Insightful reading about relationships, old love/new love, children young and old, life in general for these two had a burning relationship when young. Then it’s broken off, for various reasons, by Sarah; each goes off their separate ways only to meet up later in life and end up starting a new relationship.
The heart pangs of what once was and never can be again with all that’s happened over time. The realization that perhaps they were too young to know what they wanted/desired from life and their partners. And that maybe they made bad choices, to be realized later.
Sarah is now a widow with two grown children. Warren is married with one child, younger than Sarah’s own. We get to see the diverse personalities of each offspring.
When Sarah and Warren meet at a restaurant to “catch up” they talk about themselves, their lives, family, and their past and present. It’s obvious that “spark” is still there after all these years.
Sarah appears to be quite confident and content with her life and family. Warren on the other hand, is not, though he puts on that he is financially secure, successful, happy, (yet unhappy) etc. He desires Sarah and gets stuck on moving forward recklessly to the point of trying to get a divorce from his wife so he can be with her. This causes such a wild and controlling backlash with his needy wife, his manipulative daughter, that the reader can feel the emotions and stress building more and more throughout the pages. And feel him overwhelmed, yet waivering.
Sarah doesn’t have outlandish demands on their relationship but is absolutely firm on not selling her home to move elsewhere with Warren. In the meantime, Warren is like a wild stallion, running with intense speed into every direction without a solid plan or thought.
Alas, Sarah is calm, firm, confident and happy with her own quiet life though she yearns for him too. But the drama and sadness that get unleashed on his end are almost too much to bear. For both of them. I love how he goes off the deep end and she manages her responses with one word rather than getting into an elaborate discussion or argument that clearly is one sided at this point. Warren has lost his mind, I think. Warren is totally out of control. Impulsive yet wishy washy. He now has only one end goal in sight and that’s to be with Sarah. Is that clearly the answer? They both haven’t even met each others children for one. They both are under false illusions, though each ends up going different ways. One is okay with it, the other is really not. He says I love you, she only smiles with no response. He says I want to marry you, she does not respond in kind.
Warren does not really know how to be happy and thinks Sarah is the answer though he’s not going to give up his wife or his manipulative daughter. He’s not going to rock the boat with them and so breaks off the relationship with Sarah, going back to his wife and the trying to placate his family, falsely smiling and showing an interest in their life, though from the outside looking in, it’s evident to us that this wears a bit of him away each and every day. Playing a role that you don’t want to play, living a life with someone you don’t respect or love or care for, yet he goes through all the motions, pretending. Giving in. Placating. Settling. Even continuing to have sex with his wife if not for love, but for the feel of another body in bed, her warmth and her skin.
In the meantime, life goes on.
Sarah’s busy with her family, her job that she so enjoys, her loving and dedicated dog and her quiet, peaceful home. She still misses Warren and cries over him, his choices, his absence. What was, what could be. But It’s over. Yet, it never really was, was it?
Warren’s not happy and it’s obvious his family relationship is dysfunctional and has been from the start. Actually it goes back even further than that, to his childhood. Did we even see some of those signs earlier? He had great expectations and ideas. He was impulsive in alot of areas. He was quick and impulsive in choosing his life partner. Well, both Sarah and Warren both were amiss in choosing their marital partners. His daughter is a nasty one, blackmailing him, blocking him for his affair and attempt to divorce her mother. A real big mouth. What this young woman turns into is not what she actually turns into, but evolves from birth and childhood with a rich lifestyle and weak, emotional parents like these two. She is loud, obstinate, overwhelming, narcisstic, controlling, stubborn and in the end she achieves what SHE wanted yet her achievement is double edged in that her relationship with her father is very tainted, has been tainted and will remain cold and distant. Especially now that there’s a grandchild born that could be used to bait more blackmail. Warren’s daughter’s choice of a marital partners portrays an emotionally weak, spineless, man, whom she is able to preside over and manipulate and dictate. Hmmm
At the end, we see who is strong and who is not.
Who can live life on their terms and have true happiness with or without bowing down to someone else’s personal requirements or personality. Someone who knows who they really are, where the cracks lie as well where as the solid structure holds in order to go on.
This story is brilliant, heartbreaking - showing the strong and the weak, good choices, bad choices, emotional stamina. The writing is exceptional as we look into the lives of Sarah and Warren and how they began, how they ended, and everything else in between.
Loved this! Brilliant writing.