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The Flesh Cartel #9

Trials and Errors

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With a wedge at last driven between Mat and Dougie Carmichael, courtesy of Nikolai Petrovic’s expert manipulations, the brothers must each accept their new path Dougie, a perfect slave, sweet and obedient and loving. Mat, a tightly reined dog, snarling and snapping but never allowed to bite. Unfortunately, no transformation, however well planned, is without its growing pains. Mat’s leash is so tight it’s choking him. Dougie is tormented by a little voice inside his head — a fragment of his former self — that he cannot silence. And Nikolai’s most difficult tests for the brothers are still to come. The critical question isn’t whether they can pass those tests, but whether they even want to. Without each other to lean on and live for, a bleak future has become bleaker still. But Nikolai’s too good to let his slaves slip through his fingers — by death or by despair. Reader discretion advised.

68 pages, Kindle Edition

First published August 3, 2013

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Rachel Haimowitz

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M/M erotic romance author, freelance writer and editor, sadist with a pesky conscience, shamelessly silly, proudly pervish. I'm a twitter addict (@rachelhaimowitz), and I blog every M/W/F at Fantasy Unbound. To learn all about my current and upcoming projects, please stop by my website. I love to hear from folks, so feel free to drop me a line anytime at metarachel (at) gmail (dot) com.

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1,120 reviews1,058 followers
July 30, 2018
Shit! F*ck! F*ckity! We have reached another level of psychological torture and brainwashing.

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Just going to leave this here:



Nikolai! the sad thing is that, come to think of it there are monsters like him in the world.

This one did hurt, Mat! keep going.

There is a glimpse of hope at the end of this book, but i don't trust that hope.

Damn!

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Profile Image for Vivian.
2,919 reviews483 followers
September 2, 2016
The rage I felt earlier in this series is gone. Followed by frustration and aggravation which now frankly, is apathy at this point. How do I feel after this book?

Kill 'em. KILL THEM ALL.

Dougie's a joke, Mat's a misguided and naive fool, and Nicolai's a narcissistic megalomaniac. At this point, I am inclined to leave the characters where they are and not follow on with the next season.
Profile Image for Lisa Henry.
Author 102 books2,278 followers
August 1, 2013
GOD DAMN YOU CLIFFHANGERS!!!

Noooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!

(Which is the sound I imagine I make as I fall over that cliff, shaking my fist at a cruel god.)



But I also want some more depravity thanks. Mmmm...depravity...
Profile Image for Monique.
1,106 reviews377 followers
November 4, 2013
Why does my mind go into panic mode each and every time I open up my Kindle to begin reading another episode in The Flesh Cartel Series!!!

Because Heidi Belleau and Rachel Haemowitz have created two characters that are now part of the fabric of my very being… Mat and Dougie have been put through every torture, humiliation, degradation, pain, hurt and mind fuck imaginable and I have been there with them every step of the way… these boys are ingrained within my very soul!

We left Mat in episode eight yet again manipulated with Nikolai using Roger as a means to an end. Thinking he is saving Roger from Nikolai’s brand of discipline, he agrees to submit and become the slave that Nikolai requires for his client… a willing decision on his part… yeah right! …there is no decision or action that has not already been formulated in Nikolai’s mind!

In return for his submission, he has one request… to be able to see his brother, the brother that hates him for abandoning him, the brother that is now so indoctrinated, he has no self will, his only purpose in life is to serve his master, to please him… because his Master loves him and only wants what’s best for his slave… yes, of course he does!!! …and Nikolai agrees!?! Mmmm…. well you would think that Mat had learnt his lesson by now, the sick bastard doesn’t agree to anything unless it’s on his terms and as always with Nikolai, nothing is as it seems!

“All right” he said “But do be careful what you wish for”

Before we even get to that stage, Mat needs to be punished for his misbehaviour in FC#8… all I can say is FUUUUCK!!! Don’t for one minute think what has come before will desensitise you, not where that sick fuck is concerned! …and yet again we see Mat put himself through immeasurable pain and torture in the name of love and hope, Nikolai has given him a slither to cling to and for that Mat can endure anything.

In this episode, I loved having Mat back, he may be submitting for a cause but his inner fierce and quite apt musings continue to entertain me.. I am still waiting in anticipation for the day when all the delights so lovingly bestowed upon Mat are returned tenfold to Nikolai! O.M.G. I would love to see him go through what he so casually reaps on others!

Meanwhile Dougie’s mind has been conditioned to that of a slave and Nikolai is so proud of himself for his achievements. He see’s himself as an artist… I have a few words for him, but funnily enough artist is not one of them, I think he see’s himself creating beings of beauty and perfection in the eye of the beholder and I often wonder if the man is deluded and truly believes his own hype!

Dare I even contemplate that there may be hope for these boys at the end of this episode!?! Nah… I am somehow sceptical that this man, who is so methodical and strategically plans and manipulates every situation to his own advantage, a man to whom “mistakes” never happen, would make such a careless error… I think not! It’s like waiting in the dark for the monsters to jump out of the wardrobe!!!

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Profile Image for Saimi Vasquez.
1,949 reviews94 followers
July 15, 2023
Mat sabía que la promesa de Nikolai de permitirme ver a su hermano no iba a ser como esperaba, pero nunca pienso que intentaría algo así.
Pero están juntos, será que podrán escapar?
Será que podrán liberar a su hermano?

Otro libro fuerte psicológicamente, incluso con falsas esperanzas. No entiendo por qué tiene el autor que hacer sentir a Mat tan tonto, después de todo lo que ha pasado, por qué no es más suspicaz?
Pero bueno, el personaje de Mat siento que casi no ha evolucionado, en cambio Doguie ha cambiado casi completamente.
Cómo va a hacer el autor para liberar a estos dos hermanos, física y mentalmente?
Seguiré leyendo para averiguarlo.
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1,066 reviews83 followers
July 11, 2017
What a psychologically intense instalment!
A big cliffhanger at the end and... I'm afraid I know where this is coming...


Dougie is slipping more and more into the "good slave boy" mindset, and I'm so sad because of it but also... I'm pissed because he should have been stronger! Cleverer! Looks like his whole psychological PhD background fires back at him... :(

And Mat? He's great! Despite all his mistakes, bad choices and despair - he fights back, still fights back! Hang on, Mat, just hang on!!!
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332 reviews136 followers
August 7, 2013
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HEART - FUCKING - POUNDING


How the hell did Heidi and Rachel ramp up the tension in this episode? In a series that cannot become any more intense they found a way to take me right to my edge, cross it, and then completely exhaust me with a racing pulse, fear and hope. Always that damn bit of hope.

“And more than anything, you need to learn to let go of all your silly, stupid morality, all the trappings and judgments and pointless rules of your old life.”


THE STORY

This episode starts out with a deed that brought me to the brink of what I could handle.

Hell, this whole series has been an exercise in defining comfort thresholds and then smashing them.

I can’t tell you what happens here because it would spoil everything, but I will tell you it’s something we’ve all been hoping for…and dreading. Then there's the cliff-hanger which is an anxiety inducing, visually captivating moment of “No, No, NO……

From start to finish this episode is just a non-stop adrenaline rush!

THE WRITING

I can’t imagine this being written any better. I think these ladies would excel at writing for film. They have a way of bringing every moment to life. Even when you’d like to be able to look away, you can’t. And that’s a good thing, because while I nearly looked away at the beginning, by the middle I was so absorbed I wouldn’t have missed it for anything.

In an entire series of “intense”, this book stands out!

Per Riptide Publishing - Reader discretion advised. This title contains the following sensitive themes:
• dubious consent
• explicit violence
• non-consent

**Fair warning, this is NOT MM Romance. This is a psycho-sexual thriller which includes rape and torture. Please proceed with that in mind.

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I would like to thank Riptide Publishing for providing me an ARC of this book in exchange for my honest review.

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Profile Image for Debra ~~ seriously slacking on her reviews ~~.
2,232 reviews260 followers
August 26, 2013
Mat is back in this episode fighting Nikolai at every step and taking the horrifying consequences.

Dougie has drunk so much of the Kool-Aid, he is in love with living to serve Nikolai. He is pampered and content.

Mat continues to make demands of Nikolai, who warns Mat to be careful what he asks for. Mat is taking his punishments and getting back in shape with the ultimate goal of saving Mat and now Roger, whom he believes to have suffered abuse due to Mat's choices, and tear the whole operation down.

Unfortunately, Nikolai has yet another test for the brothers and of course, it is unfathomable in its cruelty, but offers Mat an opportunity he cannot pass up.
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676 reviews11 followers
August 21, 2014
I do no know if I'm ready for it, and I probably wouldn't be starting it now if it was not for my buddy L!
I stopped reading this series months ago, after finishing book no. 8, that for me, was the hardest of them all.
I needed a break to breathe because it really got to me!
I also wanted to wait for the all series to be out, in order for me to not get stuck in the dark without an end within reach.
I pre ordered the all series, and now that it's out I'm taking a deep breath and diving in!

Wish me luck!! I'll need it!

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This was a difficult read! A real frightening story line.
I felt my heart beating like crazy, and I had to stop in few occasions to get myself together, and pep talk myself into calming down.

I am so afraid, still, of what's coming next for Dougie and Mat.
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239 reviews19 followers
April 18, 2020
After what seemed to be eons, Dougie and Mat finally met up together again, though not in the way they both want. It wasn't really hard to predict how their meetup would turn out given the seemingly uninhibited rules of the book.

This wasn't an easy read, and almost the whole book was really intense and kept me on the edge of my seat. The emotions and thoughts of the characters gripped my heart closely with anxiety and fear.

I've been waiting for so long for some form of reprisal we finally see it! Given how the ending went, it was probably too good to be true. The halfway mark of the book turned the heat up in the story, and I hope the standard stays the same from here on.

5 Stars!
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2,381 reviews156 followers
August 7, 2013
Another Wow! Nikolai continues to be a total bastard, not like we expect anything else by now, but still. The boys are as confused as ever as they flip flop back and forth between feelings from their other life to coming to grips with feelings from their new one.

Dougie seems to be having less and less doubts of his position in his new life, though those niggling doubts are still there. Nikolai chooses this time, even though it seems to be a bit premature, to test Dougie in the worst way possible.

Mat is recovering and dealing with acceptance of things as well, until put to the latest test where things come crashing down on both boys.

I'll jump to the ending. It simply cannot be that easy and darn you guys for making us wait again to find out!
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1,537 reviews154 followers
February 3, 2014
Oh Holy Mind Fuck! I knew this one would throw me off again. I really loved Episode 8 and got way too comfortable...my bad.

So yeah, um Mat…damn boy! Just when I was ready to be done with you and was not invested in you at all to be honest you knock my socks off! Wool socks to be exact and oh boy, do you need another pair?
Nikolai’s logic sounded okay in theory, but that was what Nikolai did, just kept talking and talking and talking until you believed what he said, until you accepted his worldview as your own.

Nikolai is the MASTER mother fucking manipulator in this. Wow. Once again, I got to comfortable with the roles being played and I got played. This whole deal Nikolai makes with Mat, I am so on edge I can’t see straight. And Dougie, JHFC! I really liked you in the last two Episodes but now I want to smack you and tell you to wake the fuck up!

The end? I am so damn nervous that I want to start the next episode immediately but then again I never want to read it. That is always the problem with this series; as it gets tough, I want to keep going and I want to run away but at the same time I can’t leave my boys alone. Ugh. Boys, just stick together okay? You can do this, please, you can do this. Oh lord, the title of this…Trials and Errors and then the title of Episode 10…I just can’t.
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1,170 reviews76 followers
July 31, 2013
OMG! The suspense! The cliffhanger! Once again, Mat and Dougie are breaking my heart, and Nikolai is proving himself to be a vicious monster. I'm on pins and needles for the next episode and for the answers to my questions. Of paramount importance, will the 10th book be the last? Will everything be wrapped up then?

Rachel and Heidi continue to amaze me in their writing, their unflinching ability to put together a story that is both horrible and perfectly wonderful at the same time. The terrible, dark themes of this series have hit an all time high. The ride that we're probably in for in book a episode 10 will be undoubtedly worth the wait. I never thought I'd be this wrapped up in these two young men. Totally, and completely invested in their plight. I know that tonight I'll be dreaming of Mat and Dougie.
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423 reviews3 followers
July 31, 2013
Now that is time to review the only thing that comes to mind are profanities... yes, a long list of them in Spanish and English alike.

Review will be available at Hearts on Fire.

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Patience is NOT one of my virtues...

Let the teasing commence...

“So I’ll do it, I’ll be the good little slave, I’ll fight when you want me to fight and I’ll stop when you tell me to stop, and I’ll suck your cock and take the beating I know you plan to dish out afterward, and I’ll even fucking thank you for correcting me if that’ll get your rocks off. But the instant—the instant you take Dougie away from me, I’m done. I’m outta here.”

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Profile Image for Dreamer.
1,814 reviews135 followers
April 17, 2017
This series is akin to shooting heroin, just can't get enough of it!
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Matt is the ultimate tortured hero, trying to outwit the diabolical Nikolai in order save his brainwashed brother Dougie.

'(Matt) just reached out with one hand to cup Dougie's cheek and hoped that would serve as comfort. The way Dougie closed his eyes and leaned into the touch, like some needy cat but sexual, somehow, made him want to pull his hand away again. But he resisted the urge. He doesn't know what he's doing. He doesn't mean it. He just... needs you.'
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2,201 reviews112 followers
August 25, 2016
Oh man...Mat thinks he's managed to get to see his brother. He doesn't realize that Nikolai is going to use this at a big setup.

Mat gets punished with a "shocking" huge plug. When he finally gets to see Dougie, it's more depraved than anything he's imagined. Douglas makes a small break through and reaches out to Mat.

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1,449 reviews95 followers
July 31, 2013
I'm FINALLY back in with this series. I have goosebumps. It's going to be impossible to write anything about this particular book without giving too much away. I'll just say - Hope. Hope for the series and hope for the brothers.
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648 reviews139 followers
July 27, 2016
This was the most exciting book in the series so far, and I finally feel a glimmer of hope for the boys. Keeping my fingers and toes crossed!!!
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November 25, 2025
WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT ENDING, I DON'T LIKE IT
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232 reviews46 followers
February 12, 2017
Oh, another? Don't mind if I do!

To see my previous reviews and my next review for The Flesh Cartel, please click the links below.

Capture (The Flesh Cartel #1) - HERE
Auction (The Flesh Cartel #2) - HERE
Choices (The Flesh Cartel #3) - HERE
Consequences (The Flesh Cartel #4) - HERE
Wins and Losses (The Flesh Cartel #5) - HERE
Brotherhood (The Flesh Cartel #6) - HERE
Homecoming (The Flesh Cartel #7) - HERE
Loyalties (The Flesh Cartel #8) - HERE
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(The Flesh Cartel #10) - HERE
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1,033 reviews6 followers
August 17, 2013
Trials and Errors had more of Mathias, which I have been wanting throughout the last few books, so that made me very happy.

I do devour these shorts as soon as I buy them, but I am not sure for how much longer I can go waiting to buy and read this story at such little sections at a time. I wish it was just released as a novel so I could read from beginning to end without the problems of waiting for each installment and buying it bit by bit. It is going to work out very expensive.

The ending to this one finally gave me the hope that has been missing previously, so I am now waiting for the next story to see what happens.
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809 reviews152 followers
December 2, 2015
Th Flesh Cartel gets more and more disturbing with every page read. The brothers have been put through such a huge amount of pain, turture, manipulation and emotional terror that it really is a miracle that they are still alive.

In this part of the series, they are finally confronted with each other, which was an extremely touching scene. While Mat is desperately trying to somehow save his brother, Dougie seams unable to cope with the situation.

The suspense was very high in this book and the cliff hanger nearly killed me. Can't wait to continue the series and I'm definitively not giving up on them. 4 stars!
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807 reviews596 followers
May 12, 2017
However this series will progress and (God forbid) end, there is no doubt that this book (#9) is my absolute favorite so far.

Like Top 10 of All Time material.

I can't even say anything else about, it except...

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This instalment totally broke me apart. So many tears on everyone's parts. And none of them the good kind of tears...

I have NO IDEA how this could ever end well...
But damn, it's some of the best fiction I've ever read.

5 stars and a place in my Top 10 of All Time list!
Profile Image for Elaine.
504 reviews72 followers
August 1, 2013
At last...hope!!

But why do I feel so nervous and scared..

One more book to go....................

Please give Dougie and Matt their HEA

Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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507 reviews17 followers
February 10, 2025
Now, finally, it's getting good again! I was getting bored there for a while, but holy cr#p, this had me on the edge of my seat
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