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USING THIS TO CONTINUE MY REVIEW REACTION OF "Tough Guy(Game Changers#3) " by Rachel Reid.
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I'm on page 120.
They're in Fabian's apartment.
Reminiscing about their past.
About to get intimate with each other.
Awwshit, Ryan wanting Fabian but holds back because of how insecure he is. Fuuck.
Both admitting that they had a crush on each other when they were teens and saying they wanted to kiss each other at the ferry after that recital.
SHIIT! and it would have been each other's first kiss!? FUUCK!? THEIR FIST FUCKING KISS WOULD HAVE BEEN SPECIAL! GODDAMMIT.
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME RYAN!?
FUCKING LEAVING FABIAN AFTER BOTH OF YOU CONFESSED TO EACH OTHER!?
He could have just talked to Fabian about his insecurities in bed, Fabian would understand.
ALSO, WHATTHEFUCK WAS RYAN TALKING ABOUT! ABOUT THEM TURNING INTO A ONE NIGHT STAND!? NO! YOU'VE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR WHILE. HANGED OUT AND GOT TO KNOW EACH OTHER PRETTY WELL, IT COULD HAVE BEEN A SPECIAL NIGHT...
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124 pages in.
I really hope that Fabian can read between the lines and understand and guess that Ryan has anxiety in bed.
Oh thank God that Fabian is already guessing low self esteem and anxiety problems.
BINGO!
Vanessa also coming through, saying how entranced Ryan was during his performance and maybe that Ryan was pushing himself out of his comfort zone for Fabian.
Haha, Fabian thinking want he wants with Ryan. The thought of dating and showing him to his parents making him so happy.
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It's so bad that Ryan just gave up on his image. Gave up trying to look good for people he likes.
It's nice that he's gonna try and get a clean haircut and maybe keep groom his beard a bit.
Ah! Good that Ryan's going with Wyatt to the community center. Play and help out kids.
Ryan needs this. Clear his mind for a bit.
Good that they're messaging Hi to each other. Keeping that connection open and avoiding cutting of communication entirely.
Aww, I love that they're being honest about their feeling about that night, both saying that they keep thinking bout it and didn't like the way it ended.
They're planning on meeting again on late Saturday after both their parties. Okay!
I like that Ryan can flirt with Fabian over text. Adorable.
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133 pages in.
LMFAOO! Wyatt saying that he looks like bearded Captain America now instead of Stoic from HTTYD. It's nice that he's grooming himself now.
FOR THE RECORD I LOVE STOIC'S HAIR AND BEARD fr.
Nice that he's seriously taking the advice of the hairstylist he chose and buying products he recommended for his hair and beard. Love that his beard smells like hazelnuts
Fucking good that Ryan feels confident with his new cleaner look.
COMMUNITY CENTER TIME!
Love this! Just having fun and playing hockey with kids.
Good that Ryan wants to come with Wyatt again next time he visits the center.
Ohboy... It's Kent's bday party.
Lmao, Ryan hoping that the party would be chill. He so real for this. I always think like this when going to events, hoping it's quiet and not alot of people.
But of course it won't.
Fucking good that Ryan is questioning himself as to why he's even at this party anyway when he could be with Fabian and his friends. Where he truly wants to be.
Thank God Ryan ditched the party, made it to the Force to meet Fabian.
So special how Ryan eventually let loose dancing with Fabian. Having so much fun together.
OHSHIT! They're going to Ryan's place, excited about what the new furniture looks like.
So cute that Ryan bravely spun Fabian around and kissed him in the way back home.
Lmao. Ryan loosing all his courage when they're finally in his apartment. Hilarious how he's moving so stiff now.
I like that Ryan decided that he would let his body take over, turn his brain off, let Fabian guide him and see what happens. Okay!
Haha, Ryan just wanting to kiss all night, so anxious about telling Fabian his clinical issues..
Super sweet that Fabian is okay with taking things slow and understands how anxious Ryan is.
OH WOW! RYAN'S ACTUALLY FULLY OPENING UP ABOUT HIS BODY ISSUES.
It must be fucking tough to admit that you have a hard time climaxing even if it feels good.
So fucking nice that Fabian understands this. Even opening up about his issues.
Aww, I love how accommodating Fabian is being when they're doing it, respecting Ryan's boundaries and doing what Ryan said he likes.
Letting Ryan explore his body and elttig him set the pace.
Hahaha, Ryan warning Fabian that his dick looks weird before Fabian takes it out. Hilarious and sad really.
Real good that Fabian saw nothing wrong with it. Even thinking that it was glorious.
Lmao, Fabian talking to Ryan's dick.
I love how they ended the night, Fabian sleepy after coming, waking in and out hearing Ryan shower and clean up.
Then heading to bed with him and saying it was fine that he didn't got off, saying thank and falling asleep together. Wonderful.
Okay! Good first time together.
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164 pages in.
Jesus christ, Ryan saying that last night wouldn't probably mean too much for Fabian and that he would move on now that the itch has been scratched.
STOP WITH THAT KIND OF ATTITUDE!
At least they're having fun this morning, Ryan so amused of Fabian running around dick flopping everywhere trying to remove last night's makeup.
And even showering together and cleaning each other.
Adorable how Fabian sees making Ryan come a challenge.
Love this little domestic morning they're having, Ryan cooking them breakfast while they both joked and laugh around.
So wonderful how how they're just so comfortable with each other.
Awwww, reminiscing the day when they were teens, how obsessed Ryan was with Fabian and how Fabian was surprised at how soft and shy Ryan was.
FUCKING ADORABLE.
Awwshit, Ryan admitting that he was the first boy he wanted to kiss. Fabian ksit tearing up at this.
Good that that Fabian's saying sorry for being a judgemental prick back then.
Real good that they're talking about how shitty Fabian's parents are, like goddamn! Being so proud of the rando kid hockey player whenever they achieve something great and just neglecting your own child. Yikes...
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181 pages in.
Really Fabian!
I don't like how he immediately told his friends about Ryan's insecurities on bed.
Awesome that he's been invited to play in a winter music festival and has a number of performances banned and building a mini tour around it.
LMFAO! So nice to see that Shane and Ilya launching their charity and there plan underway. They're starting to get friendly in public and shit.
Good for them.
OH WOW! Ryan saying that he's gay to Kent and in front of all his teammates, standing up to them speculating whether Shane was gay or not.
WAY TO GO RYAN! He's getting braver.
Aww, fucking love how he said to Wyatt that homophobic assholes wouldn't fly anymore when the biggest stars like Scott Hunter are gay.
LMAO! Just wait when Shane and Ilya come out...
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Hihihi, Ryan actually talking dirty to Fabian is adorable. Fucking good to see him have so much fun and get all hot during sex.
HOLYSHIT! Ryan actually coming this time!
Happy that he's finally having good and positive experience during sex.
FUCKING SEE! THAT SEX TOY WAS DANGEROUS!
FABIAN SHOULD BE GETTING PAID FOR THE REVIEWS.
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Aww, Ryan being so happy after years of just going through the motions, now he sees a bright colorful future full of possibilities with Fabian.
WOAH! Ryan being invited to Bargain Brunch. Huge deal.
Fabian seeing how well Ryan fit into his group of friends. Wonderful.
Oh, Fabian wants Ryan to walk away from hockey...
Honestly I don't think Ryan is ready to walk away from hockey. He really wanted be a defenseman too.
He needs to slowly talk Ryan what he actually wants to do. Good that he decided to to take an interest in Ryan's career.
Jesus, Ryan thinking that he didn't belong with Fabian's friends, thinking he had nothing to contribute while they talk about music and art.
THIS IS THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF WHAT FABIAN WAS THINKING!!! Fabian thought that Ryan fitted so well with his friends....
NOT GOOD.
Yikes! Ryan actually scared to be fighting this Harvey guy who is legit unhinged. It's good that he's studying how he fights and preparing for their inevitable clash.
Mygod...So sad that Ryan doesn't want to watch videos of him and Harvey's fights in the past. Being scared of how terrifying he looks.
Still so fucking funny that fights are actually a part of hockey.
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212 pages in.
Lmao, Ryan talking to Duncan saying they don't have to fight.
JESUS CHRIST! RYAN GETTING Headbutted. Duncan pissed off because Ryan is not engaging.
Fabian so fucking terrified of watching him play and get hurt.
Not good that Ryan's easily replaceable.
I really don't know what Ryan would do...we'll see.
Aww, them comforting each other, cuddling in bed.
Saying that they felt a relief when they saw each other again after years of not knowing what was missing, they found each other.
This so fucking special.
---
Yikes, Fabian searching up videos of Ryan's fights.
Good that he's facing this side of Ryan.
Jesus christ, Ryan noticing Fabian was shaking after he watch his videos. Fabian gay get the image of blood on Ryan's fingers...
Cute that Fabian wrote a love song being inspired by Ryan and Ryan being so happy that he inspired him.
Aww, them thinking about what would it be like if they were together when they were teens.
I love how Ryan used to secretly listen to Fabian when he practiced violin.
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OH WOW! Ryan having actual fun playing hockey again. And thinks that this December is the best his career has ever been.
Proud of our guy.
Awesome to see Ryan's a regular now at the community center.
Love that he's going out with Fabian along with his friends to art exhibits, performances and all sorts of interesting events.
Happy that he's starting to feel that he belongs with Fabian's friends.
And he and Fabian's relationship just keeps on growing. I like that he prefers Fabian's homey apartment rather than his own.
NOOO!
Wyatt being traded to Ottawa.
SHIT! NOW HE'S GONNA BE FUCKING ALONE IN THE TEAM. FUCK!
Don't like how he's alone for Christmas, Fabian's flew back home. HE SHOULD'VE COME WITH HIM BACK TO THEIR HOMETOWN! FUCK ALL HIS PLANE TROUBLES AND THEIR LITTLE TOWN'S EXPECTATIONS OF HIM!
GODDAMMIT! FABIAN COULD HAVE BRAGGED HIM OUT TO HIS PARENTS!
He should visit the community center!??
Yikes! Ryan throwing out his back when he bent down to pick up a damn sock. Kinda funny ngl.
WHATTHEFUCK IS RYAN ON ABOUT!?
Thinking that he and Fabian wouldn't last because they're to different... NAH! THAT'S WHY YOU TWO WORK!
Don't like how Ryan's is always negative when he's left alone.
Irritating that Fabian's family is kinda subtlety interrogating him about their relationship.
His parents calling Ryan weird and possibly a drug addict... WTF!?
JESUS H CHRIST! HIS OLDER SISTER AND HER HUSBAND, PAUL LAUGHING REMEMBERING RYAN'S MELTDOWN LAST YEAR!
FUCKING ASSHOLE FAMILY.
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240 pages in.
So fucking reassuring that Ryan has Fabian now.
With how the world sees Ryan, it's heaven that Fabian is there to truly see our Ryan Price.
Fuck everyone else.
Haha, I like that Ryan got off listening to Fabian's fantasies of them in the past.
It's good that he's discovering things that he likes with Fabian.
OH SHIT!
They're finally talking about what happened to Ryan.
Hmm, so he was triggered by that stupid "Pay the Price" chant. Plus he was miserable and lonely in that time.
It's good that he's seeing a therapist about this. And if course he has Fabian now. Both can help him during panic attacks.
NOT GOOD THAT HE'S BACK IS KINDA FUCKED UP AND HE'S NOT TELLING FABIAN ABOUT THIS SHIT.
Good that Fabian notices he's hiding the pain.
I'm worried that he'll have permanent damage if he keeps pushing himself further. SHIT!
Good that Fabian knows it's Ryan's decision whether he quits hockey or not.
Ah, so the old Anne of Green Gables book is the copy his mom used to read to him. And he's using it now for comfort.
FUCK! NOW THEY'RE FIGHTING OVER RYAN'S BACK. FIGHTING BECAUSE RYAN'S DESTROYING HIS BODY FOR HOCKEY.
WHATTHEFUCK JUST HAPPENED!?
THEY'RE OVER NOW!?
THAT WAS SO FUCKING FAST...
Ryan saying that he's nothing without hockey. SHIT! He can't see what Fabian sees in him, a sweet and wonderful man.
THIS AINT GOOD.
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FUCKSHIT! RYAN'S TOTALLY ALONE NOW. NO FABIAN AND NO WYATT.
Ohshit! RIP Duncan Harvey.
I bet hockey pushed him into suicide.
Yikes...
Nice to see that Ryan's back is healing with proper rest.
HE REALLY SHOULD HIRE A PERSONAL TRAINER LUTSIDE OF HIS SHITTY TEAM. SOMEONE WHO KEEPS A PROPER LOOK OUT FOR HIS BODY, SEPARTED FROM ANY TEAM HE'S IN.
I really don't know what to do about Fabian not handling hockey and how brutal hockey is. It's understandable though.
IT'S HARD TO ACCEPT THAT YOUR GENTLE BOYFRIEND IS PART OF THAT WORLD.
Yikes, Harvey's funeral almost empty. Just Coaches and no friends. Hmm, maybe Duncan was actually friends with these Coaches. Yeah I'd like to think that.
Really good that Ilya Rozanov is here. He'd understand how fucked up suicide is.
Terrifying how Ryan is thinking that what happened to Duncan may be his future.
LET'S GO ILYA!!!
HE'S FUCKING RIGHT THAT MENTAL ILLNESS ISN'T TALK MUCH ABOUT IN HOCKEY.
Makes me a little better that Ilya and Shane are making big moves to spread awareness about mental health with their charity.
Aww, Ilya inviting Ryan to help him and Shane with their hockey camps for kids.
This is gonna be good for Ryan.
Nice that the hockey camps will also teach kids about tolerance.
OHWOW! Ryan finally deciding to quit hockey.
He has alot of money saved, he can live comfortably for a long time while he figure out what he truly wants to do with his life.
FUCKING GOOD.
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255 pages in.
Awesome to see Fabian performing in a huge crowd. His career just keeps on growing.
Haha, they're so dramatic, Ryan showing up to Fabian big performance. Fabian going directly down stage to get to his lover while everyone watches and congratulate him.
So Ryan truly is quitting hickey and is on the process to quit, no more games.
Kinda afraid that his manager will pull some bullshit contract so that he'll be trapped until it ends.
Good that Fabian is making sure that Ryan knows that quitting hockey isn't why Fabian's with him.
So sweet that they finally said I love you to each other.
AWWWMYGOD!
I LOVE VERY MUCH THAT THEY'RE GONNA GO ON A CROSS COUNTRY TRIP IN RYAN'S CAR FOR FABIAN'S MUSIC TOUR.
WONDERFUL!
Ryan's need to take a break, get his mind off thing, relax and support Fabian's music.
SO FUCKING HAPPY FOR THEM.
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EPILOGUE.
Ah! Ryan's at one Shane and Ilya's hockey camp. His first day.
Nice that Wyatt's there too. Good to know that he's doing awesome in Ottawa with Ilya.
I love that he loves teaching kids hockey.
Sharing some of his techniques and shit.
Love that Ryan's thinking that they're making hockey positive and inclusive for everyone in this camp. Fucking love this!
A new found cause for Ryan.
LMFAOO! RYAN WALKING IN ON ILYA AND SHANE.
Super nice that he knows.
Also Shane and Ilya must feel good about this too, more people are knowing that they're together and their like ally circle keeps on growing.
Ah! Fabian's already on tour.
They're in the city for a week and Ryan's gonna help out at the camp for a week before they drive to Atlantic Canada to continue Fabian's tour.
Adorable that Fabian's already looking at huge apartments for them to make a home out of. Wonderful.
I like how this ended, them going back to their hotel room after both had an exhausting day.
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Ok book.
Although it kinda feels like we're missing a huge chunk. WE NEED SOME FLASHBACKS TO WHEN THEY WERE LIVING TOGETHER.
What each other thought of the other whne they first meet.
How teen Ryan approached Fabian.
REALLY WANTED TO SEE HOW ANXIOUS AND INTIMIDATED RYAN WAS WITH FABIAN ABCK THEN.
Also wanted to see all those awkward moments of Ryan back then. THAT WOULD BE FUNNY AND CUTE!
Wish we saw how horrible the hockey world was after Ryan's panic attack last year.
Their break up and reuniting kinda felt rushed ngl.
Wish we saw more of those cold days when Ryan was alone at Christmas and the day when they were split.
That's it.
Happy for these two.
***
USING THIS TO CONTINUE MY REVIEW REACTION OF "Tough Guy(Game Changers#3) " by Rachel Reid.
***
I'm on page 120.
They're in Fabian's apartment.
Reminiscing about their past.
About to get intimate with each other.
Awwshit, Ryan wanting Fabian but holds back because of how insecure he is. Fuuck.
Both admitting that they had a crush on each other when they were teens and saying they wanted to kiss each other at the ferry after that recital.
SHIIT! and it would have been each other's first kiss!? FUUCK!? THEIR FIST FUCKING KISS WOULD HAVE BEEN SPECIAL! GODDAMMIT.
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME RYAN!?
FUCKING LEAVING FABIAN AFTER BOTH OF YOU CONFESSED TO EACH OTHER!?
He could have just talked to Fabian about his insecurities in bed, Fabian would understand.
ALSO, WHATTHEFUCK WAS RYAN TALKING ABOUT! ABOUT THEM TURNING INTO A ONE NIGHT STAND!? NO! YOU'VE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR WHILE. HANGED OUT AND GOT TO KNOW EACH OTHER PRETTY WELL, IT COULD HAVE BEEN A SPECIAL NIGHT...
---
124 pages in.
I really hope that Fabian can read between the lines and understand and guess that Ryan has anxiety in bed.
Oh thank God that Fabian is already guessing low self esteem and anxiety problems.
BINGO!
Vanessa also coming through, saying how entranced Ryan was during his performance and maybe that Ryan was pushing himself out of his comfort zone for Fabian.
Haha, Fabian thinking want he wants with Ryan. The thought of dating and showing him to his parents making him so happy.
---
It's so bad that Ryan just gave up on his image. Gave up trying to look good for people he likes.
It's nice that he's gonna try and get a clean haircut and maybe keep groom his beard a bit.
Ah! Good that Ryan's going with Wyatt to the community center. Play and help out kids.
Ryan needs this. Clear his mind for a bit.
Good that they're messaging Hi to each other. Keeping that connection open and avoiding cutting of communication entirely.
Aww, I love that they're being honest about their feeling about that night, both saying that they keep thinking bout it and didn't like the way it ended.
They're planning on meeting again on late Saturday after both their parties. Okay!
I like that Ryan can flirt with Fabian over text. Adorable.
---
133 pages in.
LMFAOO! Wyatt saying that he looks like bearded Captain America now instead of Stoic from HTTYD. It's nice that he's grooming himself now.
FOR THE RECORD I LOVE STOIC'S HAIR AND BEARD fr.
Nice that he's seriously taking the advice of the hairstylist he chose and buying products he recommended for his hair and beard. Love that his beard smells like hazelnuts
Fucking good that Ryan feels confident with his new cleaner look.
COMMUNITY CENTER TIME!
Love this! Just having fun and playing hockey with kids.
Good that Ryan wants to come with Wyatt again next time he visits the center.
Ohboy... It's Kent's bday party.
Lmao, Ryan hoping that the party would be chill. He so real for this. I always think like this when going to events, hoping it's quiet and not alot of people.
But of course it won't.
Fucking good that Ryan is questioning himself as to why he's even at this party anyway when he could be with Fabian and his friends. Where he truly wants to be.
Thank God Ryan ditched the party, made it to the Force to meet Fabian.
So special how Ryan eventually let loose dancing with Fabian. Having so much fun together.
OHSHIT! They're going to Ryan's place, excited about what the new furniture looks like.
So cute that Ryan bravely spun Fabian around and kissed him in the way back home.
Lmao. Ryan loosing all his courage when they're finally in his apartment. Hilarious how he's moving so stiff now.
I like that Ryan decided that he would let his body take over, turn his brain off, let Fabian guide him and see what happens. Okay!
Haha, Ryan just wanting to kiss all night, so anxious about telling Fabian his clinical issues..
Super sweet that Fabian is okay with taking things slow and understands how anxious Ryan is.
OH WOW! RYAN'S ACTUALLY FULLY OPENING UP ABOUT HIS BODY ISSUES.
It must be fucking tough to admit that you have a hard time climaxing even if it feels good.
So fucking nice that Fabian understands this. Even opening up about his issues.
Aww, I love how accommodating Fabian is being when they're doing it, respecting Ryan's boundaries and doing what Ryan said he likes.
Letting Ryan explore his body and elttig him set the pace.
Hahaha, Ryan warning Fabian that his dick looks weird before Fabian takes it out. Hilarious and sad really.
Real good that Fabian saw nothing wrong with it. Even thinking that it was glorious.
Lmao, Fabian talking to Ryan's dick.
I love how they ended the night, Fabian sleepy after coming, waking in and out hearing Ryan shower and clean up.
Then heading to bed with him and saying it was fine that he didn't got off, saying thank and falling asleep together. Wonderful.
Okay! Good first time together.
---
164 pages in.
Jesus christ, Ryan saying that last night wouldn't probably mean too much for Fabian and that he would move on now that the itch has been scratched.
STOP WITH THAT KIND OF ATTITUDE!
At least they're having fun this morning, Ryan so amused of Fabian running around dick flopping everywhere trying to remove last night's makeup.
And even showering together and cleaning each other.
Adorable how Fabian sees making Ryan come a challenge.
Love this little domestic morning they're having, Ryan cooking them breakfast while they both joked and laugh around.
So wonderful how how they're just so comfortable with each other.
Awwww, reminiscing the day when they were teens, how obsessed Ryan was with Fabian and how Fabian was surprised at how soft and shy Ryan was.
FUCKING ADORABLE.
Awwshit, Ryan admitting that he was the first boy he wanted to kiss. Fabian ksit tearing up at this.
Good that that Fabian's saying sorry for being a judgemental prick back then.
Real good that they're talking about how shitty Fabian's parents are, like goddamn! Being so proud of the rando kid hockey player whenever they achieve something great and just neglecting your own child. Yikes...
---
181 pages in.
Really Fabian!
I don't like how he immediately told his friends about Ryan's insecurities on bed.
Awesome that he's been invited to play in a winter music festival and has a number of performances banned and building a mini tour around it.
LMFAO! So nice to see that Shane and Ilya launching their charity and there plan underway. They're starting to get friendly in public and shit.
Good for them.
OH WOW! Ryan saying that he's gay to Kent and in front of all his teammates, standing up to them speculating whether Shane was gay or not.
WAY TO GO RYAN! He's getting braver.
Aww, fucking love how he said to Wyatt that homophobic assholes wouldn't fly anymore when the biggest stars like Scott Hunter are gay.
LMAO! Just wait when Shane and Ilya come out...
---
Hihihi, Ryan actually talking dirty to Fabian is adorable. Fucking good to see him have so much fun and get all hot during sex.
HOLYSHIT! Ryan actually coming this time!
Happy that he's finally having good and positive experience during sex.
FUCKING SEE! THAT SEX TOY WAS DANGEROUS!
FABIAN SHOULD BE GETTING PAID FOR THE REVIEWS.
---
Aww, Ryan being so happy after years of just going through the motions, now he sees a bright colorful future full of possibilities with Fabian.
WOAH! Ryan being invited to Bargain Brunch. Huge deal.
Fabian seeing how well Ryan fit into his group of friends. Wonderful.
Oh, Fabian wants Ryan to walk away from hockey...
Honestly I don't think Ryan is ready to walk away from hockey. He really wanted be a defenseman too.
He needs to slowly talk Ryan what he actually wants to do. Good that he decided to to take an interest in Ryan's career.
Jesus, Ryan thinking that he didn't belong with Fabian's friends, thinking he had nothing to contribute while they talk about music and art.
THIS IS THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF WHAT FABIAN WAS THINKING!!! Fabian thought that Ryan fitted so well with his friends....
NOT GOOD.
Yikes! Ryan actually scared to be fighting this Harvey guy who is legit unhinged. It's good that he's studying how he fights and preparing for their inevitable clash.
Mygod...So sad that Ryan doesn't want to watch videos of him and Harvey's fights in the past. Being scared of how terrifying he looks.
Still so fucking funny that fights are actually a part of hockey.
---
212 pages in.
Lmao, Ryan talking to Duncan saying they don't have to fight.
JESUS CHRIST! RYAN GETTING Headbutted. Duncan pissed off because Ryan is not engaging.
Fabian so fucking terrified of watching him play and get hurt.
Not good that Ryan's easily replaceable.
I really don't know what Ryan would do...we'll see.
Aww, them comforting each other, cuddling in bed.
Saying that they felt a relief when they saw each other again after years of not knowing what was missing, they found each other.
This so fucking special.
---
Yikes, Fabian searching up videos of Ryan's fights.
Good that he's facing this side of Ryan.
Jesus christ, Ryan noticing Fabian was shaking after he watch his videos. Fabian gay get the image of blood on Ryan's fingers...
Cute that Fabian wrote a love song being inspired by Ryan and Ryan being so happy that he inspired him.
Aww, them thinking about what would it be like if they were together when they were teens.
I love how Ryan used to secretly listen to Fabian when he practiced violin.
---
OH WOW! Ryan having actual fun playing hockey again. And thinks that this December is the best his career has ever been.
Proud of our guy.
Awesome to see Ryan's a regular now at the community center.
Love that he's going out with Fabian along with his friends to art exhibits, performances and all sorts of interesting events.
Happy that he's starting to feel that he belongs with Fabian's friends.
And he and Fabian's relationship just keeps on growing. I like that he prefers Fabian's homey apartment rather than his own.
NOOO!
Wyatt being traded to Ottawa.
SHIT! NOW HE'S GONNA BE FUCKING ALONE IN THE TEAM. FUCK!
Don't like how he's alone for Christmas, Fabian's flew back home. HE SHOULD'VE COME WITH HIM BACK TO THEIR HOMETOWN! FUCK ALL HIS PLANE TROUBLES AND THEIR LITTLE TOWN'S EXPECTATIONS OF HIM!
GODDAMMIT! FABIAN COULD HAVE BRAGGED HIM OUT TO HIS PARENTS!
He should visit the community center!??
Yikes! Ryan throwing out his back when he bent down to pick up a damn sock. Kinda funny ngl.
WHATTHEFUCK IS RYAN ON ABOUT!?
Thinking that he and Fabian wouldn't last because they're to different... NAH! THAT'S WHY YOU TWO WORK!
Don't like how Ryan's is always negative when he's left alone.
Irritating that Fabian's family is kinda subtlety interrogating him about their relationship.
His parents calling Ryan weird and possibly a drug addict... WTF!?
JESUS H CHRIST! HIS OLDER SISTER AND HER HUSBAND, PAUL LAUGHING REMEMBERING RYAN'S MELTDOWN LAST YEAR!
FUCKING ASSHOLE FAMILY.
---
240 pages in.
So fucking reassuring that Ryan has Fabian now.
With how the world sees Ryan, it's heaven that Fabian is there to truly see our Ryan Price.
Fuck everyone else.
Haha, I like that Ryan got off listening to Fabian's fantasies of them in the past.
It's good that he's discovering things that he likes with Fabian.
OH SHIT!
They're finally talking about what happened to Ryan.
Hmm, so he was triggered by that stupid "Pay the Price" chant. Plus he was miserable and lonely in that time.
It's good that he's seeing a therapist about this. And if course he has Fabian now. Both can help him during panic attacks.
NOT GOOD THAT HE'S BACK IS KINDA FUCKED UP AND HE'S NOT TELLING FABIAN ABOUT THIS SHIT.
Good that Fabian notices he's hiding the pain.
I'm worried that he'll have permanent damage if he keeps pushing himself further. SHIT!
Good that Fabian knows it's Ryan's decision whether he quits hockey or not.
Ah, so the old Anne of Green Gables book is the copy his mom used to read to him. And he's using it now for comfort.
FUCK! NOW THEY'RE FIGHTING OVER RYAN'S BACK. FIGHTING BECAUSE RYAN'S DESTROYING HIS BODY FOR HOCKEY.
WHATTHEFUCK JUST HAPPENED!?
THEY'RE OVER NOW!?
THAT WAS SO FUCKING FAST...
Ryan saying that he's nothing without hockey. SHIT! He can't see what Fabian sees in him, a sweet and wonderful man.
THIS AINT GOOD.
---
FUCKSHIT! RYAN'S TOTALLY ALONE NOW. NO FABIAN AND NO WYATT.
Ohshit! RIP Duncan Harvey.
I bet hockey pushed him into suicide.
Yikes...
Nice to see that Ryan's back is healing with proper rest.
HE REALLY SHOULD HIRE A PERSONAL TRAINER LUTSIDE OF HIS SHITTY TEAM. SOMEONE WHO KEEPS A PROPER LOOK OUT FOR HIS BODY, SEPARTED FROM ANY TEAM HE'S IN.
I really don't know what to do about Fabian not handling hockey and how brutal hockey is. It's understandable though.
IT'S HARD TO ACCEPT THAT YOUR GENTLE BOYFRIEND IS PART OF THAT WORLD.
Yikes, Harvey's funeral almost empty. Just Coaches and no friends. Hmm, maybe Duncan was actually friends with these Coaches. Yeah I'd like to think that.
Really good that Ilya Rozanov is here. He'd understand how fucked up suicide is.
Terrifying how Ryan is thinking that what happened to Duncan may be his future.
LET'S GO ILYA!!!
HE'S FUCKING RIGHT THAT MENTAL ILLNESS ISN'T TALK MUCH ABOUT IN HOCKEY.
Makes me a little better that Ilya and Shane are making big moves to spread awareness about mental health with their charity.
Aww, Ilya inviting Ryan to help him and Shane with their hockey camps for kids.
This is gonna be good for Ryan.
Nice that the hockey camps will also teach kids about tolerance.
OHWOW! Ryan finally deciding to quit hockey.
He has alot of money saved, he can live comfortably for a long time while he figure out what he truly wants to do with his life.
FUCKING GOOD.
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255 pages in.
Awesome to see Fabian performing in a huge crowd. His career just keeps on growing.
Haha, they're so dramatic, Ryan showing up to Fabian big performance. Fabian going directly down stage to get to his lover while everyone watches and congratulate him.
So Ryan truly is quitting hickey and is on the process to quit, no more games.
Kinda afraid that his manager will pull some bullshit contract so that he'll be trapped until it ends.
Good that Fabian is making sure that Ryan knows that quitting hockey isn't why Fabian's with him.
So sweet that they finally said I love you to each other.
AWWWMYGOD!
I LOVE VERY MUCH THAT THEY'RE GONNA GO ON A CROSS COUNTRY TRIP IN RYAN'S CAR FOR FABIAN'S MUSIC TOUR.
WONDERFUL!
Ryan's need to take a break, get his mind off thing, relax and support Fabian's music.
SO FUCKING HAPPY FOR THEM.
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EPILOGUE.
Ah! Ryan's at one Shane and Ilya's hockey camp. His first day.
Nice that Wyatt's there too. Good to know that he's doing awesome in Ottawa with Ilya.
I love that he loves teaching kids hockey.
Sharing some of his techniques and shit.
Love that Ryan's thinking that they're making hockey positive and inclusive for everyone in this camp. Fucking love this!
A new found cause for Ryan.
LMFAOO! RYAN WALKING IN ON ILYA AND SHANE.
Super nice that he knows.
Also Shane and Ilya must feel good about this too, more people are knowing that they're together and their like ally circle keeps on growing.
Ah! Fabian's already on tour.
They're in the city for a week and Ryan's gonna help out at the camp for a week before they drive to Atlantic Canada to continue Fabian's tour.
Adorable that Fabian's already looking at huge apartments for them to make a home out of. Wonderful.
I like how this ended, them going back to their hotel room after both had an exhausting day.
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Ok book.
Although it kinda feels like we're missing a huge chunk. WE NEED SOME FLASHBACKS TO WHEN THEY WERE LIVING TOGETHER.
What each other thought of the other whne they first meet.
How teen Ryan approached Fabian.
REALLY WANTED TO SEE HOW ANXIOUS AND INTIMIDATED RYAN WAS WITH FABIAN ABCK THEN.
Also wanted to see all those awkward moments of Ryan back then. THAT WOULD BE FUNNY AND CUTE!
Wish we saw how horrible the hockey world was after Ryan's panic attack last year.
Their break up and reuniting kinda felt rushed ngl.
Wish we saw more of those cold days when Ryan was alone at Christmas and the day when they were split.
That's it.
Happy for these two.
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February 25, 2021How did this book end up here?
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February 23, 2025i dunno what that was doing there
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May 30, 2025I did not read this book, do not know how it got on my list, never seen it before.
September 2, 2020
Wtf
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January 12, 2022I did not ask for this book. It appeared on my Fire Tablet.
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