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236 pages, Kindle Edition
First published September 23, 2013
Why did my mother single me out from all of her other children to abuse? Deep down because I didn't know the answer, I still harboured it like it was my fault.
Why did my mother choose me as her scapegoat and not one of my brothers? I learned through further research that the family scapegoat is usually the most sensitive and most vulnerable of all the children, and often the one who reminds the abusive parent of something within herself she cannot accept. I, being a girl was more sensitive and vulnerable than my male siblings and also the one who reminded my mother of her other female child who had died. Moma most likely blamed herself for allowing Audrey to catch the polio virus, but the burden of that blame was too much for her to bear alone. I was a scapegoat child born of my mother's need to blame something outside herself for all the awful things that had happened to her. This was my answer, my truth, or as close as I was ever going to get.