“I live in my head,” I said. Esther Agnes-Robbin’s glasses slid to the brim of her nose, her eyebrows wrinkled in a stare I tried to ignore. I hated when she looked at me like that. Like a mental case. “Tell me what you mean.” I looked away. Imagined myself chained against a cell wall. Her eyes were closed, a fragile body curled in pain. Pieces of my insides swirled in the darkness beneath her feet. Fear. Drugs. Insanity. Maybe it was time to let it out. I sighed and licked my lips. Felt a gurgle in my throat. They were words. I spoke. The girl inside my head opened her eyes.
Books about the drug culture and lifestyle always intrigue me. If they're an account of a true story it just makes it that much more interesting; that being said, this one was no disappointment. Of all the memoirs I've read by recovered addicts, this one ranks pretty high up there on my favorites list.
"My Own Asylum," is based on the experiences of the author, as she began to use, abuse and eventually become addicted to drugs. Though meth was her drug of choice, she often abused others as well. Her experimentation began as a young teenager, playing around with ecstasy and pot, and by the time she headed off to college, she was a full blown addict.
Once at college, Lynn (the main character of the book) quickly loses control of her life. She skips her classes, blows off assignments, screws over her friends, steals, sells herself and more...all for that high. We follow Lynn through the good times and bad, and we are right there with her when she hits the proverbial rock bottom.
The remainder of the book is dedicated to telling the story of Lynn's struggle to regain control of her life by getting clean. The story is honest--it speaks to the heart of the fears she faces, the triumphs and the failures as she relapses. As you read, you can't help but come to admire her for her inner strength and determination. The story is touching, honest and emotional. I loved it. I can't say enough good things about it.
This is a book to be read, reread, and shared with others. I think we all know a person or two who could use a little push in the right direction, and attempt to get themselves clean and sober. This book may be able to help. The sincerity in which it is written keeps it from being preachy or condescending in any way, shape or form. It's a wonderful book, and I suggest you all go out and get a copy for yourselves.