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Waiting for Forever #3
Determination
Brian McAllister and Jamie Mayfield have risked everything in a desperate escape and are finally together. Jamie is free of his tormentor … for the moment. But Brian and Jamie know that one wrong choice could lead him to their door.
The long, lonely hours in their safe house leave Jamie with nothing to do but think. He thinks about Brian, about the direction their lives should take. He thinks about his parents. Mostly, he thinks about drugs. Jamie wants to feel good again, forget about his self-hatred, and stop the gnawing cravings that prey upon his mind and body.
One moment of weakness may prove fatal for them both.
After being reunited with his father, Jamie attempts to put his life back together amid rehab, seizures, and the gutting loneliness of Brian’s rejection. As he tries to cope, he finds that relying on his friends isn’t as difficult as he’d imagined, and soon he can stand on his own feet. Jamie starts college, working to become the man Brian needs. Unless he earns Brian’s forgiveness and wins back his trust, their love will be sacrificed on the altar of Jamie’s demons.
The long, lonely hours in their safe house leave Jamie with nothing to do but think. He thinks about Brian, about the direction their lives should take. He thinks about his parents. Mostly, he thinks about drugs. Jamie wants to feel good again, forget about his self-hatred, and stop the gnawing cravings that prey upon his mind and body.
One moment of weakness may prove fatal for them both.
After being reunited with his father, Jamie attempts to put his life back together amid rehab, seizures, and the gutting loneliness of Brian’s rejection. As he tries to cope, he finds that relying on his friends isn’t as difficult as he’d imagined, and soon he can stand on his own feet. Jamie starts college, working to become the man Brian needs. Unless he earns Brian’s forgiveness and wins back his trust, their love will be sacrificed on the altar of Jamie’s demons.
336 pages, Paperback
First published July 31, 2013
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About the author
Jamie Mayfield
12 books25 followersA survivor of the ex-gay residential institution The Sunshine Center, fictional author Jamie Mayfield went on to find his voice in novels. Always a great lover of books, Jamie found his passion as he began to pursue a liberal arts degree in creative writing. An avid reader, he’s a fan of gay romance, suspense, and horror—though not all in the same novel.
Jamie lives in San Diego with his fictional husband, Brian. He writes YA fiction as a way to let kids know that they have an entire LGBT family all around them. Above all, he wants them to know that they are not alone. It does get better.
Jamie Mayfield is a fictional character from the acclaimed Little Boy Lost series by female author J. P. Barnaby.
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Jamie lives in San Diego with his fictional husband, Brian. He writes YA fiction as a way to let kids know that they have an entire LGBT family all around them. Above all, he wants them to know that they are not alone. It does get better.
Jamie Mayfield is a fictional character from the acclaimed Little Boy Lost series by female author J. P. Barnaby.
Website: http://www.JamieMayfield.com
Tumblr: http://JamieMayfieldYA.tumblr.com
Facebook: http://www.Facebook.com/JamieMayfieldYA
Twitter: http://www.Twitter.com/JamieMayfieldYA
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April 5, 2016
Oh my god, this was terrible, really worst buy I have ever made....want my money back.
Reading it was like pulling my teeth.
The book is recommended as a reading for anyone and specially gay youngsters. But really if I ever have a daughter or son with same sex sexual orientation, I would tell them to avoid this, because it is so far fetched, and btw not romantic at all...I was at the point that I didn't want the characters to get together anymore, and find someone better for them, because they weren't for each other anymore....I have read a lot of better, way better stories that really have a message for kids out there. This is just a soap opera, so my suggestion is stay away from it, unless you are really into Mexican soap operas.
Reading it was like pulling my teeth.
The book is recommended as a reading for anyone and specially gay youngsters. But really if I ever have a daughter or son with same sex sexual orientation, I would tell them to avoid this, because it is so far fetched, and btw not romantic at all...I was at the point that I didn't want the characters to get together anymore, and find someone better for them, because they weren't for each other anymore....I have read a lot of better, way better stories that really have a message for kids out there. This is just a soap opera, so my suggestion is stay away from it, unless you are really into Mexican soap operas.
August 1, 2013
Brian and Jamie have been to hell and back so many times on their journey, and all they ever wanted was just to be together.
In Determination, Brian has finally managed to get Jamie away from Steven and the two are tucked away in an apartment struggling to find a balance and live a somewhat normal life. Brian is still working in the porn industry, but has plans to buy into the business and move behind the camera. Jamie faces the daily battle of an addict, living in fear that Steven will find him or worse, find his friends and possibly hurt them to get to him. In a moment of weakness Jamie breaks and goes in search of a fix, inadvertently leading the devil straight to their doorstep.
When the dust settles Jamie is reunited with his father, but has he lost the person he loves more than anything in the process? Jamie faces a long, hard road in the aftermath of his addiction and the damage the drugs have done to his body. He does the best he can to pick himself up and works hard to become the man that he needs to be, not just for Brian, but for himself.
As difficult as these books were to read at times, I couldn’t put them down. By the end of the first chapter of the first book, I was fully invested in the characters. To say they are flawed would be an understatement, but their flaws gave them a level of depth and realism that I haven’t read in many books. The shit they had to deal with along the way will blow your mind. The books read like a journal written by these two young men. A chronicle of two lives that were woven together when they were children, two lives bound together regardless of the obstacles they had to face to have their happy ending.
As I said, there are parts of these books that were difficult to read, but I wouldn’t have missed this series for the world! I highly recommend this series. Brian and Jamie face some volatile and dangerous situations, half the time from people they love and trust! Over the years they survive ‘straight camp’, gay bashing, an abusive lover, drug addiction, a mother that should be burned at the stake and being separated among other things. But they’ve also grown into strong and loving young men. They learn the definition of trust and friendship. They fight through insurmountable odds, hatred and bigotry to come out the other side right where they were meant to be, together!
*I received a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review*
In Determination, Brian has finally managed to get Jamie away from Steven and the two are tucked away in an apartment struggling to find a balance and live a somewhat normal life. Brian is still working in the porn industry, but has plans to buy into the business and move behind the camera. Jamie faces the daily battle of an addict, living in fear that Steven will find him or worse, find his friends and possibly hurt them to get to him. In a moment of weakness Jamie breaks and goes in search of a fix, inadvertently leading the devil straight to their doorstep.
When the dust settles Jamie is reunited with his father, but has he lost the person he loves more than anything in the process? Jamie faces a long, hard road in the aftermath of his addiction and the damage the drugs have done to his body. He does the best he can to pick himself up and works hard to become the man that he needs to be, not just for Brian, but for himself.
As difficult as these books were to read at times, I couldn’t put them down. By the end of the first chapter of the first book, I was fully invested in the characters. To say they are flawed would be an understatement, but their flaws gave them a level of depth and realism that I haven’t read in many books. The shit they had to deal with along the way will blow your mind. The books read like a journal written by these two young men. A chronicle of two lives that were woven together when they were children, two lives bound together regardless of the obstacles they had to face to have their happy ending.
As I said, there are parts of these books that were difficult to read, but I wouldn’t have missed this series for the world! I highly recommend this series. Brian and Jamie face some volatile and dangerous situations, half the time from people they love and trust! Over the years they survive ‘straight camp’, gay bashing, an abusive lover, drug addiction, a mother that should be burned at the stake and being separated among other things. But they’ve also grown into strong and loving young men. They learn the definition of trust and friendship. They fight through insurmountable odds, hatred and bigotry to come out the other side right where they were meant to be, together!
*I received a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review*
August 5, 2013
If you know any LGBT youths or friends of LGBT youths, I think these books are a great read for them. A lot of these kids are told from a very young age that they are sick, wrong and unloved. Not all of these kids are lucky enough to find a Leo or a Mike or an Alex to show them how special they are. If you learn nothing else from these books, I hope at least the message of acceptance gets through. We need to let these kids know every day that someone cares about them and that they are worthy, no matter their past, no matter what they did to survive and no matter where they come from. So, yeah I highly recommend giving these books a read. If you don’t want to read the YA versions there is also an adult version of the series. So in closing I will just say I hope you love Brian and Jamie as much as I do.
You can read the rest of Jackie's review at The Novel Approach
You can read the rest of Jackie's review at The Novel Approach
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