C.S. Lewis aptly remarked that the medieval mind passed more easily back and forth between spiritual and worldly ideas. He intimated that this inability to hold an idea long in the mind is part of what makes moderns more superficial. This was infinitely clear to me when I found myself bored and annoyed by the extended allegory of the feast in the first half of St. Bernard's treatise which was meant, I think to bring emotional preparation for the Steps. Once I got to the second half of the work though, I had to read sentence by sentence for fear of missing anything because he was going so quickly. St. Bernard first takes apart the Beatitudes, (so called the Bill of Rights of christians) dissecting their order and meaning to bring out of it a negative and positive scale of pride and humility. The 12 steps begin their descent in curiosity(as opposed to studiosity), runs down through increasing signs of pride such as: audaciousness, (Jane Austin's novels?) conceit, eccentricity, and onwards to rebellion finally to habitual sin. (Eccentricity was fascinating.) Coming back down the Steps on the positive side, Bernard takes the example of the simple words of the Theotokos at the summit, as the model of modest confidence. He follows this up with the forbearance to press personal preference, down through retiscence and on to the beginnings of self-awareness. It was impressive how deeply St. Bernard looked into human self-idolatry, like a scientist peeling layers back. Having had my spiritual can kicked, I was left pondering the great grace necessary for community life in the age of self-esteem.