Three Stars
*** SPOILER ALERT ***
Tami Hoag fans, please don’t hate me. This one just didn’t work for me. The more books I read and the more authors and genres I experience, the higher my expectations have become. My expectations of this book were raised even higher by quotes of praise on the book jacket like “Cannily plotted and peppered with some of the sharpest dialogue in the business” or “Outstanding! Tami Hoag continues to set the standard for excellence in her genre” or “Gripping.” Don’t get me wrong this was a very interesting story but I just didn’t feel it.
Minnesota detectives Nikki Liska and San Kovac are astonished. The box truck had crashed into a light pole at Loring Park, the male driver dead from a screw driver plunged through his temple into his brain. But even more surprising was the near dead woman in the back of the van, appearing more like a Walking Dead zombie than a human being. Fractured skull to the point her head was misshapen and asymmetrical, severe facial fractures including a smashed right orbital, broken fingers and ribs and a shattered knee cap. She is unrecognizable. Her face was craved into a permanent frown. The number nine was etched deep in her flesh from her collar bone to the midpoint between her breasts.
She was supposed to be dead, victim number nine. The deep ligature marks on her wrists and ankles indicated she was bound and tortured just like the other victims of serial killer Frank Fitzgerald. Young, attractive, bubbly, enthusiastic, fledgling Minneapolis on-air television newscaster Dana Nolan had been found! After six months at the Hennepin County Medical Center, she returns to her childhood home in Shelby Mills, Indiana to continue her physical and psychiatric therapy. Now there are two Danas!
Before Dana – The young, perky, energetic and career- driven, enthusiastic, naïve Dana. She was well liked by the station staff, mentored by her producer. She had potential. The Beauty!
After Dana – Zero potential, broken, The Beast. Physically deformed from severe beatings; psychologically traumatized from days of rape and torture; suffering from severe PTSD and brutal anxiety attacks. Severe skull and brain trauma has changed her personality along with her outlook on the world and the people in it. She thinks differently, she speaks without a filter and struggles to regain her memories although she refuses to recall thoughts and images of her abductor … until she has too.
Living with her mother Lynda and step father Roger Mercer in Shelby Mills, she struggles against the debilitation of brain trauma to recover her coordination, her ability to remember simple things like how to get from her room to the bathroom and back, and the memories of Before Dana. Family pictures and her high school year book trigger some strange but seemingly disconnected flashbacks of memories, like a movie of someone else’s life. Casey Grant her best friend in high school. Casey Grant disappeared seven years ago, the summer after graduation. Casey Grant disappeared forever, Dana came back. Her brain twists and churns – Casey Grant!
Vague recollections and disjointed memories flood her head when the pizza delivery arrives. John Villante has returned to his childhood home in Shelby Mills too, another brain trauma victim. He is a violent man just like his father John “Mack” Villante, Sr. He is abused and demeaned by his father, abandoned by his mother when he was eight years old. The military has channeled John’s rage into his tours of duty in Iraq and Afghanistan. The IED explosion scrambled his brain. He left the service on a psych discharge and suffers from depression, PTSD and has turned to self-medication to ease his anxiety. When he delivers the pizza, Dana’s brain becomes an electrical storm of emotions and anxiety. She remembers him. She remembers Casey.
The current Shelby Falls deputy sheriff was the golden boy of high school when Casey vanished and the detective who handled the original case has long since retired but still keeps track of any new case developments. John’s return to Shelby Mills stirs up Dana’s memories and suspicions. As Dana slowly regains emotional stability and resurrects and reconstructs memories of Casey’s disappearance, the confluence of old high school love and betrayal and the return to Shelby Mills of folks involved in those high school relationships leads to some very interesting discoveries and revelations.
Has the making of a spine tingling, nail biting tale right? It wasn’t for me and that’s why I landed on a half-hearted rating of three stars. No doubt a very alluring and entertaining story but my emotional engagement with any of characters was nil. And the big twist at the end was kinda lame.
“What?” you scream in disbelief. “No sympathy for a woman who endured and survived such heinous physical violence?” you implore. Just the opposite, I am way, way too emotional but frankly I was never allowed to get emotional. I felt Dana’s abduction, abuse, head trauma and subsequent PTSD could have been treated with more intensity and vigor. I think if the author let me experience flashbacks of instances with her abductor or forced me to share some of Dana’s pain and anguish during her captivity I would have been far more engaged and empathetic. Perhaps the absence of flashbacks was meant to dramatize the effects of brain trauma. That’s something!
My other observation is that by book’s end, despite her severe brain trauma, Dana acts like a sharp minded detective able to synthesize so many disparate bits and pieces of information into an accurate view of acts committed. That just felt like a stretch to me.
I do applaud the author for raising the physical and mental health issues related to concussions and brain trauma. In the author’s note at the back of the book, Hoag shares her personal experience with traumatic brain injury when at age ten she was thrown from a horse, hitting her head on the street. She suffered a mild traumatic brain injury that was never diagnosed and to this day she suffers from headaches of varying frequency and intensity.
Overall a very good story but I just didn't feel this one. Or my expectations are way too high! Three Stars.