First of all, brace yourselves for this one, you're going to feel stuff, even the most hardened of you out there, you're going to feel stuff and you're probably going to want to have some tissues at the ready too! And I say all this with high praise because Angel has written a story so powerful, so heartbreaking, so terrifying, yet so beautifully poignant and brilliantly addictive, it will stick with you for a long time. And when you realise that this book is based on true events, personal to the author, it hits so much harder! Also, the way it is written, in the voice of a very young girl (4 years old, I think) makes it tug at the old heartstrings even harder, making it more real, more visceral! Just, incredible 🖤
Mella and her mother fear The Bad Man, the Bad Man being their father and husband doesnt make him any less scary, except on the rare occasions when he's happy. But, it does make it confusing for Mella, she loves her Daddy so much, but she hates it when he brings the Bad Man home with him. They are a dirty little secret, her, her mother and her baby brother, locked and chained up in a house in the woods, that nobody knows about, except for them and her Daddy.
Mella's imagination when she's hiding in her room and in her head is brilliant, but so sad. Along with the way she rates her family's moods by colours, showing us her innocence and vulnerability clearly. Her excitement mixed equally with fear and trepidation each time her Dad arrives at the house, and her confusion at what is happening to her Mother when he is there, gets more sad and horrific with each chapter. In fact, each paragraph, from beginning to end of this book increases the pain and fear you feel along with this girl.
And when The Bad Man starts to appear before her in the night, her terror starts to become even more of a reality and things take a horrific turn. She needs to be strong now. The fear she feels is palpable, but her strength is incredible. She knows Petey and her Mum need her, and once the realisation hits her of just how and who The Bad Man really is, she becomes even stronger. And when secrets are revealed, they are shocking and unexpected and Mella doesn't want to believe them, but she has to, and she has to do something, before it's too late!!
This is a different kind of horror, this is true horror and will have such a massive impact on even the toughest horror fans. It's such a deep, dark rollercoaster ride of emotion. Completely gripping, horrifying and heart rending. My heart was literally in my mouth at the halfway mark, I was holding my breath, not wanting what I thought was going to happen, to happen, willing it not to happen, the absolute dread I was made to feel gave me goosebumps and almost caused a panic attack.
This story totally got me in the feels. I sobbed, more than once, and had to set the book itself down a couple of times to take a breather and pull myself back together to continue! Beautifully horrific, this will literally rip your heart out, stomp all over it, then put it back in, just so it can be ripped out and stomped on all over again! This will live in my head for a long, long time. This book destroyed me, and then I read the afterword and it destroyed me all over again! And then I had to come back to it, to write up my review, and to do my review photo and it got me AGAIN!!
I dont think a book has ever affected me as much as this one did. I became so utterly invested in this little girl's plight, willing her on, living through every detail, every choice, every action with her. Phenomenal stuff! It actually reminded me a little bit, in places, of Stephen King's The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon, only this was so much more traumatic and unnerving for its realness!
A true tale of survival, in more ways than one!!