A Splitting Of The Mind

by shoved2agree

Gerard Way sees the world differently. Alone and institutionalized, Gerard claims that he is being hunted, and that his mind holds the key to existence. Does Gerard really hold such a powerful secret? Or is he just insane like everyone else in the institution? (A Gerard/Frank fanfiction)

Genres: Fan Fiction, Romance, Queer

538 pages, Online Fiction

First published January 1, 2011

Reviews

[audrey · Rating 1 out of 5]

THEY HAVE MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE FANFICTION ON THIS BITCH

[mads · Rating 5 out of 5]

lmao who else cried like a total loser when they read this tho.

[Kiara · Rating 5 out of 5]

it broke my heart but it was worth it

[Emily Hale · Rating 5 out of 5]

I cried... ALOT

[Isabella · Rating 5 out of 5]

this was the only fanfic I've ever read in which I felt psychically Ill when I finished it. It was so emotionally straining on me and it was so well written the entire fic made me upset and I felt as if my body was weighing down and I was going to pass out. I cried so hard as I finished it. If you people read this, be prepared to whip the bleach out. This fic will mess you up. It's so beautiful and so fucking sad; good god. JUST READ IT.

[daisy · Rating 3 out of 5]

This is a reread as I read this in 2015 when I was heavily obsessed with MCR. I remember feeling so many emotions reading it in the past but now that was mostly lost on me as I was not as invested in the characters. However, this was still a really well written piece of fiction. Despite some small grammatical errors due to it being a fan-fiction, there were some legitimately beautiful sentences that could have belonged in a prestigious novel. Despite this, I feel like the middle part of the book was rather slow going and somewhat repetitive and at parts it physically pained me to have to read it due to it being so tedious. I also thought the penultimate chapter was rather rushed and too much stuff happened in such a small time frame. Having said that, I loved the final chapter so much. The ambiguous ending which allows the reader to believe whichever ending they choose was really good.

[Zahra · Rating 5 out of 5]

I died because of this. Was it the best fan fic I've ever read? Yes. Was it the saddest thing I've ever read in my life? Also yes. Would I recommend this? Well it’s really really good and if you like sad stories good for you. Read it. If not, don’t read it.

SPOILERS:

Are “they” real??? Yes or no?!! I need closure. If I decide they’re real I think of all the reasons why they’re fake and vic versa. ALSO I LOVE AND HATE THE FACT THAT FRANK GAVE THE GLOVES AWAY. He’s such a smol bean trying to help other people… 🤧🤧👏 Also, I REALLY REALLY REALLY hope that Dr. Markman and Frank don’t die. I thought I was prepared for this. I thought I had predicted the end, BUT NO. Oh noooooooOOOOOOOoooo. Also, can we talk about Mikey? I feel so bad for him. He didn’t even know it was Gerard but he drew him as a superhero (crying break). Is there a support group for this?? Someone should make one. The ASOTM Support Group. I’ve got to say I’m Not Okay (I Promise)… sorry for the cheesy reference I’m MCR trash. AND NOW ASOTM TRASH. It was one of the best books I’ve ever read. It was so well written and the story was amazing. In fact, I loved it so much I read it one day. ONE. DAY. Who knew one day could bring this much heartbreak. Also, I love the title (schizophrenia literally means split mind so connect the dots for yourself). I’ll never be the same.

[Zena · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is the only fanfic I have ever read, I usually think they're ridiculous. But this one. This one tore my heart and made me question our whole existence. My love for psychology drove me into reading this and I don't regret it at all. It's heartbreaking, beautifully written, almost too hard to believe that a teenager wrote it, and it's so inspiring that it'll leave you overwhelmed with life itself. I love MCR, but when I read this I tried to separate between the characters and the band but eventually found myself connecting them more than ever.

I hope this gets published, I'd be the first to buy it.

[Floortje · Rating 5 out of 5]

You do not need to know the band in order to understand this fic.

Never have I been this attached to the characters in a fanfic before. They felt so real, so human, so.. there. It's such a tragic story and left me not only speechless but also sleepless. It has a pretty big build up and somewhat of an open ending, which I normally don't really like, but is just.. everything. I find myself thinking about this fic even years after finishing it.

[Makayla Jewett · Rating 5 out of 5]

Yes this is a my chemical romance fanfiction. Yes I’m also shocked it’s on here. Yes I did in fact read all of it. It plagued me. It haunted me. It was extremely good.

[Jat Martinez · Rating 1 out of 5]

I think that this concept couldve been executed better without the offensive portrayals of mental illness and weirdass age gap. Probably one of the worst fics ive ever read I have no idea why its so popular with fans. I will give the author the benefit of the doubt that they were 15 when they wrote it. I would honestly be interested if the author rewrote it and put a little more thought into the concept. The characters honestly dont have much depth and I kind of though the presidential plot twist was a little weird. We as a society must stop killing off Mikey Way in fics tbh. Also thought Mikeys character was mildly offensive but maybe thats just me. I feel like this concept could MAYBE be pulled of with a more mature writer and less plotholes. Seriously the escaping the psych ward arc was so rushed and I really do feel like those parts had a lot of potential. I feel that the presidential plot twist couldve had better foreshadowing aswell but honestly the whole read was just a let down. The open ending was frusterating also. I feel sometimes authors just cant pull off open endings and this is one of those times. All in all this is one of my least favorite reads.

[Jay V · Rating 5 out of 5]

I usually don't read fanfics more than once, but I found myself thinking about it a few months after the first read that I couldn't help myself. It is so incredibly well written. I love how it's so much more than just Frerard smut (I also love how Frank isn't even mentioned in the book's description). I'm honestly surprised that the author hasn't gotten this published.

[glitch · Rating 5 out of 5]

okay there is one fact about me and it's that i don't cry, or get overly emotional over books/fanfics. but this one left me sobbing and i had that horrible pain in my heart that just didn't go away. it has been the best fanfiction i have ever read and i doubt i'll find another book that has the same emotional toll on me like asotm. even though it broke my heart into little pieces and literally destroyed me, i love it with all my heart and will be rereading soon. really recommend!!

[Moony Lupin · Rating 5 out of 5]

I… *sobs*
I don’t even know what to say

[m harvey · Rating 2 out of 5]

it was like a bad car accident, i couldnt look away. this was genuinely so buns (only got a second star bc the writing did improve from the first few chapters to the end thank GOD) although the latter half was okay. the entirety of the first half was enough to tank it for me, though. i still don’t quite get the fandom obsession with this one but i got through it and thats what matters

THINGS I HATEDDDDD
- weirdass age gap
- how frank was portrayed as a victim
- how mikey’s character was handled. smth about it felt very icky
- everyone and their mama from the emo/pop-punk-verse being in this
- the rushed ending
- the ambiguity on frank’s last visit being a hallucination (was not clear at all until i read the FAQ)
- them just. escaping. and markman letting them???
- HIM BEING THE PRESIDENT’S SON KILLED ME

[Ashmiya Frost · Rating 5 out of 5]

I remember reading this fanfiction a long time ago; it was for the sake of satiating that Frerard fix. I decided to read it again years later after seeing MCR live. I believe the circumstances are completely different, but the original awe I felt still persists. First and foremost, I have to warn you all, there are applicable triggers (sexual assault, rape, PTSD, abuse, etc.) so please be aware of it before proceeding!

This book is unique and explores the healing process. It is not a guide to mental health and neither is it an accurate representation of mental illness but its sentiment still sticks. It's witty and sardonic yet dark and mysterious all at once. I believe the suspense, angst and anxiety in this book is palpable and is probably why I simply couldn't put it down. I think knowing certain spoiler details from the end make understanding the book from the start much easier; however, from the first read it is quite the shock.

The two boys run and search for freedom. It's comforting in its own weird way. I'd say the only detail I am not fond of it the ages of the boys. Had they both been 18 or older, it would have been easier to read. It isn't sexual, it's innocent and hopeful. They effectively grow up together in the short amount of time they spend with one another.

Honestly, my heart broke into a million pieces after finishing it and I honestly wanted to start once again from the top; finishing the book felt like letting go of my boys, but finishing it is also a healing process itself. Although some details leave me questioning and wondering, I believe it is executed perfectly for what the author had intended!

[jay · Rating 2 out of 5]

dont know why everyone seems to think this is like peak literature or something cause ummm... and dont get me wrong im not opposed to mcr fics and bandom fics and have read a LOT but just because this was decently written and sad as hell doesn't mean it was GOOD. like. he was the presidents son for christ sake like i still don't know why that was even a plot point.

and why does no one ever say anything about the wierd ass age gap between them like? not to mention the rly innacurate ways they portray mental illness and the various issues the characters have I won't get into... being sad doesn't mean somethings good and yeah sure it's memorable I mean I read this shit YEARS ago and I still think about it on a regular basis but that doesn't mean it's necessarily good and it's a little odd if you don't notice the glaringly obvious flaws but to each their own

[Gee · Rating 5 out of 5]

this storyline, the characters. i felt so emotionally connected to the characters. this being a frerard is even better. i read this fic a couple years ago on wattpad and i still always end up crying. 10/10 would recommend

[Deema · Rating 5 out of 5]

THIS FIC IS LIFEEEEEE

[Artur · Rating 3 out of 5]

wtf am i doing to myself huh

[Alfa Kragh-Müller · Rating 5 out of 5]

Asotm?!?Omg!!! 12 year old me LOVED this book😭🙏

[isysborba · Rating 3 out of 5]

(i did this review as a joke, cause im not used to write serious reviews, so i thought it would be funny if i make a review of an mcr fic)

Last year, i read the fanfic All The Young Dudes, which completely changed my perspective on this section of literature.
But one thing i didn't like, and still don't like, are fanfics and stories with real people. i think it's disrespectful to the people involved. So what prompted me to read this story? My Chemical Romance (an emocore/alternative rock band) is my favorite band, and i'm very interested in the internet fanbase, until i read the synopsis, and i was pleased, and had certainly been curious.

The story tells about Gerard Way (vocalist of the band), a boy who lives in an asylum and is diagnosed with schizophrenia, and has hallucinations about a group (Them) trying to steal his secrets, Gerard is a boy known for being rude, he doesn't speak because that would get their attention. The work really begins with the arrival of Frank Iero, who was a victim.

The story is full of twists and turns and promotes various emotions in the reader, including sadness and even disgust, but overall, it is a romance story. Certainly a bit harsh for dealing with issues such as psychological problems, the story is almost entirely set in an asylum.

Things that bothered me;
First thing, it's not really a defect, it's entirely my problem and certainly futile. The appearance of members of other bands related to MCR. i know, i know, but i was already bothered by the fact that the band members were there, every time someone new showed up i burst out laughing. Such artists: Hayley Williams (paramore), Brendon Urie (Panic! at the Disco), Bert McCracken (The Used) and Jared Leto (Thirty seconds to Mars).
The excessive use of slang, punctuation and profanity, even if I consider it a defect, I take into account that it is a Fanfic written in 2007.
Last year, i read the fanfic All The Young Dudes, which completely changed my perspective on this section of literature.
But one thing i didn't like, and still don't like, are fanfics and stories with real people. i think it's disrespectful to the people involved. So what prompted me to read this story? My Chemical Romance (an emocore/alternative rock band) is my favorite band, and i'm very interested in the internet fanbase, until i read the synopsis, and i was pleased, and had certainly been curious.

The story tells about Gerard Way (vocalist of the band), a boy who lives in an asylum and is diagnosed with schizophrenia, and has hallucinations about a group (Them) trying to steal his secrets, Gerard is a boy known for being rude, he doesn't speak because that would get their attention. The work really begins with the arrival of Frank Iero, who was a victim.

The fanfiction is full of twists and turns and promotes various emotions in the reader, including sadness and even disgust, but overall, it is a romance story. Certainly a bit harsh for dealing with issues such as psychological problems, the story is almost entirely set in an asylum.

Things that bothered me;
First thing, it's not really a defect, it's entirely my problem and certainly futile. The appearance of members of other bands related to MCR. i know, i know, but i was already bothered by the fact that the band members were there, every time someone new showed up i burst out laughing. Such artists: Hayley Williams (paramore), Brendon Urie (Panic! at the Disco), Bert McCracken (The Used) and Jared Leto (Thirty seconds to Mars).
The excessive use of slang, punctuation and profanity, even if I consider it a defect, I take into account that it is a Fanfic written in 2007.

Many people talk about this fanfic being problematic, i also found some problems with some situations related mainly to the character of Frank, but i do not believe that this work was made for the education of all the serious subjects addressed here.

But in conclusion, it impressed me a lot, more because it is a fanfic of a band very dear to me, but if you don't know the band or the members, this will not affect your experience, even though the fanfic is inspired by the ''Cubicles'' song , which i recommend checking out.iI believe the author can make good use of the work, i'll be happy to read it again in a book format, and without being haunted by the Jared Leto's presence while reading.

[C.S. Flores · Rating 3 out of 5]

Yo soy completamente transparente con lo que leo.

Y si, esto es una fan fiction del 2011 de My Chemical Romance. ¿Por qué la leí? Estaba viendo vídeos en TikTok y veía que las personas mencionaban cómo hay mucho talento literario en plataformas como AO3, y dije ¿por qué no?

Cabe mencionar que no todo en este libro es mi ‘cup of tea’, sobre todo situaciones muuuy alejadas de la realidad. Pero lo que si tengo que decir es que este libro habla sobre el deterioro de salud mental del personaje principal, que en mi opinión estuvo bien plasmado. La lucha entre querer aceptar su realidad y al mismo tiempo no poder entender la idea de que hay algo distinto con su cerebro. Sin embargo, creo qué hay situaciones en las que ciertos diagnósticos psiquiátricos son presentados de manera un poco ofensiva o incorrecta. Creo que no se puede como tal escribir de una experiencia no vivida, se debe tratar con respeto. Considerando que esto fue escrito por una adolescente, claro que se nota y hay muchas cosas que caben en un área moralmente gris.

Interesante, aunque la fan fiction no es del todo para mi. Pero bueno, siempre hay que intentar algo nuevo. Esto me gustó por el hecho de la experiencia de entender un poco más a quien escribe estas historias.

¿Y por qué no? 3/5 ⭐️ (soporten). No voy a negar que me mantuvo en el borde de mi asiento el querer saber si lo que pasaba era real o una alucinación. Podría mejorar si se toman en serio temas de salud mental.

[Adansrov · Rating 5 out of 5]

Mi puto Imperio romano. El fic emo que me cambió la vida. No hay día que no piense en Gerard esquizo y Markman desde que tengo 15 años. Gracias al ser de luz que tradujo semejante obra de arte en Wattpad.

[Saeveko · Rating 2 out of 5]

This was ass and I’m never trusting the mcr fandom again about what fanfics they think are the epitome of great fanfiction/literature.


I’m also honestly surprised none of the Fall out boy‘s made any appearance. I was soooo ready for Pete or Patrick lol
2.5 stars

[Ellis Johnson · Rating 5 out of 5]

i have no words
this fic gets me everytime


sure ur a little crazy gerard but i love u all the same

[Nikita · Rating 5 out of 5]

Weirdly good

[riley :) · Rating 5 out of 5]

Bro

[``` · Rating 4 out of 5]

Third time reading this fanfic I didn't know it was up here too😭😭😭

[Alma Azizi · Rating 5 out of 5]

I only listened to 2 song all througout This and it was : i dont love you & brother. I have never felt more like a Virgin😍🦅