Ugh, done. Finally. Cateful, this review is packed with spoilers.
I guess, this one had a kind of rough start, as the basic setting was exactly the same to the book I read before. The same type of boyfriend, the same best friend, extreme fear of heights and even more stuff/ characteristics.
So naturally, I had to compare both versions and unfortunately, I liked the other one better. Combined with a style of writing that I needed to get used to, I developed some kind of basic reluctance towards Jenny's story.
It didn't really help that Jenny and her best friend Philippa act like crazy preteens - fair enough, but they're late twenties, so no.
After a while, 'the new guy' is introduced. I really didn't like how this was handled. Jenny constantly defends her undying love for her fiancé in front of Philippa over and over again. (Even though he's obviously not 'the one'.) But at the same time, she gets at a moment's notice completelyobsessed with Joe. She scans the room for him ANYWHERE she goes, first thought when an anonymous number called her phone or when handed huge flower bouquet from a delivery guy etc.
She never thinks about her truly loved fiancé at all. How does she even believe herself? So annoying.
Oh boy. Then she starts planning a Beatles themed 16th-birthday-bash for her wedding. And immediately imagines Joe in a Beatles style suit. And thinks about him while shopping for a wedding dress. And all this without realising that her perfect workaholic fiancé might not be the right guy for that kind of party. Dumb dumb dumb.
At this point I started to look forward to the moment her stupid bubble bursts to a tiny pile of shattered dreams.
Joe is the lead singer in a cover band btw. Yeah wow, such an amazingly hot musician. An image of those cringy cover bands that perform at various 'fun events' in my home town pops up in my head.
But soon, Joe proofs that he's really talented. The third time he and Jenny see each other, I think it was (random meeting, not an official date). When he presented her the song he wrote for her. Because he loves her so much. So romantic.
Bit by bit, throwbacks enlighten you about dramatic stuff that happened in the past. Like how she met Matt, who bullied her at school or why her dad is so awful. I couldn't care less, to be honest. I just wanted her to stop.
However, at some point her mother turns up at her doorstep to move in with her. She left Jenny's dad and wants to make up for the past. But Jenny always flees when her mother wants to discuss her miserable childhood. Not once or twice, no, but a million times. She even locks herself in the bathroom one evening. She must have sat there for hours until her mum went to sleep? Ridiculous. So it took ages until you got to know what happened with her father. But as I mentioned earlier, I didn't even care anymore.
Back to the 'love-part'. She still doesn't get anything when Matt bombs her perfect wedding plans in front of her mother. (And just booked a place and date without asking her opinion.)
Blah blah blah and then SERIOUSLY? Suddenly her flatmate Al joins the love triangle by confessing out of the blue that he loved her for ages. Or rather a quadrangle, as there are four people involved by now. And to celebrate this, they casually end up in bed, cheating on Jenny's fiancé.
Nice, Jenny, imaginary affair with Joe, physical one with another guy.
At least she tells Matt and they call off their relationship for a while.
It then got better for a while. There was the funeral of one of her favourite patients from work. Who coincidentally was the granny of school time bully number 1, Steve. Matt, who wants to not call off the wedding (because of deposit he paid at the golf club). But she refuses that at first - good.
So I realised: everything not related to her love life/ torn feelings isn't too bad after all. That was nice to calm down a bit. To give my poor heart a little rest. That constant rage mode was not very relaxing.
Blah blah, then Jenny and Joe get closer at his party. It was so lovely that he wrote another song for her. The lyrics are amazing. And at their official first date I truly believed that fate brought them together. They have SO many crazy similarities! Like bully-worthy names, same outfits whenever they meet, same interests, same everything. They're just meant to be together. *sigh*
Hm hm then some more stuff happened. I already forgot most of it. But that was actually kind of alright. A lot of different events made the story not too predictable.
Aaaaah yes. Another short and awful incident occurred. One day, bully Steve was so touched by what Jenny did for his granny that he gets drunk, leaves his wife (bully bitch no. 1 of their school days) and declares that Jenny is so beautiful and he fancied her since back in the days. And he felt so bad that he ruined her life by buying her virginity for 50 bucks.
What else happened? Ah yeah, her mum suddenly dies. Well, that was tragic and added an interesting twist to the story.
So all in all, a lot of awful stuff happened. But the absolute worst case scenario I dreaded was a reunion with her dad. Like one of those personality turns, forced to build a happy happy end.
Well, we'll never know if that's going to happen, but Jenny organised a nice get-together to talk about everything. This possibly occurring situation was then outscored by an even better unexpected twist! Wow!
It turned out that her mother's little affair at some festival back in the days might be Jenny's father and not her awful awful dad. Nobody knows so far. And her mum lost that guy afterwards and never saw him again. But that's not even that bad. The worst thing is, that he is THAT famous comedian, whose DVD Jenny watched daily when she was lost in her period of deep depression. And he even turned up to her funeral. I'm glad this was the last page. Otherwise I'd have thrown this shit into the next bonfire to roast myself some campfire-bread-of-hate.
I mean, yeah, some twists and unexpected outcomes are great. It's even nice when there are some circles completed in a story. But not absolutely everything and not like this.
Another point I'd like to mention is: It's kind of great that a lot of different events happen in this book, but some of them just lead into nothingness. There was this part about Dave, who was very enthusiastic about an anonymous friendly note he found in his bag. (That was placed there by Jenny.) He planned to do a story about this, as a lot of people received such little notes over the last years. And it was prepared to be some meaningful input to the book, but was then forgotten in the end. Or what happened with Jenny's job situation. Or some other minor things.
Maybe it would have been better to reduce the amount of topics and focus to improve those selected ones? Would have been less crammed and chaotic, I think.