"In stillness and quietness whispers are heard clearly, and the rustle of a leaf has meaning." (Loc. 2037-2038).
Some books are like macaroni and cheese, bread pudding, rice pudding, a savory mushroom soup: warm and satisfying, yet comforting. Ellis Peters' Brother Cadfael mysteries are like this. They are safe (they play fair), challenging (I can't let my mind run across the page, but have to pay attention), and only somewhat about death (more about life).
Her Potter's Field is all of these. It is 1143, and King Stephen and Empress Maud continue their shenanigans in the background; in this book, the people of Shropshire even head to war. They also return without a single casualty. But the foreground includes an unidentified, but clearly loved body, buried on unconsecrated ground. Who is she? Was she murdered? And by whom? And, of course, the foreground also includes the stories that swirl around this story, which to my mind are more interesting than the murder.
One of these stories is of vocation and the consequences of choosing to follow that vocation. Sometimes it is clear, as it is for Cadfael:
After all manner of journeying, fighting, endurance of heat and cold and hardship, after the pleasures and the pains of experience, the sudden irresistible longing to turn about and withdraw into quietness remained a mystery. Not a retreat, certainly. Rather an emergence into light and certainty. (Loc. 139-141)
Sometimes it is less clear, as with Ruald, who finds peace in his vocation, but that vocation brings pain to his wife, Generys, who is alone, but cannot remarry. Sulien, the younger brother of the new lord of Longner, declared his vocation, but then doubted.
What interests me is that Peters' characters do not behave as one might expect. Abbot Radulfus, for example, himself doubts Sulien's vocation, yet respects Sulien's doubt and encourages him to discover what is best for himself.
"It behoves a man to look within himself, and turn to the best dedication possible those endowments he has from his Maker. You do no wrong in questioning what once you held to be right for you, if now it has come to seem wrong. Put away all thought of being bound. We do not want you bound. No one who is not free can give freely.” (Loc. 821-823)
No one who is not free can give freely.
Peters' stories do not get tied up neatly with a bow, yet they are satisfying. Life's questions are often thorny, without easy answers.