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331 pages, Kindle Edition
First published September 4, 2013
There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t regret my decision or any of the things I did. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t wish everything could be different.Mia wants Jared back. Jared. The one guy Mia has ever loved. The one guy she pushed away.
He was my best friend, my whole world, the love of my life, and I pushed him away.
Life is too short to live without the things you want, to not to fight for the things you love...







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She deserves to be happy and I want to make her happy.
It’s strange how Ash’s words to me only two nights ago can mean so much more now. So much more. And I know I don’t want to waste any more time not being with Jared.
“Because you were the best thing that had ever happened to me, Mia.”
My heart literally stops in my chest at what he’s saying to me, at the lengths he was forced to go to, just to deal with the shit I made him go through.
But for the first time, I can see how much this has hurt her, too. For the first time, I can see that she shares the pain I’ve been carrying for the last year. For the first time, I can see that both of us have been hurting because of this.
When we were kids, he always looked so sad, resigned almost, to the shit he was forced to put up with. Then when he met Ash, discovered music, he changed. His eyes were full of happiness and life; he was a completely different person. Escaping from our father changed him, but music and Ash, those two made him.
"I Love You To Death" by Natalie Ward
Main Girl: Asha
Main Guy: Luke
Main Guy's Sister: Mia
Main Guy's BFF: Jared
In my review of ILYTD, I stated that the main reason I moved forward with the series was to reassure myself that Ash was going to be just fine. I can't go into further details because I can talk about that book forever. If you're interested in learning more about the first installment, click here.
ILYTD really weighed on my heart; it still does. There was so much pain and grief to sort through so I was desperate for some peace, some quiet, some uninterrupted happiness for Ash. SL was the breath of fresh air I was eager for. I was given a pink-cheeked, ever-smiling, still-very-much-in-love Ash and a new couple to root for on top of it all.
Natalie Ward approached the making of this installment differently than the first and I like that it stands out in its own respect, separate from its predecessor. The previous book was written solely in Ash's voice because it was really just her story to tell. Here, we have the added elements of alternating, sometimes overlapping, past and present perspectives from both Jared and Mia.
The present chapters are centered on the central characters locked away in a bedroom, going through the sordid details of their love story - how they fall in love and how it all fell apart. Where do they each stand when they begin this painful memory down memory lane?
It was love at first sight for them both, if such a thing exists. The attraction was immediate and undeniable, blossoming silently in secret for fear that Luke would disapprove. Their joint concern turned out to be outrageously unnecessary, for there is no one Luke would have trusted his sister with more.
(Can I just say right now that this little family they've all chosen for themselves is an extremely fortunate one? The girls are selfless and strong-willed and the guys love with all that they are and all that they have. Oh, and the guys are best friends. Two guys who are so good to each other and unapologetically adoring of their girlfriends. Is this real life?)
Jared and Mia fall deeper in love, arrange plans for a future spent side by side, when suddenly - their first obstacle emerges onto their path. One of Mia's pieces has been chosen as part of an emerging artists series at the Art Institute of Chicago. Proud and content to revel in his girlfriend's success, Jared offers to accompany Mia. Mindful of his commitments to the band, she vehemently insists he stays but promises to return. Two months turns into a full-fledged job and Jared, not wanting to be parted from Mia, announces his upcoming move to Chicago.
Things to be looking up perfectly for the happy couple until seemingly overnight, Mia puts a stop to their life together through the lowest form of communication - a text message. Desperate and confused, Jared flees to Mia's front door, determined to deter her from a life that didn't include him.
He pleads with her to reconsider, she pleads with him to leave her alone. But the one who wants out always wins and so Jared has no choice but to throw his hands up in defeat and head home.
But their connection doesn't fade completely and as Luke plays a starring role in both their lives, crossing paths once more is inevitable, unavoidable. As previously mentioned, peppered throughout the novel are scenes from the present, as Mia hopes to win Jared back and Jared hopes to finally understand.
Closure is a big word. It defines unmistakeable, unambiguous endings that aren't made unilaterally, and it marks new chapters, new beginnings. There is a quote from one of my favourite movies that continues to pop up in my life every now and then and it is this:
The past is remembered - sometimes fondly, sometimes with a pain so palpable that it seeps through the pages and under your own skin. Mia tries her best to explain away her cold, unfeeling act that spanned over a year but will it be enough? Has she hammered away at Jared's heart too many times to be completely forgiven? Or can she count her blessings once more as he enfolds her into his arms with every intent to forge a new life together?
I can't even begin to imagine how it must be to sit across from someone you once loved and lay out the naked truth. To bare your soul and provide answers to questions that steal the breath from your lungs. To want nothing more than to reach across the table that separates you to place a hand atop his in want and need. To have the knowledge that you now need permission to do something as natural as that used to be sink in with every passing moment.
Everything starts flooding back and you can't help but wonder if the times that made your heart swell with pure joy were the same ones he found happiness in. You wonder what memories he can't gloss over without that physical ache in your chest, the one the memory of you put there.
Just the thought of sitting down with an ex with the sole purpose of hashing out any past wrongs is a tough pill to swallow. Make it an ex you're still in love with and it seems damn near impossible to do. Want to see what the mere idea of that brings to the surface? Watch these:
The story of Jared and Mia was raw and real. You can't help but want them both to be happy, you just hope they can be happy together. Half a macaron away from five because I also closed this one wanting to start the next for Ash and not Jared and Mia.
Ash's past destroyed me.
Jared and Mia's present devastated me.
Luke's book will, hopefully, put me back together.