I seldom read love stories. I don’t seek them out, because they are mostly unfulfilling, ending formulaically either as romance fulfilled or tragedy. Stripped down to either a warm feeling of satisfaction or catharsis, it never seems like love stories are worth reading, because they don’t provide much beyond the same old SOS. I almost put Simone aside when I pulled it out of the box. The book, though, was published by the University of Chicago Press, and there is a back cover blurb from Ricardo Piglia, one of the many intriguing writers to come out of Argentina in the last four decades, so I read on, hoping for more, and Lalo really does write much more than a love story in Simone. It is a story of alienation, disillusionment, immigration, marginalization, identity, literature, books, art, place, geography, stalking, and so much more. The love story is simply the vector through which Lalo explores the (dis)satisfactions of lives lived in San Juan, Puerto Rico.
The protagonist is a writer who has published a few books, has a local reputation, but is still struggling. He’s a college professor, has had various relations with women, none of which has worked out, and his best male friend spends most of his time off island. He is lonely and doesn’t find the job satisfying. He doesn’t like San Juan much, except when he does. He feels stuck, and yet he also feels like he is where he belongs: alienated and marginalized as he is, San Juan is still the place for him, his alienated familiar. The plot begins when the writer discovers that he is being stalked. He finds artfully written messages on the sidewalk, on pieces of paper posted where he will see them or left in mailboxes or under doors. The messages are most often quotations from other authors, philosophers, or theorists–particularly Simone Weill–which resonate with the protagonist’s own doubts, insecurities, questions, and perceived truths/untruths. The stalker seems to know the protagonist, which both freaks him out and intrigues him. The stalker leads him to her. She is a Chinese immigrant, Li Chao, who has worked in a family restaurant since she was 11 but succeeded in school and now studies Comparative Literature at UPR. She read his books and found a resonant soul. He writes of his dissatisfaction with San Juan and Puerto Rico, his marginalization and invisibility, the loneliness and emptiness of his life. Literature is a powerful force, and it leads her to instigate the message campaign. Perhaps it is cliché to say that two lost souls find each other, but such is the case here. What interesting is that Lalo connects his Puerto Rican protagonist with a Chinese immigrant and then uses that connection to explore the invisible lives of that population as well as present Li Chao as the acme of non-belonging. She steps out of the invisible role of a Chinese woman (doubly invisible, really) to become educated and integrate herself in the larger world through her interests in literature, intellect, and art, but that larger world doesn’t know what to do with an educated, artistic Chinese woman. She doesn’t fit, so she becomes doubly alienated/doubly invisible from both Puerto Rican and Chinese culture.
The protagonist finds Li Chao through the labyrinths she creates for him, and they remain together despite or because of all the spoken but mostly unspoken restrictions she puts on the relationship. The relationship flourishes physically, aesthetically, and intellectually, but despite their intimacy something remains hidden/invisible, which Li resists revealing because she knows that this fragile relationship of two isolated individuals without the backing of family and society will end in failure. Everything that Li does, despite whatever joys that the relationship brings, is prefigured on her expectation that the relationship fail. The protagonist resists this fatalism but can do little about it. When Li reveals her trauma, Lalo would seem to be setting the novel on a path of repair and reconciliation–it’s a love story after all–but Li continues to hold onto the trauma and the alienation from self and body that it engenders. The alienated self continues to reproduce itself no matter what Li does.
As a counter to this doomed love story, Lalo develops a friendship between the protagonist and another Puerto Rican writer, Maximo Noguera, whom the protagonist admires and is very much like him: bookish, alienated, invisible but feels like he belongs in Puerto Rico. Both have published locally but achieved no wider fame; both are full of frustration and resentment. The labyrinthine invisibility that ultimately separates Li and the protagonist functions as a stable bond between the protagonist and Maximo. At a university-sponsored party, both go after the Spanish writer who is the guest of honor on a book tour, criticizing contemporary Spanish literature and subverting any notion of a universal Spanish language culture. An academic party gone bad, but the protagonist finds both common cause and friendship. When Li makes a final attempt at saying good-bye, reconciling with the protagonist, explaining herself, or reproducing her alienation–it’s unclear what she intends–the protagonist does not answer the door and pulls the plug on the phone. This reaction certainly seems to be cruel and cutting, and it certainly forgoes the possibility of any kind of reconciliation (romantic fulfillment). On the other hand, I can’t help thinking that he found a more satisfying emotional connection at the party and thus is willing to forgo the insecure and undependable happiness he had had with Li. In the end, I think Lalo finds a way out of the love story binary with a friendship that allows the protagonist to maintain his old sense of alienated belonging.