lkatan kasih sayang yang utuh antara anak dan ayah kian terhapus sejak ayahnya mengahwini wanita lain. Hal ini membuatkan kehidupan Aisyah Nasuha teruji. Di mana dia mahu mencari kekuatan untuk berdiri semula? Dirinya tidak kuat. Namun dugaan tidak terus berhenti di situ. Dia terus diduga apabila ibunya yang disayangi menjadi tidak siuman selepas ayahnya berkahwin baru. Dia harus bersabar dengan segala yang berlaku. Pada masa sama, dia begitu menyukai seorang lelaki sejak zaman persekolahannya yang dipanggil, M. Kadang-kadang dia berfikir sendirian.Adakah ini cinta monyet yang sering orang katakan? Cinta monyet tidak akan kekal. Benarkah tidak akan jadi cinta sejati? Hati dan perasaan Aisyah Nasuha terus diduga. Muncul dua orang lelaki serentak dalam hidupnya, Mikail Islam dan Adi Putra. Aisyah Nasuha berubah selepas menjalani kehidupan sebagai seorang isteri. Semakin romantik selepas berkahwin. Tetapi siapakah lelaki yang bertuah itu?
"M, aku akan berkahwin tak lama lagi. Biarpun kita tidak bersatu dalam hayat ini, aku tetap akan ingat kau dalam doaku. Aku doakan kau turut bahagia dengan pilihan hatimu." - Aisyah Nasuha
"Berapa kali terima kasih la Aisyah ni? Masih tak tahu ke kasih Aisyah tu dah lama Adi approve." - Adi Putra
"Kenapa sekarang baru aku rasa gila bayang sedangkan masa Aisyah mengorat aku dulu, tak ada pulak berperasaan begini." - Mikail Islam
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Cerita ni simple sahaja tp banyak keluarkan air mata saya.. Kisah perjalanan hidup Aishah Nasuha, apabila diuji masa dia sekolah menengah nak ambik SPM,ayah dia kawin lagidan paling sedih masa tu ibu dia tengah mengandung anak no 2,adik Aishah Nasuha ni. Paling sedih bila ibu dia ajak Aisahahmenghadiri kenduri kawin, apalagi seronok la Aishah ni,dia memang suka pergi kenduri kawin. Bila sampai saja tempat kenduri tu, ibunya minta tunggu diluar saja, bila dah lama tunggu takjuga muncul ibu dia,akhirnya Aishah masukla kat dalam nak tengokibu dia, apabila lihat saja pengantin,terkejut la bila bapa dia yang jadi raja sehari,dah la pengantin perempuan tu sombong sangat sampai halau ibu dan Aishah keluar dari rumah kenduri tu,diseretnya ibu Aishah ni sampai menyebabkan ibu dia keguguran, dah la kandungan masuk 8bulan. Terpaksa la pihak hospital uruskan mayat adik Aishah diberi nama Adam. Selepas kejadian tu, telah menyebabkan ibu Aishah mendapat sakit jiwa. Aishah Nasuha ni seoarang yang ceria kat sekolah dan dia ni dipanggil minah gedik oleh 2 org rakan dia Thilaga dan Sui Mei. Sebab dia minat sangat ngan seorang budak berkepala botak kat sekolah dia,sampai sanggup bagi bungadan kad salam pekenalan hehehe,selalunya budak lelaki yang akan buat macam ni, ini terbalik pula. Memang Aishah ni suka sangat-sangat kat si botak tu dan gelarkan dia Mr.M. Tapi selepas kejadian ibu dia keguguran tu Aishah terpaksa berhenti sekolah tanpa pengetahuan 2 rakan karib dia. Apabila sudah dewasa dan ada pekerjaan sendiri dia terserempak balik ngan Mr.M ni tapi Aishah tak mengenali si M lagi sebab M dah ada rambut hehe. Tapi Mr.M masih ingat pada Aishah lagi. Cuma Mr.M ni lambat bagi tau dialah Mr.M,akhirnya Aishah memilih orang lain sebagai suami. Namun nama pun jodoh bila suami Aishah ni meninggal akibat sakit jantung, setahun lepas tu Mr.M melamar Aishah lagi.
*bila dah habis baca baru faham kenapa tajuknya macam ni, rupanya Aishahni berusaha nak jadikan dia romantik pada suami dia yang pertama walaupun mereka takbercinta dan juga untuk perkahwinan ke dua dia, siapboleh bagi tip kat orang lain lagi.
tw / cw: LOTS OF DEATHS, self harm, physical and mental abuse, manipulation, murder attempt, accidents, depiction of mental breakdowns and trauma, characters with mental illness
( ಥ‿ಥ ) Aiyo. Penat sangat baca buku ni, that I started laughing out of exhaustion when another one more person died very close to the end of this book. This straight up is just a drama tragedy genre story, and if you have anxiety issues what I mentioned above can trigger you, please don't read this book because the story really described and showed all of them in details. Also, SPOILER WARNING, AND LOTS OF FRUSTRATING RANTS.
Sayang gilak I actually love the beginning of the story with the entire high school arc up to Aisyah and M met again once more when they're adult. I genuinely love Aisyah and how she brought herself early on, walaupun gedik, but it was so hilarious and realistically youthful tau! Her friendship with Thilaga dan Sui Mei pun sangat colourful dan comel, tapi sayang awal tu ja mereka banyak involved in the plot line. Of course, saya suka baca macam mana Aisyah suka gila-gila sangat dengan M and the contrast of personalities between them, then their eventual interactions made me squeal!
Their re-meeting after the time jumps pun comel with how hard Mikail been pining all alone tried to make her realise that he's M. And there's the sub plot with the FB wall messages, that one has so much potential to be part of the main plot, but unfortunately, it becomes just part of a small bits in the entire storyline.
Unfortunately things went downhill from the time Aisyah met Adi. So here are the things I simply unsatisfied with the story:
• Father conflict ended just like that, and it confuses me a lot: Of course the worst father award goes to Aisyah's father, dengan benda dia preach ajar anak, anak isteri nak kena jimat cermat, eeeh, ended up dia curang main cinta dan pergi kahwin dengan perempuan lain sebab assume bini mandul pulak kan (gila, you have a 17 yo daughter kut). Despite everything, saya masih tak faham macam mana Aisyah boleh kahwin dengan Adi despite how ALL OF THOSE TIME apparently she assumed ayah dia masih hidup and she knows where she can find him, tapi takda sentuh lansung tentang macam mana Aisyah kahwin tanpa wali ya.
• Mother daughter moment with Aisyah is so damn minimum even after recovering: I wished it there were more moments between them, more talk about motherhood, more catching up, more familial moment, apparently tiada dan tamat gitu ja kisah dia as her mother passed soon after.
• Adi, the first husband: I simply hated this guy. I don't care if he's ill, but he's straight up selfish sebelum kahwin sampai dah kahwin ya. I honestly don't understand his characteristics at all, dah lah manipulative, and the way he forced Aisyah accepting his proposal was so stupid: 'Kalau mak Aisyah selamat (selepas cubaan bunuh diri ya) bermaksud Aisyah terima lamaran saya' — KAMU OKAY KE TAK LELAKI? Orang jelas tak suka kamu, lepas tu kamu paksa dia kahwin guna keadaan nyawa orang lain. Also what's up with the blow up meltdown before the marriage? He always knows Aisyah tak pernah suka dia, dah tu dia mengamuk datang rumah orang jadi guilt tripper. And dia sangat selfish sorok sakit tenat dia dan proceed jugak dengan perkahwinan tu tanpa cakap dengan pasangan dia.
Entah lah, even during marriage arc pun there's nothing interesting about him nor he even plan to come clean or a show how he's a worthy husband to woo his wife, sebab yang usaha banyak pun si Aisyah ja. And honestly, their entire conversation only filled with 'I love you, you love me' was so boring. I can't even like him, that even when he died I don't feel anything for him.
• Aisyah's characteristics: walaupun saya suka high schooler Aisyah, but I genuinely don't think she's the same person as the Aisyah I know at the beginning. I assume there will be more on her own struggles in life after what her father did and how her mother went ill and how she had to stop schooling and all, but there's nothing, she lives well, and semua isu lepas tu tentang masalah cinta dan hati sahaja.
There's basically no character development from her. Her change of opinion only happened bila benda tu dah jadi ja, there's no further thoughts from her own perspectives pun along the story. It was so frustrating to read sebab we literally don't understand what her actual way of thoughts are.
Masa M proposed to her after dia jadi balu pun tak faham lansung what drove to her having such opinions untuk menidakkan dan menolak, and her conclusion is 'tengok dan pasrah'? Dah tu dia letak boundary dekat M, tolak M, takda nak bincang dengan M — bila M dah menjauh sebab dia dah tunjuk tak nak, dia pulak kecik hati, marah, sampai tahap benci dekat lelaki tu. KAMU NAK APA EH AISYAH? SAYA YANG BACA LANSUNG TAK FAHAM? Cakap lah, ada mulut tu cakap, ada otak untuk berfikir tu pakai. Ni bila M proposed for the second time, tiba-tiba dia buat assumption possibility M tak bertanggungjawab kalau kahwin, where did that even come from laaah, sedangkan yang jaga anak kamu, tolong kamu, semua lelaki tu tau.
And why is she so slow at figuring that M is Mikael? Saya ingat bila M dah directly sebut obvious proofs dia dah faham, rupanya sampai hujung tidak pun. And I don't get the entie kotak merah given by M after her nikah with Adi, tergantung gitu ja benda tu.
• This story have a lot of conflicts, side characters, and different things, tapi everything ended up jadi subplot yang terlampau surface sahaja: Side characters' struggle and backstories were told in detail early on siap flashbacks lagi, but their ending and conclusions habis gitu dan doesn't contribute and blended much into the main plot line. And somehow everything just stopped and changes after Aisyah's first marriage:
(1) Mikail's dad sembuh gitu ja lepas berubat kampung dan takda acknowledge pun anak-anak dia kena dera or talk with Mikail sendiri
(2) Ibu tiri Mikail nampak dan kena kejar hantu dekat villa mereka is so random and unnecessary. And her murder attempt dekat ayah Mikail tamat gitu ja.
(3) Zyla x Khairul's issue hanya menambah kepada konflik yang lain ja, like Khairul as Mikail's friend pun takda peranan penting lansung, and Zyla obsession dengan Mikail just gitu ja. And it was never explained how they're married and how Zyla was forced to marry Khairul?
The writing actually seronok dan lancar dibaca due to how fast paced everything was bagaikan sedang tonton drama, tapi the downside is semuanya rasa macam terlampau ambitious dan trauma dumping with all of the series of unfortunate events yabg berlaku, with the deaths of Aisyah's loved ones, and M's family abuse, it was exhausting and confusing to read. It's unfortunate sebab how the story was in the beginning, the young adult first love and all, it has so much potential, but I really cannot like the rest of the story except for that and Mikail's himself as a character (honestly, him the only person that is realistic in this book).
Also, a huge part of this book is probably educational information dumping on various topics especially on marriage and health. But to be frank, I'm not a huge fan of it as a lot of times it doesn't provide anything to the plot line itself.
Overall, for me the latter 3/4 of the book totally didn't deliver my expectations due how good the earlier part of the story is. And I had a massive anxiety attacks from reading all of the abuses told in this. But if have a strong heart and you like tragedy drama, this book might be for you!