I think it's no surprise to anyone that I finished this in one sitting, not even leaving my room to eat or drink water.
I have been an ARMY since 2014. I have spent almost an entire decade with BTS, starting from my mid teens up until my early 20s.
This might sound quite cliché because literally every ARMY says this, but BTS truly came into my life when I needed them the most. I was only 15 years old when I seriously got into kpop and, thus, BTS (I had been a casual fan since 2009, but I was too young and immature back then, so I didn't pay too much attention to it) and it was as if I finally found comfort, solace and my own "magic shop".
I don't want to go into much detail about what was going on in my life back then because it involves personal things about me and my family that still haunt me every single day, but let's just say that I was so close to completely giving up. That's all I have to say about my life back then.
I had always been very shy and introverted, but my social anxiety and my constant need to isolate myself from everything and everyone around me reached an utterly concerning level, to the point where I would literally stay locked up inside my room for 2 weeks straight without even trying. I would cry every day and wonder what my place on this earth was.
And then one day, I randomly watched the Boy In Luv music video on YouTube and my ARMY journey started right there and then. There's literally no kpop group or artist that I don't stan or enjoy listening to, but BTS will ALWAYS be number 1 for me. Their vast and diverse discography filled with songs about self-love, self-acceptance, self-discovery, friendships, relationships and so many other important issues along with their sincere lyrics, their outstanding performances and their humble, entertaining and genuine personalities are just SOME of the reasons why BTS will always have a special place in my heart.
While reading this book, I couldn't stop the tears from rolling down my face because I kept being reminded of all the emotions I've felt while stanning BTS. There's not a single thing which was discussed in this book that I didn't know since I've basically experienced like 95% of it all first-hand, but I was just starstruck the entire time, as if I was experiencing everything all over again. It's been a while since I've felt these emotions since the group activities are, as of now, on halt due to a variety of reasons, but I just want to say that I'm incredibly proud of these 7 men and INCREDIBLY PROUD TO BE AN ARMY!!!
I've actually seen BTS live 2 times before and they were both the best days of my entire life. My first time seeing them was in Berlin for their Love Yourself tour in 2018 (which was also my very first kpop concert) and the second time was in Paris for their Speak Yourself tour in 2019. I still remember the chills I got when I saw them on stage and when my fellow ARMY were cheering for them.
These people are my family. And I'm so grateful for them. I'm so grateful they're in my life and I'm so grateful for the comfort and the happiness they've brought to my super mundane, miserable and lonely days. I love my family to the moon and back!!
I miss them so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much that it actually hurts. Some of them are in the military, some of them are touring the world and some of them are working on their solo albums, but I constantly feel like they're right beside me, just like I've always felt since the moment I met them in 2014. It's like they've never stopped being together. It's like they've never left. The amount of love and appreciation I have for them is more than enough for me to endure these hard times caused by their absence. I'm more than willing to wait for them and I promise to be there for them and cheer louder than any person on earth when they all eventually come back to us.
dear BTS,
I love and adore and appreciate and respect all 7 of you so much. These past 10 years have been the best years of my life. Thank you for helping me linger on and endure all these challenging times. Thank you for bringing light to my dark days. Thank you for being my source of happiness and strength. Thank you for everything. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
until we meet again!!!
until 2025!!!
💜보라해💜
💜아포방포💜