Soulmate

Sin #1

by Kol Anderson

Available on Amazon and Smashwords

There's a very fine line between love and sin.

The Mason family has a secret. Hunter and Kayden grew up trying to cover that secret and trying to find a way to deal with it, but all they've received in return is misery. When Hunter brings home a girl that looks like she's going to be staying a while, Kayden begins to find that hard to deal with.


WARNINGS: ABUSE, NON-CON, DUB-CON, RAPE, INCEST

Genres: M M Romance, BDSM, Abuse, Dark, LGBT, Contemporary, Short Stories

84 pages, Kindle Edition

First published October 23, 2013

About the author

“The books that the world calls immoral are books that show the world its own shame.”
― Oscar Wilde

If you're into the fluffier side of life, you have my blessing but will you please take the next exit. For the rest of you depraved pervs, enjoy your stay ;)

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Reviews

[Julio Genao · Rating 3 out of 5]

unmitigated SCANDAL.

fearlessly pulpy, wildly silly, and flat-out entertaining as fuck.

the drama, lucy—the drama!

so much fun, even if the ending bummed me out a little.

i only wish i were more drunk when i read it. i'd have cackled like an old hoor the entire way through.

[Rosalinda *KRASNORADA* · Rating 2 out of 5]

GR says 2 stars mean the book was OKAY so pls do NOT think the book was bad because it wasn't. The writing style was actually very good but the story didn't work for me for some reason. Full review to come.




****BR with my fave PERVY ever!!! Melissa, there we go!!!

Crazy JAHY just joined us!!!

I know, this is incest and WHAT? I love it! Don't judge me!

THANKS JAHY for your gift! x

[Sandi ♥'s way too many M/M books · Rating 5 out of 5]

ARC provided by author for fair and honest review. Thank you Kol <3

Ok So I have been patiently waiting for this gem. And wow was it worth it. So good! It made me happy, sad, angry. I hit every emotion at some point. And when it ended I was like what. just. happened? NO NO NO! And yes Kol leaves us not only hanging for book 2 BUT wanting more. Kayden You sweet boy how I fell in love with you from the first pages. And Hunter you're the brother everyone should be so lucky to have. 5 kicken ass stars!

[BevS · Rating 4 out of 5]

Well, after rumours that this one had incest, I was a little apprehensive to say the least...I needn't have worried too much. Anticipated squick factor 10, actual squick factor ...well, discover for yourselves.....a huge win for Kol's writing which was crisp and concise. 4.25 stars and a big thumbs up from me...smileys unavailable this evening, they're on strike I'm afraid...better pay and conditions wanted, greedy little toads!!

This was a heartbreaker of a tale at first...Hunter and his younger brother Kayden whose home life was dominated by a drunken, lazy and abusive father, and whose mum died of a heart attack when Kayden was 4. Hunter had to assume the role of Kayden's protector even though he was barely old enough to look after himself, he understood that looking after Kay was what his mum would have wanted him to do. The brothers survive (barely) and we pick up the story years later when Hunter is into women and Kayden is into men. Most importantly of all, Kayden is in love with his brother and has been from the time he started taking notice of these things...Hunter is hot, but Kay is obviously unable to confess to his brother what it is that is making him so unhappy and suicidal. I'll leave this one here.

[JaHy☝Hold the Fairy Dust · Rating 3 out of 5]

Damn, it feels slightly wrong for saying this but God please let there be a book 2.

[True Loveislovereview · Rating 5 out of 5]

That was intriguing as hell. Intens and so much feelings.
Hunter and Kayden.
Hunter loves his brother as no other and Kayden is in love as no other.
Their road is hard coming all the way from where they were young very young.
Their mother passed away and their father is an abusive drunken motherfucker who finally take off.
When they grow up Hunter always take care of his brother but Kayden can't live this life and it's getting even harder when Hunter gets a girlfriend.
After some devastating action from Kayden he is really trying to take his life in his own hands but it turns out so different then what you would expect.

Awesome read, flowing writing style, captivating and I love the way the story developed.

Be ware of the red flags

[K.C. Wells · Rating 5 out of 5]

This was the first book by Kol Anderson that I have read, and wow...
I will be reading more by this young man.
I admit, when the end came, I was screaming NOOOOOOOOO at my laptop. Because I didn't want Kayden to go - not then, not like that.
And Hunter? Yeah, I loved Hunter.

Okay, Kol, you got me.
I *will* be reading more.
So keep writing, babe.

[♥Laddie♥ (Lee Lee)]

ETA: A Release date just got tweeted. YAY!!!!!!

Oh, angsty brocest, you are my kryptonite. Even more than Jan Irving. I'm not even kidding, y'all. More addictive than JAN IRVING. I don't know if I've added all of the brocest/twincest books I've read but it doesn't matter because right now I'm too busy being all "GIMME GIMME GIMME NOWWWWWW!".

[JR · Rating 5 out of 5]

Another intense, brutal story from Mr. Anderson. This time he deals with abuse, incest and how a person handles a miserable, terrifying childhood.

Hunter and Kayden Mason are brothers who have survived this childhood. Hunter has always protected Kayden, becoming his surrogate parent. When Hunter's new love moves in with the brothers, Kayden can not cope with this new relationship. Kayden has to reconcile his love for Hunter that is more than brotherly and his jealous feelings toward Hunter's new love. When Kayden meets Jacob, he learns how to own his feelings.

This is another story that is out of comfort zone for a lot of folks, but if you are up for the challenge this book will give you a lot of insight into how abuse victims cope, how mixed up their feelings are, and in the end the possibility of happiness.

It's a pleasure to watch an author grow. Mr. Anderson is definitely growing and he never pulls his punches. I give this a life full of stars.

[Amy · Rating 5 out of 5]

Kol is not afraid to go “there” is he??? From kidnapping and torturing rentboys to abuse and incest, he does not pull any punches. And that’s why I love his writing! It’s raw and gritty and packed with emotion.

Poor Kayden. He had such a horrible childhood. Once his mother died, his older brother Hunter raised him and protected him from their abusive father. He became Kayden’s savior, his angel. So I can understand how those feelings evolved into the love and lust he’s feeling now. Kayden was so tortured it was heartbreaking. He knew his feelings were wrong, but he couldn’t stop them. The ending was a bit surprising to me, but it has me anxiously waiting for book #2.

P.S. Love the cover! I like having nice visuals for the boys I’m reading about :)

[Marcie · Rating 5 out of 5]

I was completely reeled in from the beginning. I like how no matter the story you choose to write and share with us whether it's dark, taboo, or torture porn *wink* any preconceived idea I had goes flying out the window. And I can honestly say that through your writing I'm able to transport myself to that time and place and truly connect with the characters.
I loved it! I loved what you did with it. Loved the characters. By far my favorite! And I'll be anxiously waiting for book 2.

[Louis Stevens · Rating 5 out of 5]

Lord please just help me Kol Anderson is a god. He is a genius. I could go on, believe me.


One important thing to know about me is that I am obsessed with Kol Anderson and ALL of his work. He inspires me creatively every day. The man is (gorgeous) a genuine, a modern day genius. As genius as you get today. His stories rips my heart out through my throat every time, puts it back, slices my chest open and then dices my heart into a million pieces then sets fire to it and roasts marshmallows in its embers. And really, what more can you ask for from an author? He is my inspiration and my literary hero. I wish I could be coached or mentored by Kol. I would soak up everything he would teach me. Kol, if this reaches you, please know that you have a true goddamn fan for life, buddy. You're my hero and thank you for sharing your work.

This book tore me into a million pieces. I have always been fascinated by the bonds of brothers, always. It is a beautiful bond at times. I so enjoyed how Kol made me work for the ending. He didn't just start the story promisingly, only to have the two MCs declare undying love at the end after a hot consummation. Instead he put a bit of reality in there, and my heart broke for the masculine yet boyish Hunter with that ending...

I enjoy Kol's narrative voice. I don't know how to sum it up, because words ain't good enough. I can't explain it. It just paints such powerful imagery and draws out emotions in you. He paints a powerful picture (I'm still haunted by Carter Bennett in Prisoner, Sir.) He is a dialogue god, using it to reveal character, drive story and set mood.

I have been left to imagine the follow up of Soulmate for myself just so that I can sleep at night, as I'm not sure if Mr. Anderson will be producing its follow up any time soon (sadness) and I can't leave it like that. I had to have Hunter's reunion with Kayden (Not that I ever expect any of Mr. Anderson's stories to leave you with a straightforward HEA. Your brilliance is quite evident, Sir.)

I can only thank the author for sharing his beautiful and honest work.

And to Kol Anderson I say, I love you. Now please dance with me in the rain for thirty minutes.

[Anne · Rating 2 out of 5]

I liked this book, but I feel that something is missing. The story ended abruptly and some events were just weird:

1) Kayden tells his boyfriend that he’s in love with his own brother and the guy doesn’t seem surprised.

“If Hunter doesn’t see how amazing you are then that’s his loss.” - Jacob

Jacob even offers advice! That was surreal.

2) That whole kidnapping thing? Nah.

If you want to read this book, but don’t want to be hated by God or something, relax. You can always blame your crazy friends. It works for me.

Besides, this is fiction, baby. It won’t make you rape your brothers/sisters/pets/plants. Do you want to kill people when you read a thriller? Hey, if your answer is yes and you’re my friend, just remember that I never did anything to piss you off, ok?

Oh, you can justify your decision by saying that the author is very talented (which is true) and saying that the plot is more psychological than sexual. The flashbacks are brilliant, by the way. They show how Hunter’s feelings changed over the years and why he loves his brother this way.

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Gift from my uh-mazing friend J! <3

BR with Melissa and Rosita!

[⚣Michaelle⚣ · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.0 Stars

Way, WAY too much going on here, and as such the story suffers a lack of depth desperately needed given the subject matter and content. That whole bit with Ryan felt completely unnecessary; drama could have been ramped up using Jacob if the intent was to make Hunter jealous, to make him want Kayden in return and not want to lose his brother's love.

I would love for the author to expand it some day, going a little deeper with Hunter's emotions toward Kayden and detailing his struggle (if there is one) to reconcile any attraction he might have to Kayden, true sexual desire rather than a fear of losing him with maybe what their father did to Kayden. That has GOT to be fucking with his mind and yet we get very little introspection on it. Color me disappointed.

Only on the 'cesty shelf due to Kayden's desires and one small kiss. More like the scene at the beginning would have been appreciated as well, rather than the lame attempt at BDSM with Jacob and the drug-induced euphoria.

[Trio · Rating 4 out of 5]

Very interesting, great characters but I would have liked a little more Hunter. Loved that first scene with Beretta.

[Mel · Rating 4 out of 5]

Oh my… This book… I devoured it. I couldn’t stop reading. I never knew what was gonna happen. I was torn. I hoped and feared. Until the last. Fucking. Page.
But, foremost… I have no fucking clue what to think about it.

I have no right to judge, either. I’ve never been in such a situation, nor do I know anyone who was, nor do I ever want to be, nor… Well, you get what I mean. All I can say is, I think this story was plausible. I understood, I got it. As far as that is possible with no personal experience whatsoever.

I usually don’t read such ‘dark’ books. It’s not my first choice of story. I am grateful, too, that the dark parts were not presented in an overly descriptive way. Things are partwise only hinted at, the cut is at the right point. You get what is or was happening, but you don’t have to endure every single moment of it. Thank God! This is concerning the warnings rape, dub-con, and abuse in the blurb. For me, it would be important to know, too, that none of this is shown in a way that makes these things seem okay.

If you can’t read anything about brocest, don’t read this book. If you are curious about this topic and wonder how and why and if, this is a place where you cound find an answer. If you want some crazy monkey sex between siblings, you won’t find it here.

When I read such a story about awful, awful things, I personally wonder why I do this, and why it captivates me when I do. It could be that, even if everything is, if you are, totally fucked up, there is still hope, there is still light, and there is still a way.

***

About the writing, I wish that there weren’t as many time leaps in the narration, or that they at least weren’t that abrupt. All in all, the writing could have been a bit smoother.
I didn't particularly like the kidnapping in the end. Well, of course not. But I mean the plot device, actually. It felt a bit out of the blue, a bit angsty, a bit unnecessary. Well, I kinda see what it was good for, but... I'm not so fond of this idea.

***

Anyways, all in all, I really liked the book, and I recommend it, as long as you have no problem with the warnings in the blurb or what I told you about them in my review.

[Elaine · Rating 4 out of 5]

I enjoyed this. Great opening to the story..

Two brothers unable to break a connection from their tragic childhood.
Hunter the oldest of the brothers, is so protective of Kayden.
Kayden has develop feelings for his brother. He knows he's straight and he has a girlfriend but that is causing him to feel this jealously and he doesn't know how much longer he can keep it to himself..
He knows its wrong but it feels so right at the same time..
He befriends Jacob to distract himself but will it be enough...


My Thoughts
Well written and a slow build up to give you chance to connect with these brothers and the other characters.
...
I'm very interested to see where this story now goes...

[Silkeeeeeereads · Rating 2 out of 5]

This is a scattered, hot mess. I don't know what Kol was attempting but it never connected any direction that it went, and it went a lot of directions. I buy and download a lot of books and get to them at sometime in the future. This was one of those books that I forgot about and didn't know who wrote it when I originally reviewed it on Amazon. If I didn't like Kol so much and know what he is capable of, I wouldn't be editing this review. I do know what he's capable of and this could be a good series if he makes some changes to the style. I think that in writing in joint POVs the voices of these two MCs is causing the reader to think it's really bad writing instead of the voices if two messed up men. It,s a bit like reading the thoughts of two adolecents instead of two grown men. Don't be mad at me, Kol! If I'm misunderstanding some intent, let me know, JMHO

[Amanda Eisenthal · Rating 5 out of 5]

Kol has done it again. Put me through the wringer of emotions. I stand here shocked, heartbroken yet hopeful. Beautifully written, I bow down to his ability to take you on a journey of angst. I love the way that he doesn't shy away from taboo subjects yet deals with them in a way that is not gratuitous. Just a true portrayal of confliction over real feelings. I wait with anticipated breath for the continuation of this story. There is so much more to say and I hope we are privileged to see Kay and Hunter again. Bravo Kol, a master of this genre.

[Lucy · Rating 4 out of 5]

*update* I'm still thinking about this book and craving the next book. So I'm upping my rating to 4 stars.


Book was too short and ugh that ending! I sure hope there will be a follow up book. I loved Kayden.

[Charmaine Stephens · Rating 3 out of 5]

This book was truly all over the place! And sort of misleading when you read the blurb it sounds like its going to be very hot & taboo. But then once you actually read the book it sort of differs from the blurb. The blurb actually builds it up bigger than it is.


It was so all over the place jumping from one flashback to the next. And I hope theres going to be some sort of sequel to this because it feels like it ended so abruptly. And it feels like their so many loose strings still hanging left in the balance.

I wanted this story to focus more on Hunter & Kayden. But i felt like it focused more on Kaden & Jacob. Or just kaden's POV in general with his comings and goings in his life. I feel like the blurb led me to think it was going to be a certain way and I feel like it didn't quite reach up to my expectations.


With that being said, I do enjoy Kol Anderson's writing style. Its intriguing and pulls you in and keeps your interest the entire time. I just wish there was more action between the brothers and more of a conclusion in the end.

[Menna · Rating 4 out of 5]

I have a lot of mixed feelings right now!
Let me wipe my tears first.

This book left me feeling devastated and frustrated.......but at the same time a little hopeful,there is a glimpse of hope for keydn at the end,this sweet broken lonely boy...i wanted to hug and sooth him...i rooted deeply for him!

I kept reading through tears for the last few pages....

"I'm so sorry. You're my baby and I need you."
This line just killed me :(

I didn't expect the ending to be like that and i hated it,however there is a small part of me that says it's better for everyone but i can't bring my self to totally agree!

The last part really worked me up and made me so emotional and THEN "the end"!!!!
there were a lot of bent up emotions and frustration that can't find relive or answers to the questions i have any time soon.....ugh!! *frustrated*

these guys grow a lot on me and i can't let them go not yet , i need mooooooore! >_<
Isn't that (sin#1) ?! Where is the hell is #2?!

And oh yeah! I would've given it 5 stars if it's not for the end and the lengeth!

And finally thanks to my sweet friend Lucy i was able to read this book. xo

[Sue bowdley · Rating 5 out of 5]

Ok so I left this one till nearly the end of my collection of Kol books because I thought it would be the hardest to read.....I was wrong....It was fairly easy to read....The words just flowed and I finished it in a couple of hours....This was perfect Kol writing.....Kayden and Hunter sure went through hell with their father and I think it affected Kayden more than Hunter but also Kayden had to cope with his feelings for his brother......I loved Jacob..I don't think he's a bad guy...and I think he loves Kayden....but in true Kol style this is left on a cliffhanger but not a too heavy one....You can kind of make up what happens afterwards until Kol gives us a sequel which I hope he does....A perfect book and worth definitely more than 5 stars x

[Karen · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.5 stars--I'm not sure how I feel about this one. The writing was decent--very good in some spots, a little lacking in others. There were times, especially near the beginning, when I was very uncomfortable with the story line. I progressed to confusion, and by the end, part of me did not want Kayden to leave. I'm definitely interested in seeing where Anderson takes these guys from here. Bring on the next book.

[Daniela Reika · Rating 5 out of 5]

I think I'm in love with Mr. Anderson, I find that his way of telling and writing his stories, with arguments that are not simple, somewhat uncomfortable for most people, is sublime.
I expect many of your books, you have awakened my dark side with so much passion!
Thank you <3

[Tina · Rating 3 out of 5]

The story was brutal and intense. Reading about abuse and a terrible childhood is never easy.

I can’t put my finger on it, but this story wasn’t what I expected. It was hard to get a connection to the characters, and the story left me kind of confused.

[Monique · Rating 2 out of 5]

I love Kol Anderson... but this is one that unfortunately didn't work for me personally.

[Sammy Loves Books]

Joining in on the Perv Bonanza with Rosalinda and Melissa!!! I gotta monitor the madness!!!

[Joseph Tonlet · Rating 5 out of 5]

Another brilliant read from the Master of depravity! I can't wait for book two. Thanks again Kol!

[Dani Elle Maas · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5 Stars!!

What an intense story. After reading the warnings I knew I was in for something different and boy was it ever!

I have to say it took me a little bit to get into (as this is a bit out of the box for me) but when I got involved in the story I couldn’t stop. It drew me in to a level where I was completely turned off from the outside world and totally focussed on the main characters of this story.

We have Kaden living with his brother Hunter and during the story we get introduced to both Anna and Jacob. Coming from an abused household, Hunter and Kayden can only rely on themselves and being together.You get a peek in their lives growing up and of them living together in the home they were born and raised.

It is difficult for me to formulate words about this story without spoiling it to much. Most of the things I could point out would spoil the readers fun/ interest I am afraid. This is one of those stories you need to read on your own to get the whole picture.

What I can say is that it is groundbreaking in for way that you get a look at something unconventional without feeling that you are reading anything wrong. You want things to happen (at least I wanted them) that you shouldn’t. You learn things about relationships that I for one couldn’t have thought of upfront.

Author Kol Anderson takes you on a trip without rules, without anything to ground you, just on a trip to what could be but shouldn’t be or….?? Let yourself be swept up into this story and try to see things from the aspect of Kayden or Hunter. Try to see if you can believe in what Jacob is doing. Try to understand Anna’s reason for living with Hunter.

I want to emphasize the incredible intensity of this story so just allow yourself to be swept up and follow the road Mr Anderson guides you over .

I hope that the author allows us a peek of both Kayden and Hunter and their respectable lives in the following book in this series

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