Patrick Modiano, recent awardee of the Nobel Prize in Literature 2014, deserves his place among the greats. After one novel, I’m captivated. What I love about him is his writing style. It is quite similar to that of fellow Nobel laureates J.M. Coetzee and Ernest Hemingway. Modiano writes in a compact, reserved voice. His style does not bombard you with loads of compound sentences nor drops on you a barrel full of adjectives, unlike most accomplished writers of this generation. In fact, it might be described as simple. However, there’s a lingering presence of something I can only call ‘grace’ that envelops his writing. It is a scent that I have always known to come from delicious writing. His sparse and direct prose coupled with his penchant for descripting places translate into something classic and captivating. If Hemingway had a penchant for drink and food, Modiano is infatuated with places: streets, hotels, restaurants, roads, bridges, buildings, he creates descriptions that give one a mental map of some sort, tracing the paths of his characters and introducing new places at every turn. Also, injected into his writing is this feeling of weightlessness, as if one had the ability to disintegrate like some creature made of air. You are engulfed in your reading experience; you never realize how much time you have spent until you actually look at a clock. I loved it.
“There under the embankment trees, I had the unpleasant sensation that I was dreaming. I had already lived my life and was just a ghost hovering in the tepid air of a Saturday evening. Why try to renew ties which had been broken and look for paths that had been blocked off long ago?”
This novella called ‘Missing Person’ is about an amnesiac searching for his identity. This empty man named Guy Roland, who had been living in the shadows as a private detective for eight years, decided that he finally had it in him to search for his forgotten past. Along the way he rediscovers old places, meets old acquaintances, and regains pieces of his broken memory.
“Hutte, for instance, used to quote the case of a fellow he called ‘the beach man.’ This man had spent forty years of his life on beaches or by the sides of swimming pools, chatting pleasantly with summer visitors and rich idlers. He is to be seen, in his bathing costume, in the corners and backgrounds of thousands of holiday snaps, among groups of happy people, but no one knew his name or why he was there. And no one noticed when one day he vanished from the photographs. I did not dare tell Hutte, but I felt that ‘the beach man’ was myself.”
We all ask ourselves ‘what is the purpose of my life?’ ‘why am I here?’ We ask these questions to bring some sense of order in this business of living. We are looking for direction, a future. We are looking for a map to tell us which road to travel on, which path to take. Not a bad plan for life. But in order to be able to know what one is to do, don’t you think that one needs to know oneself? How is a traveler supposed to travel if he does not even know that he is a traveler in the first place?
“You were right to tell me that in life it is not the future which counts, but the past.”
Identity is built upon one thing, the past. We become who we are through the accumulation of memories and experiences. The only thing we really build in life is our identity. Yes, the future gives us some sense of trajectory, of purpose but then it is the past that controls the future. You were, therefore you are.
“A little girl is returning from the beach, at dusk, with her mother. She is crying for no reason at all, because she would have liked to continue playing. She moves off into the distance. She has already turned the corner of the street, and do not our lives dissolve into the evening as quickly as this grief of childhood?”
At once a mystery, but then also a journey into memory and time, ‘Missing Person’ will leave you breathless. This novel about the self tells us that oftentimes we are too busy looking for our identity in the past, asking too many questions about our purpose in the future, that the result is a life of asking and searching instead of one of living. Life need not be so complicated. Looking forward and backward is inevitable, you cannot stop doing that, but never ever fail to focus on the now.
“Until now everything has seemed so chaotic, so fragmented… scraps, shreds have come to light as a result of my searches… but then that is perhaps what a life amounts to…”
"Hutte was always saying that, in the end, we are all ‘beach men’ and that ‘the sand’ – I am quoting his own words – ‘keeps the traces of our footsteps only a few moments'."
Whether you look at the past, the present, the future, only one thing is certain: life is ephemeral. Make it count.