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Pisgah Mountain Book One

Matt and Shane both have secrets. Matt never believed he was anything but straight, yet he’s increasingly attracted to his best friend. Shane is comfortable with being gay, but when he discovers he’s part werewolf, he hides that part of himself, fearing Matt’s reaction. Suffocated by his uptight parents and conservative hometown, Shane begs Matt to run away with him.

But starting over doesn’t help. Matt still denies his desires, and Shane abuses alcohol to dampen his wolfish urges. When Matt breaks down and kisses Shane, the pent-up passion proves too much for Shane’s self-control, and his wolf gets free. Horrified, Shane flees—into deeper trouble. Before they can hope to accept each other, Shane and Matt must accept themselves.

205 pages, Kindle Edition

First published May 14, 2013

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Silvia Violet

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Silvia Violet writes fun, sexy stories that will leave you smiling and satisfied. She has a thing for characters who are in need of comfort and enjoys helping them surrender to love even when they doubt it exists. Silvia's stories include sizzling contemporaries, paranormals, and historicals. When she needs a break from listening to the voices in her head, she spends time baking, taking long walks, and curling up with her favorite books. Keep up with her latest ventures by signing up for her newsletter.

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Profile Image for Gigi.
2,148 reviews1,069 followers
May 16, 2013
The two biggest reasons I was excited to read this book? It was penned by Silvia Violet, the goddess who gave us the marvelous Fitting In which made my fuck yeah, 5+stars shelf and the fucking awesome cover photo. And it was a good book! I enjoyed it! But, sadly, it was no Fitting In. There was so much more angst and just plain misery than there was romance, that it bordered on depressing. BUT, it did make the HEA payoff that much more powerful, so I'll give Ms. Violet that. We follow these two MCs from late high school to their late 20s, so a lot happens in those years, most of it pretty shitty.

If you can put up with the misery, and I did enough to give this 4 stars, and like werewolves and friends to lovers, I can certainly recommend this book to you.

For once a hot cover didn't let me down!
Profile Image for Chris Jeffreys.
241 reviews18 followers
May 19, 2013
I generally like the whole shifter/werewolf genre, but no so much with Denying Yourself.

This is the story of Shane - a young gay werewolf who finds out that he is a werewolf in his late teens, and Matt -- his deeply closeted best friend. Looks like it would be a generally good set-up for a character driven story, but I didn't feel the chemistry between these two men at all. In fact, I found the characters a bit annoying.

Here are my general gripes about this story: (1) WAAAAYYYYY to much angst going on between these two main characters; (2) it reads with all of the depth of a young adult novel, even though it is not marketed that way; and (3) the shifting points of view of the narration kills me (i.e. when the author writes "he" did something -- who's the "he"? -- the reader should never have to flip back for pages to understand basic narration).

At the end of it all, I guess I would describe this story as unfulfilling and disappointing -- either word would sum up this story for me. So much potential . . . But the actual prose just didn't do the characters justice. Two stars from me.
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1,551 reviews175 followers
April 26, 2014
2.5 stars

I really wanted to like this book after the terrific Fitting In. Unfortunately it wasn't really for me.
I didn't like the characters a great deal, too much telling not enough showing, missing a much needed POV, particularly given the time period the book covers. Frustrating for me in parts. http://ontopdownunderbookreviews.com/...
Profile Image for Sandra.
4,121 reviews13 followers
May 25, 2013
2.5 stars because I've read some pretty good 3 stars and I just feel the need to distinguish a little. I liked the general premise, although this made me realize why people complain so much about 1st person narrative. I don't usually mind it, but something about the telling of a story that's already happened to them just keeps me at a distance. So unfortunately, while I enjoyed the story itself, I never really felt a connection with either of the MC's.

For that matter, despite all the claims of everlasting love... I never felt much of a connection between the characters either. I almost feel like this would have been better if told from the time they met, spanning their friendship, then running away, then the same emotional turmoil but condensed over a shorter time. Because as it was, they both just seemed miserable right off the bat, and I felt like Shane was not only self-destructive, but they were both pretty destructive to each other (which often happens in young relationships as I can personally attest, and that's why you need to cut the cord). So while I was happy with the reunion and HEA, I kinda felt like they would have been just as well off to just go on with their lives separately.

That was my general impression, now for some of the things that I feel kept this from being a higher rating:

1) I'll admit I did cry once, and that was part of what made me round up to 3 stars But given Shane's serious addiction, some of the horrible shit he goes through (which is only mentioned later-on briefly in remembrance - ALL tell, and NO show), and just the all encompassing and destructive love these two have for each other... I feel like I should have been emotionally devastated... and I just wasn't.

2) Matt's sudden mood swings/mind changes, there are two specifically that left me a little confused. First was when Matt finally confronts Shane saying he can't stop thinking about their one kiss a few weeks prior. That's fine, except that since said kiss Shane has been in a downward spiral riding a wave of self-hatred and booze! Not the best time Matt! Especially since, understandably, Matt has been getting increasingly fed-up and seemingly disgusted with Shane's behavior. So the timing and lack of discussion with that just didn't seem to fit for me. Second was later, after all their issues. I guess he decided to reconcile, which is fine, but they needed to talk! You can't just hold someone's hand and "claim" them after all the shit they've been through. Uhg, anyway.

3) Lastly, just the amount with which they run away. Literally. Right off the bat, I didn't understand this. Um, you're 18 years-old guys. You don't need to sneak away in the early morning light. Just tell your parents that you want to move out and do your own thing for a while, you're big boys now.

4) I had to come back and add this one after reading a review mentioning the hot sex. Once they got to the sex, yes. But I have to admit I'm starting to hate when one characters just has to "explore" the other. UHG! I don't wanna read for 5 pages about you kissing his foot, and his knee, and his hip bone, and his beautiful fucking elbow. Just fuck already! So yeah, there's that. :)
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742 reviews41 followers
May 19, 2013
i was in the mood for a shifter story and decided to try this one out. I was happy for the effort to be a little original like having an alcoholic shifter trying to get control of his life & love back. But this is more of a story about Shane and his journey with a side of Matt. Shane seems to have a bit of a obsession/attraction for Matt or as he refers to it, love.

At the start of the book he's 18 years old and dealing with realizing for the first time that he's a werewolf shifter and also his feelings for Matt. He basically coerces Matt into running away with him but doesn't come clean about his attractions or the fact that he's a shifter. As things start to go wrong, Shane chooses the bottle more & more. When the truth finally is revealed, Shane doesn't talk to Matt but runs away. This is a recurring pattern for Shane.

Matt has his issues which is basically denying he's gay, but we don't get his point of view or what's behind it all. This is Shane's story about him getting as low as possible and his redemption from the hands of another shifter, Carl. Most of the book doesn't even have Matt in it. They do eventually reconcile, but by then I was ready for him to form a more mature relationship with someone else like Carl.

The story has this idea though that Shane & Matt are like these star crossed meant to be lovers, but really did little to support it so the level of angst Shane suffers just seems out of proportion to what they had. Years pass before they could even communicate effectively. I liked this enough that I read it rather quickly but it wasn't an enthusiastic wow story as it felt like something was off about it..
Profile Image for Eugenia.
1,898 reviews319 followers
October 4, 2017
DNF@ 50%
Insipid dialogue and plot. It gets 1.5 stars because it didn't hit me how bad it was until I started paying attention. And maybe it will redeem itself somehow in the second half. I just don't care.

I think this author is simply not for me. This is the second book of hers that I've read and it had a similar effect on me--I didn't realize how trite the dialogue and plot was until half way through.

Sorry, but I'm not denying myself anything by not finishing this.
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945 reviews27 followers
June 7, 2013
The idea was there and I can appreciate that but the way it was written was a bit ridiculous. Shane is gay and seems to be fine with that aspect but what he isn't fine with is his werewolf. So he abuses alcohol to control his werewolf urges. He is also in love with his best friend Matt who is definitely not okay with being gay.

After graduation Shane begs Matt to come way with him to live his dream of having his own restaurant. So Matt does and Shane and Matt live together and begin a tentative relationship together. However, Matt cannot accept his feelings towards Shane which pushes Shane to drink more and the more he drinks the more their relationship explodes. So Shane finally leaves - running away as he cannot control his wolf and he cannot tell Matt.

It's an interesting idea because it shows two kids dealing with two issues. As I said the idea is good and could have been done well - but it everything was on the surface, there was no real depth and there was the sexual element that really dampened the real issues being dealt with.

An idea that was good but wasn't treated to its potential.
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Author 306 books2,709 followers
June 24, 2013
Oh I LOVED this... I have such a long TBR list and I am so pleased this made it to the top... Hot sex scenes that actually meant something, two characters... if i had one thing I would say it was that i WISH we could have seen inside Matt as well... I loved him... but then I love the first person writing of Shane... There is a story, there is build up of relationship, there is a just a really damn good story here... I loved... :)
Profile Image for ~♥ Elle ♥~.
304 reviews6 followers
May 20, 2013
I admit I picked this book because of the cover. The art is really beautiful and I was drawn to it. As for the content, I didn't enjoy it much. This was told in Shane's POV and his train of thought tends to be broody, angst-filled and sometimes fatalistic. Add in the miscommunications and overreactions and the whole thing became too annoying and depressing to read.
Profile Image for justanya.
398 reviews
May 22, 2013
This story had lots of potential. I Loved the concept but 1) the timeline was sloppy 2) POV confusion. 3) the characters needed to be fleshed out more. Makes me wonder if this book is a victim of poor editing. Please excuse my bad grammar : - )
Profile Image for Christy.
4,422 reviews127 followers
April 10, 2014
There is nothing that I enjoy more…oh, all right, you've heard it before. Ad nauseam. Well, too bad, I'm saying it again. I love shifter stories. I love hot and steamy shifter stories. With that in mind, you can understand how excited I was to read 'Denying Yourself', the first in Silvia Violet's new series 'Pisgah Mountain Wolves'. This book included a hot shifter, and his best friend who is supposedly straight. As far as I was concerned that made it a win-win in my book for entertainment.

Shane is eighteen, and graduated from high school before he finds out he's a werewolf. A little something his adopted parents forgot to mention. Apparently they weren't sure he'd shift because he's only half werewolf, so they never mentioned it. When he shifted on their kitchen floor for the first time, they pretty much knew it then. Shane knows he's got to get out of this tiny hick town and he begs his best friend, Matt, to go with him. Matt is a good ol' farm boy but he's been Shane's best friend for the past year that Shane has lived there. Matt has a secret yearning to open his own restaurant and cook for people, but he can't do that working his parents’ farm, so he leaves with Shane for Asheville. Shane hasn't told Matt about the whole werewolf thing and as time goes on it gets harder and harder. Of course, Matt hasn't told Shane about his secret desire for him, because Matt is straight. He's not gay. He can't be. Even though Shane knows Matt is lying, Matt refuses to admit to it. I guess the title for this book is pretty apt since both of them are denying who they really are.

As is to be expected, Matt gives in to his desires and at the end, Shane loses control of his wolf and shifts. Matt is afraid and Shane runs away. Two years later Shane is living on the streets, selling himself for booze, killing himself slowly. Luckily for him, he gets saved by Carl and taken to a rehab center for shifters where he finally gets sober and learns to control his wolf. Once he's ready to leave, Carl brings him to his wolf pack and to a life and job at Pisgah Mountain Resort in the Pisgah National Forest of North Carolina. Learning to live as part of a wolf pack is a challenge and one that it takes Shane months to grasp. It's been over three years since Shane has seen Matt but he's never stopped loving him or thinking of him. In an interesting twist of fate, and a little push from some wolves, Matt ends up running the restaurant at the lodge, putting Shane and him together daily.

I really enjoyed this book. As a shifter story it focused more on the human relationship between Shane and Matt, with the wolf pack being secondary. It was hard to watch the struggles Shane put himself through and it was equally as wonderful to watch him heal. Shane and Matt were really good together and I was very happy to see them work through their troubles and get what they both so desperately needed: each other. I'm looking forward to the next book in the series!

NOTE: This book was provided by Dreamspinner Press for the purpose of a review on Rainbow Book Reviews.
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2,340 reviews39 followers
June 21, 2013

Review posted on World of Diversity Fiction Reviews


I really liked this shifter story, it is different from other shifter stories I’ve read and I love to find things that are different.

Shane and Matt are high school friends. Shane is openly gay and just recently finds out he’s a werewolf. Matt is straight or so Shane thinks. One night Shane and Matt get a bit carried away and things go wrong making Shane run. This story is more about what happens to Shane while he’s on the run, except for his thoughts of Matt you don’t see or hear much of him.

I loved both Shane and Matt, even with the little you see of him. Shane’s plight broke my heart, he went through so much after he runs from Matt. The drinking and the whoring himself out to pay for the liquor was hard to read, I really wanted to grab him and take him home when he hit rock bottom. Thankfully he’s discovered by Carl, another werewolf, who takes him to a rehab place for shifters where he finds the help he needs to get himself together and make his way back to Matt if for nothing else to ask for his forgiveness. Their reunion and short journey to being together again was well done, finally these two learn what “you need to communicate” means.

This story is full of angst and there isn’t a lot of happiness or much to smile about but it is very moving and quite powerful. Shane’s alcoholism is handled well and except for the fact the story is a shifter story the underlying drama seems plausible. It’s a good story and all the angst and sorrow makes the ending that much sweeter. I would love to read more, a sequel would be perfect.

Profile Image for Meggie.
5,330 reviews
January 20, 2014
This story was in overall quite good, but something just didn't feel complete. I missed the read deal, or read felt emotions, between Shane and Matt. They were supposedly, silently, in love with each other, but they didn't convince me of that. Sure, we could feel an obsessive behaviour from Shane's side, but Matt, no way, he was, sure a real true friend, from the beginning, but in love, no way. He didn't convince me of that.
Profile Image for Christina Marie.
150 reviews101 followers
August 14, 2014
I want to start by saying I really liked this book, but it really frustrated me at the same time. There are reasons why I wanted to give it a higher rating, and reasons why I wanted to give it a lower one. I struggled with how many stars I should give this and in the end I settled for 2.5 Stars.

The main thing that irked me was that this book had so much potential to be great. I wanted to add it to my list of “I will love you ‘till your ink fades.” But sadly that will not be happening because, like most readers, I prefer to be shown not told. At first I thought Shane was reminiscing, and that eventually I would be brought fully into the story. Instead, I mostly felt like I was reading a summary of events that I would have preferred to see play out. A really good summary, but it was irritating no less. There were times when I felt in the moment, and those were great. And there were moments that were paced so well. They were intense. They were good. They would have blown my mind if they were described in detail, not summarized in short.

This one issue created a few problems. Not seeing Shane meet Matt, form a friendship, and develop feelings for his best friend meant that I wasn’t that invested in them finally getting together. In the end I wanted Shane to get what he wanted, but only because it was what he wanted, not because I felt any connection to Matt.

So, Shane is the new kid in a small town. He meets Matt and they quickly become best friends. Shane falls in love with Matt who doesn’t return his feelings because, well, Matt is straight. Or is he just so deep in denial he’s convinced himself he is? Anyway, Shane discovers he is a werewolf, doesn’t tell Matt, but he does convince Matt to leave town with him and head to the city. And shit proceeds to hit every fan in the vicinity.

At this point in the story Shane and Matt both make me angry. They are young, stupid, and make selfish choices. They clearly need to remove themselves from each other’s presence to come to terms with who they are as individuals. They need to grow, learn to accept themselves, and other after school special stuff. Matt’s presence messes with Shane’s head, and despite what I said a second ago, Matt isn’t an idiot so he knows it. Shane knows being around Matt is making him spiral into alcoholism, still he choses to stay in an unhealthy situation. And Shane can’t stop himself from trying to pressure Matt into admitting something he isn’t ready to admit. What’s clear is that they both need time apart. They both need a therapist. But noooo, THEY feel that they need each other, crazy, co-dependent, self-destructive assholes that they are. So instead of doing the logical thing, they decide to stay in their little bubble of foolishness. They idly sit by until things implode all over their faces.

Don’t get me wrong, I liked that they both pissed me off so much because it was the strongest emotion their relationship had elicited from me at that point. I was morbidly curious to see what would happen once they figured it out for themselves, if they ever did.

The story spans about five years, and both characters do grow. Which is lovely. Right when Shane’s spiral cycle of fucked up starts to get annoying, it (thankfully) ends. And it is so satisfying when Shane finally gets it, when he figures out how to be a healthy and fully functional individual. However, a chunk of what Shane goes through I barely cared about (and I should have) because 2 years of his life is summarized in about a paragraph. I digress. One problem with both of them being so unhealthy for each other, and infuriatingly dense about the whole thing, is that I fell half in love with a secondary character Carl.

Overall, I thought that Shane and Matt, despite being frustrating at times, were really sweet. Shane managed to break little pieces off my heart from beginning to end. The ending was nice and sweet. And it felt finished, probably due to the fact that it takes them so long to grow and figure out their issues. Shane and Matt go from teenagers with too many issues to be together, to grown men ready to be in love.

And holy wow can Silvia Violet write a sex scene. I thought the sexual tension between Shane and Matt was delicious. It built beautifully. And then my kindle caught fire. When they do finally get together it is explosive. The scenes (of which there are the perfect amount) never get boring or repetitive. I mean this book is curl your toes hot when it needs to be.

Despite the various frustrations I do recommend this. Denying Yourself is still an enjoyable book, and I will be reading the next one.

2.5 Stars

The Morning After Romance
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1,480 reviews222 followers
July 12, 2013
It hasn't been easy for Shane being the openly gay, new kid in a conservative, southern high school. The bullies and the jocks have been pushing him around and roughing him up...that is until one of the jocks, Matt, stands up for him and quickly becomes his best friend. Soon, Shane begins to notice that he is changing: becoming stronger and out of control, struggling with his desires for his "not gay" best friend. He chooses alcohol to suppress his urges and keep himself deep in denial about what is happening to him. Then one night after graduation, during a heated argument with his parents, Shane suddenly shifts into his werewolf form. Rejected and feeling alone, he convinces Matt to run away with him, but is still too afraid to admit to Matt what he really is. The two friends quickly find jobs and a cheap apartment, and everything seems to be going great. Then, an unexpected kiss from Matt pushes Shane into a dark, downward spiral of more alcohol and self abuse. Before Matt and Shane can ever be together, they both need to accept themselves for what they are.

I will be the first one to admit that I'm not a big fan of shifter books; I think shifters are one of those story-lines that have been well overdone in this genre. Over and over. But this was different from any other shifter book I've ever read. First of all, I know I've never read about an alcoholic werewolf! But, I am a softie for gay-for-you and friends-to-lovers, so the blurb and the sexy cover tempted me enough to ignore my hesitancies and give this one a try. And I'm so glad I did! Once I started reading it, I could not tear myself away from it until I was finished. I actually stayed up 'til almost 4 am on a work night! I really, really enjoyed it.

This was honestly and truly an angst fest. Shane just broke my heart. His love for Matt was so strong, and every time he was faced with rejection, my heart hurt for him. Yes, I hated what he was doing to himself, but I understood why he was doing it...trying to cope with the duel stigmas of being gay and a shifter, lusting after and loving his best friend, while attempting to deny his animal within. Some people may consider him selfish and immature, but I saw him is young and broken. He needed Matt, but he needed himself more. I don't want to spoiler anyone as to where this story goes, but it is not an easy journey to the HEA.

The story was told in first person from Shane's POV, so I never really got to see what Matt was feeling. I know he was struggling with admitting to himself that he was gay and in love with his best friend, but how did he come to accept it? I don't know why, but there is a part of me that just wants to be able to see Shane through Matt's eyes...just once.

On the smexy level, this one rated pretty high for me. While it’s not full of page after page of sex, there was some really nice sexual tension followed by some satisfyingly hot and sexy scenes. There was no cheating, but I must warn that there was somewhat of an orgy!! Shifters need a lot of physical contact and are typically sexually open, so I was perfectly okay with it...I even found it very hot!

I think the only thing lacking from this story was some of the paranormal world building. I know that the humans know about shifters, but how did that come to be? Where did shifters come from? And how is Shane a half-shifter? I learned a bit about pack dynamics and shifter urges, but I still have a lot of questions. So, I think a sequel would be nice. A sequel about Carl would be even better. I know I didn't mention Carl previously in my review, but I refuse to spoiler. ;)

In the end, Shane and Matt do find their happy ever after. It was a tough trip, but very worth the travels.

I recommend this to anyone who is interested in a shifter story with a twist and a bit of angst.


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1,206 reviews43 followers
May 13, 2013
4 Hearts

Review written for MM Good Book Reviews

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Shane has crushed on his best friend Matt since the day they met, over the last few months it has been harder and harder to cope with holding back and he turns to drink to ease the feelings, but then something shocking happens and Shane drinks even more to suppress the wolf. Matt denies the part of himself that would make him different, running away with Shane so he can build a life for himself away from the farm seems to be the answer but the strain is telling on both of them and they start to grow apart. One morning they both give into their urges and it is too much for Shane’s wolf, Shane flees in horror and falls into despair with alcohol for company. Time is what both young men need to accept their own natures, but can Matt and Shane reconnect at the right time for them?

This is a great story with a completely different approach to shifters. Shane and Matt are best friends, Shane has crushed on Matt since they met but Matt is straight. Shane has struggled with his attraction and began to drink to drown out his urges, but discovering the secret his adoptive parents kept from him scares him and he decides the time has come for him to leave and he hopes Matt will go with him. Matt struggles with his attraction to Shane and completely denies his sexuality, when Shane becomes more erratic and unpredictable Matt doesn’t know what to do and his frustration leads to explosive sex with Shane, but Shane flees and Matt is left alone not knowing if Shane is dead or alive.

I really liked how this story was portrayed with two young men both struggling with their identities, Matt with being gay and Shane with being a wolf. The shifter aspect of the story was pretty bleak, many young shifters growing up with no knowledge of what they are or how to cope with the shifter nature, falling into addictions as a way of coping until they either hit rock bottom or are rescued by an older shifter who can get them help. We get bombarded with Shane’s troubles as we progress through the story, with the difficulties he faces but he’s always holding onto the hope of getting Matt’s forgiveness.

The story is all from Shane’s perspective, so we miss out on a chunk of what Matt is going through, we follow Shane as he becomes lost in a bottom of a bottle, as he claws his way out with help and the struggle to stay sober as he builds his life back up. There is some great sex in this story both between Matt and Shane and, as Shane gets integrated into the pack, with Carl (the pack alpha). There is no cheating, but there is voyeurism and group sex between shifters. Both Matt and Shane are great characters who go through their own acceptance of themselves, denying themselves was hurting them both and finding themselves brings them both love and joy.

I will recommend this to those that love shifter troubles, recovering from addiction, forgiveness, accepting your own true nature whatever it may be and accepting love to find your happy ending.
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Author 69 books739 followers
June 1, 2013
My Review:
There's a lot to the book. It covers about six years of the lives of these two friends, from the time that they are 18 years old and leave home. Matt never wanted to leave home, but he didn't want to abandon his troubled best friend. What he doesn't realize though is what Shane is really battling. Shane was adopted and never knew that he was half-shifter, until he suddenly shifts during an argument with his parents. They don't react well to his shifting, so neither does he. He takes off, begging Matt to go with him, but not telling him truly why they are leaving. Matt has his own confusion to deal with. He's being increasingly drawn to Shane. Matt isn't accepting that he's gay though.

These guys are so young and dealing with some really huge stresses in their lives. Neither one of them handles them particularly well at the beginning of the book and you get to watch them struggle through that both together, and then separately. Shane especially bottoms out in a big way at a certain point in this book and it's difficult to watch and read, but I thought the author handled that all really well. It's not easy to read, but it was very real-feeling and authentic (or it would be if shifters were real....LOL). But regardless of the paranormal aspect of it, the author wrote his rock-bottom moments really authentically.

I like that both these guys managed to pull their lives back together apart. That doesn't mean that they don't have a ton to work out together, because they definitely do. But they weren't reliant on the other for the strength to get better. That is an amazing scene with Shane when he realizes that he has to do it for himself, not because of his love for Matt. BUT through it all...for both of them, there is never any doubt that they truly love each other, even when there are doubts about whether they will find their hea.

I thought it was truly a greatly written and emotionally beautiful love story. I really enjoyed it.
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529 reviews19 followers
May 16, 2013
I knew as soon as I saw the cover for this book that I had to read it. I just didn't know it was going to break my heart. I don't know that I have read a character that needed to be loved like Shane did.

Shane is adopted and has never really felt a part of anything...and this was before he told his parents he was gay. Moving to a small town and refusing to hide his sexuality didn't help his feeling of loneliness, until he meets Matt.

Matt is one of the good guys and his friendship with Shane means everything to both boys. Matt is as far in the closet as Shane is out but that doesn't diminish the bond that the two share.

When Shane shifts in the middle of an argument with his parents and realizes that they never told him he might be a shifter he decides to leave but he knows he can't make it without Matt. When Matt agrees to leave Shane is sure that Matt is finally ready to admit he has feelings for him. When that doesn't happen things start to spiral out of control for Shane.

The self destructive actions that Shane takes to try and not only numb that pain of rejection but to also try and control his wolf are intense. While both boys are struggling with accepting their identities Shane's actions are much more damaging.

This book may be a paranormal but the feelings of self loathing and denial not to mention the addictive personality traits are very real. Shane could be any teen today struggling, looking for approval and love.

This is an emotionally intense story about self acceptance.
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947 reviews24 followers
March 22, 2014
Hmmm... I'm not sure about this book. I liked the basic story, Shane is adopted, doesn't know he's a werewolf, struggles, turns in to a werewolf, runs away after high school to find himself. Add in that he's gay and has a crush on his best friend, who is so far in the closet he smells like moth balls, and it sounds like the start to a good coming of age story.

But Shane was just so stupid and annoying! I did not like him, I didn't understand why he didn't talk to Matt about being a werewolf and about his feelings for him. He gets so fixated on Matt that he ruins his life and Matts for years. I didn't see much of a romantic connection between them when they were together, which wasn't for long. Once Shane has his melt down and got rescued by Carl the story got interesting, as he adapted to life as a werewolf with a pack that cared about him. But he couldn't be happy and had to go find Matt. Yes, ultimately it worked out ok for them, and there is a happy ending, but it was just too much angst and whining for me. I didn't like Shane, and didn't get to know enough about Matt to like him or not. Weird, uncomfortable sex until the very end, then it was ok. I personally would like to have seen them not get back together, and have had Shane find a werewolf mate from his new pack.

I'm bummed, I usually love Silvia's books, especially her shifter ones. I didn't dislike this book exactly, I liked parts of it, but not the characters. I liked the world though, so I'll read the next one!
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Author 3 books101 followers
May 4, 2013
A new shifter world from Silvia Violet.

This one brings us a werewolf who is also gay. Nothing new in that sense, but this one is in love with his best friend. The only thing that keeps him sane. The young were's life isn't a pleasant one, and he resorts to some pretty self destructive behavior to combat it, but his friend stands by him through it all.

When he can stand no more, he prepares to leave town and begs his friend (whom he loves) to come with him and is shocked when the friend agrees. Unfortunately, things happen along the way that test the bonds of friendship.

Can they find that bond again? And what will happen when both men are Denying Themselves?

(I received an ARC of this book for an honest opinion.)
Profile Image for Alpha Possessive Heroes.
482 reviews865 followers
May 22, 2013
I enjoyed that both are struggling with their identities.. It was all about accepting themselves as to who they really are. But my major problem here was the main characters (Shane & Matt). They came off as a weak characters and didn't feel any connection or chemistry between them.

The story has some emotionally angst.. heck! I think it has too much of it but I didn't feel any "gripping in my heart" kind of angst... it was more of "wtf this is depressing" angst. There were too much miscommunication and overreaction that at one point it felt annoyingly frustrating to read. It also didn't help that the story was told only in Shane's POV... would have been nice to read Matt's perspective too.

Overall, I didn't love nor didn't hate the story.
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883 reviews129 followers
May 16, 2013
4.5 stars actually.
This was quite an unexpected treasure. The blurb looked interesting and I always like a shifter story. I didn't expect the storytelling to be so great. It's no: find mate, claim him however unwilling and live happily ever after.

No, this relationship was very hard won. Both Matt and Shane had to work hard to get their HEA. Even if it's predominantly Shane's story, it's still clear that time wasn't easy for Matt either. Yet it's not a story wallowing in angst, insecurities and fear. While specifically the latter two come into play, there is still a feeling of hope, of things getting better in there as well. Exactly the way I like it.
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2,040 reviews
July 2, 2013
2.5 stars

The story started out well, really well, and had an interesting potential world building concept going with the whole mixed human and shifter society. I enjoyed Part 1 of the book but felt that Part 2 of the book didn't really deliver.

I felt a bit betrayed for Matt when Shane took part in the orgy and later on saddened for Carl when Matt came back into the picture. In my opinion the last two chapters had some sickeningly sweet bordering on cheesy moments but I liked the ending.
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567 reviews
October 3, 2014
A rather different story of 2 high school friends running away. Both have a secret that they deny even to themselves. The story is told entirely from Shane's view. His longing and remorse get a bit overpowering at times . After a few bumps in the road it reaches a happy ending.
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2,450 reviews
December 1, 2015
First read from Ms. Violet and I was very impressed with this shifter come of age novel. Best friends, one shifter, one human fall in love with each other but do that stupid man thing where they can't talk out their feels and shit goes left real quick. The sex is HOT. The story was great and I recommend it to any GR who loves shifter novels.
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Author 31 books158 followers
May 5, 2016
There was no savoring this book... I ripped right through it and before I was 40% through it I was PM ing the author to find out if there would be a 3rd book... this was after I downloaded the 2nd one. This is a shifter book that gives you everything you're looking for in a shifter book! I highly recommend this book. Hugs, Z.
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Author 59 books308 followers
July 3, 2013
The cover pulled me in but the story kept me there. Very good!
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