I'll Take You There (2002)
• by Joyce Carol Oates
The woman telling this story of her college years in the early 1960s does not give her name. Her father, a gruf, unaffectionate, single parent refered to her as "You." The house mother at her sorority called her by a variety of incorrect names, including Mary Alice. To impress her grad student boyfriend she invented for herself the name Anellia.
Part 1.
She grew up with three brothers much older than herself; Dietrich 11 years older, Fritz 10 years older and Hendrick 7 years older. Since her mom died when she was just one and a half years old, they blame her for mom's death. Dad's work (construction) keeps him away for weeks or months at a time. The kids are raised by their paternal grandparents on a 12 acre dairy farm.
At Syracuse University, in New York, (1962 ?) she has a friend who encourages her to pledge the sorority Kappa Gamma Pi. She's always wanted a sister; longed for sisters and in the sorority she has the chance to join a Sisterhood. At first this naive, 19 year old, High School Valedictorian, with a college scholarship, is thrilled with the sorority.
Ironically in the Sisterhood she gets sisters who behave like actual big sisters. They demean her, hang out with her roommate, smoking, crowding her out of her own room and lying on her bed. They use her to rewrite their term papers and ignore or castigate her the rest of the time. She's soon in distress.
Not only does she not fit in with these contemptuous, affluent gals, she's in serious debt, working several jobs, scavenging for food, neglecting her hygiene and health--she's on her way to a breakdown. The house mother Agnes Thayer cracks up as well. The sorority gals refer to Mrs. Thayer as the Brit Bitch and conspire to torment her and have her fired.
After being voted out (February 1963) by the sisters she does better in the affordable campus housing. Her intense desire to become a Kappa gal clouded her judgment--she didn't consider how she would pay for it. And, the sorority turned out to be dominated by indelicate, drunken, smoking, rich girls who were known to "put out."
Part 2.
In her Ethics class she becomes obsessed with a philosophy grad student who is auditing the class. Soon she's hopelessly infatuated with Vernor Matheius, exactly like a lovesick high school girl. He's tall and black, she's short, slight and lily-white. Being 1963 this doesn't go over well, even in New York. She's a University honors student with a negro lover, 10 years her senior and is called before the dean of women to be reprimanded for this interracial relationship.
Incidentally their love affair is overly descriptive and unnecessarily detailed.
Fortunately while snooping at his home she finds photo's of the wife and kid he may have deserted, "It's none of your business," she's told. She also learns he's violent, as he punches her in his anger and calls her all manner of vile names. Well, that's over. Two years later, in 1965 she graduates and gives the valedictorian speech, after which she shakes the hand of the dean of women; the same one who reprimanded her. At their previous parting she had delivered an idle threat of a lawsuit over the school's racist policies.
Throughout the story are philosophical quotes from Kant, Nietzsche, Wittgenstein etc. which at times reflect the protagonist's situation.
This time period is the middle of the Civil Rights Movement, but the author doesn't spend much time on that conflict. The Medgar Evers murder in 1963 is mentioned as an event that throws Vernor into drinking, depression and illness.
Part 3.
He's alive. About 4 years earlier their father went west and was believed to be dead. Part of the time he was in prison and may have thought better dead than known as a jailbird to his kids. Her brother calls with the news that dad is alive, but now weeks away from dying of cancer at age 56. She's staying in a rented Vermont cabin working on her first book, for which she's already received an advance from the publisher.
From there she drives her VW beater bug 2,500 miles to the small town of Crescent, Utah. Her father is being nursed by his girlfriend / fiancee, Hildie Pomeroy. Dad has been disfigured by the disease and surgeries. He wants to see her, but doesn't want her to look at him; she mostly complies. She cares for this insensitive and occasionally cruel man, who hugged her when she graduated high school--the most affection he'd ever given her.
He can't speak and Hildie translates his garbled sounds. He left a will asking for his body to be buried next to his dead wife in the family cementary back in New York. Hildie is outraged at this insult. After transport and burial expenses, she sends the remainder of her dad's meager life insurance policy to Hildie ($3,200). The funeral is poorly attended and only one of her brothers was present; Fritz.
The story ends with her describing the new headstone for her mom and dad and comments she won't join them there, in that rocky soil; ending with "...but my family was now complete. If things work out between us, someday I'll take you there." Huh? Take who, where? Anyone know what the author ment by this?
Mostly interesting, a bit lackluster at times and an enigmatic final line.
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