I started this book years ago, but finally finished it this past week, very very glad I did. The comparisons to Catcher in the Rye are imprecise, but there's not really a better way to peg a story seen through the eyes/mind of a seethingly intelligent young man. Simons feels at once older and younger than HC, and is far less of a dipshit, because he knows how much he has to learn about the world and can admit that tenderness. The last 50 or so pages really take off--it turns out you need to read in the world of Edisto for 150 pgs before Powell can demolish it completely. I should confess I worked on getting this book published as an e-book, so I am not completely unstained by commerce here, but cot damn, this book.
Here's a triumphant sentence fragment from the third to last page, about life changes:
"... some new profession, name maybe, no regrets, no losses, no cumbersome ideas of what he is or is to be, no freight train of future ideas bearing down on him, no comet of good old days burning him to a cinder of constantly failing memory."
The gnarled voice can slow you down a bit, and not-a-ton happens in this book, but that's the point, in fact.
update: here is every line i noted in my reading of this book. rare book that really picks up as it goes. the last third is so great.
… everybody in that book (a book Simons read) sounded like these Dobermans I heard about at the Grand. They feed them ashes in their food, which somehow lowers the oxygen in the blood, and when they grow up they don’t believe in anything, except maybe killing, and even the handler has to wear a football suit, more or less, and throw meat to wherever he wants them to go.
[Simons misidentifies condoms]
I found these gold-coin-like deals almost like candy mints, except, thank God, light enough to tip me off before I tried to eat one. Then I thought they were amusement-park tokens or pirate doubloons you buy drinks with in a resort-town bar or something. Then I figured they were gambling chips from the Bahamas, where they’d been on a trip. Gambling chips--I was close.
You can wait to know something like waiting for a dream to surface in the morning, which if you jump up and wonder hard you will never remember, but if you just lie there and listen to the suck-pump chop of the surf and the peppering and the palm thrashing and feel the rising glare of Atlantic heat, you can remember all the things of the night. But if you go around beating the world with questions like a reporter or federal oral history junior sociologist number-two pencil electronic keyout asshole, all the answers will go back into mystery like fiddlers into pluff mud. You just sit down in the marsh and watch mystery peek out and begin to nibble the air and saw and sing and run from hole to hole with itself. Lie down and the fiddlers will come as close to you as trained squirrels in a park. and how did [Taurus] teach me that? I don’t know, but you don’t need a package of peanuts or anything.
Well, a master sets a precedent and it is available for all the trials of posterity. And I am posterity.
tune in one of these weather-farm-fishing shows where the guy sounds like a very young grandfather, and in two hours you know whether to cut tobacco or go fishing or stay in bed, and you have this cozy feeling because a grandfather like that is free, and useful to all of us. He talks about Russians and crime and rain, and his voice never changes
smelling the coast in that gently howling pagoda at 3 A.M.
things like this piled up on me, little nothings that seemed like somethings
seeing Daddy’s car parked a little crooked in the driveway
somehow they would all be insulted if I went about trying to sift action out of what I considered actionless events
Once, thought, [his fighting parents] worked up to the ignition point, and she said, “It’s over. Get out.”
“Hell, it’s my house. You get out.” And beat her to the bedroom. That one tickled me.
But it’s still kind of hard to lie there hearing all this, even though some of it’s funny. Too much of it’s about you, in the third person, when they could just get you in there for your opinion instead of relegating you to misfit. Hell, I would have told them all they needed to know. They’d have both been jaked up if they had asked me. I don’t know how they ever managed to dream that they had an object, like a commodity on a market they had to invest this way or that. And finally, there was a feeling I had that they had quit being themselves in favor of my becoming themselves, as if they were sacrificed to me. They assumed this sacrifice willingly together and only later on discovered that there were two lives being gambled on one.
willing gentlewomen from the low country
Taurus’s girl was shabby where mine was shiny, loose where mine was tight, and I had already taken a heavy fall for her because of those jaw-breaker eyes
nothing to call the bureau of standards and measures about
big wobbly blessing
walking incitement to riot
big, wonderful, warm girls who are just a hint upset about things
I can worry about round, wonderful girls with their edges ruined by life’s little disasters, who remain solid and tough in their drive to feel good--to themselves and to you [slightly icky but it’s in character and feels true to the development of male desire]
I was a reader turning pages written some time ago, discovering what happened next
We go to Savannah, the closest place you can find an Episcopal layout. Right down in the slums, people already holding tallboys and blinking in the rising glare, we hit this pocket of new cars and a cathedral. All the dirt and smoke butts and dead banana trees changes to the soft, stained panes of biblical wonderment; and fresh acolytes with red-and-white robes and white faces and red lips carry gold candles; and the priest puts on twenty sashes and linen underthings and gold-braid overthings until he sweeps when he walks; and gold emerald-studded pikes get carried around, with three prongs for the Trinity; and the people kneel and stand and sing and kneel and pray on red velvet cushions that swing down for your knees like footrests under Greyhound bus sets, but of the finest, heaviest, wood-pegged oak, not bent pot metal; and the sermon intones with catchphrases like “more and more”; and the creeds, Apostle’s and somebody’s, get done; and then we pray, and then we line up for Communion. The Father wipes the silver chalice with a beautiful linen rag large as a small tablecloth, turns the cup two inches each time to keep you from having to drink where the last worshipper lipped it, as if that takes care of the germs. But I don’t care, I always reach out very piously--that’s to say, in slow motion, the way you move for some reason to take and eat the body of Our Savior--reach out and lay my hand over the Father’s in somber reverence to the moment and then press down as the silver rim clears my upper lip and suck a slug of wine that should have fed six communers. I have to, because the bread of His body is stuck to the roof of my mouth like a rubber tire patch, and if I can’t wash it loose by swishing His blood around, I’m going to have to dig it off with a finger, in slow motion, and possibly gag.
She was what they call a good soldier
heavy news
if the good old days were on a respirator, I’d do them the service of going around and pulling the plug
it don’t need no news conference
I took them to fend off the future
Daddy took me outside and said he’d be back, was going into town on “new business.” I caught that odd modifier and noticed he was new. His suit was without wrinkles. Even his skin looked smoother. My idea of him all along was one of these modern store mannequins with stark wood-cut faces always too darkly stained and expressing some dire problem despite the perfect poise with which they model a new suit
a heavy woman carrying on like some folk were cruising for a caning if they didn’t shape up.
And miles become kilometers, shacks condominia, marsh marina, and I feel like one of those bullet-shaped birds in Audubon’s drawer
So don’t get down on your mother if she’s drunk a lot, demanding, promiscuous, imperious, or anything. Because you might be wrong, you might not see the good soldier marching all along down in the trenches, for you. And you might be an igno, after all.
Margaret said some people had regular hopes still
Because once upon a time she was a regular polite heroine in the small-town world of young virgins
engaged to a handsome dude with papers
Here the playwright always turns the screws with something like the girl catching her dude in another man’s arms
It’s like an outcross in dogs or horses. If she’d got that first dude, it would have been severe ideological inbreeding, and I might be shy or vicious or something. This way, the way Vergil tells it anyway (he breeds bird dogs), I can be a “good athlete,” which means not baseball but just a solid individual partaking of two separate strengths and not two compounded weaknesses, I hope
It was that he did not know what his life held and so studied it very closely
then-next
now-next
now-now
without a congenital blessing or a disease
apropos of all this horseshit
roads deliberately curve everywhere when they could go straight
i’ll just watch the photographs yellow
He’d never be so eager to frame and crop the past, because that poses the present--you have to pose it to photograph it. And that means you can’t take the future in its full array of possibility, because you’re fixing to have to compose it for the present snapshot. It’s all square, very square.
It’s like when you watch TV sports with instant replays. You don’t even get caught up in the live play, because if you miss something you just run back in and see the great action you missed--the scenes already past which make the game you never saw so memorable.
no regrets, no losses, no cumbersome ideas of what he is or is to be, no freight train of future bearing down on him, no comet of good old days burning to a cinder of constantly failing memory
So that’s me. This is my motto. Never to forget that, as dully as things get, old as it is, something is happening, happening all the time, and to watch it.
is like living in an architect’s model
now we have furniture that will not make noise