
I need to really process this amazing touching heartbreaking soul wrenching book!!
She was finally happy, she loved and finally felt real true emotional felt LOVE!!!!
My heart hurts, bleeds out cries and mourns for HER, but it also beats happily for u because u finally found your peace, your truth, your HAPPINESS if just for a moment!
My Z................, My heart aches, mourns and cries for u!
"I LOVE YOU, Z...
BUT I AM GONE."
Highly highly recommend!!!
This is all i can say right now, full review to come!!
February 25, 2013
4.5 Stars
This is one CRAZY read and I LOVED it!! That's not because I'm crazy (Ada), it's because this author is AMAZEBALLS!! I've never read a book like it, it's soooo different to anything I've read. She knows how to grab your attention and she keeps it all FUCKIN' night!! Even when you've finished the book you can't stop thinking about it. Sarah, no pressure, but can you please HURRY UP with another book ;)
Did I just do a review??!! No, It can't be me!!! I've never done one before, or have I? No I HAVEN'T but this was worth my very first attempt.
This is one CRAZY read and I LOVED it!! That's not because I'm crazy (Ada), it's because this author is AMAZEBALLS!! I've never read a book like it, it's soooo different to anything I've read. She knows how to grab your attention and she keeps it all FUCKIN' night!! Even when you've finished the book you can't stop thinking about it. Sarah, no pressure, but can you please HURRY UP with another book ;)
Did I just do a review??!! No, It can't be me!!! I've never done one before, or have I? No I HAVEN'T but this was worth my very first attempt.
March 2, 2013
Wow, I literally can't describe what I just read, this book was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!! Brilliant writing Mrs Walker!!!
February 6, 2015
Yep...that about sums up my reaction while reading this book, pretty much from beginning to the end. No, wait. At the end, I was more like...
and was very tempted to
...but since I read this story within the Kindle app on my iPad, I had to show some self-control. Which, I tell you, was really hard!
Where do I even begin?!? We are introduced to a young woman who just doesn't seem happy. Her husband appears cold-hearted and uncaring. Even her employer treats her more as an object than a person. No one seems to offer the respect she deserves. She seems simply miserable.
And then she meets Mr. Zinfandel, a.k.a., "Z."
He is unlike anyone she has ever met before. His voice is soothing and entrancing. He takes an immediate interest in her, claiming her as his "Sweetheart." Her life begins to change--unravel, really. Sometimes, Z is so sweet and tender and other times he's assertive and domineering. So many times I wanted to just
...slap him. And then minutes later, I'd want to hug him.
It was difficult to figure out his motive. I kept questioning whether he was, in fact, as genuine and sincere as he seemed to be. One thing was certain, he had a strong hold and influence over Sweetheart.
I can see how readers can become confused and even frustrated reading this book. But things do come together and all is explained eventually. The author does a brilliant job depicting "Sweetheart's" descent into madness as she experiences a mental breakdown.
But it is only by facing the demons of her deplorable childhood that she stands a chance to recover.
This book took me on an emotional journey. Sometimes it was a bit overwhelming, but I honestly believe that was the author's intention--to heighten readers' sensitivies so that we get a glimpse into the stress and chaos the main character faces. I really felt like I was suffering along with her, at certain parts during the book, in a way I just can't quite explain. Intense*, graphic, and greatly compelling, I truly enjoyed this story and didn't want it to end. And when it did end, I really almost had my own mental breakdown! I will be reading the second book soon, as I simply must know how the story unfolds.
*Though intense, there is plenty of humor to ease the tension. I actually laughed out loud a number of times.
October 8, 2013
This book DESERVES your time and attention.
This may not be a perfectly worded review and it is the type of book that you MUST READ to understand my emotional and mental reasoning. This book is in me.... IN ME.
I was an emotional rollercoaster. There were funny parts, hysterical parts, tragic parts, emotional parts, down right pull your hair out parts, OMG parts, parts that made my brain almost blow up. You read and you think your over the worst and you think you get it and understand and can move on, and then something else happens. More questions more answers more shock and more OMG. The characters in I Am Her are some of the most outstanding strong good loving caring and horrible pathetic people ever.
I went in knowing that this book was going to be strange and weird and OMG and I thought OK just another Mind F*ck. But although some parts were totally tripping my mentality this was a beautiful horrible story. I normally write reviews immediately after reading bc I don't want to forget the feeling after reading so my words speak how I viewed the book but this book...I Am Her... I couldn't form enough of a sentence to relay how this book made me feel after I finished. It is now days after I've read THE END and my heart rate is rising as I am typing this up.
I won't go into details and I won't quote my fave parts bc you DESERVE to feel every emotion without having a preconceived notion on what this book is about. Just start from page one and read it. Don't question. Don't stop. And most of all D O N O T S K I P A H E A D. I'm begging you it will ruin what this book means.
My final thought- I miss Z and I miss sweetheart :)
This may not be a perfectly worded review and it is the type of book that you MUST READ to understand my emotional and mental reasoning. This book is in me.... IN ME.
I was an emotional rollercoaster. There were funny parts, hysterical parts, tragic parts, emotional parts, down right pull your hair out parts, OMG parts, parts that made my brain almost blow up. You read and you think your over the worst and you think you get it and understand and can move on, and then something else happens. More questions more answers more shock and more OMG. The characters in I Am Her are some of the most outstanding strong good loving caring and horrible pathetic people ever.
I went in knowing that this book was going to be strange and weird and OMG and I thought OK just another Mind F*ck. But although some parts were totally tripping my mentality this was a beautiful horrible story. I normally write reviews immediately after reading bc I don't want to forget the feeling after reading so my words speak how I viewed the book but this book...I Am Her... I couldn't form enough of a sentence to relay how this book made me feel after I finished. It is now days after I've read THE END and my heart rate is rising as I am typing this up.
I won't go into details and I won't quote my fave parts bc you DESERVE to feel every emotion without having a preconceived notion on what this book is about. Just start from page one and read it. Don't question. Don't stop. And most of all D O N O T S K I P A H E A D. I'm begging you it will ruin what this book means.
My final thought- I miss Z and I miss sweetheart :)
November 13, 2014
Review to come. After my extensive therapy
February 15, 2013
I do not know where to begin with this book. Maybe that I broke all my personal rules when I started reading it. None of my friends read it and noone recommended it to me. There were just a couple of reviews on Amazon and I knew that this would be a tough read, the topics would be dark and heavy and I'd end up with the WTF ending. Not something I need at this period of my life. Everything was against 'I Am Her...' and I making quick friends. But something was drawing me to it and at some point I gave up and jumped right in.
'I Am Her...' is a poignantly beautiful story about heartbreak, violence, love and pain. I see no point if describing it. This book will make you feel all kinds of emotions, from laughing to shaking from tears. I was HER throughout one of the most emotional reads of my life. I am sure that most women can find themselves in some parts.
This book is not for everyone. I think people either love or hate it. There's an amazing love story in this book, but no hearts and roses, and if the HEA is your personal must, probably you shouldn't start 'I Am Her...'.
But if you are willing to have a beautiful journey that will take a permanent place in your heart, if your mind is open and you want your next read be meaningful and phenomenally written, just can just dive in. I guarantee that you'll fall in love with the story.
Sarah Ann Walker is a talanted storyteller and I'll keep an eye on her work.
'I Am Her...' is a poignantly beautiful story about heartbreak, violence, love and pain. I see no point if describing it. This book will make you feel all kinds of emotions, from laughing to shaking from tears. I was HER throughout one of the most emotional reads of my life. I am sure that most women can find themselves in some parts.
This book is not for everyone. I think people either love or hate it. There's an amazing love story in this book, but no hearts and roses, and if the HEA is your personal must, probably you shouldn't start 'I Am Her...'.
But if you are willing to have a beautiful journey that will take a permanent place in your heart, if your mind is open and you want your next read be meaningful and phenomenally written, just can just dive in. I guarantee that you'll fall in love with the story.
Sarah Ann Walker is a talanted storyteller and I'll keep an eye on her work.
March 26, 2013
"Has anything ever hurt me like this before? Has there ever been a greater pain in my life? I can feel nothing but this intense agony as I look into his eyes. I'm going to leave feeling only this agony, forever."
This book was a completely different experience for me in the sense the whole time I was reading I was either questioning every move, laughing or so mad I had this intense need to shake my kindle as if the characters would feel it and help me figure out what was happening. This book is still with me and still has me saying “What did I just put myself through?” I can say without a doubt say I LOVED IT, I HATED IT and I want to tell every person I know to read it.
“Good morning. Sugar, Honey, Sweetie, Babe, Here. How can I help you?” Oh. My. GOD! WHAT HAVE I DONE?!”
Yes that is “I am her” but we come to know the main character as “Sweetheart” and the story is told from her perspective and what she is experiencing. I laughed at her, I cried for her and I wanted to crawl in bed, hold her and tell her she was one of the strongest individual I knew!!!
“Z is awesome! Z’s lips are awesome. This is awesome. I can barely breathe, but not from panic. This time I am breathless from ….. A kiss.”
And well that explains Z, yes I think its safe to say all women will have a crush on him after reading this book.
“Mack is a light for me. My angel. Mack is truly an amazing, remarkable man.”
Mack is the character who stole my heart in this book and he was the one that I found myself even trying to lean on. I was honestly saying “It’s ok Mack is there.” He is the constant strength for Sweetheart and the individual who wants nothing but to help her.
“Why don’t they have an ignore button? Actually, I’m sure there’s an App or something for that. There’s an App for everything, so there has to be an ‘ignore husband’ App.”
And yes there is a husband Marcus, and I HATED him, then I was like wait you bastard I got your number you are going to make me like you then I screamed, “OH I REALLY HATE YOU!!!” then in the end I found myself saying “Ok Marcus we can be friends!” (See this Mind F I experienced at Sarah’s hands)
In the end I have to say Sarah Ann Walker is a brilliant writer. What she accomplishes with her words is amazing. The way she is able to make you feel the pain and the way you experience the journey of the main character is heart stopping and left me wondering am I crazy because I want more, in fact I need more. Oh no Sarah Ann Walker what have you done to me!! I think its safe to say …….
“Fine! You won! Jesus! Go celebrate your victory or something!”
"You are the best thing that has EVER happened to me. Thank you."
This book was a completely different experience for me in the sense the whole time I was reading I was either questioning every move, laughing or so mad I had this intense need to shake my kindle as if the characters would feel it and help me figure out what was happening. This book is still with me and still has me saying “What did I just put myself through?” I can say without a doubt say I LOVED IT, I HATED IT and I want to tell every person I know to read it.
“Good morning. Sugar, Honey, Sweetie, Babe, Here. How can I help you?” Oh. My. GOD! WHAT HAVE I DONE?!”
Yes that is “I am her” but we come to know the main character as “Sweetheart” and the story is told from her perspective and what she is experiencing. I laughed at her, I cried for her and I wanted to crawl in bed, hold her and tell her she was one of the strongest individual I knew!!!
“Z is awesome! Z’s lips are awesome. This is awesome. I can barely breathe, but not from panic. This time I am breathless from ….. A kiss.”
And well that explains Z, yes I think its safe to say all women will have a crush on him after reading this book.
“Mack is a light for me. My angel. Mack is truly an amazing, remarkable man.”
Mack is the character who stole my heart in this book and he was the one that I found myself even trying to lean on. I was honestly saying “It’s ok Mack is there.” He is the constant strength for Sweetheart and the individual who wants nothing but to help her.
“Why don’t they have an ignore button? Actually, I’m sure there’s an App or something for that. There’s an App for everything, so there has to be an ‘ignore husband’ App.”
And yes there is a husband Marcus, and I HATED him, then I was like wait you bastard I got your number you are going to make me like you then I screamed, “OH I REALLY HATE YOU!!!” then in the end I found myself saying “Ok Marcus we can be friends!” (See this Mind F I experienced at Sarah’s hands)
In the end I have to say Sarah Ann Walker is a brilliant writer. What she accomplishes with her words is amazing. The way she is able to make you feel the pain and the way you experience the journey of the main character is heart stopping and left me wondering am I crazy because I want more, in fact I need more. Oh no Sarah Ann Walker what have you done to me!! I think its safe to say …….
“Fine! You won! Jesus! Go celebrate your victory or something!”
"You are the best thing that has EVER happened to me. Thank you."
October 17, 2013
Wow. I don't know what to say right now. I have never read anything like this....I need some time, and lots of alcohol and maybe some anti-anxiety meds. I really want to start the next book, like RIGHT NOW...but I may need to read something light and fluffy with rainbows and unicorns first. This story, seriously hurt my heart.
March 23, 2013
I LOVED THIS BOOK!! I was enthralled, engrossed, enlightened and stunned by its beautiful honesty.
This book is FICTION first, and romantic fiction second. In my humble opinion, I believe the readers who trash this book are more disappointed in the ending simply because they are used to lovely, beautiful happily ever afters. If that is what you need or require in your reading, I strongly suggest you DO NOT read this book, before you simply 'trash' it.
This book, though beautiful in its madness and originality, is not typically beautiful. It is a nightmare with its struggle and depth. I am Her appears to be more about evaluating the human condition and the madness that surrounds this main character, while even mimicking society as a whole. Nothing is always neat and tidy. Nothing is always exacting and beautiful. Lives are rarely subject to roses and poetry, and this story reminds the reader of that very fact.
There are those readers and 'reviewers' who trash this book because 1) they hated the ending and 2) because they 'didn't get it'. What's not to get? Everything was explained. Everything! I have read this book twice. The first time as a new reader, and the second time as a reader desperate to understand the depths of HER. In the end, I got it all. Any question I had was answered. For example, the car scene? The husband explained what she would do to herself sexually when stressed. The cold floors? She would lie on the floors after the attacks to recover. Even the lotion- she took it all with her in desperation, and in her lucid moments before the complete breakdown, she admitted it was crazy behavior. That is madness- THAT is a breakdown. When in a mental break people are strange, and they behave strangely, and they are unaware of it, until the lucid moments when reality resurfaces, like they did for HER, like with the lotion, or even during HER Macy's trip. She didn't know what was happening, until she KNEW what she had done. Again, that is a nervous breakdown. THAT behavior is reality.
Maybe some 20 something 'reviewer' out there has not experienced enough 'life' to understand the madness that occurs within it, without judging based on baseless superiority. Or maybe the 36 year old housewife of a loving, devoted husband doesn't understand what can and does happen to other women in this life, and how that can affect them for a lifetime. Maybe they are simply people unused to the tragedy that life can be for some people, therefore, they will never understand. And as such, this book 'confuses' them, or saddens them, or makes them turn angry. Whatever the reason, I am saddened that so many out there can't see this book in its entirety. A journey through the decay, torture, insecurity, laughter and love that is often REAL life, at least for some.
This life is not always beautiful, and therefore, this story makes sense. A happily ever after would have felt like artifice. And yes, the main characters did live momentary peace and fulfillment, but as a whole it was short lived, just as life usually is. Life rarely carries on within hues of pinks until death takes you at age 90 in a gentle sleep, filled with love for a life well lived. Sometimes life is just one horrendous nightmare. And once in awhile during this life you experience one fleeting moment of pleasure, and all you can do is grab it, hold it, and hope it carries you forth until the next nightmare battles on.
This story is poetic, beautiful, horrific, and if nothing else- it is REAL. It is heavy and awkward, and it requires a reader to think logically, and often illogically, until the final moments allow for an exhale. The author was right- "This life has been an absolute agony", and she managed to portray that agony with a beautiful collection of pain and salvation in print. I am a huge fan of this book, and I will be a follower of her future endeavors, and I look forward to one day meeting Ms. Walker to thank her for her bravery, beauty, and intelligence. Sarah Ann Walker, in my opinion, and in the opinion of my colleagues, has managed to be abnormal in her writing, while allowing real life to seep through 'I am HER...' a story beautifully told.
This book is FICTION first, and romantic fiction second. In my humble opinion, I believe the readers who trash this book are more disappointed in the ending simply because they are used to lovely, beautiful happily ever afters. If that is what you need or require in your reading, I strongly suggest you DO NOT read this book, before you simply 'trash' it.
This book, though beautiful in its madness and originality, is not typically beautiful. It is a nightmare with its struggle and depth. I am Her appears to be more about evaluating the human condition and the madness that surrounds this main character, while even mimicking society as a whole. Nothing is always neat and tidy. Nothing is always exacting and beautiful. Lives are rarely subject to roses and poetry, and this story reminds the reader of that very fact.
There are those readers and 'reviewers' who trash this book because 1) they hated the ending and 2) because they 'didn't get it'. What's not to get? Everything was explained. Everything! I have read this book twice. The first time as a new reader, and the second time as a reader desperate to understand the depths of HER. In the end, I got it all. Any question I had was answered. For example, the car scene? The husband explained what she would do to herself sexually when stressed. The cold floors? She would lie on the floors after the attacks to recover. Even the lotion- she took it all with her in desperation, and in her lucid moments before the complete breakdown, she admitted it was crazy behavior. That is madness- THAT is a breakdown. When in a mental break people are strange, and they behave strangely, and they are unaware of it, until the lucid moments when reality resurfaces, like they did for HER, like with the lotion, or even during HER Macy's trip. She didn't know what was happening, until she KNEW what she had done. Again, that is a nervous breakdown. THAT behavior is reality.
Maybe some 20 something 'reviewer' out there has not experienced enough 'life' to understand the madness that occurs within it, without judging based on baseless superiority. Or maybe the 36 year old housewife of a loving, devoted husband doesn't understand what can and does happen to other women in this life, and how that can affect them for a lifetime. Maybe they are simply people unused to the tragedy that life can be for some people, therefore, they will never understand. And as such, this book 'confuses' them, or saddens them, or makes them turn angry. Whatever the reason, I am saddened that so many out there can't see this book in its entirety. A journey through the decay, torture, insecurity, laughter and love that is often REAL life, at least for some.
This life is not always beautiful, and therefore, this story makes sense. A happily ever after would have felt like artifice. And yes, the main characters did live momentary peace and fulfillment, but as a whole it was short lived, just as life usually is. Life rarely carries on within hues of pinks until death takes you at age 90 in a gentle sleep, filled with love for a life well lived. Sometimes life is just one horrendous nightmare. And once in awhile during this life you experience one fleeting moment of pleasure, and all you can do is grab it, hold it, and hope it carries you forth until the next nightmare battles on.
This story is poetic, beautiful, horrific, and if nothing else- it is REAL. It is heavy and awkward, and it requires a reader to think logically, and often illogically, until the final moments allow for an exhale. The author was right- "This life has been an absolute agony", and she managed to portray that agony with a beautiful collection of pain and salvation in print. I am a huge fan of this book, and I will be a follower of her future endeavors, and I look forward to one day meeting Ms. Walker to thank her for her bravery, beauty, and intelligence. Sarah Ann Walker, in my opinion, and in the opinion of my colleagues, has managed to be abnormal in her writing, while allowing real life to seep through 'I am HER...' a story beautifully told.
August 30, 2013
I'm Broken!!!!!
February 14, 2013
*****Horrifically sad and stunningly beautiful*****
So I read this book because the author is somewhat local- Hamilton is close to Toronto, and I'm glad I did. I didn't know what to make of the back cover description but the front cover intrigued me.
Where to start? I absolutely LOVED this book!! It was nothing I expected, and everything I didn't know I wanted to read.
I was tranced out, numb, distressed, turned on, and just desperate while reading it.
The story itself is horrific, but the main character, the main love interest, and even the secondary characters are amazingly accurate. They speak the way we would speak. They think the way we would think. They are so real and lifelike, I found myself wanting a friend, a therapist, and especially a lover just like these characters.
The love element was so touching I found myself instantly attracted to the lover. I wanted them to hook-up. God, *I* wanted to hook up with him!! ;)
Okay, after an amazing, crazy, exhausting, exhilarating journey I was faced with the ending. Yes, it was not standard, and yes it was a WTF moment, but I honestly believe that the ending was true to the rest of the novel. There were so many WTF moments, that it made sense to end it as such. I feel like I would almost have been disappointed if the ending was just suddenly the perfect ending. I didn't want perfect, especially after such an imperfect life story, therefore I LOVED the ending, just as I loved the entire novel. I like to believe the ending one way, while not knowing one way or the other the reality. All I do know is the main character called it, she believed she was destined for the ending that occurred, and it looks like she may have been right.
This Author, Sarah Walker, is amazingly talented. And though I see on Facebook she has not written anything else, I know I will remember her name, this stunning novel, and I will find myself looking for another novel from her for years.
These characters will not be forgotten, nor will this phenomenal story be forgotten.
So I read this book because the author is somewhat local- Hamilton is close to Toronto, and I'm glad I did. I didn't know what to make of the back cover description but the front cover intrigued me.
Where to start? I absolutely LOVED this book!! It was nothing I expected, and everything I didn't know I wanted to read.
I was tranced out, numb, distressed, turned on, and just desperate while reading it.
The story itself is horrific, but the main character, the main love interest, and even the secondary characters are amazingly accurate. They speak the way we would speak. They think the way we would think. They are so real and lifelike, I found myself wanting a friend, a therapist, and especially a lover just like these characters.
The love element was so touching I found myself instantly attracted to the lover. I wanted them to hook-up. God, *I* wanted to hook up with him!! ;)
Okay, after an amazing, crazy, exhausting, exhilarating journey I was faced with the ending. Yes, it was not standard, and yes it was a WTF moment, but I honestly believe that the ending was true to the rest of the novel. There were so many WTF moments, that it made sense to end it as such. I feel like I would almost have been disappointed if the ending was just suddenly the perfect ending. I didn't want perfect, especially after such an imperfect life story, therefore I LOVED the ending, just as I loved the entire novel. I like to believe the ending one way, while not knowing one way or the other the reality. All I do know is the main character called it, she believed she was destined for the ending that occurred, and it looks like she may have been right.
This Author, Sarah Walker, is amazingly talented. And though I see on Facebook she has not written anything else, I know I will remember her name, this stunning novel, and I will find myself looking for another novel from her for years.
These characters will not be forgotten, nor will this phenomenal story be forgotten.
August 31, 2013
Ok this book was off the charts crazy.
Most the time I was like
The rest of the time I was like
Then
I got some answers at around 50% and I am was like this
WHY WOULD ANYONE DO THAT!
Then I the ending I was like.. ohh swoon .. then
Most the time I was like
The rest of the time I was like
Then I got some answers at around 50% and I am was like this
WHY WOULD ANYONE DO THAT!
Then I the ending I was like.. ohh swoon .. then
February 12, 2013
I opened this goodreads account just because of this novel. I saw the author on Facebook and she requested reviews so here I am. **AMAZING**
This novel is the most genuinely graphic tale of heartache, heartbreak, violence, love, life, and even death, I think I have ever read. I'm not sure of the Authors own (dark?) story, but I think there has to be a story there somewhere, and if not, than she has the most amazingly accurate imagination I've ever read.
This novel STUNNED me, and I'm absolutely broken over it. I want to meet the author just to tell her what she wrote was the most poignant, devastating, and beautiful novel I have read if not ever than in a very long time.
BUY THIS BOOK. Read this book twice. Digest all the little things you missed the first time (like S/sweetheart after her breakdown) and appreciate its depth like I have after re-reading it.
ABSOLUTELY AMAZING.
This novel is the most genuinely graphic tale of heartache, heartbreak, violence, love, life, and even death, I think I have ever read. I'm not sure of the Authors own (dark?) story, but I think there has to be a story there somewhere, and if not, than she has the most amazingly accurate imagination I've ever read.
This novel STUNNED me, and I'm absolutely broken over it. I want to meet the author just to tell her what she wrote was the most poignant, devastating, and beautiful novel I have read if not ever than in a very long time.
BUY THIS BOOK. Read this book twice. Digest all the little things you missed the first time (like S/sweetheart after her breakdown) and appreciate its depth like I have after re-reading it.
ABSOLUTELY AMAZING.
February 17, 2013
OMG this book was amazing. I don't read a lot and this book got my attention. I started and couldn't put it down. You find yourself consumed in the book that you can't wait to get to the next page. I had it read in 4 days (that's great for me). Anyone who reads it will find a small part of themselves in parts of the book male or female at, at least one point in the book you will say to yourself "Wow I've been there" I can't wait till the next book sighing as I want to buy a couple more books and give to family and friends. I won't part with mine as I will be reading it again. This book is fantastic. At one point while reading this I found myself saying "Wow I didn't even relize/think about that and then you get drawn in deeper to the story.You find yourself laughing, questioning, happy, crying and uncomfortable while you read this book. A must read for everyone. Can't wait for another book bring it on. Can't wait.
March 9, 2013
What can I say? if you want HEA this is not a book for you..3 words at the end : "WTF" ?
I thought i was the crazy one..really, this book will mess with your head. Unsuspected, powerful, heartbreaking..!!!!!!!!
I thought i was the crazy one..really, this book will mess with your head. Unsuspected, powerful, heartbreaking..!!!!!!!!
June 4, 2013
Wow, that was a long and very intense read! By the end, I was ready to have a nervous breakdown. The story was unique and well written. I’m still not sure if I liked the ending. I understand it, but it’s not what I was hoping for.
February 28, 2013
BREATHTAKING!!!
Mr. ZINFANDEL Sequel please!!!
Mr. ZINFANDEL Sequel please!!!
September 6, 2013
You hold the answers deep within your own mind.Evanescence - Understanding
Consciously, you've forgotten it.
That's the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, to shameful for us to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories.
But the imprint is always there.
Nothing is ever really forgotten.
I am Her is one of the most heavy and intense books I've ever read. From beginning to end, it's one big pile of messed up. I've been inside a crazy woman's head for four days and I kinda feel crazy myself too. I felt all of it. Every single emotion the heroine experienced in the fight to maintain her life and sanity. At times I felt she was really annoying, but then I immediately felt bad for thinking that because, well, she's mentally ill. What it comes down to is that this book is not for the weak of the heart. It really might give you nightmares.
What the hell is my reality? I can't tell anymore.So like I said this book is very intense. In the beginning of the book the heroine seems to have it all together, but she's immensely unhappy. She's ignored and invisible. Her sadness was so strong that it felt palpable.
Maybe someone will hear me screaming and I won't be invisible anymore?She's always polite, kind, always apologizing and spends her days trying to keep everyone satisfied. Her husband is a selfish guy who likes routine and order. The heroine, I shall call her X because we don't know her name, has never been able to make choices of her own. Her parents suffocated and controlled her. They love her husband more than they love her.
My mother hates me. My father ignores me. Marcus tolerates me. As a trio, they are the most uncaring, unfeeling group I have ever known...X spends her life trying to be what other people want her to be. More importantly, she tries to be who other people want her to be. As a result, she doesn't know who she is herself.
She doesn't know me. No one knows me. I don't even know me.She keeps all of her feelings and thoughts locked away, constantly trying to live up to an image.
My eyes scream 'look at me' without being the kind of girl who screams, LOOK AT ME!!In I Am Her... the heroine slowly loses herself. Her feelings are trying to come out, her brain-to-mouth filter isn't working properly anymore and her carefully constructed walls and armor slowly start to crumble.
I have all this stuff that wants to come out, and I can't really stop it, and it's bad.Slowly you realize there is so much more to her than someone going through a quarter-life crisis. She is genuinely afraid, scared, lost and she doesn't know what to do. On top of that, her husband is being a selfish prick, and she's just losing it.
I wish I could be a person who doesn't fear everything, every single day.Insert Z. A new co-worker. He notices something is going on with her and dedicates his time and attention to trying to help her.
I'm going to help you feelX has never in her life experienced kindness. She's generally ignored, avoided or hated. So when Z seems to genuinely want to help her, it confuses her a lot.
Z stresses me out and he calms me right down.There were moments when X's despair, hurt and pain were so strong, I had no idea how she was ever going to recover from it. It felt like a never-ending cycle of pain, sadness and despair. There were some revelations in the book that truly fucked with my head and made my jaw drop to the floor. There were some beautiful moments too and even funny moments. It hurt my heart to see how warped her reality was, how slowly she lost it until she snapped. It broke my heart to witness her search for herself and her identity. To know who you are, you must know who you were.
Prepare yourself for a raw, painful, depressing and heartbreaking story if you decide to read it. It's definitely not for the faint of heart. It's not the kind of book you enjoy reading, but it is the kind that will intrigue you and keep your interest. It definitely made me feel and that's what I want from my books. I didn't like the writing at times. The use of caps, bold, italics and underlines was way too much and unnecessary, but I kind of ignored it and got over it. The ending though lost me. There has never been a crappier ending to a book than this one. Honestly, think of the crappiest ending to a book you have ever read and know that this one tops it. BUT I have noticed there is a sequel, so I will ignore this ending too. All in all it was a good book, strong story, major character development, intense, captivating and a big mindfuck.
You are every flaw and every mark you carry. And yet you are flawless and unmarked to me.
March 11, 2013
This is a 5+ star book for me!! Saying I loved it would be an understatement.
I bought this book over the weekend while it was on sale for $6.99 (normally $9.99) and it's still on sale today so go 1-click NOW! It's dark, intense, emotional, heartbreaking, funny, shocking...the list goes on. The way Sarah writes literally made me feel like I was having the breakdown with "her." There were a couple times I needed to put the kindle down and collect myself but I dived right back in. I finished it yesterday afternoon and have still not recovered. I have a MAJOR book hangover!
"She has no name of her own. She is every name everyone has ever called her. She is nameless. She has a good job, a beautiful home and a wonderful husband. She is everything she was supposed to be. She has structure and stability, but she is lost."
“Good morning. Sugar, Honey, Sweetie, Babe, here. How can I help you?”
In a week's time she starts to remember horrific things from her past which causes her to have a breakdown. In this time she meets Z!! I don't think my words would be able to best describe this man. All I can say is I love everything about him! <3 "You are the best thing that has EVER happened to me, Z. Thank you."
She tries to push through it but at one point the breakdown consumes her. "Everything explodes around me. Everything turns into chaos."
She is a trooper though and even in her agony she still tries to fight. She also meets Mack! <3 Mack is "her person." Loved the Grey's reference! Mack truly helps her the best he can. "...I am her. I am me now."
I loved almost all the characters in this book. She, Z, Mack, NY Kayla and Chicago Kayla!! Then there were some I hated...
Does this book have a HEA? It has a very strong ending and the meaning of it you will have to interpret for yourself.
Will there be a sequel? Sarah will not say. I get why but PLEASE let there be one! ;)
This is one book I will never forget!
“I love you, Z...but I am gone.”
I bought this book over the weekend while it was on sale for $6.99 (normally $9.99) and it's still on sale today so go 1-click NOW! It's dark, intense, emotional, heartbreaking, funny, shocking...the list goes on. The way Sarah writes literally made me feel like I was having the breakdown with "her." There were a couple times I needed to put the kindle down and collect myself but I dived right back in. I finished it yesterday afternoon and have still not recovered. I have a MAJOR book hangover!
"She has no name of her own. She is every name everyone has ever called her. She is nameless. She has a good job, a beautiful home and a wonderful husband. She is everything she was supposed to be. She has structure and stability, but she is lost."
“Good morning. Sugar, Honey, Sweetie, Babe, here. How can I help you?”
In a week's time she starts to remember horrific things from her past which causes her to have a breakdown. In this time she meets Z!! I don't think my words would be able to best describe this man. All I can say is I love everything about him! <3 "You are the best thing that has EVER happened to me, Z. Thank you."
She tries to push through it but at one point the breakdown consumes her. "Everything explodes around me. Everything turns into chaos."
She is a trooper though and even in her agony she still tries to fight. She also meets Mack! <3 Mack is "her person." Loved the Grey's reference! Mack truly helps her the best he can. "...I am her. I am me now."
I loved almost all the characters in this book. She, Z, Mack, NY Kayla and Chicago Kayla!! Then there were some I hated...
Does this book have a HEA? It has a very strong ending and the meaning of it you will have to interpret for yourself.
Will there be a sequel? Sarah will not say. I get why but PLEASE let there be one! ;)
This is one book I will never forget!
“I love you, Z...but I am gone.”
March 26, 2013
When I started this book, I didn't really know what to expect... I honestly thought "she" was a spineless girl having a pity party. There was something about her though that captivated me... At first I thought it was just because I could relate to her... She had low self esteem and felt down at times or because her husband said something stupid.. I mean, who hasn't experienced that! As I read on, it became clear that I did not relate to her, but was so sucked in, I couldn't put the book down... I had to know her.. I wanted her to get help and get better! I was depressed and concerned for her and wishing and hoping for her to get better! I hated her parents and Marcus! I felt as if I was struggling right along with her!
When she finally began to improve I was happy for her... I questioned some of her decisions, but was hopeful! When she finally made the decision to leave all on her own, I was so proud!!! I lived through her heartache, mental issues, suicide attempt and depression... It was so real, but, I needed to experience her truely happy to be okay! When I thought she had it, I finally felt like this experience was worth it...
Then the ending!?!? WTF!!! I feel as if this struggle and sadness was for nothing!! I really hope this isn't the end... "She" deserves a happy ending.. I deserve a happy ending!!!
If this book ended on a happier note, or if I knew for certain this was a cliff hanger, I would without a doubt give 5 stars... Since I am left feeling unsettled I am giving it 4 1/2 stars...
I am hoping this isn't truely the end for "her"!!
I do look forward to reading more books from Sarah Ann Walker.
When she finally began to improve I was happy for her... I questioned some of her decisions, but was hopeful! When she finally made the decision to leave all on her own, I was so proud!!! I lived through her heartache, mental issues, suicide attempt and depression... It was so real, but, I needed to experience her truely happy to be okay! When I thought she had it, I finally felt like this experience was worth it...
Then the ending!?!? WTF!!! I feel as if this struggle and sadness was for nothing!! I really hope this isn't the end... "She" deserves a happy ending.. I deserve a happy ending!!!
If this book ended on a happier note, or if I knew for certain this was a cliff hanger, I would without a doubt give 5 stars... Since I am left feeling unsettled I am giving it 4 1/2 stars...
I am hoping this isn't truely the end for "her"!!
I do look forward to reading more books from Sarah Ann Walker.
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