First, let me confess: I was attracted to this book because of its cover, nothing more. I didn't hear someone falling over themselves praising it on the radio or anything. The striking depiction of a loteria card featuring a rose caught my eye on the Choice Reads shelf at the library. Upon reading the premise (a series of vignettes based upon each card) I'd decided to give this a go.
Before I go into detail about what is so very wrong with this book, let me give it credit where it is due: Loteria was a very quick read. I finished it in one night, in part because the vignettes mentioned were very short - which I ate up like potato chips, only to get an emotional stomachache from the (unsatisfying, aggravating, idiotic) ending that I unknowingly raced toward.
Let me quote Wendell Ricketts (another reviewer of this book) because he eloquently described some things that I had trouble putting my finger on.
"Luz’s deeply wounded voice quickly begins to grate: for its self-consciousness, for its canny ability to conceal then reveal the brutal detail with studied timing, for its acute awareness of its sustained note of injured innocence." In, say, House on Mango Street, this childlike voice works for a number of reasons because that work has a number of other qualities which redeem it. In this book, however, such a voice ends up oddly adult in a way that feels ever-so-slightly contrived, perhaps best illustrated by the way in which, at the end of one chapter, she describes herself and her sister as "a statue of two girls trying to do the right thing." Her voice, instead of conveying anything resembling the thoughts an actual 11 year old girl, rings of "Older Male Author Imitating What He Thinks an 11 Year Old Girl Would Say" and which ultimately felt.... off.
I want to dress my review up with all sorts of fancy literary explanations of why this book was not well written, but the fact is I just don't like Luz. I don't like the decisions she makes (past and present) and I don't like the way she acts.
I don't like the way it feels as if Luz purposefully tells these intensely tragic things about her life but then at the same time appears to not give two shits about any of it. One could argue that that's just the way abused children can behave, but I didn't relate to her palpable neutrality to her horrors, her thick thick mask that never once cracks. I longed to see a spark somewhere in Luz, really I did. Some flame of her-ness that would serve a defiant shout to all of it. There was nothing. Incidentally, the only character who does volunteer that spark, who tries to call a spade a spade - Estrella - is the one who dies.
And after all is said and done, all the family counselling that steadfastly does NOT happen, Luz apparently chooses to wait for her father to get out of jail so that she may live with him again. I bleakly interpret such an ending to be a reminder of the futility of escaping one's toxic, toxic culture. I wanted to scream, HE'S THE ONE WHO BLAMED YOU FOR BEING SEXUALLY ABUSED! BUT HE'S THE ONE WHO BEAT OVER AND OVER! DO YOU HAVE A HUGE DEATH WISH?? DO YOU THINK HE IS NOT GOING TO BLAME YOU?? Apparently Luz doesn't give two shits about this either. Her attitude is clear in the way she almost makes the decision to go live in Mexico despite repeatedly refusing to speak Spanish throughout the whole book.
I admit that there were points of luminous beauty that shone at times in the book. I appreciate that Luz's father appears broken rather than evil (not all authors can show this.) Zambrano colorfully details this awkward loteria card world of his in all the way that he knows how, which, for a first-time author, is alright.
But when it comes to those moments of "look at this cultural sorrow" marked throughout the book, I'd like to volunteer another quote of Wendell's here. At times I really felt as if Zambrano "...seems to be standing eternally at the reader’s shoulder, whispering 'Isn’t this dreadful? And yet, isn't it poetic? Isn’t it colorful and so very authentically Mexican? Isn’t it beautifully sad?'"
Well, Zambrano, what's more sad is that there also is no redemption for any of these miserable people that I'd read about for the past couple of hours. Congratulations, Luz, you're well on your way to be one of those miserable adults who stuffs your feelings into your back pocket and then wonder why you have bruises and hate your life.
At least the obligatory pedophile cousin's hand gets blown off.