So glad to learn there's a new Gail Godwin novel out and about. It doesn't disappoint.
This is a story about how a girl locked in a world of pretense is forced--through tragedy that would qualify for the definition a Godwin character supplied in I think The Finishing School--to develop the kind of insight and depth she will need in order to become the writer who can reflect back on these events. We don't see her growing up to become that writer. We see a little girl who is quite smart, quite gifted at making up stories, and quite narcissistic.
All children are narcissistic to some degree, but even this girl's more insightful and interesting friend, also quite brilliant for a 10-year-old in the pre-psychotherapy years of the 1940s, thinks Helen's over the top.
When we leave young Helen though, having accidentally contributed to the death of her nanny and cousin (here again the role she thinks she has played is overdramatized and narcissistic, but I suppose that is better, for her, than facing up to the role her father played--one more adult in her life who is not in fact a member of her glorious family on the hill but just another loser), it's amazing how much has come together without its having to be said. Just as Grandmother Nonie would have devised.
I only objected to: the father's parentage having been explained, because I thought we could deduce that on our own; some of Helen's thoughts and observations seemed WAY ahead of a 10-year-old's capabilities (I was willing to write some of this off due to inevitable blurring in the narration--after all, the older narrator is a character, too, and she is bound to confuse her voice with the younger Helen's, and I was also willing to assume that in some cases kids back then were raised as mini adults, and also that Nonie raised Helen as a little friend rather than as a little girl; still, would Helen have the perspective to dismiss Flora's "adolescent" tears, when she, Helen, is ten? I think a tighter edit might have helped. Finally I wondered about the ending itself, whether it needed to be quite so cataclysmic, after all the other deaths. And if it wouldn't have been worse, somehow, if Helen had messed up Flora's career, or her love.
And, though done with just the right light touch, there is a terrible, wonderful explication of the breakdown of self that can occur when the essential stories that have defined us come apart. At one point, Helen walks through a rip in the world occasioned by something, just a minor thing, really, that Flora has mentioned about Helen's mother, Flora's cousin. "Nobody until Flora had called my childhood strange." Brooding on this, she walks down her driveway, a shredded affair that her grandmother has been able to dismiss as something they will deal with later, after the war is over, but that everyone else in town criticizes mightily. Her line of thought, for various reasons, proceeds to the question of how she, Helen, appears to the outside world. Is she pretty? Beautiful? A friend's mother has said she might be stately, like her grandmother, but her best friend, the one with the biting, insightful comments that always make Helen laugh at everyone else, has said Helen's grandmother looked like a mastiff. Helen had looked up mastiffs in a dog book and not spoken to her friend for a week. Then, after a few more steps, a few more thought, she goes through the rip in the veil of the world. "It was like being conscious of losing my mind at the exact moment I was losing it."
She is saved by a character who nearly saves them all. Perhaps it can even be said that he does save Helen, after all.
Terrific writing throughout.
First line: "There are things we can't undo, but perhaps there is a kind of constructive remorse that could transform regrettable acts into something of service to life."
"That's the thing about the dead. They make you understand that time isn't as simple as you thought."
"The living room was filling was a nostalgic organge light, which made everything look less shabby and more historical."
"When did remorse fall into disfavor? It was sometime during the second half of my life.... around the same time that 'Stop feeling guilty,' and 'You're too hard on yourself,' and 'You need to love yourself more' came into fashion..... Remorse derives from the Latin remordere: to vex, disture, bite, sting again (the "again" is important). It began as intransitive verb, as in my "my sinful lyfe dost me remord."