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262 pages, Kindle Edition
First published September 23, 2013


















You know what’s so pathetic about this situation?" I rasp, my hands shaking. "It’s that no matter how angry I am at you, no matter how many times you spit hurtful words at me, or how many times I keep telling myself to walk away, I can’t. I want to save you. I want that friend that I know is in there. I can’t walk away, Spike. I hate you, and yet I can’t walk away."
Don’t want you to fuckin’ save me, Ciara. Don’t want you in my fuckin’ life. When will you get that through your head? I don’t want to be in your life. I didn’t chose you, I chose her. You need to fuckin’ move on. I am not the same person I was before."



Come for me Tom Cat, fuckin’ come around my cock."
"God, Spike, yes."
"Say my name baby, fuckin’ say it."
"Spike," I rasp.
"No, the other one. Say my real name," he growls, thrusting harder. "Danny," I scream, my orgasm tearing through me like liquid fire. "God, Danny."












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our friendship might not be for everyone, but it’s ours, and because it’s ours, I love it.

“You know what’s so pathetic about this situation?” I rasp, my hands shaking. “It’s that no matter how angry I am at you, no matter how many times you spit hurtful words at me, or how many times I keep telling myself to walk away, I can’t...I can’t walk away, Spike. I hate you, and yet I can’t walk away.”
Can we go somewhere tonight and just be Ciara and Danny again. For one night, can we just get along?”
“I can’t give you sweet things, and I can’t promise you nothin’. I’ve got a dangerous life, and until that life is sorted, I ain’t takin’ you as my Old Lady. I am gonna take you though, every fuckin’ night and day, ‘cause you belong in my bed.

“You told me to go and die last month,” I point out, crossing my arms. He flinches. “I was fuckin’ mad that you came back tryin’ to get my forgiveness.”
“We were never friends!” I bellow. “I was just a way to get to Cheyenne. You fucked me, to get to Cheyenne. “That’s fuckin’ bullshit!” he roars. “It’s fuckin’ bullshit! I cared about you long before she came into the picture."
But it’s my happiness and you know what?” I get to my feet, my legs shaking. “I fucking deserve it!”

“What is it exactly we’re doing here?” I dare to ask as he moves his lips down my neck.“We’re lettin’ life take us where life is gonna take us, and this time, we’re not gonna fuckin’ fight it.” That sounds fine by me. Just perfect.
“Fuck, Ciara, you just can’t see that you meant the motherfuckin’ world to me.”
“You stupid fuckin’ idiot, we never stopped bein’ friends.”
Our friendship might not be for everyone, but it's ours, and because it's ours, I love it.
"When are you gonna see there's no point in fightin' for somethin' that don't wanna be fought for?"
"I won't because everyone deserves to be fought for Spike. Even you."
"I can't give you sweet things, and I can't promise you nothin'. I've got a dangerous life, and until that life is sorted, I ain't takin' you as my Old Lady. I am gonna take you though, every fuckin' night and day, 'cause you belong in my bed. Now you got a choice here. You can turn and walk out that door and leave me go for good, or you can hang onto me, knowin' that right now I can't give you everything you want, but knowin' that one day, that might change."
"It was you. You were the one who opened my heart. You were the first one to claim it and you were the one who fuckin' tore it out of my chest the day you ran off. You never gave me a chance to explain myself to you... My heart was always yours first."
“Fuck you, Spike”
“Been there, done that, wasn’t memorable.”
That asshole.
“I flop back down onto my ass and watch her leave. That skirt really is too fuckin’ short. Jesus. It puts me into a place I haven’t been for a long time. It makes me want to smash every fucker that looks her way. I turn to Addison again, and she’s smiling over at me.
“She has a nice ass, right?”
“Shut the fuck up Addison.”
She bursts out laughing.
Fuck.
This is going to be a long night.”
“I was never good enough for you, Tom Cat … You were different, you were beautiful, quiet, and fuckin’ fragile. I would have broken you.”
“When are you gonna see there’s no point in fightin’ for something that don’t wanna be fought for?”
“I won’t, because everyone deserves to be fought for Spike. Even you.”
“Fuck,” he growls. “Just fuckin’ stop makin’ me want you. I am not what you need, can’t you see that?”
“No,” I rasp, leaning in closer.
“Tom Cat, this is playin’ with fuckin’ fire. You’ll get burned.”
“I’ll risk it.”
“You make my fuckin’ heart hurt. You make my body so fuckin’ wound up with need it aches. You make my fuckin’ days bright, and not one of those fuckin’ days has passed that you haven’t been in my head. Might have had her first, might have fuckin’ loved her first, but you’re the one who ends this with me.”
Ciara used to care for Spike but then Spike got her sister killed. Or so that is what she says. Spike lost his wife and unborn baby and hates Ciara because she sold him out and blamed him for killing his wife Cheyanne. Spike carries a lot of guilt about Cheyanne and his baby and doesn't think he's worth saving.


Something happened to me while reading this book that has never happened before. I've hated characters before but I can't remember ever hating a character that was dead. I really didn't like the person Cheyanne was when she was alive. I didn't understand why Spike loved her, and I really didn't get why she was such a bitch to her sister. I am so glad Cheyanne was dead in this book because I wanted to jump in and kill her myself during some of Ciara's flashbacks. Cheyanne was just an evil, conniving person.
I really enjoyed this book better then the first. Ciara wasn't nearly as annoying as Addison although near the end she was just as stupid. One thing that I didn't like about this book was the amount of sex in it. It seemed to be a lot more then the first. I don't have a problem with the sex scenes as long as there is a good story to go with it but this was a little excessive in my option. I don't think even Spike could get it up that many times (sorry......Tmi.....lol).
Spike was likable and for those of you who like kink Spike had a little fetish. Another interesting thing about Spike was how he got his name.

All the old gang was around, Jackson, Cade, and Addison of course. The end set up the next book which is Jackson's story. It was a little far fetched and unbelievable(how he and Serenity meet) but I am willing to see where Bella Jewel takes that story. I get the feeling that that book is going to be a lot like the first as far as the main character, Serenity, is concerned. All hints seem to point to the fact that Serenity has had a very bad life which was also the case with Addison.
As far as MC books go I think this is a pretty good series. I have a hard time putting it down and I like the story lines.Some people don't think this series is dark enough for an MC book series but I have a hard time stomaching some of the biker books so this series works great for me.



I don't want to be in your life. I didn't chose you, I chose her.
Ciara, get your motherfuckin ass out here, NOW!