Dear Heather,
I came across your book on Smashwords. I was looking for a book, that I am pretty sure did not have love or notes in the title, so I was pretty surprised when Love Notes was my search result. I read the synopsis and knew instantly that I needed to read it. What I read was nothing that I was expecting, it brought forth so many past emotions that I couldn't help but fall in love with it.
“You clearly don't care if you repulse anyone. You really should have tried harder to lose weight. I think you may have gained a few pounds over the summer. You’re dismissed."
It was that sentence that made me audibly gasp, "Oh my god, this poor girl." I knew at that moment things are more than likely going to get worse, before they got better. My heart hurt for her and not just because of the obvious reasons but, because I was in her shoes at one point in my life. The way you told things from Charlie's POV, were raw and exposed. I could feel the emptiness that Charlie felt, the confusion of not knowing what she is doing to cause such hostility from someone that is supposed to love her unconditionally.
"Not only do I bump into this person, I fall and I fall hard! I tumble all the way straight down on my very padded ass. This was not the first impression I was going for. Without even looking up I feel mortified and am internally slapping myself for my stupidity. The instant that I look up I’m captivated by a set of perfectly bright blue eyes."
With Charlie's last year of High School, she seems to make a great first impression on the popular boy at school, Maverick. I loved how you brought Maverick's POV to the story. To see Charlie through his eyes, to see what her father has made her feel verses what she really looks like. Now, my favorite thing about this story, you didn't make Charlie become miraculously cured of her body image issues. I have read so many books where in the beginning of the book, the female has self-esteem issues and when the popular guy or millionaire playboy says, "You’re so hot, I wanna do you", poof she's Cinderella and never again thinks she's ugly.
"What he doesn't understand, is that I still can't believe that this is real. That this guy actually likes me. I have a hard time looking at myself in the mirror, let alone a guy like Maverick thinking of me as pretty—more than pretty. I can't escape how I feel about myself and automatically forget everything that I’ve dealt at home, just because some hot guy shows interest in me. I’m trying, but it isn't easy and it still feels like a dream that I could wake up from, at any moment"
Maverick had to work really hard to get her. I'm sure he would have had to work a lot harder if it hadn't been for Tori. The girl who sees something in Charlie that Charlie hides from the world. I loved Tori. How she took a hold of Charlie and tried to make her see the amazing person that she is. When Tori and Maverick tell Charlie how beautiful she is, I could see the disbelief on Charlie's face. I could feel her reluctance to believe the words. Her father constantly telling her she's worthless, was definitely not working in Maverick or Tori's favor.
This story that you wrote, is nothing short of incredible. Authors like you are why I read, why I love reading. You exposed yourself. You opened yourself to the world and let them see every imperfection, we often hide. For that I Thank You. Things that you wrote in this book, I related to on so many levels. The part where Maverick meets her parents was like reliving every moment I had to bring a friend home. Charlie living two different lives, one where she is carefree and happy at school and the girl that goes home hoping she will never run into her tormentor.
I didn't go looking for your book but, your book found me. This story will forever be close to my heart. Thank You, for writing a story for every person out there that has ever been made to feel like they are less than the person they are. That no matter how people hurt us and make us feel unworthy, that there is always someone standing there to say, "You’re beautiful to me."
"I alone define my own self-worth. Not a boy, but me. No one else can make me feel good about myself. My own personal value is what matters, not what anyone else thinks or says. But mine."