Tropes: age gap, dad's friend, boss/employee, forbidden relationship
Feels: 3/5
Steam*: 3/5
Kinks: no
Angst: low
HEA: yes
Pairing: MM
Triggers/potential icks/content themes: internalized homophobia, bad parents
Jayden is 22, about to graduate college, bi. He is a very extroverted and social person. He's in the doghouse with his dad right now because his dad thinks he's not taking his future seriously, he's seen social media of wild behavior.
Aleksander is 41, gay, but very much in the closet. His parents were homophobes. They died when he was a young adult. When his dad found out that he is gay his dad was extremely verbally abusive. And he was also assaulted by some peers physically. So he has a lot of issues, and has internalized homophobia. Aleksander is Jayden's dad's boss and friend.
Jayden's dad arranges an internship for him. A few days after hooking up with Aleksander, Jayden walks into the internship and finds out his boss is his hook up. Jaden presses for them to continue a casual sexual relationship. Alek gives in, but he has a lot of rules for Jayden because of his internalized homophobia.
I have to say this book was not for me. I know dealing with internalized homophobia is a thing and it's a very human thing to struggle, but it's just not my cup of tea to read a romance novel that has such a strong focus on that. I felt like Alek was unfair to Jayden and every previous partner he's ever had, and it just made him an unlikable character for me. He made it such a big deal to refuse to kiss, reciprocate oral sex, or bottom, because he thought sex with men was okay as long as he wasn't doing those things. It's just very ugly to me.
Also I just could not see this couple making it work long term. They were at such different stages in their lives. And Jayden is so extroverted and needs that social stimulation so much more than Alek. I don't see their recreation preferences being compatible. There were also some jump the shark moments. Like Jayden getting drunk and calling Alek for a ride home from the bar, just get an Uber and on another occasion inviting Alek to his college graduation, that is not where your relationship is and you know it lol. At that point they were just f*** buddies.
The end was unbelievable too, spoiler alert, Alek gives up his CEO job and moves to be with Jayden who is in an entry-level job at his company. He does that when they are just deciding to move from f*** buddies to dating. They have not developed their relationship, they are not in a forever place, they have not exchanged I love yous and are committed. It's does not make sense.
This quote from the book sums up how I see their relationship LOL:
"Not every story needs a happily ever after, right? Ours could’ve been greater, even if we knew it was going to end. Sometimes, it’s about the journey and the lessons learned and memories made."
Other than my concerns with the plot content, it was an okay read. Jayden was likeable. The tension and steam between them was good. I wish the transition from f*** buddies to more had been done better.
*FYI, I rate steam based on a combination of quality & quantity. I note kink separate from steam because I don't want to underrate steamy reads that don't have much kink."