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Madison & Logan #1

Of Love & Regret

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Madison Bailey’s friendship with Logan Delaney was complicated. An underlying attraction made it hard to ignore his devastating good looks and easy charm, but Madison was determined to remain strictly platonic. Their history together made it impossible for her to consider anything more.

What she didn’t count on was the possibility of losing Logan completely. Opening her heart and taking a chance with him could mean dizzying happiness or shattering regret. And regret was one emotion that Madison knew all too well.

272 pages, Kindle Edition

First published July 22, 2013

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713 reviews323 followers
July 25, 2013
Genre: CR
Is this a serial? Yes, book 2 will be out in Feb 2014.

This book was a mess.

Initially, I thought it was a friends-to-lovers romance, then halfway thru I get the whole messy, complicated backstory between H/h which involved cheating and backstabbing best friends. Unlike most readers, I dont necessarily mind cheating in my angsty reads but when they keep REPEATING the cheating, I realize that they are just selfish assholes and that is when I am DONE.

Except for a minor friend character, nobody was likable in this book. In fact, everyone - except for that friend - could be called crazy or mentally ill. Characters turned on a dime like feral animals. All to serve the plot.

The writing was incredibly heavy-handed. You could hear the Da-da-dum-DUM at the end of each chapter. When I think fucking hair-pulling Thoughtless is a better cheating book, then I know it's dire.

Do I even have to say that I wont be reading the second bk?
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1,232 reviews2,136 followers
July 31, 2013
2.5 stars

This book was one of my in-between reads. I have to admit though I liked the first part of this book. Hell, I loved the premise of this book especially with what happened with her best friend. But after that, it just started to get annoying. The characters started to get on my nerves and the plot just went nowhere, and this book ended up as one of my most frustrating reads ever.

Madison and Logan's relationship have always been complicated. She likes him and saw him first but instead of dating her, Logan dated her best friend instead. I can understand this since Logan met both of them separately and while Madison certainly felt some connection with Logan, Logan doesn't seem to give her a second thought.
I can even forgive both of them for what they did especially since they seemed to be torn up about it. But seriously, the whole situation came up again, with different characters this time, and again, and again. It became recycled drama.

The whole we-can't-be-together-because-it-felt-like-I'm-betraying-my-best friend situation got old quickly. And both the MCs reacted the same way over and over again, with immaturity. They never learned the first time or the second time. They went on to repeat the same mistakes over and over again, it became annoying. It wasn't fun to read anymore.

10 reviews
July 31, 2013
I really love S.H. Kolee and the way she writes, but I hated the characters in this book. The characters had no moral values, and they will only get together when they are in relationships with someone else. Makes no sense. Sequel? Please, no. The sequel should be for Love Left Behind. That was a really good book with lovable characters.
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6 reviews
July 31, 2013
I have read all of S.H. Kolee's other books and enjoyed all of them, so I was really excited when I came across this one. I didn't even know about it beforehand, so it was like a surprise treat. Unfortunately, I could only bring myself to give it two stars. I really wanted to like it and I did read the whole book, hoping it would redeem itself at some point. The first half was ok...but once I got to the middle I was just so irritated with the main characters that I almost wanted to just stop and walk away. There was nothing endearing about any of these characters that made you root for them or helped you even understand why they make all the stupid decisions they make. I just felt frustrated and kept thinking, "come on, really?" I did drudge through the rest and was just left feeling, "meh" about the whole thing. To me, it felt like the whole story was very forced. The sex towards the end of the book was terrible and almost made me uncomfortable to read (and trust me, I don't have a problem with sexy scenes). It actually felt demeaning by the constant "I'm your slut" mantra. There was nothing sexy about it. I really do like all of this authors other books but I highly doubt I will read the rest of this series. I will check out any other new books/series by this author.
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2,313 reviews2 followers
maybe
June 15, 2021
Might read : this is a train wreck. Thoughtless 2.0 (cheating book)

Spoilers

H and h are just friends guys!
Hero starts dating heroines best friend.
H and h cheat with each other.
Best friend commits suicide.
Heroine is feeling guilty. Breaks off with H
H waits 8 years for the h,, because he’s in looovvvve with h.
Gives up, moves away, finds himself another girlfriend then moves back.
He cheats on new girlfriend with the h.
H breaks up with gf #2.
Oops, h is feeling guilty again.
Drama with ex.


Book 2 will tell the rest of this soap opera.
1,062 reviews5 followers
March 3, 2021
Cheats Away

*****Spoilers*****

Madison and Logan were a train wreck, most of it caused by them being unable to keep their hands off of one another, the other because Madison hid behind the guise of friendship when she knew better. Logan and Madison knew one another in college. Logan was dating Madison's best friend then but over time, the two got closer and ended up cheating behind Cassie's back. Cassie kills herself, no one knows why but Madison is guilt ridden because she thinks Cassie knew about her and Logan's feelings for one another and their betrayal, which Madison thinks is the reason Cassie took her own life. In comparison, Logan has no regrets and stuck to his guns that he'd fallen in love with Madison.

While Madison runs away, Logan waits for her for 8 years, being friends until an opportunity arises where he can admit his feelings for her and they're together for a short time before Madison allows the past to come between them again and again. Logan gets fed up, moves to a different state, finds another girlfriend who he then moves back with him to Chicago where Madison is still living and they run into one another a year later. Logan cheats on his girlfriend for Madison again and this time Madison holds on to Logan and doesn't let go. Logan breaks up with the girlfriend who confronts Madison making her feel bad all over again.

I think the story was interesting but started in a bad place I thought. Madison was unlikeable to me, probably because she wasn't dealing with her past but trying to bury it and spends too much time in the beginning of the book snapping on Logan for seemingly no reason. That she's hot and cold with Logan until he gives up on her was no surprise to me but that Madison passionately cheats with him more than once was just eye rolling for me. Both of them were cycling through this together but it was a mess.
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412 reviews30 followers
July 19, 2015
This was an angsty read. Not always in a good way.

Both of our main characters make immature, stupid decisions repeatedly. They alternate between being insanely in love with each other and hurting each other. Sometimes they hurt each other on purpose.

To be honest, I thought their relationship was pretty unhealthy and dysfunctional. They each would have probably been better off moving on from each other for good. Then they may have been able to have healthy, sustainable relationships with other people.

This definitely isn't my favorite book of S.H. Kolee's. But it did provide the emotional roller coaster that I've come to expect from her work.
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1,053 reviews126 followers
August 17, 2014
Gahhh how did I not know this had a sequel?
And that it ends somewhat abruptly?
Now the waiting begins!!!
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82 reviews
July 15, 2020
And the award for weakest, most annoying, "woe is me," "everyone pity me," "i'm the victim," "i obnoxiously need time to think before I do any little thing," character goes to...Madison Bailey! Something about Madison really rubbed me the wrong way and I wasn't really a fan of hers. I think she probably could have benefited from some serious therapy sessions with a trained psychologist/therapist because it seems pretty obvious she needs help. Her coping mechanisms were horrendous & left much to be desired. Logan must have REALLY been in love with her to have waited around for her as much as he did. I felt really bad for him throughout the book; you could tell he had a thing for Madison almost from the getgo & it was a shame she treated him the way she did (even if she didn't always realize how sh*tty she was being to him). Even though at one point (and once you read it, you'll hopefully know when) I thought he was a bit of a dick, Logan really was the sucker throughout most of this book and I don't think it was fair to him. He should have stood up for himself a little more and not let Madison always convince him to "wait" to do things he wanted to take care of right away. Madison seems to be a people-pleaser who doesn't want people to be mad or upset at her and that's probably her biggest downfall.

And I'm not really sure if this story needed to be broken into 2 books. This book was short--relatively speaking--and it covered a fair amount in it, so I'm curious what is going to be covered in the 2nd. If it's more breaking up and getting back together drama, I might have to DNF. We shall see...
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44 reviews
April 28, 2023
I have a lot of things to say about the book but it'd take too long to try to articulate them.

First off, I never thought I'd read about my FMC and MMC being with each other, but here we are.

Second, as always, I hate how the woman is always the one being name-called and denigrated in these situations while the man gets off scot-free. Madison's longterm boyfriend was yet had the audacity to slut-shame her. Mr. and Mrs. Brooks confronted Madison and but there was no talk of confronting Logan, who had just as much culpability. This is how real life is, and I hate it.

Third, there's no debating that what Madison went through with respect to Cassie was downright horrible and traumatizing. That situation felt gritty and real. And thing is, I know I'd be feeling exactly like Madison does if that happened to me irl, but something about seeing her thoughts written out extensively made it a little grating and exhausting at times, but let's be fair, their situation was hella messed up, and she was at least self-aware of which I was very appreciative.

The book was a real rollercoaster, had me going WTF at multiple points, but apart from (mainly) the second point I mentioned above, I was invested in it.
862 reviews9 followers
July 8, 2018
Spoilerish:

A decent read. But be warned: the first book i recommend but the second book is not well written and is lacking.

Big gripe is that he doesnt grovel after his behaviour with Ella and on his return. Also, the guy cheated on other women twice... not really boyfriend material. Even though each time he was breaking up with the girlfriend, it still shows a lack of respect and regard for the soon to be ex that he didnt break it up before he got it on with the h. He will do the same to her if he ever gets to the point of wanting to end things.

His behaviour when she asked for one last chance and then upon his return a year later was abhorrent. Lost all respect for him.

Also, i'm all for dirty talk but I'm not into name calling during sex. Really ruined those other wise hot scenes for me.
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40 reviews3 followers
July 27, 2013
2.5 stars, and as custom, rounded up to 3 for the purposes of this review. Too much angst, and bad decisions bringing about bad consequences causing so much unnecessary drama that it took out a lot of the fun of reading the book.

STORY BRIEF: While Madison and Logan are "just friends". Circumstances occur where it is revealed that their friendship is only a charade, but a real relationship seems out the question. When the choice is being true to your feelings or holding on to the past, it seems to Madison that neither choice comes without pain or regret.

MY THOUGHTS: I wanted to enjoy this book- I really enjoyed 'Fated' by the same author, and was naturally looking forward to this one.

However, the characters turned out to be more dislikable than likable, with both the hero and heroine making choices to preserve their pride, then turning around and regretting them without thinking deeply about the consequences in the first place. At that point, their other choices just made it worse, going from rash, to ethically and morally questionable, to downright cruel.



To me, one of the most interesting parts of the story is left in the sequel, which surprises me, and also disappoints me, as if the author had included the subplot in, the story might have taken a better direction and been much more enjoyable and fulfilling. Instead it's melodrama.

There were certain steps where Madison made an attempt to talk to Logan and communicate her problems with him which I liked. The times they didn't talk, and the one where Logan went off in a big huff, to put in mildly made me scratch my head, as it seemed inconsistent with his earlier actions and statements.

IN CONCLUSION: I wanted to like this, but the decisions and actions made by both characters to preserve their pride, just soured the experience for me. If you can handle , you may like the book.

I'm undecided as to whether I'll be picking up the sequel- as long as the series isn't extended beyond one more book, I'm hoping that the series redeems itself as a whole.



5 reviews
December 18, 2013
"Nobody is perfect and people make mistakes" must be your constant mantra in order for you to finish this book.

I think it's fair to say that Madison and Logan have an intense connection. I had no doubt that Kolee would deliver when it came the intimate, blush worthy sex scenes. You can skip the sex scenes and dirty talk (as I did in parts) and still walk away knowing that Madison and Logan's chemistry will always be electrifying and hot as a thousand suns. However, this book isn't only about lust, at least that's what I thought until I kept reading.

My issue was my inability to empathize for the character's frustration, sadness and most especially the choices (mistakes) they make. I felt that Kolee didn't create a solid foundation for the protagonist's relationship prior to Chicago. Since there was no backstory, as time went on, the character development of Madison and Logan took a nose dive as the story unfolded, leaving me more convinced that these two will do each other more harm than good.

Giving Madison and Logan a foundation instills us with the understanding we need to keep rooting for them despite their internal conflicts, selfishness and lack of self control. I understand that their bad decisions doesn't make them bad people (just hormonal, conflicted idiots) but without a supporting backstory in addition to an unstable present, characters with no remorse is exactly what they came off to be. Chapter after chapter of tug of war created for a rather predictable and impatient read since neither of the characters changed in the process.

In the end, I hoped that Madison would've been strong enough to accept that they just aren't meant to be. Not only is it a more believable outcome, but it would've showed change (maturity), opening up the possibility that there is a chance for a real future between them.
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606 reviews1 follower
August 6, 2013
Rating: 3.5


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This book was beyond frustrating!!! These two kept playing the pushing and pulling game for over a decade and still could not get their heads on straight! I don't even know where to begin with the heroine. She's a stubborn mule who lets her past and guilt dictate her life and Logan is a cruel bastard who waited for 8 yrs for her to give him a real chance. But nooooo...she says "I need time.,I need moooorrre time, can't you see I'm still stuck in the past?" Gosh darn it...he waited for u all these years and after one meeting with the "so-called past," you're going to throw what u and him have for 2 wks away?!!! You should be catching up on lost time for gosh sake! Then when he decided to give up for real, you want him FoR REAL this time?! Karma is a bitch, lady!!!

The heroine is an absolute masochist. She keeps on playing fire where Logan is concerned and burn she gets. I feel really bad for the ppl they hurt in the process of getting together.

While I love all of S.H.Kolee's books, this one lacks something that I can't put my finger on. It was different from her other books. There was too much telling and not enough showing. Too much use of passive verbs which made me feel like I'm reading a journal entry instead of experiencing the scenes and feeling the heroine's emotions. The sequel will be out early 2014 and since I'm a freaking masochist like Maddie, I'll be reading it. I'm ready to see some revenge from Kristina.

P.S. AND I REALLLY dislike how she degrade herself during those last 2 sex scenes. It seems like she accepts that title. I don't think she's like that, but for her to say that...it was a big turn-off. The temperature was rising and then dropped below zero.
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2,658 reviews58 followers
January 16, 2016
I do not like how Madison feels she is betraying Cassie. I do not like how Madison does not feel worthy or good enough. It's depressing to read how insecure and unstable Madison is. I can't get emotionally attached to a character like this.
I feel bad for Logan being trapped in this deceptive life that Cassie's family created and the trapped life Madison created. Let your fears go and give into the happiness you deserve. I want to scream this to Madison.

I'm not a fan of weak minded people. This story is repeating itself. The same situation that occurred in the past is reoccurring again. It's tiring re-reading the same guilt and betrayal Madison has. Move forward already. What about Cassie's betrayal to Madison. She never disclosed to her why she was depressed nor did she inform her that Logan tried to break up with her and that she would not allow it.

Come on Madison don't flatter yourself. Don't put Cassie's issues onto your guilty conscience. The truth is out there. This story is not progressing. As long as the past keeps Madison carrying a guilty conscience she is unable to move forward. At this point I'm skimming through the story. Shut up Madison. You overthink everything. Just enjoy the moment.
Madison needs to seek therapy. Everything Logan says is true and she is still hiding behind her fears.
Truer words have never been written when Madison says,"it's painful how much I love you". It's actually just as painful to read. Their guilt for cheating and wrongfully hurting innocent people while claiming to form a loving relationship is exhausting. Too much guilt in this relationship. At this point they both need therapy. I really no longer care what happens to them. They deserve each other.
82 reviews
April 3, 2015
Kolee reels me in every time and this was no exception. I loved this one! It's an angst overload and I love that. I liked both Madison and Logan, but Madison definitely had issues she really needed to grow up and get over. I get that things were traumatic for her but life goes on. When she finally gets with Logan, he is everything anyone could want in a boyfriend. And I also have a serious weakness for blonde men so Logan had that going for him. But when Madison I was definitely rolling my eyes. Also, as much as I liked Logan, his behavior immediately following that breakup was pretty skeezy. How do you go from being intensely in love with someone but That's a slut move. The second half of the book is super duper angst filled which I really enjoyed in the guilty kind of way. I am never a fan of cheating but I have to admit it did add somewhat of a thrill to . The cliffhanger however, was lameeee. I hate cliffhangers! I feel that authors just end up charging you twice over for the ending of the book. Damn E.L. James this was not a recurring theme in the romance section until her.Sequels only work for harry potter and action themed books definitely not for romance so that's why it's not a 5 star read.
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918 reviews20 followers
November 24, 2014
An instense emotional read.
Death, betrayal, heartbreak, guilt, regret, pain, sorrow.....you name it this story runs high on emotions, which sometimes made it hard keep reading through their pain. But you keep on reading hoping that Logan and Madison can work past all the baggage of the past that is bleeding into their present as it works to destroy their future.
Don't forget the passion between these 2 is just simmering below the surface waiting for the past 8 years to explode when the time is right but will it ever be the right time for them?
The author does amazing job dealing with a truckload of emotions in this story hitting almost too close for comfort. The emotional overload really starts you thinking and feeling. It brought back some unhappy memories for me of family members that have committed suicide and the aftermath it leaves behind. Lots of us forget the other people (friends, co-workers, students, etc) whose lives they touched and how their suicide affects those people and leaves most wondering why and what could we have done? But it made more determined to keep reading hoping for a happy ending.
Looking forward to the last book and still rooting for a happy ending.
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597 reviews31 followers
November 15, 2014
I enjoyed this book and it also frustrated me! Well the heroine frustrated me.

Madison and Logan have been friends since College. They are good friends, both are in their late 20's and they also have a secret love/attraction for the other.

I loved the friends to lover storyline however, I hated the fact that Madison wasn't truthful with her feelings and kept pushing Logan away. Kudos to Logan, for giving her a chance after chance.
There were times that I wanted to smack Madison for letting her past guilt interfere with their relationship; after awhile I was like ENOUGH, BITCH get over it or get counselling!
Logan was awesome, though he sort of moves on, continues to be obsessed with Madison.

This book is fabulous read, and like the author's previous books it's hot. It doesn't have a cliffy per say but Logan's and Madison's story doesn't end with this book. The second book will be available in Nov. 2014.
10 reviews
August 24, 2015
Really loved the book 'fated' so I thought I would give this one a try as the blurb sounded interesting. However I was very disappointed, I found myself skimming over the pages towards the end.
I couldn't relate to any of the characters or understand the decisions they made. I think it would of been better if the story started at the beginning of when Madison and Logan first met, in order to understand their connection. Also the bits with Cassie's mother were really odd.. well all the characters were all odd really.
Even though I did not like this book, I would still read the authors books as Fated is one of my favourites.
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1,635 reviews37 followers
January 11, 2018
I chose to read and review this book I found that it was a nice ok story about a lot of issues that some of us face in real life and a lot of lessons that some of us need to learn and be better in certain areas of our lives. I like the main and second characters their ways of interacting but felt like could have been better. I felt like Madison and Logan could have done better than what was said felt like too much of one thing that could have been said one time and bye bye still enjoyable

33 reviews1 follower
May 15, 2019
A Modern Day Romeo & Juliet

Logan Delaney has loved Madison Bailey since college. They begin their romance behind her best friend Cassie’s back. As they get through their twenties they have this roller coaster of a friendship with Madison keeping him friend zoned.
This book was so addicting. Logan is an alpha-male on steroids. I love this authors writing. I have read her other books as well & this is another 5 star.
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182 reviews2 followers
July 24, 2013
I'm a fan of s.h. Kolee and I was impatiently waiting for this book. For the life of me I could not read past the sample of 10%. The main character was driving me crazy. For being in her late 20's she comes off as extremely immature and she is really annoying. It seems all she does is complain. I'll keep a look out for more books from this author but just not this series...
351 reviews13 followers
July 25, 2013
CAN YOU SAY DRAMA. Wow I feel like this book was going for the record of how much collateral damage and crushed hearts can be made in order for the two main characters to be together. I was definitely cheering for the main couple but really all I could think was how selfish they both were! Hopefully they will get it right in the next book!
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273 reviews4 followers
August 2, 2013
I thought this started out really good an I even crushed on Logan but quite a ways threw I began to get frustrated with the story. I completely lost my crush! I do not think I will read the next part to this story. That said I really like this authors previous work and will still continue to read future romance by her just not this story.
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276 reviews5 followers
August 25, 2013
I really love S.H Kolee and Love Left Behind so I had high expectations from this book. Alas, it wasn't what I expected. It still has Kolee's angst, romance and drama but it felt short. It started out good but towards the end the story went haywire. I'm still conflicted if book two is such a good idea.

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480 reviews20 followers
March 27, 2014
I loved loved LOVED this book. I love those friends turned lovers romances but this one was on a whole different level. It was so angsty and there were times when I was like "are they even right for each other??" But no matter how crazy it was- the answer was always yes. I need more of these two. Now.
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1,557 reviews4 followers
April 24, 2015
This will be a short review. This book was not nearly as good as her other ones - Fated and love left behind. I really loved those. This lacked something and the story and even the writing were too repetitive. Felt like Groundhog Day a bit. I didn't even love the main characters Madison and Logan. Would not recommend this one.
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